painful realization...

Springtime! Also: Where did all the people go?

2012-03-20T16:44:48Z

It's been about seven months since my last entry. Spring is here, today, officially, but it's been in the 70's all week. In March! In Pennsylvania, this is when we get the BIG snowstorm of the year. So it's nice. I just hope that this doesn't mean that the summer is going to be dreadfully warm. We'll see.

My job is wonderful. I work basically 3-11 and design the ads in the newspaper. It's not the most creative job, but it's a great entry-level position. I couldn't have asked for something better if there were such a thing as a job fairy.

As far as more creative things go, I've been entering the fabric contests on Spoonflower.com and have quite a collection of fabric designs. I'd like to win, but just entering is fun because I'm getting the experience of creating fabric.

A while ago, I found this company in Australia that sells the Instastamp Craft Stamp Maker, which lets you create your own rubber stamps with some limited chemical use. I kind of wanted one, but it was like $500, which seemed excessive. So after looking on Etsy and seeing a large market of rubber stamp sellers, I decided that I wanted to do it and found the Teresa Collins Stampmaker, by Photocentric. They also make a bigger machine that can make up to size A4 at a craft store quality for $300.

So lots of creative endeavors, once I figure out exactly what I'm going to create.

Things are going on all over the internets for me!

2010-09-16T07:45:49Z

Officially Open!

My store is officially open! Currently featuring ACEO prints, pinback buttons, and original pieces of art. I’m hoping to update soon with more pieces and some more variety. Check it out if you please!

Also I've been updating my tumblr fairly often with school projects and stuff that I have in progress, if you'd like you follow me, feel free to and you can link your tumblr in the comments if you please and I'll check ya'll out as well.

Literature? Blah.

2010-09-07T03:58:46Z

Oh hey there. Oh my. It's going on week 9 at school. I'm going slightly crazy. I have to write a 3-5 page MLA paper on The Amazing Adventures of Kavelier and Clay for Wednesday and I am just completely distracted and the internet is just so shiny. Everything else for most of my other classes is coming along swimmingly. But not American Literature. I just need to not get an F in the class. The last 3 quarters have been blessedly wonderful in that I haven't failed anything miserably in a long time.

I finished, for the most part, my flash portfolio. I really like it. Flash is actually kind of fun/very smooth to work with once you can figure out all the kinks in your timeline. The portfolio is over here: http://slc1510.aisites.com/flash/ Thoughts or opinions?

And I also have updated and remembered about my http://flavours.me/jubilli account. My last public entry was like more than a year ago and talked about crazy nonsense. Which isn't much different than this, really. Oh well.

lol lol lol zzz

2008-10-13T18:27:30Z

While looking for a photo reference for Intermediate Illustration (for an illustration featuring famous hair) today I stumbled a quote from Tom Cruise.

"On the discovery of the pregnancy; "Oh, I—I looked at her. And I went, 'You’re gonna tell me if you're pregnant, aren't you?' It was a moment where… It was one of those things. And I knew at that moment she was pregnant. ’Cuz I notice things in people.”

Because he notices things? Freaking LOL. And yes, I realize that this is over 2 years old, but crazy things are still funny years later.

I'm doing an illustration of either Katie Holmes or Suri Cruise, I think, for the assignment.

Things I've recently acquired...

2008-08-28T16:41:20Z

01) Twitter! (http://www.twitter.com/jubilli)
Updating is quite addictive, especially since I figured out how to do it via my phone. I don't update nearly as much as I change my facebook status, but I think I change it about once a week. If you're over there, feel free to follow me as I complain about school and boys and say random crap that comes to my head.

02) Tumblr! (http://jubilli.tumblr.com)
I'm starting a random design blog called "Feeding Dynamite to Sharks" over here! If I can actually update it, I think it'll be super fun and a good exercise in terminology. Not exactly the most professional thing ever, but I don't give a fug.

I'm in a computer classroom at school and the Macs in here have Firefox 3.0 which is super funky. I don't know if I like it or will update to it on my Windows laptop when I get to it.

School is very cold today and I wish I had plans tonight. Blah.

ETA: I watched The Little Mermaid: Ariel's Beginning and it made me cry. I'm such a baby about Disney movies, lol. The animation is quite lovely and it's a fun movie. I still wanna know how the DNA of two red-headed mermaids resulted in only one red-headed offspring out of seven. Remembering from Bio in high school, that's not exactly how it usually works, is it? But then again, mermaids and animated cartoons are not exactly rabbits or pea plants a la Mendel.

Not much to say, but I do work today.

2008-08-07T20:39:04Z

Just a quick meme before I get dressed for work!

Stolen from nativegirl

RULES:
_ Pick your birth month.
_ Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
_ Bold (or italicize) the five-ten that best apply to you.
_ Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. ~~Patriotic.~~ Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. ~~Ambitious.~~ ~~Influential in organizations.~~ Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. ~~Changing personality.~~ Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Most of it is true and the stuff I crossed out is slightly true. It's just not as true as the others.

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.
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FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
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MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
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APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
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MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
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JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
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JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
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SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
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OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
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NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.
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DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Fandomonium!!! And other things.

2008-07-30T06:34:33Z

01. I was going to start reading Twilight but I absolutely cannot get passed the first page. It is somewhat atrocious, but I cannot put my finger on why. I've had the book for at least a year. The movie comes out this year and if I cared about Edward/Bella, etc. I would totally want to see it... but I honestly just don't care. Maybe she's too emo? It just seems retarded from page one. Who really wants a sparkly boy any way? And werewolves are probably sexier.

02. Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince HD Trailer!!! This movie looks so made of win. I imagine the scene in the cave... at the end is going to be heartbreaking. I actually have the book sitting on my lap now and I'm probably going to read it... after...

03. I finish re-reading the Nightworld books by L.J. Smith! Or Ljane? Whichever. But any way, I've been reading them since I came home from Florida last month. I'm almost done with Huntress now and there's only a few more to go. And then like 10 years until Strange Fate, which according to her Amazon blog is going to be at least 700 pages long, but it will be worth it. Or not really? I have mixed feelings about the stories she's been posting on her website. I'm glad that she's writing, but the stories are um, blahness. And a second Vampire Diaries trilogy about Damon? I just don't know how I feel about that. I'm kinda done with Dark Reunion. Let people die, you know?

04. I am in love with Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog! I only wish that it had been online for longer. I definitely want to buy it when it comes out on DVD and yay for a possible 4th part! Neil Patrick Harris and Nathan Fillion absolutely rocked in it!

05. The Dark Knight was awesome and at the same time dark and dismal. Heath Ledger was seriously hardcore as the Joker and it's going to be hard to fill his shoes. The whole Harvey Dent storyline was wasted, but there was excellent foreshadowing for the next villianess.

06. I don't remember what the other things were that I wanted to write about. I know that it's been a long time since I've posted. And I haven't posted regarding fandom in forever. I guess it's getting really good lately and soonish.

07. I started up at school in Pittsburgh, which is making me crazy busy but it's good. I have like 2 years left and I just wanna get done and get a real job. Other than that life is basically work and hanging out. It's all good. :)

By current academic standards you're merely a high school dropout...

2008-01-17T19:34:48Z

So, finally, I received news from my school about whether or not I would be receiving my Associate's Degree. And despite getting a D in my Speech class, I am getting my degree!!! YAY! I am so happy about it. I won't have to rewrite my resume and make crap up about why I've been in community college for 3 and a half years.

I start at the Art Institute in July and hopefully most, if not all of my credits will transfer.

4 days til I leave the cold for the Sunshine State!!! <3

Random...

2008-01-14T07:16:25Z

It's really cold here in PA. A week ago, I went out shopping in sandals and no coat and I was fine and now it's like pre-snow weather. Hate it!

Love this video!!! Very good for designers...

8 days til I leave!!! <3

I wish the world was flat like the old days...

2008-01-01T05:52:41Z

Happy New Year! Some things of importance:

01. I want to post at least once a month in 2008 (So I don't have to say every time, "Hi my name is Steph and I am alive!"). This is that post.

02. I'm leaving for Florida in 22 days! I didn't get a Professional Internship, but I'm going to try again for the fall. I think I got really close last time, so I've just got to spiff up the Portfolio and try again. I am going this time for the Spring 08 program in Merchandise. If you come to Disney World, I'll hopefully be at one of the gift shops. So exciting!

03. I finished a version of my online portfolio, for a web design class. It looks like shit in Firefox, but I want to fix it up.

04. I hope everyone is good and safe and starts their year off well!!! Happy 2008! :D

working there would be awesome.

2007-10-18T16:53:16Z

For the past 3 weeks I've been working on getting an internship with Disney; this time a professional one. I've had a couple interviews and I hope things go well. I probably won't know until late November for sure.

In other news, I've just realized (with this entry) that I don't know how to blog any more.

Observation of the day...

2007-09-18T19:54:18Z

Writing an Artist's Statement is hard! Oh phooey! :(

Art Meme.

2007-09-17T23:22:15Z

Art Meme.
THE FIRST 10 PEOPLE WHO RESPOND TO THIS JOURNAL ENTRY WILL GET A FREE SKETCH preferrably human (but not porn)... animals require way too much research for me right now for free sketches.

The fine print:
a) If you make a request, you must duplicate the offer in your own journal. It shouldn't be too hard if you really half-ass it.
b) Don't be shy in your request, but do understand it will probably be just a loose pencil drawing.
c) You might get your sketches ages from now, but you will get it eventually.

Lost Season 2 Finale.

2006-05-26T02:13:30Z

A note before you start reading this: This entry is really long. I mean really long. Like it took me 3 hours to write, based on notes I took while watching the show. So this is all about the experience from last night and me remembering it, until I have a chance to rewatch the finale (working on that now). I talk about everything that happened. So if you didn't see the whole thing, and you read this, you're screwed (unless you don't care; then by all means continue). Any way, happy reading. :D

Season 3 Theory
Because of the rumors [Carlton Cuse said, "I will say that the next season is a lot about the Others. That's...there's a lot of mysteries about the Others that we'll be getting into next year."] I've been hearing about season 3, I'v been thinking about it a good bit today. So of course I came up with something.

My theory was that instead of being from the point of view of the Losties, the entire season would be from the POV of the Others. And the Losties are the others to them. Of course, that would be a little ridiculous and difficult as far as how attached we've become to our favorite characters.

Season 2 Finale
The first thing I thought when we the show opened was that perhaps it was a timewarp with Desmond coming to the island for the first time. Haha, and the "You?" spoken by Desmond was total deja vu, which sort of tricked me into thinking it was only the second time that he had seen Jack (since at the stadium on the night). But no, "Desmond is back," states Jack.

The "Snowglobe" comment by Desmond struck me as insane and it makes no sense. There's not really any evidence as to why/how that would be possible.

Our Mutual Friends, another book. A book which opens talking about a boat floating on the Thames River. How appropriate. Another prime sentence from the first page is, "The figures in this boat were those of a strong dark man with ragged grizzled hair and a sun-browned face..." There's also a character named Lizzie, a couple Johns, and a Charley. It keeps getting better.

So Desmond's last name is Hume, which I thought sounded familiar. So I did a google search and remembered philosopher David Hume. Interesting, to say the least.

I thought the rich guy was Alvar Hanso. But he wasn't. He was Desmond's girlfriend's dad. Minor disappointment for me.

Locke's new approach to the button (not wanting to push it) reminded me of Walt's odd appearences "Push the button, don't push the button."

I like that Des called the Others the Hostiles. Has he had some contact with them... or maybe Kelvin did?

WTF was with that bird? Did it look a little CGI'd? And why was it sqwauking Hurley's name?

I hated the way that Locke just walks up to Desmond and acts like they're old friends. Totally crazy, because they didn't really know each other and Desmond just ran away and didn't even care to ever see any of the Losties again. It's just by chance that he's even on the island a second time.

That statue thing was pretty cool. Even if it did only have four toes. And what's that even about?!?!?

The scene with Kelvin in the hazmat suit was confusing. I know they're trying to go for a cool and confusing thing, but it just confused me more than it should have. It made me think the Others were the ones who put Desmond in the Swan. I loved that it was Kelvin (and his previous partner before him) that painted the map on the blast doors.

It was so sad when Jack told Kate, Hurley, and Sawyer that the Others already knew they were coming. I was hoping Hurley would get mad at Michael and totally squash him, but that was no go. But OMG, when they showed where the tubes/notebooks from the Pearl hatch were going, that was crazy. I guess that means that the Pearl was the psych experiment? Because no one was actually reading those mothers in the middle of the woods.

At 10:05, I thought that Eko and Charlie were dead. How could they not have been? The part of the hatch that they were in was like a freaking pipe (my exact words were "Eko's an idiot. IT was like a freaking water pipe except made of fire"). There wasn't anywhere for the explosion to go. I say next time there is an urge to open the blast doors, only do it where there's plenty of ventilation room.

I loved how when the poison darts start flying, Jack picks Kate up and tries to save her. So cute and heroic.

The button is totally real. Desmond's flashback proves it. And then him finding the record of the system failure on the Pearl's record? Awesome and freaky. And the crash happening on the day of the show's pilot? That means that it's still 2004 on the island and it's probably somewhere around November 19. Next season, we could be seeing a Christmas/holiday special.

Back to the Others, we find out that Tom is Mr. Friendly's name and of course, the beard is fake. Then they show the twins that were possibly on the boat during "The Bagel" last year. And then, the boat comes up to the dock and there's Fenry Gale, dirtier than ever. And somehow, Fenry is the leader of the Others. How or why did he go to the other side of the island where Rosseau was?!?!?

Then Charlie comes to and he's alive and partially deaf and Eko's possibly dead. Then Locke kills the computer and ~~he's~~ everybody's screwed so Desmond goes to read his damn Charles Dickens book. Then he has a flashback from his girlfriend's letter (which tricked me and I didn't even realize it was a flashback and I thought it was another timewarp. It was the whole scene with Locke seeing the light come on. I guess that was Desmond's way of seeing the light?) So then he gets the key from his book and he's REALLY going to save the world this time instead of just with his little now dead button. And then Locke has the gaul to say, "I think I was wrong," to which I actually said outloud, YOU CAN't JUST SAY YOU WERE WRONG." Then Des turns the key and "it all goes away," as Kelvin says and nobody knows if Locke or Desmond survives this "incident".

Then back at the dock Michael's taking the boat and Walt and being an asshole and driving away. There was a moment between Kate and Jack here too, before they had the sacks thrown back over their heads. Sawyer just ends up alone and Michael drives away, asshole.

The Claire/Charlie kiss was so sweet, especially after they both almost got killed (Charlie by the explosion and Claire by the flying hatch door.)

Then the Challah comes. The cliffhanger that would leave us less angry than last year's. Actually I thought that it was a commercial because of all the snow. The whole thing made me say what the crap. And when the guys called and Penny Widmore, Desmond's girlfriend, picked up it just confused me. She was looking for an electronic pulse anomaly and obviously the island is not in a snowglobe, if these Portugese guys are seeing it.

So, next season is definately going to be different. I'm thinking it's mostly going to be about the Others, as experienced by Jack, Kate, and Sawyer. Should be interesting.

The whole thing freaked me out.

LOST!

2006-02-16T17:03:25Z

So how about last night's Lost?

So when the numbers aren't put in, there's like another time with a secret message? Over at Lost Forum the basic thought of the heiroglyphics were that they translated to mean Die/Death/Sickness. Plus it sounded like some sort of machine starting up. I don't really remember what it sounded like, but I know that it felt stressful.

As for Sayid The Torturer, I wasn't really enthused or entertained by his storyline. Okay, he's conflicted with what he did and he loved Shannon and all, but I don't really care that much. But who is Henry Gale? And OMG, Gale is his last name? Any relation to Dorothy Gale, who um, tried to leave Oz by Air Balloon? He's got to be an other. And Kate's "dad" was one of the guys who had captured (?) Sayid?

I was a little sad that Sawyer killed the frog, but that's Sawyer for you. As for Hurley, he isn't losing weight because he stole some food from the Hatch. That doesn't really answer the question, because he should have lost some weight, shouldn't he have? But that did tell us why the food in the Hatch is okay... At room temperature it'll last seven years. Well, it doesn't really answer any questions, but it is interesting.

And there's an Anonymous Icon Truth Meme. I'm on page 5 of the comments, if you'd like to tell me how you feel about my journal. Constructive crit is welcome. :D

New Layout! Reboot Stylin'!

2006-02-01T06:18:10Z

So, I've participated in the_lj_reboot and made myself a snazzy layout using only CSS to modify it! Sailor Moon is love.

As for the design, I was (and am) in a rut artistically, but I fell in love with the image. So that got me started. And then I made the background pattern. I knew I wanted something that was more minimalist, so I stuck with a white background and a teal-green color scheme.

Coding the stylesheet was a bit tough. I had I think 3 going at the same time, before I figured out what the problem was and then I figured it out, finally. So I suppose that was my process, in a nutshell. :D

The tutorials by grrliz for making CSS layouts are wonderfully helpful. Check them out if you want to make a loverly layouts! :)

ETA: I thought I should mention that IE hates this layout. Firefox is constantly making love to it though.

jubilli @ 2005-03-05T02:00:00

2005-03-05T07:25:24Z

Regarding Frienditto:

If you use Frienditto, a service brought to us by jameth (who brought us the not-so-wonderful LJDrama.org), take me off of your friend list and keep me off of your friendlist. I have no interest in having you listed as my friend.

My writing and thoughts are meant to be in this journal and this journal only:
jubilli of Livejournal.com.
Keep this in mind if you try to archive any piece of my journal.

Thank you.

Sincerely,
Steph aka jubilli
5 March, 2005