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There is so much. I don't know where to start.

My analytic brain says make a list. Things you need to address. Highlights.

1980 - Born with a tumor in spine. This tumor has caused me issues with my nerves and back for my entire life.

Dad is an alcoholic drug user, but he does work. Mom takes care of my brother and I.

1985 - Excelled at reading, writing and mathematics. Brought into gifted classes. Made fun of by schoolkids because of constant Dr visits. Interest in computers, even from this young age.

1986? Porn discovered. Sexual awakening occurs at an incredibly young age. Masturbation begins.

1994 - Car Accident that caused multiple injuries

1997 - Gave up college to take care of parents (who by this point had developed some serious health problems) / home

1998? First sexual experience is a "failure"

Relationships are already "detached" at this point, distance is always a factor

2000 - Took a career he really didn't want in order to make ends meet / gives up dreams

2005 - Moves into his own place, further isolation?

2008 - Move to California to take a job - walked away from everything I knew. Meet woman online. Begin long distance relationship with a married woman.

2009 - Death of Mother

2015 - Diagnosis of Cancer

2018 - Diagnosis of Bipolar after complete mental breakdown / 3 years of nerve pain / discovery of cannabis

2019 - End of 9 year long distance relationship.

2020 - Move to Chicago to take care of relative, diagnosed with lung, liver, and brain cancer

Fuck My Life.