JodFoster's Place

"Pills don't build skills."

jodfoster — Fri, 20 Sep 2013 01:29:28 GMT

I've been discussing my situation with more people lately. I think it's important for me to be honest about it and my depression diagnosis, because it basically forces me to stop hiding from it. For so long, I convinced myself that I was just sad sometimes and doesn't everyone get sad now and again? Now that depression is "on the table" and out there, I can own it and work on it.

I started the Lexapro on Saturday, and the first day was definitely interesting. I felt a bit like I was on cold meds. Somewhat lightheaded and nauseous at times. I realized that I can no longer wait many hours before eating, otherwise I start to feel sick. I'm told some of this will pass, and I hope that's true. I seem to feel hungry a lot more, as well. After reading how much weight gain has been associated with pretty much every SSRI, the hunger thing does concern me a bit. Like anything, though, you have to determine if the risks outweigh the benefits. For me, I don't think they do.

This week my shrink said that "pills don't build skills". I think many who just take meds, but don't work on any underlying causes that might make you need to take them, are missing a great opportunity to heal from within. I'd already been making progress well before I started taking Lex, and I look forward to continuing that. If you broke your arm, you'd put it in a cast. My brain just happens to be a bit broken right now, in a sense, and the Lex is the cast so I can heal from within. And to think, all those years when my stepdad was telling me how g-damned useless/worthless I was, I foolishly thought that my thick (cast-like) skull was deflecting it all. Oops. Guess not! He's still a dick for it, no matter what he was trying to compensate for.

In related news, I'm still a petite pretty pretty princess.

QotD

jodfoster — Thu, 12 May 2011 11:04:33 GMT

"There is guidance for each of us, and by lowly listening, we shall hear the right word. Certainly there is a right for you that needs no choice on your part. Place yourself in the middle of the stream of power and wisdom which flows into your life. Then, without effort, you are impelled to truth and to perfect contentment." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

EMT, yeah you know me..

jodfoster — Wed, 04 May 2011 14:45:56 GMT

I will be getting one of these in the mail soon :) I passed and am officially a PA State EMT!!

Photos of the day

jodfoster — Mon, 02 May 2011 11:32:14 GMT

This is my handsome Glenns :)

BANJO!!!

jodfoster — Tue, 31 Aug 2010 14:27:05 GMT

Jane Austen's Fight Club

jodfoster — Fri, 13 Aug 2010 17:02:12 GMT

I so want this to be a real movie.

Today's palate cleanser

jodfoster — Fri, 21 May 2010 19:32:03 GMT

I just...this girl is so cute, so calm. Pretty sure you'll all go awww :)

Silly things meme

jodfoster — Mon, 12 Apr 2010 15:18:21 GMT

~~SIX~~ SEVEN NAMES YOU GO BY*:
1. Shannon
2. Jawdfohster/Foster/jodfoster
3. Tiny Fury
4. The representative from Kansas
5. Shan*
6. SK*
7. Nnon**

*Only one person is allowed to call me these. You are not one of them. If you call me them, I will correct you only once. Then you may see #3. :)
**Only something I'm called if the caller feels the need for nice cold can of whupass.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. North Face fleece jacket
2. Celtic Trinity necklace
3. North Face convertible pants

THREE THINGS YOU WANT VERY BADLY AT THE MOMENT
1. To be somewhere else
2. To have my bills paid off
3. A dark cherry mocha

THREE THINGS YOU DID LAST NIGHT
1. Rode my bike for 6.5 miles
2. Took an epsom salt bathy
3. Watched TV

THREE PEOPLE YOU LAST TALKED TO ON THE PHONE
1. Erin
2. My mom
3. Coworker

THREE THINGS YOU ARE GOING TO DO TOMORROW:
1. Work
2. Watch Glee!!!!!
3. Be ridiculously funny and charming to all I meet

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. Scotch
2. Coffee
3. Coke from a can

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINKS:
1. See previous answer #1
2. Good beer
3. Bourbon (Maker's Mark is preferred)

THREE THINGS THAT MADE YOU SMILE TODAY:
1. An email first thing this morning
2. My baristas at Starbucks
3. Someecards

In these tough economic times

jodfoster — Thu, 01 Apr 2010 17:53:45 GMT

I am only as flawed as I choose to believe...

jodfoster — Thu, 21 Jan 2010 22:32:27 GMT

This should put a smile on your face at the very least. Yes, it's kinda like a sappy American Idol kind of song but I'll be damned if I care ;)

Miss you, Dad

jodfoster — Fri, 15 Jan 2010 19:27:34 GMT

Charles Eugene Adamson
16 January 1942 - 15 January 1984

Tomorrow would have been his 68th birthday. I think I miss him now more than ever. These were the last pictures I had with him. Used to have one where I was sitting on his lap but I lost it somewhere. Wish I knew where it was. Hope you're at peace wherever you are, Dad.

For danthered

jodfoster — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 20:18:04 GMT

For danthered, originally uploaded by JodFoster.

Hamsterrrrrrr

jodfoster — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 22:11:33 GMT

I'm not gonna lie. I watched this like 8 times in a row. :)

I'm sorry, did you say you were gonna take my toy?

jodfoster — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 15:22:12 GMT

I'm sorry, did you say you were gonna take my toy?, originally uploaded by JodFoster.

How google street view works

jodfoster — Wed, 16 Sep 2009 20:25:32 GMT

Check and check

jodfoster — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 15:02:55 GMT

nataliedee.com

FYFF

jodfoster — Fri, 10 Jul 2009 15:42:35 GMT

FYFF, originally uploaded by JodFoster.

Fwd: Golden Raspberries. (Thursday)

jodfoster — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 13:51:48 GMT

Fwd: Golden Raspberries., originally uploaded by doughynuttz.

Begin forwarded message:

Kitsap the Boxer (coworker's dogggie)

jodfoster — Wed, 08 Jul 2009 01:51:45 GMT

Kitsap the Boxer (coworker's dogggie), originally uploaded by JodFoster.

For my space nerd friends

jodfoster — Tue, 07 Jul 2009 15:28:43 GMT

"Onboard cameras capture the amazing journey of Atlantis into space, and the dramatic return of the solid rocket boosters."

SoundersFC match on Sunday, July 28th

jodfoster — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 17:44:43 GMT

Here are photos from the match. Enjoy!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/jodfoster/sets/72157620832524184/

Bollywood video with subtitles of what the words sound like

jodfoster — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 20:16:39 GMT

From chronicpaint

LMAO

Oh life...

jodfoster — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 01:19:20 GMT

you are weird sometimes...

New camera, new pics

jodfoster — Mon, 22 Jun 2009 18:42:58 GMT

Saw my favorite band twice over the weekend and got a chance to try out my new camera. Click on the pics to get to my photostream, or go here for the photoset: http://www.flickr.com/photos/jodfoster/sets/72157620226729476/

For christopher575

jodfoster — Fri, 19 Jun 2009 15:59:19 GMT

For christopher575, originally uploaded by JodFoster.