jodeexi.

for misssay

jodeexi — Sat, 01 Oct 2005 23:08:54 GMT

Dear Friends (and by that i mean miss)

I don't miss home, or you.

college is wonderful

and heather should come visit all the time.

I love my friends here (ie. they are cooler than you)

I miss steph like ANTM misses janice. oh twiggy we love you too

ugh. laundry

<3

all in the stars

jodeexi — Sat, 23 Jul 2005 15:24:30 GMT

Most random (and true) horoscope ever

You would love to go off by yourself to conquer the world, but you need other people's recognition too much and proof of their love for you to get too far away. But because of this you let yourself be influenced by other people, and you let other people take over your personality so much that you begin to give up on yourself. You should realize that you can count on your friends to make up for the absence of your family in your daily life...

going out to play tennis.
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party with the girls!

♥jodeexi

what weird nights

jodeexi — Tue, 21 Jun 2005 04:54:53 GMT

soo

been hanging out with the usual
steph
fran
miss
jay

spent some time at kellens
+ amanda
+ rachel
+ lauren
+ alissa

watched the notebook with justin
+ danielle
+ kristina
+ olga

had some good mornings with sexton.

life is sweet
♥jodeexi

getting clean with God

jodeexi — Sat, 18 Jun 2005 02:47:37 GMT

today has been quite the project.

all day shopping with my mom
brief interlude at amandas
and all day cleaning at night

tommorow
i MUST finish up collage
and wrap things for..well its important that I know who its for

i am quite sad right now and very nostalgic
after being hit with my eigth grade letter I then got rid of all my work from this year except for a few choice papers (and all my calc notes) and now i just got rid of every pair of jeans I've owned since 6th grade. my closet and drawers are empty

i'm empty

which only leaves room to be filled up with a new begining. Hopefully a stronger more independent one.

Ive also had quite the epiphany about god however I think its something quite small but for me it was a big break through..i guess i'm a lil slow..anyways

So i was thinking about praying, and how i've been lacking lately and if God ever answered any of my prayers. And i realized he did..i wont go into the ways but he definitly gave me all the tools necessary and the people to do what i need to to make myself a better person

now i was thinking if these things had come naturally without praying i might have grazed over them and another missed opportunity would have occured. However, since I thought about how these things that God gave me are answers to my prayers (mini miracles if you will) I have much greater appreciation for them and am less likely to take them for granted.

I wonder if thats something everybody knows about God and what he does. I will have to find the courage to ask my God expert.

but for me.. that realization gave me motivation and a much better understanding of believing in God and what it means to have faith.

I think it is impossible to take things for granted if you believe in God because everything you recieve is a blessing.

this doesnt sound like me but it feels so right coming from me. I like this.

back to cleaning. I would love for you to share your thoughts.

coming soon: a discussion about words and their meanings

♥Jodeexi

last day of school

jodeexi — Thu, 16 Jun 2005 16:48:57 GMT

teaser:

vanessa flirtin with me like usual. shes so pretty :)

my best bus buddy and her horny sidekick. also know as the best front line ever!

vanessa, justin, stef, danielle and kristina. sexayyyy

poor rob nervous for his GT final. but he looks so good (notice stalkers sister in the background)

micha and jill. the girls that helped me pass almost every math class ever.

kellen and mary in psych. gilad with the bunny ears and kevin being kevin in the back.

cait and lauren (and olga and emily) the picture was so dark so i had to lighten it..but it still looks hottt!

yohan and jules. my ghetto fly buddies in comp art..yeah that was gay. oh man i totally have the biggest crush on yoha. look at his face..so cute <3 and i'd be a lesbian for jules any day..but so would everyone.

my lit boys. we got in so much trouble all year but if we could make a joke out of it to make fun of jay it was all worth it. oh and deen..shut the fuck up <3...ming also has "the face"

chelsea who i drove to school everyday..i got to her house like 7:40 everyday and we'd always be late..and she had to put up with my music. but we had some good times.

thats it..more pictures soon <3

lazy days

jodeexi — Thu, 16 Jun 2005 16:19:06 GMT

I love the lazy days of summer.

oh and btw. this is not my new look so don't ask me to make a layout for you like this. It was done by spiral bound layouts. I am hoping to use my wonderful HMTL knowledge and see if i can come up with something so that i will be able to make my journal look like this one day.

i have a lot of time now. to sit and think and read and zone out. I'm really enjoying vegging out in front of the tv. I think thats just as important as taking advantage of your life. sometimes letting it pass by without thinking can be helpful too.

so over the summer i'm going to try and not do play by play entries of my day because summer should be more of a philosohpical thing..for me anyway.

the next few weeks are going to be very hard and a testiment to my will and strength.

ive been having more and more public entries..which also means there are more and more private entries. its kinda cool, i feel open enough to let you share in some of my life but i also have the retraint to know when i just need to write for me.

i like it.

there are still a few people who i know read it but i'm trying to put it behind me the best i can and have as much fun. you aren't my problem anymore. i dont want you or your life. there i'm done.

anyways...
i'm working today. my last paycheck from B&B was $34 and was immediatly spent at chevy's with heather. oh jeeez.

i need to go write for a grade.

love,
jodeexi

pictures: pre prom

jodeexi — Wed, 15 Jun 2005 15:55:34 GMT

teaser:

jay trying to be smooth...

both looking very pretty

showin a little love to miss &hearts;

still looking great

trying to be cool never worked well for us.. but frans face is priceless

what is jay staring at??

too bad hes my date this year! this is such a great picture tho

me and steph trying to find the light...we watch way to much ANTM..kudos to jay for the flowers

a search for beauty

jodeexi — Wed, 15 Jun 2005 12:57:34 GMT

my mom just left so this journal entry is going to seem slightly less rebelious but i'll write anyway.

I think. therefore I am

I want to create beauty. in myself and for others to see. true beauty at its core that is so original no one can question it. I want to write metaphors that make people question their lives about God and the path they have chosen. I want to make people scream in anger, laughter, sadness, for someone to show me a proof of emotion in an inanimate object. don't be the inanimate object. always be animate, alive with passion full of lust. lust for everything; boy and girl and books.

I try to read as many as a I can and write now i'm in between 4
The Four Blondes - Candace Bushnell (author of sex and the city!)
I am not who I am now
The Certificate - Isaac Bashevis Singer (i'm still doing the lit paper..but its a damn good book)
and my favorite
Sex, Drugs and Coco Puffs - by chuck something?

i just started the last one last night. last night was weird..i came home from being out (yes OUT) and ate some dinner and fell asleep at 7. at 11:30 my STUPID MOM opened the door to see if i was still alive. at 12 i went downstairs and watched old infernos and then went on my computer. then i read sex drugs and coco puffs and wanted to scream and fell alseep around 2.

i woke up at 7:30

i want to do something freeing today. i need ideas because ideas are the basis of the world and finding ideas would be freeing in and of itself.

do you see where i'm going with this?

PROM WEEKEND

jodeexi — Mon, 13 Jun 2005 16:40:51 GMT

the update you've all been waiting for..PROM WEEKEND.

I had so much more fun that I thought i would. i danced the whole time with everyone. but i guess the actually prom part isnt that interesting...

so right after prom we packed up everything and everyone and went to the Ramada with sexton, mike, bonnie, max, v, karlson, deen and ming. i had some cranberry & vodka and then the shit hit the fan and drama exploded so we left.

drove ALL night. i stayed up with the driver (fran steph amd jay) to keep them awake and company. Had good talks with all of them :). I slept for an hour when jay was driving and when i woke up we passed the exit. so we finally made it to the house and found out we had no key and couldnt get in.

2 hours, 1 breakfast sandwich and a couple of kicked windows later we had finally made it inside. started drinking RIGHT away. it was about 10:00 AM. played spoons and taboo for shots. passed out around 3. woke up and played more cards and then made dinner. after we drank some more played never have I ever (never never have i ever always and forever??) and then went CRAZY. fran and i drank a whole pot of ice tea vodka and clothes got exchanged and everyone got smashed into walls. it was so much fun tho. i eventually passed out on the couch and woke up the next morning with bruises and my legs hurting.

showered went out to breakfast with no gas in the car. saw a bear dog named max. the dog was crazy big and no one seemed to care except me. but it was fucking huge. 168 pound of hairy dog. crazy. breakfast was goood. and we talked to a cute boy who gave us directions to get gas.

went home. played more cards. made some more bbq and then i drank again. we then packed up and made a 5 hour trip home stuck in traffick and rain. we got smiles from some creepy guys but it was a LOT of fun. i saw a bunch of skin. lol.

anyways..block is almost over but this weekend was the best ever. ever ever.

love,
jodeexi

woo

jodeexi — Tue, 31 May 2005 00:57:41 GMT

i had such an awesome weekend. lets seee

after movies with heather i stopped by parks lake..but i think a alreayd talked about that.

anyways. the next day i got up and went to shopright and then off the work. I love working at pools. i couldn't vacuum that well but its all good. so i sun tanned and read my magazine for a while and then amanda came for a few hours.

then some people had a bbq and they gave me food which was soo nice cuz amanda ate all my cheez-its. GET YOUR OWN BOX. yeaah

then around 5 christine came and we caught up with our lives and she brought me tea and m&m's. i was so cold by that point. anyways..she helped me close up and then i went home and had delicious dinner with my family.

during dinner my parents were like..we have a suprise for you..
they bought a house in deleware!! like my most favorite place on earth and my second home. I'm so excited..we probably wont be able to stay in it this summer because we have to rent it out to get money but after that its all ours. I cant wait. i haven't been there in like a year and a half and i just love bethany beach so much it totally made my week.

my sister left kinda late so i went right to sleep after. this morning i pulled myself out of bed and then went to lifeguard with AR all day at the JCC. i had fun and then came home and did some beauty treatments..pore cleansing, facials, all that good stuff and watched tv for like 5 hours. it was just what i needed

then like 20 minutes ago Amanda called and was like i'll be outside ure house in 20 seconds get dresesd and come outside. so i went out with her and this kid rob whose really cool for a while. we did crazy stuff but u wont know unless it was done to u :)

so right now i think i'm going to clean a bit and prepare for my week of working all the time.

this was a wonderful memorial day weekend. very productive

love always,
jodeexi

memorial day weekend fun

jodeexi — Sun, 29 May 2005 04:05:40 GMT

This has been a suprisingly GREAT memorial day

thurday i think has been the most fun so far. I played poker with:
Amanda, Brian, Zack, Chelsea, Vivek, Tom M, Deen, Tom S, Judy, Rich, Jay, Jon K, Amanda K, Kristin and i think thats it.. but it was a REALLY good night. i needed one ♥

Friday i went to six flags with Melissa (i was going to put C, but i'm only friends with one Melissa now. much less confusing) and Arnie. we didnt get to go on anything. stupid kingda ka. anyway we met up with kristina and lauren and ate and i got SO burned. I can barely wear clothes it hurts so bad. anyways. stef and justin were also there but i only saw them for a minute and zirg, ben, bria and gina were also there so that was cool.

afterwards i trained at the randolph pool and then met Rob, Franklin, arnie, justin, cait michelle, kristina and lauren at IHop. then we played (while i watched..i was too freaked out to go in the woods) manhunt and i drove heather home. we had a REALLY good talk that night. i loooove heather.

today i worked at B&B and then at the randolph pool where it was COLD and raining. then i picked up heather..we got chinese food and did nothign for a while then went to see madacasgar. I saw cheryl & Felicia and Trisha and andrew yang and chris yaaco there. good times. movie was good.

on my way home i saw some people at parks lake so i stopped in to say hi to chelsea, judy, stacy, tom s, roman, some kid..vishal..varoon? i have no idea and i think some other girl..kelly? anyways. it was fun. i was feeling pretty emo with my cool new cd so that re-energized me. now i'm home and i smell like menthol because i've been putting burn relief aloe on my back every few hours.

right now i'm looking foward to sleep and then some family time. Monday i'm working..tuesday and weds and thursday i'm working but monday i think i'm hanging out with amanda and steph comes back so it'll be a good day..and i get to work with AR all day so that will be fun :)

ive had quite an eventful weekend despite my previous intentions.

whadda good life

♥ Jodi

words from a forced loner

jodeexi — Sat, 21 May 2005 02:33:47 GMT

Twenty two dollars at La Senza, one great plate of Chinese food and four hours of Sex And the City and It's only 10:00 on a Friday night. It was kind of a forced choice for me tonight. Some friends can be like sex, you tell them you have a headache and all questions end with no feelings of guilt. I guess my opinions on sex are limited however because the only research I can get is from Carrie Bradshaw. My god I love the library.

I feel so inspired by her to write about social, sexual, provocative issues; to do research and analyze your life and analyze the lives of others. Of course knowing me there would be very little research and much more analyzing. I want a thought to just pop into my head and the words to come flowing. Sometimes that happens; sometimes I have to work at it.

I want to write. More than anything I want to be passionate and write about it. Not passionate in the "oooh baby lets fuck" passionate. But the enthralled in something forgot to eat dinner this is better than any orgasm passionate; about something real and something selfish. So what I'm wondering is where does the line draw between fake and real? Poser and punk rock? Where does scene meet too trendy and pretty meet Barbie? Where is the balance and whose to judge?

I want to be unique. I can fake being unique but then I guess I'm just a poser. Where does fake it till you make it factor in? Can you really ever not be yourself? The only circumstance I have found where you cant be your self is where other people don't accept you for who your are trying to be. This might seem a bit weird but honestly, we all are trying to be something or somebody and do something great. The people who question who you are and what your doing throw off your dream world of aspirations and immediately kill your cool forcing you to be too trendy fake Barbie posers. Suddenly your secret's out (and the best part is, it isn't even a good one. enough of FOB) but when people look at you and who you are trying to be with disgust it can seriously kill your dreams forever.

I think instead, we should admire people for who they are trying to be and help them get there anyway possible. I think to get to ones true self you have to try on a lot of other people's self before you get that great fit. And the only way I believe you can find a great fit is to find someone who accepts you for who you are trying to be. Than you have two people trying to be the best that they can be in perfect harmony. We stick with the people who want to be with our personality. I think that when you, me, we, meet the right person whoever you are on that day will be who you are for life. And that is how we find ourselves, until then it's a scavenger hunt for personalities that work. And of course some great friends and accessorizes to go along with it.

That definitely satisfied my need to write. I'd love to hear back from you

Love,
Jodeexi

a great feeling

jodeexi — Fri, 20 May 2005 13:33:56 GMT

so i accomplished everything i wanted to yesterday and even got to watch True Life "I'm on a Diet" on MTV. it was a good day yesterday. and today should be really fun, i think im going right after school to the Bloomfield Ave Cafe to see some awesome bands. and today is Jackie's last day. i'm so sad :(

umm...saturday i'm working and then going to see Rich's play and then sunday i'm working ALL day again and the doing my pore cleansing rituals and reading cosmo. stellar♥

i'm really just waiting for this class to be over. i have like 5 more minutes. then its all about parties and movies.

let me hear you say this shit is bananas B-A-N-A-N-A-S. THIS SHIT IS BANANAS B-A-N-A-N-A-S!

ahh i'm so freakin bored and myspace doesnt work anymore.

:0 :) :D ^_^ x_x o_0 <--thats my favorite >0 ;)

love always and forever,
jodeexi

oh p.s. i'm thinking of a screen name change..just because..so any ideas?

todayI...

jodeexi — Thu, 19 May 2005 23:45:18 GMT

Today i accomplished

+ deposoting my B&B check
+ buying food for all the parties
+ getting some of jackie's present
+ called back michelle from work
+ kinda made plans with christine

I still have to

+ show my mom my prom dress (plus other new clothes♥)
+ get my ID for ramapo
+ clean out my car
+ do lots of lit homework!

and i got my last calc homework ever today. but i still have to pick a final project topic. ohhh jeeeeez. and i have to get shoes and jewlry for prom. ooh yes. maybe i'll go make my makeup appoitment with steph?

love,
jodeexi

a looong time

jodeexi — Fri, 06 May 2005 00:19:38 GMT

i havent updated in a long time, and honostly, i havent had time to. so the last time we talked was what..sunday?

ok so..

monday - after school i went to the doctor, had my physical, got shots (ouch!) then started my first day (!!) at the JCC. i closed, which was scary and i coudlnt get the pool vacuum to work, but so far ive loved everyone i met, and it was boring, but what other job can u sit on your ass and people watch and get paid for it? exactly bitches. anyways, got home late, went to sleep.

tuesday - i'm in calc and my phone rings so when i get out of school i check my messages. its sheryl (my new boss) and shes asking if i can work tonight because sergy is stuck in florida. this is all as im on my way to brushes and bisque. long story short -- i went and painted with disabled kids for like 2 hours then grabbed some dinner and went straight to the JCC and closed again. i was exhousted and went to sleep immediatly

weds - worked at B&B for till six then came home for like an hour and went to stephs for ANTM, came home after and watched sex and the city till like 11 and then went to sleep.

today - i felt like crap when i woke up (from the shot at the doctor) and decided not to go to school so i fell back asleep till like 11:30. got up, walked tyler and watched tv. my mom came home then and made me tea ♥ then i took a shower and went to the JCC. i met pete and sergy who are both very cute :) and then cheri (B&B) called and so i went to B&B for like a half hour and i'm finally home. i watched some tv with tyler and will probably go to sleep in a bit.

so since today was senior cut day i really didnt miss much but Rob and Arnold went to TRL and they made a shout out to me. i love my boys ♥

so i havent really had any time to think about anythign else but work and steph. lol her neck is HUGE. i feel so bad :( :(. but things have been good i guess..i havent had a moment to feel bad it just sucks that i'm sick.

i think its time for more sudafed ♥

hooray for public entires

jodeexi — Mon, 02 May 2005 01:26:20 GMT

i thought it was due time for a public entry ♥

basically, i need to collect my thougts in a very here and now and in the future kind of way, so i figured all of you should be included.

livejournal news
in short, ive been updating a lot. all of the last couple weeks have been private entries. i write about my life, other peoples lives, and trying to find faith. its kinda cool :). eventually i would like to use what i write now for inspiration in writing a book, its kind of my long term goal that i think about..like every freaking second.

school news, friend news
schools been really..well..unneccesary. i got about 2/3 of the time and the other 1/3 (i think thats the right fraction) i'm at D&D or at the beach or with steph, actually i'm usually with steph at all of those locations..but ya know. i'm doing ok in all my classes, my GPA has never been higher but thats because i dropped economics and have a lot of bullshit "my teachers love me classes" oh, and 10 points added on to AP's. all i really need to concentrate on is passing gym, which would be one of my favorite classes..if i ever showed up. ha :)

friends..ive opened up to a lot of people that i wish i had built bonds with freshman year..but thats ok, they are here now. i've also lost a lot of friends, but the memories live on and whats past is past and all the other philosophical shit they tell u when u lose friends..basically tho, it fucking sucks but you have no other choice then to live your life and maybe have some fun.

goals, inspirations, dreams and setbacks
i have a couple of big things coming up that i want to be prepared for, and i need to make some lists so just chill.

current things to do

finish prom plans

fill out working papers for the JCC

do psych essays

finish cleaning my room

start a habit of making to do lists

i also want to start an organization system and try and have it in place by college..but we'll see how that goes. i basically have this feeling of chaos (ie..external locus of control) and its driving me nuts. i want to get my life back again, and i have so much to do that i dont know where to start.

this being public i appreciate any insights, criticisms, plans to hang out or anything helpful u have to tell me. share your thoughts, share your world ♥

random thought
i think a lot about memories, because going thru times like these people always say well just think about the good memories. The problem with that, ive decided, is that good memories take a while to process, most take years. to need to remmeber only good memories there must be something bad that happened to stop those memories from being instances (just go with it) and that bad thing is probably prohibiting and good memories from forming. i think eventually all we will have of things are good memories and a few ugly ones that we'll laugh about. but honostly i think we should start giving new advice. instead of saying "remeber the good times" i think we should say "create new good times". i think to get to the point of good memories, new good times must replace them in order for the system of good remembering to work.

hope you enjoyed that.

much love,
jodeexi

just a quickie for the kids

jodeexi — Tue, 12 Apr 2005 04:27:50 GMT

yeah, i'm in arizona. its actually REALLY nice. the hotel is beautiful and such.

i've eaten such good food and there is so much to do. there is the cutest little village called scottsdale. its so much fun.

i also have lots of time to think and read and relax which is just what i've needed.

oh and its a 3 hour time change, which was defenitltly a little hard to get used to.

and i have so much psych and calc to do. UGGH

btw
-melissa
-amanda
-steph
watch your mail!
<3

(and if anyone else would like a postcard i can arrange something)

i dont really know what else to say. i have a lot of insightful stuff but i'm on a comp in the hotel lobby which is not really a good environment to write. arizona is just so inspirational.

oh well, i think i'm going to walk around a bunch.

peace, love, harmony
-jodeexi

what else am i going to do during school?

jodeexi — Thu, 07 Apr 2005 15:32:24 GMT

ya'll made me do this, but i'm uber bored. so its ok

Your dating personality profile:

Religious - Faith matters to you. It is the foundation that you build your life upon. You trust that God has a plan for you.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.
Romantic - You know exactly how to melt your date's heart. Romance comes naturally to you and is an important component of any relationship you have.

Your date match profile:

Outgoing - Shy and timid people are not who you are after. You need someone with a vibrant personality to breathe life into a relationship.
Religious - You seek someone who is grounded in faith and who possesses religious values. You believe that a religious person can enhance your life.
Romantic - You need someone with a traditional understanding of romance. A true romantic is a must-have in any potential date.

Your Top Ten Traits

1. Religious
2. Big-Hearted
3. Romantic
4. Sensual
5. Outgoing
6. Liberal
7. Funny
8. Traditional
9. Practical
10. Adventurous

Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Outgoing
2. Religious
3. Romantic
4. Traditional
5. Adventurous
6. Sensual
7. Big-Hearted
8. Wealthy/Ambitious
9. Funny
10. Athletic

Take the Online Dating Personality Quiz at Dating Diversions

oh and by the way. its so true <3

what goes around never comes around to you

jodeexi — Wed, 23 Mar 2005 02:04:34 GMT

finally, a new look

thats NOT default <33

check out out + comment ♥

haha

jodeexi — Mon, 21 Mar 2005 01:39:06 GMT

after showing steph one of my "friends only" entries..

Snuffle2001 (8:35:14 PM): " hey lj, we had a party at stephs, it was okay.....i hate evryone"

LMAO HAHAH OMG HAHAHA

just remember

it came from my ass

I LOVE YOU STEPHANIE <333

booya

jodeexi — Fri, 04 Mar 2005 00:16:54 GMT

Hello boys and girls this is Dave (as in "David Rodriguez")(also as in "this is not Jodi"),

so today I was really bored and decided to read Jodi's journal only to find out that she had made it friends only or somthing to that effect. I was angrier than a swarm of african killer bees and trust me thats not a pretty site... I know... I've been there....So I noticed that she had come back from being away so I IMed (Instant Messaged) her and said this:

Dmr6221: yo buttface
JoDEExi: oh why hello David Rodriguez master of the universe and all who dwell within it
Dmr6221: give me the password to your journal or I'll skewer you like a pig at a hawiian bar-be-que
JoDEExi: o.k davey poo here it is ******
Dmr6221: thank you ass clown

and thus I decided to make my own entry for Jodi's beloved "friends"
you guys can start to expect these entries periodically now that I have her pass word.

Love,
D-Rod

nyc

jodeexi — Wed, 02 Mar 2005 04:48:12 GMT

woo

my cool new hair

jodeexi — Wed, 02 Mar 2005 04:08:34 GMT

sorry this is so photoshoped, i'll put one on here thats not in a lil bit, along with pics of NYC and stuff..enjoy the short hair!

<3

so bored

jodeexi — Mon, 21 Feb 2005 23:11:14 GMT

i'm so bored.

someone

request

something

AHHHH

friends only

jodeexi — Mon, 21 Feb 2005 04:23:33 GMT

oh boy. well.

check out supposed_crime9 if you haven't already and its been good

oh and
commment
to
be
added

and there will be some public entres..i guess