...if young love is just a game, then I must have missed the kick-off

How to Write A Happier Blog?

2019-01-24T21:38:45Z

Trying to figure the answer to that question has me stumped. I review my previous entries, and I have noticed that it is so easy to wallow in misery.

Is this a way for depression to constantly be a nagging force for me? Possibly. If I allow it, my mind can venture deep into dark areas where it is difficult for me to find the path out. When I venture, I just want to lay in a fetal position and wrap a blanket around me. I’m very fortunate that I have a little dog that loves to snuggle, so she will usually snuggle under the blanket with me.

I do not know if many people have seen the show “Big Mouth” that is on Netflix. On the last episode of the second season, they portray depression as a big, fluffy, and cuddly cat that wraps herself around Jessi (one of the characters that’s going through puberty – the premise of the show).
I feel like that overbearing feeling of just wanting to curl up with a blanket around myself is a huge sense of comfort for me to which I do not want to leave (which was also represented on that episode).

I have gone through many different therapists, antidepressants, etc. trying to figure some way of me learning how to get my mindset out of those dark places.

The thing I still have trouble with is not feeling like I belong anywhere. I have tried to be more social and meet more people, and reach out to the ones I already know. I crave for a close friendship that I feel like I will never have. The ones I have felt I’ve had, have turned their backs on me, with no explanation. I understand I am a difficult person to deal with. I wish I can take breaks from myself so I don’t have to deal with myself. Unfortunately, I am stuck with me, and looks like I am all I am going to have.

I am currently in a relationship where he is willing to do anything for me. The thing is, he can give me everything in the world, but that feeling like I belong somewhere cannot be given. I voice my concerns and I feel like he hears what he wants to hear and believes what is his image of me. I know I am going to disappoint him because I am not this happy woman he needs to be with. He is from a happier place and family, whereas, I have gone through abuse from my family, sexual molestation from my mom’s husband, neglect, etc., the list goes on. I have gone through things in life he cannot fathom since his family has given him a great, stable environment to grow and thrive in.
Every family event we are in, I am the one off to the side. No one has any interest in getting to know me, as I use all my energy to attempt to engage them when the situation presents itself. It truly is a lot of effort for me to try small talk with people I hardly know. I feel so awkward and stumbly, and I have images of me looking like the loser kid, trying to inject their comments, but no one is listening or cares. I do not know how to overcome that.

Hello New Experiences

2017-08-04T21:14:17Z

I am going to throw in a random blog just because.

I have undergone so many changes lately. It seems like in the past year, I probably wouldn’t recognize who I am today from the way I was this time last year.

One of the changes I have done was try HelloFresh. I usually don’t go towards the trends that are happening, especially since these meal delivery things seem to be shoved in my face everywhere I go, whether online or not. With how time crunched I am, and how I hate wasting things, especially with produce, I thought I would give it a shot, especially if it could potentially save me money.

My roommate was definitely curious as to what these were about. She went to Fresh Kitchen that’s down the street from our apartment and spent $80 on “better for you” type food, but the servings were real weak and she wasn’t crazy about how the food was.

I think I had to wait a little over a week before getting my first box. They assigned me Wednesdays for delivery day. I read somewhere that you could switch the days to one that’s more convenient to you. I didn’t really care when it came in, so I left it on that, but I’m sure a quick Google search would’ve had me switching if it was really dire.

The program has an app that’s pretty easy to navigate. They have it pretty easy to select the meals of your choice, skip weeks, cancel, etc. There’s also the “recipe cards” available on the app, but the hard copies are still sent with the meals, which I’m fine with, instead of having to keep my phone screen on.

In the box, they include mostly all you need. A lot of the ingredients were already premeasured when they were packaged, and some they sent some “extra”, but I always just poured the entire thing in, anyway and got good results from that. The ingredients in the meals come in small paper bags that are clearly labeled of what meal they are for. They usually include a couple random coupons and once they included a little chocolate/pretzel treat. Underneath the bags and the crazy looking stuffing they use to keep everything in, that’s where you’ll find your “proteins”, or the meats you’ll be using in between a layer of dry ice both above and under. When everything is taken out, the box still feels heavy from the ice like there is still something important in there.

There are a few things you need to supply yourself, like cooking utensils, olive oil, etc. I did have to run out and buy a zester. I never really needed one, but a lot of the meals I was choosing needed one, so I decided to try it.

There was one week where the recipes were kind of complex. I used all the burners at once while I was mixing something else off on the side. Multi-tasking skills is definitely a plus. I really did enjoy that they have taught me another way of preparing vegetables by baking them in the oven. The recipe cards always play off that there are only 6 steps, but in reality, each step has about two other steps thrown into them while under the 6 step guise.

I don’t think I am going to stay with them for too much longer. My roommate had a bad experience with one of the meals and I think it pretty much burned her out. I’m feeling pretty burned on all the produce prepping you have to do since a lot of the entrees come with multiple vegetables. I know it’s lazy to complain about this, but I am usually finding ways of cutting corners (like buying already minced garlic from the produce section instead of mincing the garlic myself). But it did teach me some new cooking skills and I feel more confident with my with a chef’s knife.

1st Weigh In

2016-02-04T19:00:41Z

The first weigh in for the challenge happened this morning. I didn’t go in with a bang, but I wasn’t expecting to.

Initial Weight: 139.8
Today’s Weight: 135.8

I’m not really turning up my nose at 4 pounds lost. I already feel my pants fitting more loose and better. Right before this year’s challenge started, the pants I was wearing were fitting really tight and uncomfortable. I used to love being in jeans and with the weight sneaking back in, I was excited to get off from wherever I was, get into either comfy shorts/pants and just veg.

My energy was dwindling. Considering I’m taking courses now, I was really starting to struggle staying awake at night in order to get my assignments done on time. I recently started going back to the gym. I had to make a tough decision and say goodbye to Anytime Fitness. I’ve been going there since 2011, and they’ve always been there for me. Through the coffeehouse night shifts (I used to go there around 2 in the morning daily). They’ve been there through me working at the bank, starting at the insurance company, to me always going there to get away from my shitty home situation, and all through my divorce. I knew a lot of people that went there, and they cheered me on through my weight losses every time I accidentally gained. The owner cheered me through last year’s weight loss challenge. So, it was pretty hard, but with the financial limits I have now, saving $20+/month has really helped.

Don’t get me wrong, this new gym is pretty nice. It’s a lot bigger, so there’s a lot more people always going in and out. I have seen a few regulars here and there, especially from going to some of the Zumba classes. I’m mostly focusing on cardio right now and rebuilding the stamina I used to have the last time I was going pretty diligently. I am trying some pre-workout powder before going to the gym now. The first couple times, it kind of made me weak and sick feeling, but the previous time, I was really able to stay on the treadmill longer, more comfortably, and I didn’t have any adverse reactions from it.

I’m definitely not going to rank as high as a lot of others have this month, but I am planning on staying pretty consistent with my diet and exercise, and maybe the others will wane off of the hardcore-ness, and hopefully, I can at least win my entry fee back, haha. I’m planning on posting progress pictures each month from when I posted the previous ones. I really need to focus on my stomach since that was the main culprit of my previous weight gain

Christmas is coming?

2015-12-22T17:54:44Z

Since the company is basically insisting on it, I am seeing a counselor about the robbery. It’s only about 3 sessions, once a week, so I am trying to comply with it. I have the 2nd appointment tonight. Appointments like this aren’t so bad, but I keep thinking of all the things I could be accomplishing instead of having to sit there and attempt to evaluate some emotions that I am not feeling.

There have been a lot of times people tell me that they don’t know how I reacted the way I did. They tell me of their predictions that they would probably freak, fight back, get pissed, etc. It’s real easy to say what you could be doing once you’re in that position, but I’m glad I reacted as calmly as I did through all of it.

Don’t get me wrong, I was a little skittish for about a couple days after it happened. I had trouble sleeping, and kept thinking of how things could’ve been worse and what I could’ve done better. I was scared to walk my dog at night by myself, so I would call friends to stay on the line with me until I was done and back into the apartment. That didn’t last too long, and I would like to take a moment to thank those friends that were patient enough to humor my skittish self. But other than those, I haven’t really felt too much about it.

Right after the robbery happened, I guess I didn’t have time to really harp on it. It was around finals, and I was way too focused on completing these courses the best way I could. I finished both courses with an A, so I really cannot complain about that. I’m grateful I managed to pull those off while keeping up with 2 jobs.

Christmas is coming at a fast pace, and technically, I am almost ready for it. Emotionally, not so much. I am trying my hardest to get into the mood. I remember everyone diving full on into the holiday mood when Thanksgiving first passed; now that Christmas has been inching closer, it seems like people are losing that momentum and are no longer in the mood.

Need advice

2015-11-18T16:47:59Z

I need an outlet for my frustrations, any one have any suggestions?

And you can't say sex, that's too much of a challenge/work :-P

Where's my medal?

2015-10-30T19:45:07Z

I survived through Wednesday. I don’t know how I did, but there were probably some casualties.

The instructor made a quick-ish study guide for the test, and I went through it and did all I could from it, but there were a lot on the test that was not on the study guide. I’m a little disappointed about that since I am usually strapped for time and tried to take the most use of that study guide, like I did the previous test (which I got a 92 on), but I got a 79 on this test. It’s still passing, and it’s still better than my test scores when I went to LSU, I just had higher hopes for this test.

After the test, I went to work at the coffeehouse, and there was nothing done from the closing duties, so I had to put on the shift leader pants and delegate like no other. Times like this, I am the not so fun party crasher, but at least we were out before 11pm, so they can’t complain too much. And if they do, well, I’m only there 1-2 times a week, so I won’t have to hear about it too much.

Today at the primary job, I got summoned by HR to take pictures of this donation/luncheon event that was going on. I am severely socially awkward. I don’t like getting up in people’s spaces, I kind of like to keep my distance. I won’t be rude and not talk to you, but I will fully engage conversation with someone if they seem to want to talk to me. I’m just not good at being the initiator.

The one time I tried initiating was in 7th grade. There was this small group of chicks that seemed pretty cool. They were real into Spice Girls, and so was I. So I tried to use that to help get myself in and make friends. I thought things were going pretty well for a while, but one of them asked me to not hang around with them anymore.

The online world has really helped with my awkward-ness. I feel more confident behind a screen, talking with people, getting to know them, etc. At least, if they don’t want to talk to me, they can just ignore my messages and not have to go through the awkward run of telling me to not hang around anymore. I wish I had the time to fully engage online again. I really liked having friends from all over the world and hearing about the things going on in their lives.

I feel so out of the internet loop that I don’t know where people go to get to know others anymore. Livejournal used to be so active and I made a bunch of friends through mutual communities that have eventually faded out. I still have a couple friends from here that I added on Facebook and Instagram, and I enjoy being able to see what they’re up to. Talking isn’t what it used to be, but I’m glad that they haven’t fully cut me out of their loops like some others have.

Maybe I’ll make that a resolution for 2016, relearn how to use Livejournal again like I used to, and to stay out of doctor’s offices 

Be fierce...or something

2015-10-28T21:00:29Z

One thing I hate about tests is that I’m not sure if I’m studying the correct things, or if I’m doing things right.

It’s easier if you’re in the actual classroom and are able to ask the instructor if you’re doing whatever correctly, but in online courses, you’re lucky if you can get a response back within 48 hours.

I’m nervous about the course I’m taking this test in. It’s the Managerial Accounting course, so it’s a little more complex than what I’m used to. When I took my previous accounting courses, I had my ex mother in law in the class with me (she was also taking these courses, but for a pay raise at her job). She was such a perfectionist. She had everything organized to the T, and I was able to bum off of that, and she managed to simplify it to dumb terms for me. Now that I’m taking this course on my own accord, without her around, I’m kind of spazzing if I’m doing things correctly.

I guess I’m doing okay so far. I have A’s in both my accounting courses (the other one is stupid easy, like, it’s for incoming freshman that the university is making me take). Now things are starting to get real with about a month and a half left of the semester.

Where did the time go? I feel like the semester is still fresh and I’m still trying to get used to everything. I guess having to spend $25 a pop for each test I have taken this semester is starting to add up, so my credit card statement is telling me that I’m pretty far along with the semester.

While I have the (blogging) spotlight right now, I would like to take a minute to thank the person whom has discovered the magical effects of caffeine. I have been running off of the power of coffee nonstop since the semester has started. I feel very fortunate that both of my jobs have coffee ready and willing for me to consume. I really don’t think I could survive without it. Keeping up with two jobs and a couple courses, I think I need all the help I can get.

On that note, I better do another run through of this study guide. I am due to take this test in a little over an hour. Right after that, I have to go to Job #2 to train a shift leader, and hold this new kid’s hand through closing. He’s a good kid, just needs to pick up the speed some, because I do not want to spending another Wednesday night there until 11pm, waiting for him to want to excel and be thorough with the sweeping/mopping of the coffee house. I can’t fault the kid for wanting to do good work, but, my patience has its limits.

Oh, and I am doing all this right after working the 9-5 job. So yeah, maybe I should take another quick moment to appreciate caffeine and its products 

2015: The year of medical appointments

2015-09-30T04:57:15Z

No freaking lie.

I have never had to visit so many doctors for this many different reasons. And I do have a few more things that needs to be looked at/tended to, but frankly, I am so tired of sitting in waiting rooms and having to arrange for my entire day to go see one doctor.

This year began with me having some issues with down there. I have never had issues before. I use to be able to go in for my Pap Smear and get my birth control pill refills, and call it a year. It was so simple. The issues I had were multiple infections, at the same time, an abnormal pap smear, which resulted in me getting biopsies, and more infections going on.

I don't understand what can be happening because I keep things pretty clean (I have a detachable shower head for this reason, it's SO much more easier to clean and rinse down there). That alone has me feeling unwanted and like something is wrong with me that's undesirable by others.

Then, my nightmare has started over and I had some teeth issues. I was having some severe pain in my upper right portion. Anything I ate, it would start aching. Then, I would start chewing on my other side, just for that to feel sore from doing all the work, then issues started there. After I have been hounded to go see a dentist about it (I hate the dentist. I can go visit any other doctor and be pretty much okay with it, but I've had the WORST experiences with dentists!), I found out that I needed 3 deep cavity fillings. I can deal with that, I was expecting worse.

After I had the cavities tended to, things were feeling better and I can go along my merry way and just expect a cleaning the next time I go in. Unfortunately, that wasn't the case. My first problem tooth starting hurting me hardcore. It would knock me to tears it was aching so bad. I went back in, and apparently, it was too late to save that tooth, so I had to have a root canal. My FIFTH root canal! Thinking about how much the procedure costs alone, then there's the crowns and the other stuff that come with it, I was sick. But, my mouth was killing me, so I had to do it.

My most recent thing is that I accidentally knocked my head on the corner of my mantle while I was cleaning. I was getting one of Hazel's toys from the floor so I can start vacuuming, and I must have moved at some point, because when I got back up, my head slammed on the corner. I hit my head a lot on a lot of different surfaces, so I didn't think anything of it.

After a few days, I felt some nasty, thick pus coming from where I had hit my head. I took some pictures and sent them to Ben (we still kind of talk on a professional level) and he said that it looks like I had a cut to my head that got infected. Luckily, I had the antibiotics from the dentist leftover from the root canal and I kept it clean by using an eye dropper with saline water over the wound. It hurt so bad for a few weeks.

I'm now finishing up with that recovery. The infection is gone, and it's now just a small scab. But today, I realized that there's a bald spot on my head of where it was!! It's just kind of getting me down. I'm reading around online of the odds of the hair growing back, and there are so many different stories about it. Ben says that thinks my hair will grow back. I don't know what to think. I just know that bald spot is really bugging me, I am such a perfectionist about my hair.

Luckily, it's in the back and is covered by my other hair, but I know it's there. I can feel my scalp every time my fingers go back there.

This year is just really getting to me in some ways. I am so thankful right now that school is going well. I got a 100% on my first test in the easier Accounting course, and I got a 92% on the harder Accounting course. I'm already doing better here than I was at LSU, I really hope I can keep it up. The school expenses are piling up, I can NOT fail and drop this. I just can't.

Stay and fight, or run away?

2015-06-23T20:33:56Z

Are you more likely to avoid conflict (of whatever kind) or engage it head-on? Is there an instance where you avoided a problem that you now wish you could go back and take a different course of action -- what was the situation and why do you wish you'd handled it differently?

This is a huge guilt of mine, but I do tend to do whatever it takes to avoid conflict. Don’t get me wrong, sometimes there is a need for standing up for yourself and having to go head-on, but I do tend to bend over backwards, especially for those that I love, in order to keep the peace and avoid the mess.

There are plenty of instances of when I should have stood up for myself. It has cost me not only monetarily, but with my self respect, as well.

I feel like it’s a balance that has to be evaluated at whatever situation happens. It’s kind of like the whole “Pick your battles” saying that’s pretty well-known, there’s no same correct answer for every situation.

The ride is still not over...

2015-04-23T20:23:38Z

I have been quite pleased with how my weight loss journey has been going.

When I first signed up for the weight loss challenge, I didn’t expect to win anything. I mostly joined in it for the motivation from being around other people who are also wanting to lose weight.
I know it sounds pretty vain, but I wanted to be able to fit into smaller clothes. There were so many shopping trips I had to surrender and look for the larger sizes. Companies did not want to make cute things for bigger people, and that always bugged me.
I used to be thin in my senior year of high school, and I would look at the few clothes I still had from that era, and couldn’t believe I used to be so small. I took it for granted and called myself fat back then. I also despised the way society would treat heavier people. I am usually always filed away in the fat friend category. I had crushes on boys and they wouldn’t give me the time of day because they were too busy going after the thinner prep.
My photographer side had so many photo ideas, but I could either use someone to model for free, or I could try it myself. I am way too socially awkward, so I would try my ideas using myself, and I was never pleased with the results. All I saw was how chunky I was, and it was not attractive. It also didn’t help that Ben used every opportunity to let me know that I was gaining weight, so that really hurt my self esteem.

I really want to be able to say that I did something right in 2015, and I am really hoping it will be this weight loss. Since June 2013, I have lost 40 pounds! It was amazing of how much of a difference those 40 pounds make.

I’m scared of how I am going to handle the maintenance. I really don’t want to get back to where I was, since it has been a lot of hard work measuring everything I ate, turning down free, fattening foods (since the divorce, I have been broke and have been extremely cheap), and forcing myself to go to the gym after long, tiring days.

It’s been a long, excruciating journey, but the results have been worth it! I like being able to look at myself in the mirror and not be thoroughly disgusted with what’s been looking back at me.

My current time killer...

2015-03-24T21:16:52Z

One thing I can say is going right with me right now is my weight loss journey.

We all have our own little weight loss journeys we encounter from time to time. Sometimes it’s so frequent that it might as well be called a commute. Ever since I have moved to Louisiana, I felt like I am continuously on this road, with nowhere to exit.

Recently, my full time job has organized a weight loss challenge. They do it almost every year, but this is the first year I have been able to participate. Compared to a lot of people that were going to participate, I knew I didn’t stand a chance of winning anything. But, I joined because I could use a deadline and the motivation is definitely something I can use.

I started to follow weight watchers guidelines. I didn’t “officially” join, but there are plenty of online resources that post the points and gives the basic ideas. I really didn’t want to mess around with this attempt at losing weight, so I started planning my meals, making things in bulk and freezing them (I go through so many Tupperware, and my freezer is always full now!).

One thing I have picked up from doing this diet that I didn’t expect I would enjoy so much is the fact I’m starting to cook more healthy meals. I have a lot of recipes stored with the weight watchers points, so I am able to budget my daily points more efficiently.

I won’t go on and on in the details of how I have been following the diet, but it has been working out. Since the divorce, I have lost a total of 30 pounds! The first 20 I have no clue how it happened, but the last ten have been because of the weight loss challenge. I am happy to say that I am almost at my weight when I first moved here and gained 30+ pounds within a few months, and I haven’t been able to lose them since.

I’ll try to find some good before/after pictures. My advice to anyone wanting to lose weight, I highly suggest taking a before picture. My self esteem was so shot that I didn’t want to take yet another picture that makes me look fat, so I never did…and I kind of regret it now.

jellybeanbug24 @ 2010-09-20T04:25:00

2010-09-20T09:25:32Z

Quick note before I go to bed...

I finally finished with my greys20in20 entry!! You all should check it out!!

They're here at deafenedbylove

Also, I'm wondering if I should enter in another 20in20. Do you guys have any suggestions of which one I should try this time?

gasp!

2010-08-23T07:02:42Z

I'm sorry to spam up your pages, but I wanted you guys to know that I made an icon post! Crazy, I know.

I'm trying to get all back into the groove of making them. I signed up for round 4 of 20in20friends to get myself started, so here's a link to them. I hope they don't suck too much, I'm a bit rusty, haha.

Preview:

They're here at deafenedbylove

Yay! I finally made an icon post!

2009-07-09T14:36:46Z

I finally made a graphics community! I moved all my older icon posts there so everything I've made since creating this journal will be found at one spot.

Days of our Lives (mostly Lucas/Sami)
Twilight cast related
Stargate SG-1
General Hospital
Jennifer Aniston

Banner:
Patrick/Robin wedding (General Hospital)

Preview:

You can find them HERE at deafenedbylove.

Please join if you'd like to keep up with icon posts ♥

Icon Post #11

2008-12-07T04:39:32Z

It's unbelievable that it's been since March when I last posted icons :-o!!!!
I hope everyone enjoys these, I experimented a lot with some different techniques with this batch.
To show that I am seriously not Scrooge this year with Christmas, I made my "No Icons" festive

[13] Kate Walsh
[09] Gwen Stefani
[18] Miscellaneous Days' of our Lives
[19] Miscellaneous General Hospital
[22] Wayne's World

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Gwen Stefani

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**Quick Note**
[♥] Icon 42 is too big for lj standards, but it's allowed to be used other places, just please don't claim that you made it

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50 Arizona Diamondbacks icons

2008-03-05T03:39:08Z

50 Arizona Diamondbacks icons for baseball_100

Teasers:

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5. happiness	6. laughter	7. hero	8. alone

9. destiny	10. sun	11. rivals	12. in the moment

13. dugout	14. bullpen	15. change up	16. world series

17. rookie	18. infield	19. pitching mound	20. autographs

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Icon Post #9

2008-02-09T08:27:06Z

I am such a bad lj poster *blushes*

But I come equipped with plenty of icons, they are the product of a lot of experimenting, so I hope they turned out all right.

[1-5] Misc Jennifer Aniston

[6-15] Kate Walsh

[16-18] Brandon Beemer

[19-23] Lauren Koslow

[24-28] Rachel Melvin

[29-41] Valentines Day related

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Tutorial List #2

2008-02-01T22:00:56Z

I'm very tutorial obsessed since I love learning new colorings and techniques on Photoshop (the Selective Color feature is very nifty!)

I hope this list will be as useful to someone as it has been for me.

Photoshop Tutorials

*If any of the links don't work, please let me know in the comments! :)

*If you're a maker of one of these tutorials and you would like for me to take it down, also let me know in the comments

*A HUGE thanks to the makers of these tutorials, I would be so stumped in Photoshop without you guys ♥

Love tutorials? Have you seen my first list?

If not, it is located here: TUTORIAL LIST #1

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Icon Post #8

2007-12-03T05:17:45Z

As promised, here are the icons I've been working on ~~while studying~~

[1-6] Stock Images-make up theme

[7-14] Shawn and Belle wedding

[15-20] Gwen Stefani

[21-30] Christmas

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I ♥ comments!

No hotlinking please!

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Feel free to friend :)

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Icon Post #7 - EEEK!

2007-10-31T00:34:54Z

I can't believe it's been sooo long since I've updated! I have a small batch for tonight, all Halloween stuff, I hope everyone likes them! I've been learning some new stuff lately, so hopefully I'll find the time to post them on here for everyone to see!

[10] Halloween themed

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Please credit :)

I ♥ comments!

No hotlinking please!

Hope you enjoy!

Feel free to friend :)

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Icon Post #6

2007-09-27T06:04:37Z

[10] Autumn/Fall

[5] Xena: Warrior Princess

[9] Kate Walsh

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Rules:

Please credit :)

I ♥ comments!

No hotlinking please!

Hope you enjoy!

Feel free to friend :)

Resources |Tutorial List

Tutorial List

2007-08-11T06:16:24Z

Instead of putting all the names on my resources for the tutorials, I've decided to put the tutorials together in a list for everyone (including myself :) ), I've tried all of these and they've worked out for me.

I have made NONE of these, so I'd like to thank the talented people who have created them! You guys are ♥

Just a warning, it's VERY image heavy. They are just under the cut.

Icon Tutorials

Photoshop -- non translatable; uses Selective Color

Translatable; can use on PSP, etc.

Bigger Graphics Coloring Tutorials

Photoshop -- non translatable; uses Selective Color

Translatable; can use on PSP, etc.

If there's any broken links, or you can't see any of them, let me know.

I'll continue adding onto this as I find more...

Also, if you're a creator of one of these and you'd like it taken off, let me know!

Still not enough tutorials?

I have a second list here: tutorial list #2

They're for Photoshop only, though. I'm hoping to find enough Paint Shop Pro ones soonly!

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Icon Post #5 - Sunflowers, Forza and Farah Fath

2007-08-03T00:06:05Z

I finally found some time to make icons, i'm so proud! :)

[32] Icons Total:
[7] Sunflower
[15] Forza Motorsport
[6] Farah Fath

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-- Textless icons are not bases
-- Please Credit and Comment, they both make me smile :)
-- No hotlinking!
-- Resources!

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Hollaback Girl Screencap Icons Part 2 / 4th of July

2007-07-01T09:09:01Z

[12] (Part 2 of 3) Hollaback Girl icons
[11] 4th of July icons

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Rules:
*Textless icons are not bases
*Please Credit
*Comments make my day special :)
*No hotlinking
*Feel free to friend me
*Enjoy! :)

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Days of our Lives

2007-06-04T02:28:37Z

I made some random Days' icons. I tried to appeal to as many fanbases as possible. If you have a request, comment me and I'll get it to you :)

[60] Miscellaneous Days' Icons

(Unfinished) Resources are here

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*Textless icons are NOT bases
*Comments are my addiction, help feed it :)
*NO hotlinking
*Do not claim as your own
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