bappysaurus's box de casa

Listen to get down bb.

inversefun — Sat, 23 Oct 2010 03:25:44 GMT

inversefun — Sun, 05 Sep 2010 04:25:06 GMT

and now to drop the professional bullshit and get onto my incoherent, immature ranting. I really need to let it out, homies.

my main issue:
"Even if it wasn't crystal clear from Oren's player that the torment was to be telepathic/psychological only, there's no excuse for getting physical without making absolutely sure."

um jsyk? it actually does matter. because I was not given any other reason to believe that a physical fight was out of the question. and idk about you, but I don't second guess every thread I'm in. when someone says, hey let's do this. I do that.

so bee-tee-dubs, your request was for kicking your character around. you mentioned telepathy, but you did not specify telepathy. sorry, but I'm playing the villain and I thought I had freedom with how he acted like a douche? I'm open for requests, but a waffle-y 'it would be good' doesn't do it for me.

if it was specifically what you wanted? um, honey? ---> my ooc post. post in it. request me.

further bee-tee-dubs: as far as I know? I'm the only semi-evil character in game. everyone else is a butt patting rainbow fuck. (mean that in the best way possible) it would not be difficult to locate someone to 'kick around' your character. cuz uh. there's like only one character who'd be open to doing it. <--- me.

which you should know, because um... 2/4 of your chars? have scened with my villain before. both times he has attempted to hurt them, physically, with a sprinkling of mindfuck. (like knowing their names because of their thoughts)

also please don't throw 'it's only RP etiquette' bullshit at me. you told me what was wrong, I fixed it, and then you went to the mods anyway without talking to me. if I can't even get the respect of, 'hey you're not doing this quite right' before you whine on me, then no. no rp etiquette for you. (also, uh. please don't make me sound like I wanted to spite you? because I have better things to do than spite people on the internet who I don't know and *originally* had no problem with)

second problem:
This doesn't devalue my opinion of them as a person, I'd just like it if from now on they asked me before they physically attacked my characters. It's RP etiquette and I deserve it as much as anyone else does.

hi, welcome to contradictory clusterfuck of a sentence.

if someone treated you in a way you thought was shitty, would -you- not have a lesser opinion of them?
my point exactly: please stop trying to act like the better person. because you're epically failing.
um should I ask if my characters approached you at all? 'hi my character is within a 15 block radius of yours, is that alright?' or maybe if they use the same street? are they allowed to eat the same breakfast brands?
reiterating my first point: you wanted to be attacked. I attacked you.

please go suck my dick and find out it's an ak-47.

and once again: you didn't give me the respect of a person that was worth informing, soooo... no?

third:
If I'd been asked about a physical attack, I would have had a chance to say no.

cool story bro. if I had been told this wasn't what you wanted, I would have had a chance to change it.

thanks for that.

fourth:
We are not trying to be harsh or unfair; rather, the rules are in place to ensure that the game is fair and welcoming to all players.

hi, i'd like a pairoducks.

so by putting one player's voice over the other, this is reinforcing the 'welcoming' vibe you want to send? sorry, can you redirect the satellite dish, I believe I'm in the deadzone.

and my last point has no quote but
jfc please don't make me sound like a child who doesn't know how to RP. this greatly offends me, especially since I took into great consideration -especially- not to godmode, and I try my very best to please the other player as well. I didn't want to spite you, or hurt you, or any of that bullshit, but thanks to all of this:

mods and player? you have lost a great deal of respect.

also if I were to meet you irl, I would punch you in the face.

ty for making me feel nauseous for the past 24 hours due to your extreme fuckery.

tl;dr: so tired of whiny pussies.

edit: ALSO DON'T FUCKING PRETEND TO NOT BE A MOD WHEN YOU'RE ON THE MOD TEAM AND YOU'RE "SAFE" BEHIND YOUR VEIL OF ANONYMITY

inversefun — Sun, 05 Sep 2010 02:52:31 GMT

I had an issue in a game I was in very recently. Obviously the problem was with me, and of course I don't personally agree with the end result, but I wish to know others' opinions.

General outline of the events, followed by the specific emails that give more detail (Names will not be deleted out, because I am not getting anyone in the game involved with this, as I do not want to cause OOC drama for the game):

- Oren (the other player, a vampire) had requested for someone 'who'd be into tormenting an emotionally vulnerable vampire.'
- I volunteered my demon, Wolf.
- We started the thread.

Keep in mind, the next few parts are placed in the exact order the events happened. I personally find it important the way these events transpired.

- Some way into the thread, Oren-mun (the game is anonymous) had requested we stick to psychological torment. (In the thread, Wolf had been starting a physical fight.)
- I agree, and my next tag reflects this with no physical abuse.
- The mods respond to my tag, effectively closing the thread.
- I email wondering why.
- They email me back.

Now, to the meat of the post. Very long, but here you go (the mods link the OOC plot thread, but OOC is locked for anyone not a member. But they had highlighted the important points anyway.)

I to the mods:
I was just wondering... what specifically did I do wrong in the thread with Oren / Wolf? I realized Oren-mun had asked for the physical torment to stop, and I had taken that into mind when I posted. (I don't believe Wolf did anything to physically harm him in that post?) I would just like to know so that I do not repeat this mistake again.

Mods to I:
Hello,

This member of the mod team (mod #3) was the one who took note of this issue. Please note that Oren's player was not involved in reporting this to us. I am an active player in the community and happened to notice while reading through recent scenes. The mods discussed this as a team and came to a decision together.

You did not abide by the wishes of Oren's player in the ended scene:
http://asylums.insanejournal.com/dis_ducibus/76423.html

Oren's player requested telepathic annoyance in the TGIPF post.
http://asylums.insanejournal.com/disducibus_ooc/51683.html

Oren's original request was:
Character(s) Involved: Oren
Storyline I'm Looking For: I've sort of been feeling like kicking him around lately, so anyone who'd be into tormenting an emotionally vulnerable vampire. ;D

You volunteered Wolf with:
Wolf can kick around people! :D

Oren's reply, accepting the offer, was:
I was hoping that Wolf would answer the call of torment. XD Telepathy will be a good way for him to do it, since Oren's in a bit of a crisis at the moment.

Oren's player went out of their way to include a lot of thoughts in the scene, since Wolf is a telepath, and she had specifically mentioned telepathy in her acceptance of the TGPIF post fill:
http://asylums.insanejournal.com/dis_ducibus/76423.html?thread=945287#t945287

Wolf's responses did not follow with the agreed-upon telepathic premise, and instead, the scene became physical, with a wrist grab, grabbing the collar of Oren's shirt, and a headbutt. Even if it wasn't crystal clear from Oren's player that the torment was to be telepathic/psychological only, there's no excuse for getting physical without making absolutely sure. Putting another player into a position where they feel that the only realistic response to a tag is to have their character be physically injured (popping wrist, in this case), is not acceptable.

It doesn't matter that the player went along with it for a while before contacting you with her concerns.
http://justonenight.insanejournal.com/627.html?thread=10867#t10867

Godmodding is absolutely forbidden in this game. It doesn't matter if the other player goes along with it for the sake of politeness or is too shy to speak up and defend their character. As a member of the mod team, it is my job to watch for this sort of activity and bring it to the attention of our team.

The rules make specific mention of this:
http://disducibusmods.insanejournal.com/3389.html

As this is your first offense, please consider this email to be your first warning.

We are not trying to be harsh or unfair; rather, the rules are in place to ensure that the game is fair and welcoming to all players.

Thank you for your time,

~ DD mod #3
(with input/approval from mods 1, 2, and 4 as a unified whole)

I to mods:
I understand where you are coming from, and I apologize for the misunderstanding of the premise of the thread. But as you stated: it was not made crystal clear that Oren-mun had specifically wanted torment via telepathy. I would have made sure if I had any reason to second guess this, but it was not stated specifically. I took it as a suggestion when he/she had mentioned telepathy, because Wolf had telepathic powers, but not because that was what he/she wanted definitely. The general storyline he/she had given was for 'anyone who'd be into tormenting an emotionally vulnerable vampire.' Not specifically psychologically, or physically.

While I apologize for misunderstanding the premise, I do not believe I godmoded at all. None of Wolf's actions at attempting to hurt Oren were completed, they were just that. Attempts. He/she could have responded in any way, they could have avoided it, or perhaps his attacks only grazed Oren, but instead they had responded with what they did. I, in no way, forced them to respond the way he/she did, nor did I expect him/her to respond that way.

I am also slightly confused, as after Oren-mun had made his/her wants more clear, I was more than willing to abide. So I do not understand why the thread was closed, when we seemed to have settled it OOC. Or, even if he/she would not have been happy with the way the thread was progressing, if his/her intentions were made more clearly, I would have apologized and offered to restart the thread, making sure to tailor it this time to what he/she wanted.

I had no intention of forcing anyone to do anything, nor did I have the intention of making anyone unhappy. I had no idea what was going on, and no one had mentioned it to me: if he/she did, I would have done my best to rectify the problem and make it up to him/her. I apologize, but I believe that without contacting the offending party prior, unfair decisions and opinions were made in haste.

Mods to I:
Thanks for your response. We'll try to clarify.

This is the key statement from our previous email:
Even if it wasn't crystal clear from Oren's player that the torment was to be telepathic/psychological only, there's no excuse for getting physical without making absolutely sure.

From what we can tell by checking contact and plot posts, the exact nature of the encounter was not established. However, there should not have been any attempts to injure another character without clearing it with his player first. Our issue was not with the post that came after the request from Oren's player to keep it psychological only, it was with the posts before that where there was physical assault without any evidence of clearing it with Oren. Any doubts about the content of the scene should have been cleared with the other player before starting.

We have since spoken with Oren's player and she has confirmed that she went into the scene with the understanding that it was to be psychological only, and was uncomfortable with how the scene played out. She let us know that she had other scenes planned for that game day and the following game day that would be very physical and felt that Wolf's attack undermined the seriousness of those scenes.

This is from the email Oren's player sent (we have her permission to share it):

***

If I'd been asked about a physical attack, I would have had a chance to say no. What would the natural reaction be when someone grabbed your wrist? Not to succumb, especially not when adrenaline is flowing from zombie bashing. It would be to pull away. And pulling away when a grip is tight like that? Causes injury. I was backed into a corner, because I wasn't asked if my character could be physically attacked. This doesn't devalue my opinion of them as a person, I'd just like it if from now on they asked me before they physically attacked my characters. It's RP etiquette and I deserve it as much as anyone else does.

I had a scene planned in the future where Oren busts his hand open on a wall in a fit of depressive rage. With his wrist already busted from the scene with Wolf, it wouldn't have taken as much impact for the bones to break. Therefore, the impact of the scene would have been lessened. I also had a scene planned later on that day where he needed full mobility in that hand to fight with Theo. That scene was established far before the scene with Wolf even began.

***

As mods, we are clarifying: Please be 100% certain of what is allowed in a scene if there is to be any harm to a character. Our warning stands, and we consider this matter closed.

~ DD mod #3
(again, with input from the rest of the team)
________________________________

I did not respond back as they had stated the matter closed, but I feel that I need to stress that I had no reason to believe that Oren-mun had anything against what I was doing, until they had contacted me halfway through the scene OOC. I would also like to stress I was not given a chance to rectify this matter, and that if given the chance, I would have. (As seen in Wolf's OOC contact post.) One last thing I would like to stress: all of this came upon me very suddenly.

I would merely like people's opinions on the matter. I don't care if you agree with me, or disagree with me. I would just like to see what other people think.

Was I godmoding?
Was I in the wrong?

Any input is greatly appreciated, and if you believe that you know anyone else who might have an opinion, please link them to this entry as well.

Thanks very much.

inversefun — Fri, 14 May 2010 05:31:54 GMT

i have developed a fascination with toitles today. that zombie boy? he was onto something. i like toitles too.

http://www.squishable.com/pc/squish_tortoise_15/Big_Animals/Big+Squishable+Tortoise

yesss...

i am xcite

inversefun — Wed, 05 May 2010 04:36:13 GMT

a day of work tomorrow, thursday off, friday off, then prerelease time!! I'M SO EXCITED AND HAPPY ILU POKEMAN CARDS. ILUUUU.

saturday must come faster so i can go and lick the new cards

and i hope tomorrow we don't have much shipment... and if we do it's something cool. like. like. WAGES.

*is soooo coooool*

FWARKJWIOJAGH EXCITED must wake up early tomorrow to rematch misty over and over and then jasmine and then chuck.

TOMORROW IS GYM LEADER BONANZA

inversefun — Tue, 04 May 2010 06:08:34 GMT

i have a weird thing with names. being referred to as my real name is kinda weird to me, tbh. i'm used to hearing aliases like bap, or orvel or strigi, and if someone calls me otherwise it's a little strange.

i should so change my rl name to bap

dear you: you owe me an apology

inversefun — Mon, 03 May 2010 04:00:53 GMT

sorry is a really hard word to say. you gotta swallow up summa dat pride and bend over for other people, and hope they don't stick a knife in your butt, but instead they tell you to stand up and that it's cool.

but even though it's a hard word doesn't mean you don't say it. life is hard. you gotta do difficult things. and sometimes you get the knife in your butt.

but some people are cowards and don't say it ever and it bites. because I know I've apologized to people, and I remember the occasions I got the knife in the butt very well. afterall, I got metaphorically knifed. ...in my butt.

it especially bites when the people who knife me in the butt are the ones who don't apologize to me.

I've said sorry on occasions, gotten yelled at, had an argument, and then later got yelled at again for not saying sorry when it was the first thing I said. that hella kicks your pride in the face I'm tellin' ya.

if you hurt someone, apologize. because it means you recognize the fact you hurt them, and that you want to remedy it. you're acknowledging the pain which is a good thing because that's what like... IDK GOOD PEOPLE DO?

look why am I saying this? I did something once, nothing bad at all, it was a normal everyday for-fun thing. I got yelled at, a person freaked out on me. now in the present? that same person is doing what I did to themselves. I'm sitting here like what I got freaked out on, but you're doing it now yourself.

another thing: flakes. stop flaking you flakers. flaky people piss me off. especially if they're hypocritical flaky people. you can't freak out about something and then turn into the thing you're freaking out about. that's not right. you owe a ton of people an apology. you know, all those people you flipped out on like a crazy cat lady?

so sick of people flipping out on me. I flip out jokingly a lot, but I honestly don't think I flip out for serious that often, if at all. (but if you think I do, pls tell me. I like to keep my facts straight.) so it really feels like the world keeps slapping me in the face when I don't do anything wrong, and also I don't fight back. >_>

tl;dr - WHINE WHINE WHINE

inversefun — Mon, 26 Apr 2010 06:28:31 GMT

I need more icons ffff.

my life's been pretty boring the past few days.

I wanted to make a comic around this superhero guy I made up, but the setting and stuff ended up being all wrong so I was like *SCRAPS* RAWWRGHFFFF.

...I think I'm going to buy more pokemon cards tomorrow. I really should stop lol. ;____; but pokemon's like a huge part of my life. I've had it in my life since I've been in kindergarten. that's like... 13-14 years I've been addicted.

POKECRACK.

and it only gets worse as I become more self-aware. because I realize that yes I need this.

I remember in elementary school, we weren't allowed to have pokemon cards. which btw, is really stupid because yeah zomgz, grade school is so serious business that kids can't play around with some cards during recess. >_> at any rate, I remember the lunch monitor lady took my deck and I cried rofl. (she gave it back, but you know when you're eight, what happens in the present is life or death.) I remembered this today, and I'm like 'gosh sooo lame,' but then I thought about it. And I realized that if she did that to me today I'd verbally beat her face in. maybe literally too.

it is absolutely ridiculous what they don't allow in school, and while I'm like 'wow I can't believe I just dealt with all of that without complaining at the time,' I'm also like 'wow seriously kids can't put up with it and move on?'

if there's one thing I hated the most about school, it was the back and forth bitchfest between adults and kids.

zomgz let me listen to my mp3 player
zomgz no
zomgz yes
no
whyyyy
because i'm an adult
w/e *listens to mp3 player*

/facepalm

I think I'm a little adverse towards teachers now because of school tbh. >_> but no lie, I didn't like the majority of my fellow students either but... yeah. I think I just have a problem with authority atm. it'll probably blow over.

*SMASHES BUILDINGS*

ANARCHY!!!

loljk.

inversefun — Thu, 22 Apr 2010 06:55:54 GMT

101 HOURS ON HEARTGOLD! FUCK YEA! SEAKING! (which I've seen a lot of because the past three hours have been me trying to fish up corphish, but instead I get goldeen and seaking.)

VICTORY MUSIC

oh jesus i'm so sleepy bye

crazy drama attention whore - emotionally retarded

inversefun — Thu, 22 Apr 2010 03:46:04 GMT

it feels like my life is stuck in limbo. and when I say that I don't mean it in a bad way (sort of) but it feels like it's everyone else that has stuff happen to them, for good or for bad. and then anything that happens to me is kinda... meh?

like everyone has had emo moments. and everyone has probably had moments where they wanted to break and just end themselves, but each moment with each person is different. you have people who're like me who're kinda effed up in the head and confused and have no direction in life, and then you have people who have been put in mental hospitals because their uncle and evil aunt beat them and they tried to kill themself.

just want to say: I do feel bad for abuse victims. totally not ragging on them.

and it's like these extreme situations almost cheapen what people like me go through--the people who don't go through zomgz crazy emotional roller coaster insane news story lives--like, 'hey what you're going through isn't that bad, get over it.' but the thing is even if from an objective view on the idk... TERRIBLE SCALE it isn't as bad, it still feels terrible.

...IN THE END, I'm just rambling about this because other people seem to get sympathy and attention and hugs and all this stuff but I personally never feel like I do. >___> <---jealous, selfish bitch syndrome.

or even like.. I'm surrounded by graduation stuff at hallmark, and no one gave a shit about me graduating. I know I didn't. the hell were my balloons and cards and gift money from all my relatives? ORITE NON-EXISTENT. or birthdays, or christmas or any celebration really. none of that was ever made a big deal for me.

I FEEL LIKE I DON'T FEEL. or that what I feel isn't legitimate because other people have gone through worse, or better or w/e.

it feels like there's something wrong with me but then I'm like, maybe this is normal! and then I keep going back and forth and I DON'T KNOW.

ROAAAWRRR

inversefun — Tue, 20 Apr 2010 02:52:55 GMT

I'M GONNA MAKE A WEBCOMIC ABOUT TOKUSATSU AND HENSHIN.

lol no (we all know that I'm too lazy to keep up with something like that)

i did draw up some ideas though! but trying to make them unsilly and stuff is difficult so I gave up and started playing pokemon.

IN OTHER NEWS!

home made kazoku is gonna be the otakon music guest which is pretty happy fase. <3 shounen heart. ...also eureka 7 is really cool and I need to finish watching that

IT HAS GIANT ROBOTS THAT SKYBOARD AND ROMANCE what else can I ask for in a tv show. also bones is the studio and they're pretty cool guys.

i haven't watched an anime series in so looong I should prolly pick up dem slacks and watch something. ...if.. I knew what to watch.

*goes to read deadman wonderland 33* which is awesome BEE-TEE-DUBYA.

i want to do something productive. ;_;

I LOVE YOU BIG ROBO!

inversefun — Sat, 17 Apr 2010 09:13:04 GMT

okay so I was looking at video games on gamestop.com to see if there was anything I would like to get, which there isn't a lot of BEE-TEE-DUBYA, and a lot of vgs are like shooters now. or so.. idk... REALISM!

so I was thinking if I were to make my own vidya gaem it would have the following:

-giant robots
-catchy pop songs
-dating sim features
-customizable avatar
-REAL TIME BATTLE SYSTEM! none of that turn based crap! (even though I like the turn based crap) it's gonna be great. maybe it'd do something like the vats for fallout 3, where the game sorta pauses and you can... ahh, here's a link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vHr3Y8ZIhGM
but instead you kind of pause the game and you can take a moment to enter button combos like a fighting game. also so you can use directional keys and not be moving out of place

yes I want a dating sim mech adventure rpg. IS THAT SO WRONG!?!?

one day I will live on my own

inversefun — Fri, 16 Apr 2010 07:01:50 GMT

one day I'll have my own apartment and stuff and it'll be great

okay I'll probably have a roommate, but that's cool as long as they're cool with my very agreeable demands:

- my bed will not be a mattress, it will be a tent with a sleeping bag. of course, it will be big enough for several people, just in case we want to have sleepover party nights. even though we live in the same house.

- I will have a mini fridge in my room. they are open to whatever they'd like if for some reason they need to take something from my fridge instead of the actual fridge, but it'd be cool if they didn't abuse this privilege. like what's the point of a mini fridge if there's nothing in it

that's pretty much it.

and I'll be happy with my life.

I think it's doable, right guys!? OKAY CHALLENGE TIME!

I'm gonna try to get my own place by the time I'm 22. with a tent and a mini fridge. IT'LL BE GREAT. basically same time everyone else leaves college, I'll leave my home. IT MAKES SENSE DOESN'T IT!?

inversefun — Thu, 15 Apr 2010 08:44:13 GMT

it's 3:23 am and I'm still up and my mind is moving quickly so I'mma put some shiz down in the form of rambling

okay kamen rider kiva made me angry. his dad was a womanizer. i get that, that's cool, it was part of his appeal. he spent like half the series chasing after this one chick, FINALLY GETS WITH HER, lives a great happy life... and then is seduced by vampire chick. they are intrigued by each other. she loves his violin music, he likes that she understands his genius.

somewhere along the way they banged

he died in a park in her lap

WHAT!

it just made me.. ugh. because while he was still with the original chick, vampire chick was teaching him how to make his own violin, and she was all touching him and they were totally flirting and shit... IN THE HOME HE SHARED WITH HIS GF! it was just. DISHONORABLE!

but seto koji is still adorable and kiva has a pretty cool suit so.

I'M TOO WIDE AWAKE I CAN'T SLEEP I FDGSFLX ZI WANT TO RP

people need to tag faster
or else i get paranoid
and agitated
paranoid because i'm like OH GOD THEY DON'T WANT TO DO THIS
agitated because rping is like breathing to me and i'm getting strangled

YOU'D BE AGITATED IF SOMEONE WAS STRANGLING YOU

no strangle pls

STILL NO SLEEP

according to me is subjective m'dear

inversefun — Thu, 15 Apr 2010 03:32:37 GMT

okay this song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pu1aQvm5MrU

it's a fun song, dance-y, good radio song. it's cute, d'awww look she's found a boy who loves her.

BUT. BUT. because I'm crazy whenever I hear this song I'm like pointing out all the things wrong with it like... when she's like ACCORDING TO YOOOU I SUCK AT TELLING JOKES CUZ I ALWAYS GIVE IT AWAY.

and it's like lady, you do suck at telling jokes if you give it away. if you can't tell a joke right... then you're telling it wrong... and if you're doing it wrong... you're bad at it.

and how can 'can't show up on time' be 'according to you'? time isn't subjective. it's objective. you show up late, or you don't. and if you don't show up on time, then you are late, and that makes you a tardy person, which I can understand why it's not a desirable trait!

but also I'm going to go crazy overanalytical ap lit here for uno momento: oooobviously this song is about the 'you-boy,' it's all ACCORDING TO YOOOOU and etc, even though she's getting all happy face about the 'him-boy'... but maybe the ideal boy in this song isn't the him-boy, but is instead the you-boy!?

I mean... the you-boy gets a whole song, and he has a very indepth list of all her characteristics, meaning he knows her personality and knows her in and outs very well, despite the fact he's being a giant dick about it.

idk.. the you-boy gets the chorus, so by default his lyrics. are kinda... ...um. you know, repeaty, but if this guy's soooo awesome why's it like he's just repeating the same stuff over and over. he doesn't know your deeper characteristics, your bad little habits! BUT THE YOU-BOY DOES.

also the way the song ends with how it kinda drifts off 'according to you...' makes her sound insecure about it all, even though she had this revelation that the you-boy's an asshole. why would she be insecure? she still cares about what he thinks, because she cares about him.

SO IN MY CRAZY OVER ANALYTICAL POST, I determine that this song is actually about two very passionate people getting caught in an argument, and despite the rocks they throw at each other, they LOVE EACH OTHER VERY MUCH.

...*gets pelted with rotten tomatoes*

GAWSH I NEVER SAID I WAS RIGHT... I WAS JUST SAYING I WAS BEING OVERANALYTICAL...

I'm a dirty slut

inversefun — Fri, 09 Apr 2010 06:12:00 GMT

except no one wants to have sex with me.

and by sex, I mean RP sex!

and by RP sex, I don't mean RPing sex because I'VE NEVER HAD IT SO I DON'T KNOW HOW IT GOES, SO I MEAN IT METAPHORICALLY.

rping is like sex. you have to do it with other people. and if you don't, you have to do it by yourself through writing / drawing / creating.

people keep falling asleep when they're having sex with me. ),:

no one will give me a late night booty call.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q2bjkEPL-9g

this is still one of my favorite songs

EEEE

inversefun — Wed, 07 Apr 2010 07:21:24 GMT

I don't like how at the bottom of the drumstick cones, there's a little thing of solid chocolate. it makes me sad. I want it to be all pure ice cream. ;___;

hey hey. how socially inappropriate is it to ask someone if they don't like you? I don't think text would convey it very well. maybe I should ask if they have a mic and request they download vent. and be like 'yeeeaaah...'

but I know what it's like to have someone you don't like constantly talking to you (I think everyone does). sometimes they make it obvious that your CHITTER CHATTER IS RAWRGGHFFF. sometimes it seems more subtle. like not responding right away. orrrr... never starting conversation. or playing along with the conversation for a little bit before being, 'forget this.'

it's okay if you don't like me! but I don't want to be annoying anyone. >____> I don't want to be the ignorant person who was given da pityz. cuz tyvm I don't want your pity, I think I'm fine without it.

fff kyle rayner. I'm probably going to start reading more green lantern corps because I want to see hiiiim. him and his space bears.

http://www.superherostuff.com/green-lantern/magnets/green-lantern-orange-lantern-oath-magnet.html?itemCd=magglornageoath

also that made me lol.

MINE!

my cat peed on my backpack today. that's okay though. i have lots of backpacks.

...I really like backpacks

http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=43462360&ref=cat3_gallery_1

omg that's soooo cuuuute

http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=42865799&ref=cat3_gallery_1

OR THAT. that's cool. it's probably my inner weeaboo but fuck it. yes I am a weeaboo.

http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=43530788&ref=cat3_gallery_11

FGHAAHHH ROBOTS

...I need to stop spending money. ),: otakon is $65. >____> and that's if you prereg... ffff.. I think I'll do that with my next paycheck HAHAHA. ...I want money, but I don't like working.

SPEAKING OF WHICH.

I need to go to bed nao. work tomorrow. ): I won't be hearing anything from the comic book store til august cuz the owner or someone said they're gonna hire an ex-employee friend type person who lives in cali atm. and he's gonna work at the shop for the summer... but in august they'll need more people. either two part times, or one full time.

I was told I was in the good pile though! *crosses fingers* see, this is what I need! people telling me straightforward: hey, you're cool. hey, you're lame.

OKAY BED TIEM LULZ

HAHAHAHA

inversefun — Tue, 06 Apr 2010 03:48:48 GMT

...this is me being lame, because I taped the pokewalker to my hand to get steps. seriously, 10k+ steps to get a flying / surfing pikachu?

NO MISTER. NO. they're just asking for nerds to go and cheat their steps up. I want my pikachu dang it, and I want a GOOD ONE.

...also watts are hard to get.

...I'M SLEEPY. I'm thinking of getting some comics tomorrow. either green lantern or uhhh some comic about vikings rofl

YEAH VIKINGS

inversefun — Thu, 01 Apr 2010 07:34:01 GMT

okay so I didn't sweep the kanto gyms. and misty's a biatch, but she has beautiful new hair and I enjoy her new style.

ffffffnnnnghhhrrrrr. I work 2-8 again... I spent my break sleeping today rofl. I really just don't want to go to work tomorrow... >_____> SHHHH.

OH WELL. can't wait to get my paycheck on friday... gonna get fables 12 and I'll be all caught up. I just like going to the comic store luls, just gives me a place to go since I can't drive I can't really GO anywhere HURRR.

IT'S LIKE IN SITCOMS it's just that place the peeps hang out at. except it's a book shop and not a cafe / bar so you can't really loiter around as easily without feeling awkward cuz. ...yeah.

fgsfdf k time to go to bed BYE LOL

YESSSS

inversefun — Wed, 31 Mar 2010 07:59:46 GMT

I finally finished training all my pokemans with their EVs... and sabrina is a giant FAES. it's all like ESPEON USES PSYCHIC! *drains half life* IT WASN'T VERY EFFECTIVE...

the equivalent of that would be punching me in the face, popping out a bunch of my crowns and while I'm standing there with blood pouring out of my mouth I manage a grin and say: 'pfft that didn't hurt.'

of course that is completely unrealistic because if someone punched me that hard, I'd start crying. or I'd punch them back. or I would've felt the tension escalating and threw the first punch to avoid getting my teeth knocked out.

maybe I'll just bleed on them, like brad pitt in fight club.

BUT I BEAT HER. I BEAT HER! my homie aggron was like, 's'up, eat my iron tail' and boy howdy, I tell you that tail hurts a lot when it's made out of rock and steel, and it belongs to the body of a creature that's 700+ lbs.

i want an aggron. mine's named rorii AND TODAY HE ROLLED AROUND HAPPILY it was very cute because his little sprite started spastically spinning around in a circle. doridoridoridoridoridoridori.

also because he's a dinosaur made out of steel and rock and is like seven feet tall. fck yea dinosaurs.

dear pokemans: make a cooler bear pokemon.

TIME FOR BED MUST GO TO WORK TOMORROW. I clock in at 2PM but I'm getting a ride with my mom, and she's going at 11:30AM so I'll be a bit early... but I'll spend that time SWEEPING THE OTHER KANTO GYM LEADERS. HAHAHAHA!

...okay I'll stop being dumb and go to bed now.

ridonkulous.

inversefun — Tue, 30 Mar 2010 06:20:00 GMT

don't expect anything out of anyone because most people are just going to disappoint you. and it is absolutely ridiculous how simple some of these tasks are that people for some reason can't DO.

if you don't want to do something, then don't do it. it's understandable. people don't want to do things sometimes. but for the love of God, just step forward and say: 'hey sorry I can't do this right now.' I would rather be disappointed and know what to expect, than be disappointed and left hanging wondering what the hell I'm doing next.

it pisses me off to have people idle off or laze away--look if you want to quit, then quit. don't worry about disappointing or making people angry, because guess what? that shit's inevitable. like I said if someone couldn't do something for me, I'd rather they tell me so I wasn't just waiting here. even if I'm disappointed, I won't be angry. because GUESS WHAT. you're BOUND TO BE DISAPPOINTED IN LIFE, and sometimes there's no one to blame so all you can do is wallow in pity for a little bit and then get over it.

I've got better fucking things to do with my time than waiting for YOU to step forward to tell me what YOU can't do. this is my life, and I don't want to spend it waiting and expecting something from you, when I'm not going to get anything. don't waste my time, because I don't got a lot of it, get it? life is too short to be dwelling on things you haven't gotten any closure from, so wrap it up cheese and crackers.

seriously if you want to say no, then just SAY NO. it doesn't have to be mean, but don't trail off and leave it hanging there.

don't spend life fucking around with your words. don't dance around subjects or people or compliments or anything like that.

more people need to be less afraid of honesty. they need to be less afraid of getting their feelings hurt, or hurting other people's feelings. or idfk, some people need to rein in their emotions and not be an asshole for someone telling them the facts. you're angry? think about it before you do or say anything else you make an ass of yourself.

and being careful with words =/= not being honest. eloquent. be it.

there're just so many instances where people have made me go WTF.
- why am I leaving? uh because no one's talked to me in a month. don't be surprised, please. maybe you shouldn't cram so many people in your life that their arms and legs are busting out the cracks. maybe you shouldn't have dug yourself in a hole with me if you weren't gonna commit, eh?
- yes. you are an asshole because you constantly look down on me, you're constantly telling me what I fail at, or not caring about what I say. yet you seem to want me to place you on a pedestal. also using the word hypocrite and then being one is hypocritical. and ironic. also once again: it makes you look like an ass. btw, karma's a bitch, but only because you were first. oh did you think all those great things about me? maybe you should've actually said it.
- seriously? you could've just said, 'not really into it anymore.' I'd understand perfectly. I'm a big girl, I think I understand when people don't want to do something--and they're not doing it to spite someone.
- don't fucking stare awkwardly in the opposite direction at nothing. just say it. you're already doing it in a way, it's already awkward--you think this is sparing ANYONE'S feelings? take a solid step forward and say the words out loud.

is this rant one giant irony ball? YES. YES IT IS. because unfortunately, people are never going to be this open to honesty. I'll just start with myself then and say I'm open to anyone's honesty. I may not necessarily give it back, because not everyone is going to feel the same way.

tl;dr - be honest. don't be a dick. don't be negative to positive honesty.

that is my retail face

inversefun — Mon, 29 Mar 2010 05:54:36 GMT

also yaaaay cognitive therapist tomorrow... lol not really yay. >____> I hope it's like the first day of school... where you just kinda chill and learn about each other. I have this thing about people I don't know trying to delve into my mind, pulling out information that I feel like I'd die if I said out loud SOOOO...

also I hate it when people psycho-analyze. you know, people who aren't doctors. or have a degree. or clearly have no idea what they're talking about?

it's like, 's'up. here's an analysis for you: you got a dick in your brain.'

I'll just ramble about things that make me angry two of which I can say rite nao:

people who tell the HS freshmen that there's a pool on the roof / basement. this makes me rage greatly for two reasons:

1. Why would anyone believe a high school has a pool on the roof. seriously. you know what places have pools on the roofs? EXPENSIVE. NICE. URBAN. PLACES MEANT FOR NON-SNOTTY TEENAGERS. like you know a HOTEL as opposed to a PUBLIC HIGH SCHOOL. and basement? yes, there's a basement. it's just one giant room. with a pool. they were like 'hey guys, we just got this giant extra room here. what should we do with it? oh, let's make it a SECRET POOL. UNDER THE GROUND. because we need a secret pool more than we need more classrooms or a study area, or maybe something USEFUL.'

2. seriously come up with a better prank if you're going to be in high school learning and growing your brain or something you can come up with something actually decent. OR I GUESS SINCE IT'S HIGH SCHOOL, YOU'RE MEANT TO BE DUMB ANYWAY.

also people who use legendaries. in the game, not the card game. because it's cheap to use the ZOMGZGOD characters. >>>:

kk done bitching

THERAPPYYYYY

inversefun — Sun, 28 Mar 2010 03:00:47 GMT

drawing is hard

I don't know how I want to draw whether it be realistically or more anime styled or just silly cartoon style.. but no matter what it feels like I'M DOING SOMETHING WRONG! either cuz I feel like it's not original or it just doesn't look rite... >x>

I'LL STICK WITH STICK FIGURES

on another note I got fables 11 which is pretty badass. cinderella gouges out this guy's dude's eyes with her thumbs like RAWRGHHSPRTTT. it's awesome.

bye

yeaaaaaah!!!

inversefun — Sat, 27 Mar 2010 01:02:43 GMT

life's still got its bumps but because life is a gigantic DOUCHEBAG it does that. hallmark is still pretty sweet it's only given me a tiny incident of rage, but i got over it. sort of like animu protagonists and getting stabbed through the pancreaslungkidneyheart. or superheroes and death. they apparently get better from that a lot.

i app'd for a job at the comic book store across the street and FFFFFFHHHNGGGSSSS if i get it and get decent hours i'm gonna be pretty happy with life. and by pretty happy i mean like awesomeface happy.

ALSO I GOT APPROACHED BY A PSYCHIC AT THE MALL TODAY LOL but she asked for $50 in return for a reading and I'm like 'i have no money but if I did have an excess of money i would try this'

i bought a green lantern comic book instead. i heard he's a pretty cool guy. he's green and does stuff.

also pokemon OMG FFFFFFF no right my life sucks right now because my pokewalker won't connect to my GAME. I WANT THOSE 500 WATTS MAN!

500 WATTS!

*deep breath*

Writer's Block: It's me, not you [correction: it's not me, it's you.]

inversefun — Sat, 20 Feb 2010 01:31:58 GMT

WHOOOA THE HTML'S ALL CRAZY AND SHIZ

no i haven't, but it doesn't matter cuz my self esteem is a good punching bag regardless. PUNCHPUNCHPUNCHPUNCH. I just try to bend over for everyone on the outside and seethe on the inside.

I don't like causing conflict. ):