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I'm terrible keeping up to date...

integral88 — Tue, 25 Jun 2013 20:56:55 GMT

It's been about two years since I last updated... how bad am I? OTL

Well recently with my life, I have been diligently working on cosplay and work itself. I have a Disney World trip coming up next week and then a week after that is SDCC. I must have my Lilith cosplay ready by the end of this week. I have an obligation to help a couple of friends of mine at their booth. So much to do....so little time.

I played The Last of Us and it is BEYOND AMAZING! This game definitely IS the Game of the Year. I Love everything about it--even though it scares me.... ): But it is so riveting! and you get drawn in deep into that world and develop an emotional attachment to both Joel and Ellie. I HIGHLY recommend this game to anyone wanting to try it or something new.

Long Awaited Update

integral88 — Tue, 21 Sep 2010 16:48:11 GMT

Hello...

How is everyone doing? Everyone that is still here. It really has been an extremely long time, has it not? I would say--4 years?

A lot has changed since then. From my friends to living situation and style. I recently moved out of my parents house about a month ago and now live with my boyfriend. I also in a little mini web Resident Evil series that my twin and a friend created, but it expanded and we have our friends involved so it is a big group effort now.

Currently, I am ill. Been bedridden for almost 3 days now. I have caught a cold and fighting it off. I've never slept so much in my life before. It really reminds me of when I first met my friend Shari a few winters ago when I had a cold. I could swear she was cosplaying as little Bo Peep, but generally when I am sick, my vision is really skewed. It is better than yesterday, really what I am going through now is shaking, dizziness, slight joint pains, and a headache.

I've met and made some new friends, one of them whom is dear to me, made my profile and made my journal page gorgeous. Thank you Leslie.

As far as Cosplay plans. I'm finishing up on Pokemon, but I really want to work on my Ciel cosplay. I want to cosplay him so bad, it is almost like a dream. I will go all out for this character. I still have Lethe to do for a Fire Emblem cosplay, but she won't take too much time as much as Ciel would.

ATTENTION!!!!

integral88 — Tue, 13 Jun 2006 16:22:37 GMT

HEIM PRODUCTIONS WILL BE PERFORMING SATURDAY JULY 1st 2006 @ THE TEAHOUSE

-President of 3

Nothing

integral88 — Tue, 13 Jun 2006 03:34:01 GMT

Did nothing today really, worked on some dancing for the performance on the 1st of July. WATCHED FIFA!!!!!!!!!! ITALY WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WOOO!!!!!!!! That is pretty much it...My life so far: Sleep, Eat, work, FIFA!!!!!!!!!!!!! Games

integral88 — Wed, 07 Jun 2006 18:58:45 GMT

By the way...I got paid...Muwahahahahaha

integral88 — Wed, 07 Jun 2006 18:50:01 GMT

Well today is HOT!!! But that is why *horns blow* I HAVE POPSICLES!!!!! The awesomest thing ever! Who ever invented them was a friggen genius!

Blank..really

integral88 — Sat, 03 Jun 2006 03:53:10 GMT

I do not know what to put here...........
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^ ^;;

Hi.

Back

integral88 — Wed, 03 May 2006 23:47:03 GMT

Well I am back from the con. I have some pictures that I snagged from Soda-chan, XP

(Left: me {Kingdom Hearts 2- Sora} Right: Mirranda {Kingdom Hearts 2- Axel}

(Left top: Lauren {Kingdom Hearts 2- Aerith}, Center top: me {Kingdom Hearts 2 - Sora}, Left top:Mirranda {Kingdom Hearts 2 - Axel}, Left bottom: Cat (Final Fantasy VII- Red XIII), Left center- Nik (Kingdom Hearts 2 - Tifa)

That's it so far.

Yay-ness

integral88 — Fri, 28 Apr 2006 19:19:50 GMT

Alright, I admit to you all, I'm terrible at updating this thins...v v;;; Well I am doing well so far. I just live life along now not really caring about anything except FRIENDS & FAMILY. (Got it memorized? - Axel.) Thank you Axel, ^ ^ Well today is the convention day. I'll be cosplaying as "Sora" from "Kingdom Hearts 2" and oh my gosh.....I want to kill his hair and shoes, yes, I will personify his hair so that I can stab it if not once but more....o o;;; I think the skit will be OKAY, not great, but okat. We had a nice cosplay and skit altogether before the rules had been established, since then, change was in order. One minor problem we did have is that people were starting to drop out and I was getting sad from this, but there is nothing I can really do about it, in the end, it is their choice. So.....I will jst make a goodiebag for them, so they don't feel left out ^ ^.

Uh..so many things are going on at school, I don't think Lauren is in a very good mood, before I left, she was really upset, so I hope she feels better. GOOD LUCK LITTLE LADY! Nik (the boy) transfered out of school, so that was kind of sad I guess.

I decided to change the background and such on my journal as you can see. It's a small series that I have been reading for a while now, pretty cute story and very hilarious. It's called "Ouran High School Host Club"; the anime is just as good, it stays pretty close to the manga, but I have yet to finish the series and wait for the next manga volume to come out.

There is not much to say really, work, sleep, eat, school, bath, that is my life. Rarely do anything now, most of my friends think I have no life ><. but I think I do, I mean I am alive, so that makes me feel good enough.

Well I suppose I will be going now, about ready to finish loading the van so we can drive to the 2006 first annual "Shiokazecon" (I miss KAmiKaze, so much cooler >= P) which will be held April 28-30. See ya later.

P.S. I have found the camcorder battery charger XD

P.S.S. I'll take pictures and such XP

integral88 — Wed, 22 Mar 2006 01:03:25 GMT

I feel like this...http://i11.photobucket.com/albums/a186/Asato-Tsuzuki/woman.jpg

Good news finally

integral88 — Wed, 22 Mar 2006 00:30:25 GMT

I HAVE BEEN ACCEPTED TO SFA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....

'nough said....>>

http://i11.photobucket.com/albums/a186/Asato-Tsuzuki/comic.jpg

Finally, some good news..^ ^

integral88 — Thu, 16 Feb 2006 14:43:23 GMT

I see that I have three comments, but I am not going to look at them. the reason I say that, is because I want to apologize. I said things in that last entry, that I did not mean to say. I am sorry. I just felt so frustrated. I don't like abandoning people and thinking nothing of them. I just got so annoyed because I feel like I lost people close to me. I suppose I deserve this. I'm sorry everyone. I thought about what I had typed last night before I went to bed. I cried on it to sleep. I came up with a conclusion. ^ ^.....I have to let things just be instead of rushing for it to be alright. It takes time, but I just wanted things to go back to the way they are. I'm sorry again. I'm going to go now.

integral88 — Thu, 16 Feb 2006 04:16:16 GMT

I do not know why I even try anymore. I try to say hello, smile and be friendly, but I suppose I am nothing. I am tired of crying over this. I can't believe I cried yesterday on the way home? What the hell was I thinking?! Why am I remorsing and retrospecting on memories that made me happy?! You know what? To hell with it. For once, I give up on something, I don't want to be nice to people if they are just going to laugh behind my back. Thanks

NOTICE

integral88 — Tue, 14 Feb 2006 16:03:23 GMT

I know this may seem out of context and place, so please excuse me for this, but to those whom all are going to the SHIOKAZE-CON convention that is in the "Final Fantasy" group cosplay, please we need to get togther and finish "Cait Sith", so that we may move on to the next cosplayer. Also, Lauren (w) we must finish typing the skit and hand out the dialouge to all who are participating in the cosplay skit. Please contact as soon as possible, there is only about 2 months and a half. Thank you!

It gets worse

integral88 — Thu, 09 Feb 2006 00:34:03 GMT

My father is getting worse. I got a phone call about an hour and a half ago during work, it is worse than before. I tried to smile through it, but I started to break down in front of Tuan. I'm sorry... I don't know, but I'm sorry... It is impossible for me to talk right now, due to trauma, my vocals are sore now, so I cannot speak. I am currently using pen and paper. In five more hours, if my father does not show any signs of recovery, we have to send him to the emergency room. For a week now, he has not used the bathroom, and it has spreaded down to his lower half of his body. I do not know what to do, I am so scared... I'm so afraid... I'm sorry

Worried sick

integral88 — Wed, 08 Feb 2006 00:15:35 GMT

He is not getting any better, it has oved into his lungs and my father is so drugged. Yesterday I stayed home to look after him. Throughtout the whole day of school today, I really tried my best to smile, here at work as well. I don't know hiow much longer this will all last. He keeps saying "Put me out of my misery" But I suppose we are being selfish for not wanting him to give up. then he said if we ever have any animals and go through what he is, to spare them and put them out of misery.

My head hurts from all this anxiety and being worried. I called him an hour ago to check on him, but he can barely speak now. Thankfully I could decipher what he had to say. Heh, he gave me a nickname today. "Sweetie" that is a first.

It hurts more

integral88 — Sun, 05 Feb 2006 17:46:36 GMT

I had the most wonderful wake up this morning. My mother is telling me we have to rush my father to the emergency room. It has been two weeks now and my fathers health has not been progressing. At this point I am trying to keep a smile and act like it is all okay, but for the first time....My father spoke to me in a fatherly way this morning...

"I have money saved for you and your sister for college, don't be stupid and waste it all. It is insurance money. Please be wise with it and earn a steady job after college"...

I can't take this...Even though I know how my father is all the things he should not have called me and done, but he loved me and gave me tough love. I love him very much, and him saying that....it's killing me...To watch him suffer in the bed this morning, He could not breathe...I can't take this...I saw my father cry for the very first time...I can't take this...

integral88 — Thu, 02 Feb 2006 23:18:21 GMT

At home has been..."okay" I guess. Blah, I'm so tired. My dad is still very ill. I am really worried.

integral88 — Mon, 30 Jan 2006 23:30:36 GMT

Hm...today was okay. ^ ^ New years was great yesterday! MAtt came over <3 ^ ^ It was pretty funny. It was Lauren, Matt and Ben that came over for new years. Shane and his girlfriend were going to come over, but they didn't so that is okay. Either way, it was fun. I suppose I am upset about somethings, but I am tired of crying, so it is going to drop in my mind. There is a big deal out of nothing, so whatever. To continue being like this, I need to grow up, can't be a child anymore when my life is coming towards me.

We have to do a MOVIE!!!!! It is so awesome, Mirranda, Lauren (m), Ashley (w), Lidia, Rikki, and myself are to make a movie for theater class! It is so cool. I talked to Tuan about being i the movie! MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA XP Well got customers! See ya ^ ~

integral88 — Sat, 28 Jan 2006 06:22:46 GMT

Which FF Character Are You?

Today was okay. Family still wired and such. *sigh* So much guilt right now...what do I do?

Thank you

integral88 — Wed, 18 Jan 2006 01:34:58 GMT

If you have not noticed my LJ has changed a bit, say thank you to Ray. Because of him, I like "Loveless" So with all do respect...THANK YOU RAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Things at home are slowly going okay so far, I think it is because I was home for once, heh. That and my parents have cooled off for now. I am home ill, which ,too, is also weird. Um...wrote three papers and trying to finish this last one. I thought I'd update sincde it has been a while. I'M VERY SORRY!!!!!!!

Well...

integral88 — Sun, 15 Jan 2006 17:57:04 GMT

This is quite interesting, Thank you Lauren and Conrad, I know it has been quite a while since I last updated but yeah, lol. I am at work now, checking my mail and such, wasting time basically.

Hm.. This week has been a rollar coaster for me, emotionally, so much has happened with my family now, and when I try to smile and cheer up, go out with friends, spend time with family, even then, no one really understands. It is okay to joke, but lately, when people have said somethings, I get a shock of the past hitting me I think it is just bad timing, lol.

Anyways, on to something exciting and less personal. Shiokazecon is soon! I can not wait, I shall be Zidane! So my Lj background might change. I was going to be Vincent fron VII but I realize I am not tall.

Well I guess I will try and be more responsible about updating. I'm Sorry.

integral88 — Tue, 25 Oct 2005 22:42:40 GMT

Why Dir En Grey?

Well well, muwahahahahahahahaha

I will be cosplaying the infamous DIE!
All thanks to Mirranda!!!!! For making this lovely journal for me in celebration of our cosplay to Dir en Grey and performing at the Teahouse for all.
My only problem that is killing me, those guitar tabs.....Bah!!! XD

Mirranda will be Kyo and my sister will be Mana from Malice Mizer.

Funny, it is this Saturday we will be doing it. MANY PICTURES AND A MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stole from Mirranda

integral88 — Fri, 07 Oct 2005 04:33:22 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Natalie or Shong Li
Birthday:	07/18/88
Birthplace:	Coltsneck, New Jersey
Current Location:	Texas
Eye Color:	Dark Brown
Hair Color:	Black
Height:	5 '2 1/2
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right handed
Your Heritage:	Asian/Italian
The Shoes You Wore Today:	4 year old Vans that will never go unless they are seriously broken
Your Weakness:	Grandfather
Your Fears:	Not becoming someone worth respecting.
Your Perfect Pizza:	Spinach alfredo
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Finish High School with an "A"
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	^ ^
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Read or play?
Your Best Physical Feature:	Hair
Your Bedtime:	Depends
Your Most Missed Memory:	Times spent with Grandfather
Pepsi or Coke:	None
MacDonalds or Burger King:	None
Single or Group Dates:	None
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	None
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	None
Do you Smoke:	No
Do you Swear:	No, Unless mad.
Do you Sing:	Yes
Do you Shower Daily:	Yes
Have you Been in Love:	Don't care much for it.
Do you want to go to College:	Yea
Do you want to get Married:	Eventually
Do you belive in yourself:	Yes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	No
Do you think you are Attractive:	Not really
Are you a Health Freak:	Sometimes
Do you get along with your Parents:	Sometimes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yes
Do you play an Instrument:	Yes
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	No
In the past month have you Smoked:	No
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	No
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	No
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Teahouse.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	Yes
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Yes
In the past month have you been Dumped:	No
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	No
Ever been Drunk:	No
Ever been called a Tease:	Yes
Ever been Beaten up:	No
Ever Shoplifted:	Yes, at 5 yeards old.
How do you want to Die:	That is for whenever it is my time.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	Physician, Animator, Optomitrist, Music performer, etc.
What country would you most like to Visit:	Asia
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Any
Favourite Hair Color:	Any
Short or Long Hair:	Depends
Height:	Taller than myself
Weight:	Lean, but it's about personality
Best Clothing Style:	Whatever is comfortable.
Number of Drugs I have taken:	None, unless perscribed.
Number of CDs I own:	Too many.
Number of Piercings:	One on each ear.
Number of Tattoos:	None
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	Not being able to spend mre timw with my Grandfather.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

integral88 — Fri, 30 Sep 2005 00:39:21 GMT

I have a very tough decision to make...

For Halloween should I be Haruno Sakura or Sasuke Uchiha...? I was also thinking about Chrono from Chrono Crusade, but I might have to work, so I must go with something simple.. I am kind of leaning towards Sakura, but I am not sure.

I am taking a vote!!!!

(A.) Haruno Sakura

or

(B.) Sasuke Uchiha

Please comment!!!!!!!