First post... it only took six years.
I've had this lj for... six years now? And I'm actually now just writing in it. Go figure. I just wanted to get something off my chest, but felt that if I posted any of this on Facebook, I'd be seen as an attention whore. I also have Tumblr, but I'd rather use that for funny pictures than my personal problems. So, as I don't have any friends on here, I felt this was the best place to do it. And isn't the point of a diary being that no one reads it?
Today is my 22nd birthday. This is what I learned today:
+ It's okay to spend money if it's your birthday (or money you received for Christmas).
+ ALWAYS check amazon.com before buying anything in a brick and mortar store.
+ Wanting Indian food on a Monday is like wanting Chick-fil-a on a Sunday. It ain't gonna happen.
If anyone decides to read this, let me tell you that I have general anxiety disorder. Among other things, I have a horrible fear of spending money on things that I don't need for survival. I decided to go to Barnes and Noble to get Rick Steves' Best of Europe 2012 (I'm moving to France in October). On top of that purchase, I also bought a planner and Rocko's Modern Life Season One on DVD. The total was about $68. Yes, I knew it was my birthday, but I felt absolutely horrible about buying them. I almost had a panic attack in the store-- my throat constricted, I felt dizzy and overwhelmed in the Travel section. There were too many options, and I didn't want to spend a ton of money on books that wouldn't fit in my suitcase.
To add onto that episode, I ran myself ragged around town trying to find an Indian restaurant that was open. I tried the two I knew of and two that Urbanspoon led me to... all of them were closed. This would probably just piss someone off, but me, I wanted to cry. So that's what I did when I got home after settling on a Japanese restaurant. It was the straw that broke the camel's back.
Well, I've taken a Xanax, and hopefully after a nice cup of tea, I'll be in order for rehearsal and then Brave tonight.
Today is my 22nd birthday. This is what I learned today:
+ It's okay to spend money if it's your birthday (or money you received for Christmas).
+ ALWAYS check amazon.com before buying anything in a brick and mortar store.
+ Wanting Indian food on a Monday is like wanting Chick-fil-a on a Sunday. It ain't gonna happen.
If anyone decides to read this, let me tell you that I have general anxiety disorder. Among other things, I have a horrible fear of spending money on things that I don't need for survival. I decided to go to Barnes and Noble to get Rick Steves' Best of Europe 2012 (I'm moving to France in October). On top of that purchase, I also bought a planner and Rocko's Modern Life Season One on DVD. The total was about $68. Yes, I knew it was my birthday, but I felt absolutely horrible about buying them. I almost had a panic attack in the store-- my throat constricted, I felt dizzy and overwhelmed in the Travel section. There were too many options, and I didn't want to spend a ton of money on books that wouldn't fit in my suitcase.
To add onto that episode, I ran myself ragged around town trying to find an Indian restaurant that was open. I tried the two I knew of and two that Urbanspoon led me to... all of them were closed. This would probably just piss someone off, but me, I wanted to cry. So that's what I did when I got home after settling on a Japanese restaurant. It was the straw that broke the camel's back.
Well, I've taken a Xanax, and hopefully after a nice cup of tea, I'll be in order for rehearsal and then Brave tonight.