a day in the life

this crossposting business.

ignited — Sun, 23 Nov 2014 04:21:47 GMT

Because I'm great at reading comprehension, I finally figured out the Dreamwidth/LJ crossposting business. Only took me three years. Or more. Whatever. My most recent entry is here in case you missed it (since I noticed a lot of people tend to use Dreamwidth more nowadays than LJ).

tl;dr I'm on Tumblr, I'm writing again, I'm cursing why I'm writing a Steve Rogers/Bucky Barnes sports AU but I'll blame a meme for that.

(help oh god).

what's going onnn (and I say...)

ignited — Sun, 16 Nov 2014 23:39:09 GMT

oh LJ. I wanna do a check in on the state of things, but then I don't, and then I forget, and blah blah blah.

So if you don't already have me on Tumblr, I'm here. If you do, yay! If not, here's what I've been up to...

-- Cap 2 / MCU / Steve/Bucky has eaten my brain. I've been making a lot of art about it/them.

-- I stopped watching Supernatural and and into Marvel. ...uh if it wasn't already obvious? I do feel like checking out the 200th episode for nostalgia reasons but I have so much catching up to do and lately...

-- Work is eating my brain as it does for everyone. I've had two separate things pop up today and it's making me irritable. Hard not to just dive into fannish/relaxing stuff when I get home because I'm usually so tired as it is.

-- Travel! I finally took my first vacation in two years and went to Dragon*Con for the first time back in August. I dressed up as Gamora and the Winter Soldier. Also did NYCC where I did Winter Soldier, again. I have the cosplay bug; I'm already plotting what I'll dress up as for D*C next year.

-- Wincon! I missed out on Wincon this year because it was either one or the other (*points up*) and I needed a break so Atlanta it was. If you haven't already checked out the IndieGoGo campaign for Wincon, you should (or at least tell your friends).

-- Writing is easier and by that I mean, it totally isn't, and I'm not churning out fic at the rate I used to, but I was in college with barely shit to do when I wrote so much (and now I have work. So. Makes sense.) Working on some AUs and I missed out on the Marvel Big Bang because I'm lame. But I feel like I've expanded this summer in the sense that I've done a lot of ficlets/smaller stuff (much of it kink), and just getting over the kink hurdle has made me feel like I can do anything? Whereas before with fandom hiearchies and all this other shit got in the way but literally no one cares and you write for yourself and yes it's taken me years to realize this. I NEVER SAID I WAS QUICK ON THE UPTAKE.

So that's the state of me.

we're up all night to find bucky

ignited — Fri, 11 Apr 2014 00:42:38 GMT

If you like the Winter Soldier and fanmixes, you should check out the one I made the other day. 80's! Cyberpunk! DAFT PUNK. Yeaaaaahhh.

I may not be around on LJ but I'm posting a shit load of Cap edits on Tumblr if that's your bag. (Uh, if Bucky Barnes is your bag, I guess. Cap 2 spoilers abound.)

hi LJ! how's things?

ignited — Mon, 24 Mar 2014 02:26:57 GMT

I am updating to say I saw Captain America: The Winter Soldier at one of those fan screenings this week and it was amazing. (The theater wasn't but that's because they overbooked and somehow me getting there 5 hours early worked out in the end, eeesh.) Anyway, not sure how many of you guys are into it but go see the movie when it's released. I felt that it was the best Marvel movie since the Avengers. I rambled a bit about it here (very vague and general) and I might post my thoughts in an LJ post just so I have it down somewhere. Can't really post it on Tumblr right now because I am wary of spoiling people by accident (seriously, the movie is SO good, you don't want to be spoiled).

in other news, I posted Bucky/Steve fic! LIKE AN ADULT. Or some shit. I'm working on an AU now. IT WILL NOT DEFEAT ME.

Fanart: "Who the hell is Steve?" (Captain America/The Avengers)

ignited — Sun, 22 Dec 2013 04:36:19 GMT

Thought I should crosspost from my Tumblr (since in my absence from LJ I keep seeing a few of you into Avengers or Cap here or on AO3): AU art I did for Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes -- AU with a twist.

Who the hell is Steve? → AU where they both fall: Steve Rogers becomes the Winter Soldier and Bucky Barnes comes back as the new Captain America.

...yes, Winter Soldier and Cap (and Bucky and Steve and BuckyandSteve) have eaten my brain (made a quick LJ background since it's been so long) aaaahhhh I need it.

sleepy hollow is really good you guys

ignited — Thu, 19 Sep 2013 00:59:37 GMT

It's ridiculous and fun and I like it a lot. Looking forward to watching.

I could've sworn I posted an entry a few weeks ago re: the new Batman casting but um, guess not. I can do that sometime this weekend? (Also less crazed with time passing, heh).

How are you? :)

Man of Steel (spoilers including the ending)

ignited — Mon, 17 Jun 2013 19:11:47 GMT

Saw it twice, IMAX 3D on Friday night, regular 2D on Saturday morning.

Man of Steel (SPOILERS including the ending)

I kind of really liked it? Like there were pacing and editing issues (apparently the original cut of the film was 3 hours long, which makes a lot of sense with the pacing, jesus) but as a Superman fan I enjoyed it. Here's a review I agree with (love the call out to Mark Waid's review. ILU Mark Waid but you wrote Kingdom Come. lolololol). What amuses me is that it seems to be a film either people love or hate, which I get. I don't understand comparing it to the original Christopher Reeve movies because they have nothing to do with the storylines or the Superman portrayed -- that's basically pre-Crisis Superman and this is the John Byrne '86 post-Crisis Superman. Noticed a lot of the comic fans liked that they stuck to the modern comics and not the previous Bronze Age.

I love the original Superman films. I do. But sometimes they don't hold up. And that version of Superman hasn't existed for years.

What's interesting is that Henry Cavill supposedly based his interpretation of Kal/Clark off The Death of Superman/Return of Superman storylines, as well as Superman: Red Son and Superman/Batman: The Search for Kryptonite. Which makes a hell of a lot of sense. It also makes me adore his Superman/Clark/Kal (fave movie wise, TV-wise gotta be Dean Cain, yo. MEMORIES.)

(Also, can we talk about what a big geek Cavill is? In a happy, positive way. He was playing World of Warcraft and didn't pick up the phone when Zack Snyder called him because he couldn't pause the game. He plays Skyrim and reading fantasy novels til morning hours! His dad set up PCs for Henry and his 4 brothers to play network gaming oh god I CAN'T, I CAN'T.

...also he'd want to play Bizarro himself and fight Doomsday or Braniac I CAN'T WITH YOU. OKAY.

omg so happy to see him do well aaahhh)

I LOVED Lois in this movie, holy shit. I also loved that she figured out Clark's identity early on (which naturally people are pissed about so bwahahaha, DEAL WITH IT) and their relationship was interesting. I wish she had been given more to do, but basically everyone who's not Superman himself had a small part so. RECTIFY THIS IN THE NEXT ONE.

It'd be nice if there were some lighter moments (basically just like the last 5 minutes of the movie. CLARK DISGUISE AHHH.) but at the same time, don't revert to the past and go overly campy. It's tricky. People don't like Superman because he's too "good" or "campy" but if he's serious he's too dark. This is what happens when WB takes a look at TDK and TDKR and thinks, "NOLAN-IZE EVERYTHING DARK DARK RAARRGHH!" Critics loved Superman Returns because it reminded them of the old films but the fans didn't because, well, he's not like that anymore (also he basically just lifts things.). And I LOVED that movie. But in comparison to this, no.

Also worried since if they're fast tracking the film for next year, the script might go by the wayside again. ugghh.

I would've liked more interaction between Superman and the people of Metropolis before the all out slugfest at the end, but when you have beings with that power, if you're going to go for 'realism' (or Nolan/Goyer's brand of realism), everything would get smashed to shit. Superman fought Doomsday for miles across several states before their final showdown in Metropolis (which was fucked up after, at least, enough for them to use the excuse of Clark Kent being trapped in rubble for weeks while Superman was 'dead'). Really not surprised that it was all messed up. (Granted, the gravity/terraforming machines they ripped off of Superman: Earth One did not do the extensive damage that they did in the film, but whatever.) Hoping they have some deleted scenes.

Also I have no problem at all with the ending? He does try not to kill but he's made a canon exception before, and that was Zod. So having it happen here -- and having him destroy the last connection to Krypton/his past in order to protect humanity/his future -- was heart wrenching, exhausting, and painful. I really hope they explore more of that in the sequel (if they do one!). I think Clark went into exile after killing Zod in the original comic so... we'll see.

Randomly, I loved all the Krypton scenes and weird ass shit/aliens because that's how it fucking is. IT'S ALIEN. (omg Kelex aaahhh).

The movie was fucking intense and exhausting, man. Especially the first go as our seats were super close in IMAX. I was able to enjoy it more the second go and notice the little easter eggs (Supergirl! Wayne satellite! Carol Ferris! More here!).

uhhh I might edit this later but probably not so if you have any questions, let me know. Sorry for the ramble/if it's unclear.

I JUST REALLY LIKE CLARK KENT OKAY I WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY AND SOMEONE GIVE HENRY AN APPLE PIE, THE POOR MAN.

star trek into darkness (spoilers)

ignited — Fri, 17 May 2013 02:54:53 GMT

Saw Star Trek Into Darkness last night as part of an AMC fan sneak peek screening (miraculously got tickets 2 months ago!). BIG SPOILERS under the cut.

Yeah, I've been sitting on the fact that Benedict Cumberbatch is playing Khan for the past week or so now and it still fucking annoys me to no end.

That's the problem, for me. The movie was cool! It wasn't without its faults. I love the crew. I enjoyed the twists on familiar moments (even if it's basically fan-service). What I did not love is the fact that a white man is playing a character originally conceived as a PoC. Yes, Ricardo Montalban is not Indian but he was not white, for one thing. Also, I had to read enough apologist posts on Tumblr about Montalban's background that I want to punch things. "But he has Spanish ancestry! He's white!" He certainly did not identify him as white nor do I think casting agents at the time thought to look up his ancestry on first glance. Latinos and Latinas come in a whole spectrum of colors -- I'm a little on the pale side but I identify as Latina, thank you very much. ARGH.

I'm just gonna leave this link here from Racebending because it fucking pisses me off that we have to keep doing this shit, and keep seeing comments like, "oh stop making a big deal." Yeah, let's stop making a big deal for this one and that one and every damn movie that comes out. I'll just shut up and keep watching all the movies that DON'T have PoC in them. When can we make a big deal so it will enact any change? >:( Why do they have to cover up the fact that he's Khan until the movie's released so no one can protest? ARGHHH.

Now that I think about it, the theater also had a free screening of the new Fast and The Furious movie and hey! Those have PoC! I should watch those. Sigh.

….that said, other than that thing? The movie was very good, although I think my opinion may go down on re-watches when I start thinking of plot holes. The last half-hour felt super rushed to me. Like they spun the death but resolving it so quickly just sort of cheapened it a bit. (Granted, we don't want to remake ST:III because that was terrible but it had its moments and the big journey of bringing Spock back!). Tribble of Foreshadowing to save the day!

Spock was the best fucking thing about this movie and I love him to bits. I loved all the Kirk/Spock moments. Kirk was great as well! Oh Pine, stop making crap other movies -- fucking This Means War-- so I don't always have to be surprised by how well you can act! And UHURA oh maaaan, love her. Scotty and Bones were hilarious.

Carol Marcus was kind of lame, though. She was so much better in the original film. She had shit to do and didn't take Kirk's shit. Here, it was… eh. (Guess more material had to go to Daddy Robocop or something.)

io9 has a review up here and I agree with a lot of it (as well as this review on Collider), though maybe I can turn my brain off and enjoy it another time.

I'll probably edit this if I think of further things but yeah, there it is.

The next one better have whales in it, damn it.

iron man 3 and star trek

ignited — Wed, 15 May 2013 17:49:48 GMT

HI LJ.

Watch this space. I feel like I should make a proper "Iron Man 3 was amazing and I saw it 3 times in one week let me tell you my feelings" post, but I think what's worth being said has... been said. Come talk to me about that thing at the end though, you know the one. *_*

I'm seeing Star Trek Into Darkness tonight which I am not really excited to see tbh, for reasons I won't get into (having purchased tickets 2 months ago) but I get to hang out with people I like and maybe I will enjoy it? Or something.

I am plotting my next wincon ensemble and it's a pain in the butt, because I have... ideas?? Nothing concrete though. I have An Idea but probably doesn't fit whatever theme, which, okay, not like you HAVE to do the theme. Spoiler: there will be something metallic involved. That's vague enough for every idea actually.

Also, on a serious note, part of me wants to make a big "this is an update on my life!" if you don't follow me on Tumblr or Twitter, but honestly I hate making those (because I feel like I'm bothering people) so... probably not. That is not an invite to say it's not bothering; I just get weird phases of not wanting to post private stuff, and here's a phase! Whoo.

right. COME TALK TO ME ABOUT THE THING.

Fanart: "Second Star To The Right" by tiana

ignited — Fri, 01 Mar 2013 22:18:52 GMT

Here's my art for __tiana__'s j2_everafter story, "Second Star To The Right" based off of Peter Pan! This was very last minute so I couldn't do anything elaborate (and I've been crazy busy the past week with my birthday and work) but I was able to whip up these two for her! ...I may tweak them later because I am that dork.

Artwork under the cut.

warm bodies

ignited — Wed, 06 Feb 2013 20:07:01 GMT

...you should all go see this movie because it's awesome and holy crap I haven't posted since october, goddamnit LJ.

This would also be a good post to say I had a great time at Wincon (because apparently that's the last thing I posted about here) and friended a good deal of people from there, but if you want to follow my (updated daily) antics, you can message me for my Tumblr address (IDK I like keeping it small and tidy and on a need to know basis).

but anyway. Go see Warm Bodies, it's hilarious and self-aware. And I say that as only liking zombie movies if they involve a Shaun or an Ash in them. :D

wincon soon!

ignited — Tue, 16 Oct 2012 17:09:10 GMT

I'm REALLY excited about wincon! I haven't had a good week long vacation since... November? I had one in August but that was just me sitting around the house playing video games/chilling out because sometimes you just gotta play games and ignore distractions. Hah, responsible adult, what's that? (But really tho, work was worky. D:)

Anyway, long story short, I'll be getting in on Wednesday afternoon (tomorrow!) and leaving Monday morning. Come by and say hi. I've basically moved to Tumblr/Twitter but I am ALL about Avengers/science bros so I'm happy to chat and make googly eyes at Mark Ruffalo. :D

three things.

ignited — Tue, 21 Aug 2012 19:07:23 GMT

I. the avengers gag reel gives me life. (and so do the deleted scenes -- STEEEVE!! -- that goes without saying).

II. I will post two more science bro fics before wincon so I will feel like a slightly more productive idiot than I already am ("Yes, so I post fanart on Tumblr. Uh. But I've written 3 stories this year. Oh ho ho!"). Not being on LJ that often, I suddenly feel unproductive, even though I've basically moved to Tumblr. ...Shit.

III. Having said that, I think I'll make a science bro fic rec list? Because I haven't really seen any. So. For future reference!

wincon roomies

ignited — Thu, 09 Aug 2012 04:44:19 GMT

Hola! So I am going to wincon this year (yay!) but caithream and I need roommates. Plz volunteer. Or point us in the right direction (like if you're in need of two people). BE OUR ROOMMATES, WE ARE PRETTY AWESOME, NGL.

I'll just be that random person in the corner talking about Avengers. Just so you know. :D?

ETA: Roomies acquired! \o/

fic: 'are we falling or flying?' (bruce banner/tony stark; r)

ignited — Thu, 26 Jul 2012 02:00:55 GMT

Remember when I wrote fic? It's been a long while. But Avengers are lovely, so here we go!

Title: are we falling or flying? (on AO3)
Author: ignited
Fandom: The Avengers (2012), The Incredible Hulk (2008)
Pairing: Bruce Banner/Tony Stark
Rating: R
Word Count: 3,480
Warnings: Sexual content and language.
Summary: There’s a delicate balance between scientific study and morbid fascination, and Tony Stark sits squarely in the middle, Bruce reasons. Bruce becomes “one with his inner Hulk” and Tony bonds.
Author's Notes: Based off a prompt by grayscaled, “Tony bonding with the Hulk.” Sort of veered off prompt a bit but I hope you enjoy it. There's also some influence from the college experiments Banner talked about in The Incredible Hulk (2008). Many thanks to regala_electra and fourfreedoms for the betas and fantastic input! And their amazing boobs!

It’s hard to tell if you’re falling or flying when the wide stretch of ground looms up, dizzying in its vastness.

Tony would call it, ‘falling with style.’

His eyes tear up, as blurry shapes become objects, vivid details snap into focus, and he has to brace his body for impact—

Sometimes the ground breaks underfoot; a cloud of debris that stings his eyes.

It’s the slowest part—that split second that feels endless, how his muscles coil before he lurches up again, the ignition in the gun that shoots him off, another jump up, howling into the wind.

Other times, he doesn’t get to step two.

His very human body breaks and splinters, and then he wakes up, dreams of glory cut short.

“So, that was amazing,” Tony murmurs. He’s groggy and soon to be punchy without that shot of morning caffeine in his system, so Bruce lets him ride it out. “Good work, Doctor. Didn’t think you had it in you.”

Bruce stretches, aching in rediscovered places, the good kind of ache that doesn’t follow any dark aftermath. “You’re not too shabby yourself.”

“Rude,” Tony snaps, shuffling on the bed before he scrambles out, nearly digging a heel in the soft flesh of Bruce’s thigh. “On a not at all petty note, I’ve had at least four faux sex tape scandals. All woefully inaccurate. And inadequate.”

Tony still looks sure as hell pleased with himself, standing proud and naked as he checks his phone.

Bruce yawns, legs akimbo and tangled in sheets. He doesn’t want to get up for the next few hours at first, because it’s not always standard for him to have a bed, a place, a little scrap of land to himself. It doesn’t help that he’s still burning off the alcohol in his system, that old dull buzz he isn’t used to, not since college and before. He frowns, a little whine that escapes his throat.

Tony reads it wrong, murmuring, “Sorry, sorry. Not really feeling the cuddles today. You kick in your sleep. It’s kinda cute, if not completely terrifying. Like a goat—on steroids.”

Tony pauses. “I think that example got away from me there.” He grins, flinging the phone onto the bed with a flourish. “So. Shower, then breakfast, then R&D for a couple hours, and then, dinner. Or lunch. Whatever comes first. Mostly I’m just concerned about blowjobs.”

Everything shakes for a minute, that haze of morning light through slowly opening windows burning Bruce’s retinas. Here comes the hangover, slick and oily through his system. Bruce pinches the bridge of his nose just as Tony sits next to him abruptly, bumping his elbow. “Remember what I said about pointy things not setting me off? I’m pretty sure this revokes that. Too early.” He groans, falling back on the bed. “Giant green rage monsters need sleep, too.”

“Think of the headline. The Naked Hulk,” Tony says, the rest of the inevitable joke dies as he clears his throat.

It’s too early for dark humor, Bruce reasons, but he says it anyway, “I think the other guy’s sleeping it off to, uh, greet you.”

“Holy cow, wouldn’t that be something,” Tony says, and he’s back to picking up steam, staring off in the distance, all kinds of a green hued world of no in his mind’s eye. “But, you know. Angry sex isn’t really your thing, I get that.”

“No, it’s not,” Bruce replies, rolling onto his side. He catches Tony staring at him, and he stares right back before the moment’s broken, Tony’s hand slapping Bruce’s bare thigh. “Oww.”

“Up and at ‘em, Sleeping Beauty.”

“You’re tiptoeing, big man. You need to strut.”

No matter how much Tony likes to pry, he can only skim the surface, barely touching what rests deep in Bruce's bones.

Maybe he’s been there all along, Bruce thinks. Before the incident.

Maybe he just needed to be woken up.

“We’re talking college experiments,” Tony says, and he’s sitting on a chair, backwards, rolling a pen between the point A and B of his outstretched fingers. “And not the beer pong and grass kind. That could’ve been your problem, Banner. Not enough weed.”

“Oh, I had plenty,” Bruce says easily, and he can spy Tony’s grin out of the corner of his eye, this new little puzzle piece of information unlocked. They give and take, a steady push and pull, because the thrill is in discovery—like the schematics Tony has laid out here in blue and red. Everyone gets a floor. Even you. “These were different.”

“Induced hallucinations, right, right.” Tony changes tactics, swiping the glass surface. Old scans of Culver University lab results pop up, typewritten, back in the day. “Tripping the light fantastic.”

“Yeah,” Bruce says, gingerly poking at the holographic display, magnifying it. “Like a… “ He gestures. “Like this sense of euphoria and release.”

“Oh. Not just… Good old fashioned pot?”

“Tony.”

Tony raises an eyebrow, squinting at the scans. “Jesus Christ, that’ll pack a punch. The amounts here—they dosed you up with that much? Hello, control levels!”

“Yeah. But my earlier point still stands. Being… Him, being the other guy, it’s kind of like that. But heightened. Sort of. Distorted. Everything’s loud and these bright—these noises, I couldn’t make heads or tails of it.”

Tony frowns. “‘Couldn’t’? You mean it’s not like that now?”

“When I can have some semblance of control of it, lately… Yeah, then…” Bruce shrugs. “Then it’s… Then I can see.”

He makes a fist and the hologram dissolves into thin air.

The thing is, giving in would be so easy. If you’re always angry—

And then the moment passes, and it’s hard to keep focus. The entire body changes and shifts. Muscles expand, bones lengthen, organs grow. The body burns and strains to catch up with the new cells, new blood vessels, new everything.

And when Bruce can’t see straight from the pain—because there’s pain every single time, no matter how fast the transformation is—the only way to feel release is to embrace the power and ride that wave of endorphins, let go, and hope to God this so-called survival mechanism doesn’t kill anybody.

Tracing the thin line between them both, him and the other guy, and it’s like stepping off a cliff into the vast sky below.

Waiting for the ground to swallow him up.

He tries to keep his body clean of irritants—being on the run and without food helps, certainly, or how he tastes vomit in his mouth sometimes after changing, expelling the contents of his stomach (or his mind, or soul, or Hulk). So he goes through the motions of putting a kettle on, the fragrance of green tea soothing.

Tony’s at the breakfast nook, engrossed with his tablet before he jerks a thumb at the counter. “I made breakfast.”

Styrofoam and aluminum foil, paper and plastic bags. “’Made’ being you ordered out.”

“Same thing,” Tony says blandly. He looks up. “Wasn’t sure if you’re still on a granola crunch kick or if you want something greasy.”

“Greasy’s good after,” Bruce replies, not only for hangovers, after the other guy, lifts the container towards Tony in thanks.

“Mmm, Mr. Green Eyed Hangover, guess what, we’re gonna fight today,” Tony says all in one breath, no ifs, ands, or buts about it in his tone. “My schedule’s clear.”

Bruce prepares his tea, gauging how much Tony wants to talk right now, and how quick Bruce is getting a rise out of him by staying quiet. He settles in next to Tony, poking at his lukewarm eggs. “Does Pepper have any say about your schedule anymore?”

“Pepper cleared it for me. Specifically. She’s a fan of the big guy.” Tony shoves a piece of toast into his mouth, hops off the stool. “Especially for merchandising. Hey, you know, if you go ahead and consent with your likeness—you really should, it’d be a great nest egg—”

“Tony!” Bruce interjects before that thought inevitably goes off course. “I don’t want to fight with you,” he says with a laugh.

“Oh come on, it’ll be fun. You get your ya-ya’s out, he gets to play, I get a sparring buddy and some semblance of pride at helping you inch closer to control, everybody wins. Then, you know, blowjobs. How can this be a bad thing? It’s—“ Tony falters, one, two, beat before he finishes lamely with, “It’s for, uh—science.”

“Science, huh?” Bruce takes a sip. Tony's fishing for excuses if he's using the science routine. “If I say yes, will that make you happy?”

“Like a kid at Christmas,” Tony answers, beaming.

There’s a delicate balance between scientific study and morbid fascination, and Tony Stark sits squarely in the middle, Bruce reasons.

Enough time has passed that help replaces cure, because it has to; there’s no getting out of what he’s become.

He knows that now.

He can feel Tony’s eyes on him as he slips away and folds in on himself, as his body splits open raw and shaking into wakefulness, into violent, vibrating life.

Bruce sinks in and before he’s swallowed whole, he runs the calculations and—and then he focuses.

Fixed point. A taut thread, ready to break.

The focus point becomes his mother, his work, and long hours, vibrant, thrill of discovery—or screaming, that rush of success—or Betty, Betty, but then it, the anchor, changes.

Sometimes it’s five other uncommon individuals. That symbol, that new makeshift family.

Other times, it’s just the one person that’s his anchor.

The thread is clear in the sea of green, and lately, the thread is red and gold.

And he’ll open his eyes, the Hulk’s eyes, vision streaking, wild, acid that slams into focus, and he can see.

Striking up a friendship with the Hulk is not as easy as it looks. That’s a given. After the battles, Tony recounts it in words or footage, if he’s feeling particularly look-how-cool-my-tech-is. But Bruce remembers it in instincts, senses; he pieces together the fragments that make up this growing bond.

It starts with saving Iron Man after he’d taken out the Chitauri mother ship, how every fiber of Bruce’s being screamed in determination to save him, and he’d done it. They’d done it.

After though, it’s two steps forward, one step back. The Hulk—or Bruce, or both, he’s not sure—can pick out those he cares for and protect them. But he’s still rough around the edges.

“Hulk go with Tin Man.”

“Uh, not to make a mountain out of a mole hill, but technically, it’s Iron Man—”

The Hulk spits dismissively, arms folding in front of him. He grins, teeth broad and blunt. “Shellhead.”

“A natural poet,” Tony offers, saluting Steve below. “Hulk and I will cover the northern quadrant, Cap.”

Steve salutes back, a quick two-fingered wave before he’s throwing his shield into the masses of hired thugs on the ground below, with Clint and Natasha fighting nearby. Lightning strikes in the distance, a ripple of concrete and ash hundreds of feet away on the other side of the compound. Looks like Thor’s busy.

So it’s just the two of them, and with Hulk following nimbly below, Iron Man blasts off north.

Tony’s already got JARVIS recording everything out of habit; ways to improve flight or his repulsors, what works and doesn’t work. He tries to get a good look at the Hulk below, trying to gauge how far or high he can jump, the amount of weight and pressure he can stand and—and he’s just fascinating—

And Bruce shines through, beyond the (albeit, gamma irradiated) good looks—the way the Hulk frowns, how he can tap into Bruce’s quick thinking and figure out tools, the differences between friend and enemy.

Or how he allows himself to be cocky or smug in ways Bruce would never let himself be. The id unleashed.

The Hulk plows into the scattered crowds of thugs on the ground below as Tony does a sweep of the building. He keeps tabs on Hulk; the big guy’s almost gentle with the way he pushes them aside, because he can really get into it, break them all so easily. But he shows restraint.

“Hulk follow Tin Man!” the Hulk shouts as Tony starts to move to the far buildings. “Hulk protect!”

Hulk doesn’t have an earpiece either—kind of hard when your ears are tripling in size, Tony reasons, until he can figure that one out—so short of blaring his plans to the bad guys, Tony has to wave, and hope to hell Hulk gets the right idea.

He doesn’t; at least, not when he leaps and brings down the far building door, clean off its hinges and smashing the computer console Tony needed to hack.

“Crap. Hey, buddy, next time no smash?”

He gets a loud grunt in return as he throws a wall right past Tony’s shoulder, whizzing close enough so that Tony barely gets a chance to jerk out of the way. The broken wall hits a guy armed with a killer jetpack, who’s now crashing to the ground, harmless.

“Sorry,” Hulk mutters.

“That’s my boy.”

Sometimes it’s better when Bruce doesn’t remember everything.

In training with Tony, becoming “one with his inner Hulk”, getting focus, he’s piecing it together quickly. Day by day, the progress is astounding.

Sometimes, it’s embarrassing, like waking up after the Hulk threatens to smash television cameras, Tony swooping in and dropping a line or two, all flash to cover up Hulk’s frustration.

Other times, it’s the very real sensation of helmets and bones crushing under Hulk’s hands and feet.

The very human terror Bruce feels at flying and attacking in the space of seconds, because the human body is not meant to withstand—or deal out—such pain so easily.

The real human body feels strain on its muscles, resistance rising up against it.

It’s better that Bruce doesn’t remember how the world feels like it’s made of tissue paper, soft and breakable.

Tony is breakable, too, just flesh, bone, and metal; a strong tap from one of Hulk’s fingers could fracture his arc reactor. Bruce can break Tony so easily; it’s this unrestrained power he has over him, over anything, ready to call up in seconds.

And how it thrills him every time he does.

“You might’ve fooled everyone else, but I’m onto you,” Tony murmurs, his breath soft against Bruce’s shoulder. Bruce tenses instantly, feeling a flare of worry in the pit of his stomach. Teetering, and it crashes down into relief when Tony follows, saying, “You might not have all your shit together, Dr. Banner, but the parts I see, I like.”

“Oh? Care to elaborate?”

Tony grins against Bruce’s neck, dragging his fingers down through Bruce’s chest hair, squeezing a little. “Somehow I don’t think being the Hulk bothers you as much as it used to.”

“Well,” Bruce says, leaning back on his elbows as Tony reaches his belly, legs. “Next time you turn into a two ton rage monster, give me a call. We’ll swap notes.”

“Half a ton, thank you, I’ve done my research,” Tony says as he preps, hand slick as he does a slow and lazy pull of Bruce’s dick. “C’mon, there’s no shame in being one with your inner cuddle monster. Could spice up a thing or two.”

Bruce leans forward now, sudden and feeling playful. He grabs Tony’s neck and cheek, thumbing the scruff on his jaw. “You’re telling me you want, what? You want me to turn into the other guy?”

“Bucket list,” Tony says, eyes lidded, punctuates by teasing the head of Bruce’s dick with his thumb. “No harm done if you’re getting your jollies, Jolly Green.”

Bruce sucks in a breath, vision a little blurry as he grabs and pulls Tony’s head, shoving him down. “You’d think after all this, you’d gain a sense of self-preservation.”

“Denial, huh. Your sense of control,” Tony starts, and then his voice is muffled by Bruce’s dick, taking him in, lapping up from root to tip, “…is better than you think.”

Bruce stays quiet save for the moans that escape his mouth; Tony can reduce him to silence like no one else, and make the most embarrassing shit come out of his mouth, dirty, guttural, things he doesn’t remember saying to anyone else, ever, not even before.

“Fuck, fuck.”

“There’s a lot of you in him,” Tony whispers, cupping Bruce’s balls, a little tug before he adds, “And him in you. You know what you want, Bruce.”

Bruce groans, his hips bucking up under Tony’s fingers. “You think so?”

“All your life,” Tony murmurs, and he’s sweaty and hot to the touch. But he’s looking up, and swallows him whole again, pulling off to say, “But now he lets you loose.”

The Hulk is separate, Bruce knows. A thin line divides them both.

But sometimes, it’s easier to pass off that the Hulk bleeds through, that he doesn’t let him out willingly, that the Hulk has him swearing and seeing green before he comes down off his high, back to earth and back to Tony.

Back to Tony’s goddamn mouth, how he moans, amused, as Bruce flushes green, color that spreads out along his flesh as he focuses.

The thread’s red and gold in his mind’s eye, as his body changes ever so slowly, burning up hot, muscles straining from the need of air and blood, a constant flux.

He’s pulling back now, feeling his mind cloud up from both Hulk and Tony, the base, bestial urges of Hulk, the fucking wonderful things Tony manages to do with a shifting Bruce and his growing dick.

The ground breaks beneath his feet and hands, swirls of dust he snorts at, breathes out and in, lurching up again.

He feels the wind in his face, tiny little pinpricks against his eyes.

Rocks and scraggly green bushes below, shapes that blur and sharpen as he falls—jumps—again.

Before this, part of Hulk—Banner, puny but angry, always angry—knows they’d gone out into the flat lands on a Quinjet, with Iron Man as an escort for the “world’s biggest five year old.”

Now, the Hulk spots the red and gold in the corner of his eye, how the Tin Man zips and zags, shiny and pretty.

“You call that a jump?” Tin Man, Tony, Tony says, “Come on, show me what you’ve really got!”

The Hulk grins and jumps up into clear skies, soaring as Tony calls and shouts, happy.

For all of Tony’s bluster about his specifics—how needs coffee, early, how he can’t be handed things—and that they come off as distant, bratty, he’s wrapped up in the sheets, warm and cuddling against Bruce’s side. It’s something he does a little more often now, more because Bruce lets him.

They haven’t done the panicking, don’t touch me, I’m a monster sort of freak-out—Bruce is a grown man, and so is Tony, he reasons, even if he doesn’t always act like it. Bruce is soft in places, salt and pepper in his hair, middle aged and if it’s supposed to go downhill from here, on top of his anger issues, Tony knows what he’s getting into.

So he lets Tony cuddle and clench a hand around Bruce’s thigh, twitching in his sleep.

“Maybe you’re right,” Bruce mumbles, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes. “Maybe I’m learning to deal, or… I don’t know, enjoy it, I guess.”

He stretches, looking at the length of Tony’s body, how his muscles bend and cave a little around the arc reactor shining on his chest.

“This the part where you whisper sweet nothings and tell me how hot I am, right?” Tony murmurs, one eye shut, the other snapping open. He frowns with his whole face, veiny, red, and definitely without coffee. It’s on purpose. “I’ll save you the trouble.”

“You caught me,” Bruce says. “Red handed.”

“Green handed,” Tony says, palms Bruce’s hand, rubbing his thumb along the curve of his wrist. The skin flushes, green, tan, and then pink. “It’s okay if you do, you know. Enjoy it.”

Bruce winces at the word, enjoy, and the other guy—Hulk—and how they’d not supposed to go together.

“You think?”

Tony shrugs. “Hell, what am I, a psychologist? I got nothing. I just think you shouldn’t beat yourself up so bad.”

Bruce nods. “Huh.”

He feels Tony stretch out on the bed, slowly getting his bearings. He’s yawning when he starts again, saying, “Hulk likes me the best. That should tell you something.”

“Yeah?” Bruce feels his mouth quirk into a smile as his body starts to wake up.

He feels it, him, stir within, too, before he settles.

And for now, that’s okay.

“Uh, yeah, it does,” Tony says, looking baffled. “Clearly, that means he has good taste.”

end

The Dark Knight Rises (SPOILERS beneath the cut)

ignited — Sat, 21 Jul 2012 19:34:24 GMT

I went to see The Dark Knight Rises at an IMAX midnight screening. I held off on posting, because of the tragic events the other night in Colorado. My thoughts and prayers go out to the victims and their families.

Review below (including a LOT of spoilers so WARNING.)

The Dark Knight Rises: Overall, I really enjoyed the movie but I think I need to watch it again to really... process it and enjoy it more?

First, I think I should've watched Batman Begins again beforehand -- I kept meaning to, but other than watching bits and pieces on the way to work yesterday, it wasn't a fully fleshed out view. And the thing is, I haven't watched that movie in ages and I usually skip to an hour in... uhh, basically all the parts that I skip, I should have watched. (Yes, yes, I'm terrible.) ALSO! As certain plot lines developed, I REALLY should've brushed up on my Batman comics. I've read all of Knightfall / Knightquest, so that was fine but there were elements of things here and there, including -- according to some reviews so I can't confirm but I'll seek these out later -- Batman: Year One, The Dark Knight Returns, Catwoman: When In Rome (characterization wise!). Wish I'd read Batman: No Man's Land, because uh, holy crap. Hello. (I am a bad DC fan; I've read all of JLA v3 and Supes from '86 to '06 but my Batman knowledge is less extensive.)

The movie really did feel like a third act for an overall, long-ass film like Lord of the Rings. It probably would've been good to see them all back to back at one of those trilogy screenings. Another thing -- and this is just me personally -- was that two thirds of the movie was... really fucking depressing (understandably depressing!) and I just wanted Batman to kick ass. And then he DID, so that was great, and I really got into it, because fucking yes. I think I got really involved so much that I forgot/was uncertain about certain spoilers/theories (or at least, when Talia showed up, I was all AHHH OH GOD YOU! RIGHT!! uhh even though I knew Marion would be Talia because come on.) Also cleared up my confusion at Bane being Ra's son because no and I hate when they combine/twist certain things like that (i.e. having the Joker be responsible for killing the Waynes in Batman).

Anne Hathaway was flawless and gorgeous as I knew she'd be, so that made me happy. Same with Tom Hardy (required Stef note: obviously Nolan wasn't going to take his mask off but aahh I wanted to see the damage. Yay five seconds of gorgeous Hardy face instead I guess?). I keep seeing reviews saying he was flat/regular old baddie but fuck that, I liked him. He reminded me of Bronson so my shit was creeped out, man. His eyes were intense.

Although uh, the way he vamoosed reminded me of Coulson. (Let's not get into my 12 year old thoughts of "If only the Justice League was here, this would be solved!" "They need scientists and tech! Get Banner and Stark!" Because I am a jerk, I know. I KNOW. Oh movie realism, you crush my heart and I enjoy every minute of it.)

That fucking ending, whaaat. I think it was a little rushed and... weird for Nolan in some parts? I think the editing/pacing was a bit off in comparison to TDK. But back to the ending, it made me happy and took away all the tension building in my brain, damn. Bruce and Selina! *_* (Heh, the audience clapped when they kissed).

It resolved things (Batman did "die" in a way) but left things wide open too. ROBIN! Man. I'm glad I was kind of spoiled but I forgot? Or at least thought they wouldn't do that and they DID, and this is perfect.

Okay, so they couldn't call him Dick or Richard Grayson since mainstream audiences wouldn't get it, but how cool is that Nolan put him in the damn movie? With the chalk (and Nightwing-esque!) symbols? I thought if they ever did, than it should be something that's really not Robin-ish from the get go, so for them to be nearer in age (sort of like Bucky and Cap in Captain America), having him being a cop but having those good morals that could make the symbol into something different and great... perfect. And it's sort of like they combined both Dick Grayson and Tim Drake, in a way. John Blake = Tim Drake. Tim Drake's detective skills. Richard John Grayson. etc. Dick's morals and being the heart of the DC comicsverse (wasn't it that they were going to kill off Dick in Infinite Crisis and changed their minds because he's too important?). Jason Todd with his stubbornness and violence.

…this review is taking me hours, literally, and now I think I'm enjoying the movie more on reflection BECAUSE of Robin? Which…totally makes sense. So. It's like composite Robin = love! IDK!

BUT BUT BUT AHHH IT REMINDS ME OF THIS SCENE from JLA v3 #73!

!!!!! Because it's so true.

ROBIN JUST GIVES ME A LOT OF THOUGHTS, OKAY. Nightwing? Seeing as he can't really use his "legal" name as his superhero name but djfkjsdkjf "wear a mask" djfkldjs crying. Plus, wearing black and blue -- well yes he's a cop but STILL. Aaand Dick takes over from Batman in the Knightfall storyline so YES. yes. yes.

aahhh even if we don't get a Robin (or ) movie, this sets it up for the reboot, holy shit. Batman continuing on -- obviously another universe that's not connected into this, but TDKR can lead into it in a way, like it's giving it's blessing. It reminds me of how Banner in Ang Lee's Hulk was in South America, where Incredible Hulk picks up. And obviously they weren't connected at all, but a sort of vague, this is where it can go, thing.

But blah blah tl;dr John Blake (and JGL) was fantastic to see -- regular cops trying to do their job. AHH COMMISSIONER GORDON yes Gary you are lovely, lovely and I wish there was more of you.

I doubt they'd do a Batman reboot before they do that Justice League movie that's in the works (where they have all the heroes at once) so I'm wondering how the characterization will be for that. Thinky thoughts. I'd actually like a Batman & Superman movie to lead into JLA to prep people, but that's not going to happen. And if it did -- as it almost happened -- they'd make it Batman vs. Superman, which... no.

Sooo yep, there are my thoughts. I think I need to see it again next weekend, but if I see it with my mom that'll be tricky since I know how she is, argh. She doesn't like sad movies. Hmm. Preparing her beforehand!

Fanart: "There’s a voice in my head that drives my heel" by deirdre_c (Supernatural/Tron)

ignited — Tue, 22 May 2012 15:50:49 GMT

Here's my art for deirdre_c's wonderful super_disney story, "There’s a voice in my head that drives my heel" (Sam/Dean, R), a Supernatural fusion with Tron: Legacy. Ever since I knew deirdre_c wanted to do an SPN Tron story, I was so, so excited (combining two fandoms I love!) so I had to do these. And the story is fantastic, so go give it a read!

The following artwork contains some minor spoilers for the story so please read it first! Artwork including a poster and story art beneath the cut.

(Click for full size)

science boyfriends, comics.

ignited — Wed, 16 May 2012 17:21:14 GMT

HEY HEY just so you know, I haven't forgotten about your Tony/Bruce prompts, guys! I'm actually plotting them out and writing them. I think the rush of love + gap between writing has resulted in me writing way too many ideas down for the prompts so I might end up word vomiting more than just a ficlet. The good thing is that I bought a new notebook to write down stuff on the train home. Only downside is feeling weird writing Hulk or Stark in my chicken scratch with someone looking near my shoulder.

This post being a "I'm writing them, honest!" thing, another question for the comic book fans on my flist: do you have any general Avengers comics recs? I don't really read Marvel at all -- I love the TV/movies/cartoons; I just never got into the comics other than reading stuff here and there (including Marvel Zombies and that one George Perez Avengers vs. JLA mini-series). So like... any Avengers ones? I thought I should read Ultimates and then I looked up Ultimate!Hulk and I wanted to burn everything ever so uhh, don't rec that, I guess.

Meanwhile, I'm probably going to start hoarding all the Clint/Natasha and Steve/Thor I can find once I realize refreshing the Tony Stark/Bruce Banner tag on AO3 doesn't automatically generate new fic. GOSH DARN IT.

prompt post

ignited — Thu, 10 May 2012 15:53:26 GMT

Fic Prompt Post: Tony Stark/Bruce Banner and a word or idea, please? Or you can just flail with me in this other post. Or I can just make heart eyes at the Avengers kink meme, oh god I love you guys

I actually went and backed up all my fic to AO3 recently, so I'll crosspost from now on.

That awkward moment where all the Tony/Bruce comms on LJ are Tony Stark/Bruce Wayne, whoops.

he blinded me with sciiieeennnce!

ignited — Thu, 10 May 2012 02:22:21 GMT

Hi.

...so who's on the Tony Stark/Bruce Banner train, and can they direct me to any fic I have missed? I'VE MADE ART, OKAY, AND I MIGHT ACTUALLY WRITE THINGS.

I haven't posted a fic in years now, such is the love I am now feeling. (Let's not talk about the SPN crossover I never finished. Except lets, because it would've been neat, alas, alack, etc.)

Anyway, come, flail at the science bros (and various 'ships) with me! I think The Avengers broke my brain. It's making me all EXCITED again, and it's cool to see everyone excited as well! \o/

The Avengers

ignited — Sun, 06 May 2012 23:06:06 GMT

Saw it again today with my mom. Also saw it on Friday night. And now for cut tag!

I knew I'd love it, but man. I'm pretty blown away. Every, every single part was fucking brilliant. I have my own Joss issues from BtVS/AtS (one of my first fandoms so it goes way back) but those issues aside, when they announced Joss as the director I knew it would be good. He's always been great at tackling situations with big stakes and lots of characters (Buffy Season 3 is still golden in my mind) so to see him hit all those marks was lovely. And in a way, as we were talking about this on Twitter, it's so gratifying to see all this attention and people falling head over heels because it kinda makes you feel validated for loving this stuff way back when, you know? I remember being in middle school being that dork who loved Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel, and flipping my shit over the newest spoilers for those weird shows about vampires (or the crossovers, gasp!) and now people are lining up for a movie directed by the same guy. The guy whose show had Puppet Angel. IDEK.

Nostalgic rambling over, each character got their moment to shine and I think all the Thor and Loki interaction had me loving them a lot (I did before, but oh, it's got another edge to it now) and Cap & Tony were precious, of course. As were Hawkeye and Black Widow! Or Bruce and Tony bro-ing it up in their dorky science love. ALL THE PAIRINGS. ALL OF THEM. Like. I want to be in fandom again, REALLY, now, because this is gorgeous.

AND MARK RUFFALO, YOU GUYS, HE FUCKING NAILED IT.

I am irrational and crazy about this casting, crazy with LOVE and just wanting to jump at all the naysayers who thought he'd be terrible. WHATEVER. I remember being this much of a dork over the Hulk back in 2003 with Eric Bana and loving that terrible movie so much because of the potential. Then Ed Norton and...that was good, but it needed more. So Mark coming in was... yeah. Yeaaaah. That whole part of the suicide (similar to the deleted Hulk scene!) and they WENT THERE and aaahhh him always being angry, I fucking LOVED that they added that. AAAHHHH.

Basically I'm gonna go in my Hulk corner and be filled with love and adoration and try to get off my ass and MAKE THINGS because I need more Hulk and Ruffalo!Banner things in my liiife.

So yes. If you've seen any neat Avengers blogs or Hulk / Ruffalo ones, please tell me?

aaahhh IT WAS SO GOOD YOU GUYS, HOW CAN IT BE SO GOOD?

happy valentine's day!

ignited — Wed, 15 Feb 2012 01:00:25 GMT

Thanks for all the LJ gifts! They're sparkly and adorable but seriously though, thank you. I always feel terrible I don't post or comment enough lately so for anyone to send things makes me happy despite my utter lameness. Also hyper, because holy crap, there are a TON of Reeses Miniature Peanut Butter Cups in my house right now. I think it's the chocolate of choice for Valentine's in this household. Jeez.

On a random fandom note -- and perhaps a downer, IDK, since I'm not around? -- has there been any discussion about the latest Entertainment Weekly article about shippers and Wincest? I haven't seen anything on Tumblr. ...granted, I tend to have a lot of Supernatural tags blocked out by Tumblr Savior because of reaaasons.

Part of those reasons being that I am behind by 3 1/2 episodes. Ooops. I'm in the middle of the 40's one. I keep pausing it to point at things and shout "DEAAAN! DEAANNN! SAM'S SIDEBURNS! WHAT!" a lot.

P.S. the only fandom "oh god no" that concerns me as of late is Boxleitner getting a Twitter account. Tron! DON'T TEMPT ME.

steampuuuunk.

ignited — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 01:50:02 GMT

Does anyone have some good Steampunk clothing website recs? Or specific places on Etsy, for instance (as I think that's what people would first think of). I need them for ~~Wincon~~ reasons. Or maybe just birthday "I'd like to sashay around in tulle" reasons. ...No, not really. That would be terrifying and I am not five, nope.

(Uh, in other news, I may have gone to Bronycon, except I'm not talking about it because oh ho ho, it was a clusterfuck of organization and crowding. MAY HAVE. PERHAPS.)

shh this was not a post.

lj, new year's eve, movies, and stuff.

ignited — Thu, 29 Dec 2011 15:34:27 GMT

Delayed comment about LJ comments is... delayed, but I get LJ wanting to update the comments layout -- however, the formatting is executed so poorly and looks like shit aesthetically so my immediate reaction is "oh god fonts why?" over missing/broken things. Hmmph. I haven't changed to custom comment pages because a) I hate them and b) I haven't bothered to fix the HTML for mine (bad form I know, I just don't use it so I don't bother coding it).

In other news, I'm really looking forward to New Year's Eve. I'm throwing a party. THIS IS EXCITING TO ME. Because I never throw parties. I will also have dancing games and you bet your ass I will be dancing the Carlton dance to "It's Not Unusual".

The Muppets: After seeing the Jim Henson exhibit at the Museum of the Moving Image, I was I was REALLY looking forward to seeing the movie. It did not disappoint. The only thing I would've wanted would be more Muppets (too many human scenes?). But that was fine. I hope they make more. (And major props to the Muppeteers. I remember seeing people complain about seeing them at the end of the SNL episode Jason Segel hosted ("They're ruining the illusion!"), to which I would like you say "fuck you", because they deserve the attention for their hard work, damn it.)

Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy: This movie. Man. What a great ensemble and fantastic acting. It made me so NERVOUS, I kept gasping in the theater (and driving fourfreedoms nuts). Amazing film.

Sherlock Holmes: A Game of Shadows: ...that was the gayest, most fantastic film I've seen in a long time. I really loved it. Even more than the first one (which I thought was good but never went crazy over -- I thought it was pretty messy, actually).

Mission: Impossible - Ghost Protocol: Really enjoyed it! It made me so TENSE. agh. I think M:I-2 is still my favorite (despite the sheer ridiculousness) but I loved this one, more than 3. Great cast (Renner! Pegg!) and crap, Tom Cruise. I may have enjoyed him again. Maybe. Perhaps. Just acting. Not off camera. ...goddamn.

The Dark Knight Rises prologue: My favorite part was when Bane said, "Mmmrrrphhghthhhrrrmm!"

Seriously, Nolan. FIX THE SOUND. I don't hate if you hate ADR, and you want the audience to catch up, I had no idea what the fuck he was saying. DO NOT DENY ME HARDY.

2011 Fandom and Media meme

ignited — Fri, 23 Dec 2011 02:27:48 GMT

Taken from regala_electra

Which TV shows did you let go of in 2011?
Perhaps all the shows I stopped watching and haven't really been in the mood to catch up? The Big Bang Theory, Burn Notice, Drop Dead Diva, Torchwood, White Collar... Burn Notice I want to catch up because of Bruce Campbell, but other than that, I just haven't had the time or urge to catch up. I should let go of True Blood because it's become so stupid.

Which TV shows did you mean to get into but didn't in 2011? Why?
See below.

Which TV shows do you intend on checking out in 2012?
30 Rock, Avatar: Legend of Korra, Adventure Time, Batman: The Brave and the Bold, Hawaii 5-O, Once Upon A Time, Boardwalk Empire, Game of Thrones, Mad Men, Young Justice

Which TV show impressed you least in 2011?
Supernatural? In the sense that it hasn't changed that much and they kept dragging out plots. sigh.

Which TV show do you think you might let go of in 2012 unless things significantly improve?
Glee? I get angry about it too often and basically only like it during song segments. Whenever there's a good decision (to me), there's two bad ones that follow and Ryan Murphy comes off as a jerk in his interviews. I do like certain things but it's that and not having enough time to watch it that's making me think of letting it go. :\

Which TV show impressed you the most in 2011? Why?
Parks and Recreation, because there are women that rock. And there's Ron Swanson, sure, but Leslie Fucking Knope.

Also My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic. I enjoy it, for the same reason above. Uh, not the Ron Swanson one. Although props for Big Lebowski ponies!

Which TV shows do you think you'll never let go of no matter how crappy they get? Why?
Supernatural because I have to know why people are screaming at things?

Shows I watched and loved that aren't mentioned on this list because I started them in another year.
Bones, Community (come baaack!), Leverage, Merlin... uh, that's all I can think of right now.

***

Your main fandom of the year?
Tron, baby.

Your favorite film you watched this year?
Either Captain America or The Muppet Movie. I did get to see the extended editions of the Lord of the Rings trilogy in the theater and that was AWESOME, so it's hard to narrow it down.

Your favorite book read this year?
Uh, reading all the Cracked.com lists in their app on my morning commute?

Your favorite tv show of the year?
don't say My Little Pony, don't say My Little Pony Parks and Recreation! :D

Your best new fandom discovery of the year?
Rinzler/Tron and Kevin Flynn, you sexy, conflicted men. And all the damn kink I loved and wanted more of in such a cool mythology and world.

Your biggest fandom disappointment of the year?
The realization that I'm getting old and want to punch so much of Tumblr in the face.

Your fiction boyfriend of the year?
Lee Stetson. My favorite cranky jerk of a spy.

Your fiction girlfriend of the year?
Rarity. I adore her, darling.

Your biggest squee moment of the year?
There were many moments of EEEE yay! nostalgia and happiness in discovering Tron stuff and all the things that spiral out from that: Jeff Bridges movies! Watching Babylon 5 (JOHN SHERIDAN!) and having a new Sci-Fi show to love and adore. (Additional Boxleitner love with Scarecrow and Mrs. King!) I feel like a lot of my squee came from various movie trailers/outings this year since I didn't really participate that much in fandom later on. Seeing LotR again, all the Marvel movies this summer... waiting for Dark Knight Rises. MOVIES, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. <3_<3

Your biggest fan anticipations for the coming year?
lolz perhaps finishing the last fic I was writing. Ignoring the batshit on Tumblr. Wincon in Texas! Perhaps LJ can work again and I can actually USE it. Legend of Korra. Tron: Uprising. Kingdom Hearts 3DS. Beauty and the Beast 3D. This Means War. The Avengers. Dark Knight Rises and The Hobbit!!!