circumnavigate this body of wonder and uncertainity

( come and join the youth and beauty brigade )

hydrium — Thu, 22 Dec 2011 19:37:08 GMT

A COUPLE OF THINGS:

Θ I AM DONE EXAMS HOLY SHIT. I think I did well on about 3/5 of them, alright in 1, and I kind of bombed french but that's neither here nor there for now. Thank you so much for all of you, and your constant encouragement. I wouldn't have gotten through without it, and I love everyone so much.

Θ I AM MOVING TO DREAMWIDTH. This made me super sad at first because idk LJ was the first place I started RPing at and I met so many great people here but after the whole initial FUCK I DON'T KNOW HOW TO IMPORT SHIT/SET THINGS UP freakout panic attack I am completely behind this. The amazing people (you guys) will still be around. Especially since TR is moving as a whole. So! please feel free to add me at BUILDER @ dreamwidth.

Θ I have a plurk! It's SKYGRACE, if anyone else on this flist has one. I really enjoy it as a way of keeping in touch!

Θ ♥ eternal love for all of you and LJ EAT A BAG OF DICKS

dear god I have such embarassing music

hydrium — Mon, 21 Feb 2011 14:03:38 GMT

Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line (or first and second line if it's completely impossible) from the first 30 15 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Strike out the songs when someone guesses both artist and track correctly.
Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!
Step 5: If you like the game post your own!

~~1. if I could open my arms and span the length of the isle of Manhattan~~ Marching Bands of Manhattan (Death Cab for Cutie) - misstakin
2. it could be ten, but then again, I can't remember half an hour since a quarter to four
3. late afternoon, another day is nearly done.
~~4. you are my sweetest downfall~~ Samson (Regina Spektor) - flareupwithlove
5. sunday morning praise the dawning
6. walcott, don't you know that it's insane?
7. from hundreds of miles yeah you cry like a baby
8. you're pink you're young you're middle class
~~9. roll away your stone, I'll roll away mine~~ Roll Away Your Stone (Mumford and Sons) - misstakin
~~10. whoa is me, I'm so woah~~ Woah is Me (Down with Webster) - misstakin
11. oh no, not now
12. you believed in moments not conceived
~~13. faces all around me they don't smile, they just crack~~ Believe (The Bravery) - flareupwithlove
~~14. you think I'm pretty without any makeup on~~ Teenage Dream (Katy Perry) - misstakin
15. I'm the next act waiting in the wings
~~16. they made a statue of us and put it on a mountaintop~~ Us (Regina Spektor) - misstakin
17. here from the king's mountain view
18. be still for a second while I try to pin your flowers on
19. tremor of light, the sky a porcelain wall
20. my hands are searching for you
21. lately I've been wishing I had one desire
22. and oh the awkward way that you recoil when I get close
23. run like a race for family
~~24. we'll do it all, everything, on our own~~ Chasing Cars (Snow Patrol) - flareupwithlove
25. if the trials end are really getting you down
26. so who's that girl, there?
27. I'm a half-hearted fool with a heart that's torn in two
28. and I'm not going back into rags or in the hole
~~29. maybe I need some rehab, or maybe just need some sleep~~ Your Love is My Drug (Kesha) - misstakin
30. is this where the interstate ends?

fanmix: this is a cold war [gale/katniss]

hydrium — Wed, 26 Jan 2011 21:14:46 GMT

fandom: The Hunger Games
subject: Gale Hawthorne & Katniss Everdeen
notes: This is a fanmix for eudaimon because I owe her one.

1. cold war - janelle monae

if you wanna be free?
below the ground's the only place to be
cause in this life
you spend time running from depravity

this is a cold war
do you know what you're fighting for?
this is a cold war
you better know what you're fighting for

2. here is gone - goo goo dolls

you and I got something
but it's all then it's nothing to me
I got my defenses
when it comes to your intentions to me
and we wake up in the breakdown
of the things we never thought we could be

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
we've got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
but you were never really ever there at all

3. the archer's bows are broken - brand new

who do you carry the torch for, my young man?
do you believe in anything?
do you carry it around just to burn things down?

meet me tonight on the turnpike, my darling
'cause we believe in everything
if we sweat all these debts then we're sure to drown
so we strap ourselves up to this engine now
with a God that we found, laying under the backseat

4. volcano - damien rice

don't hold yourself like that
'cause you'll hurt your knees
well I kissed your mouth, and back
but that's all I need
don't build your world around
volcanoes melt you down

and what I am to you is not real
what I am to you, you do not need
what I am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountains
and I'll ask for the sea

5. after the bombs - the decemberists

and after the bombs subside
and this campaign
calls it good for the night

we meet in the streets
will we meet in a bar's cold light?
we grip at our hands
we hold just a little tight

after the bombs
after the bombs
subside

6. save me - aimee mann
you look like a perfect fit
for a girl in need of a tourniquet

but can you save me
come on and save me
if you could save me
from the ranks of the freaks
who suspect they could never love anyone

'cause I can tell
you know what it's like
the long farewell of the hunger strike

7. little lion man - mumford and sons
tremble for yourself, my man,
you know that you have seen this all before
tremble little lion Man,
you'll never settle any of your scores
your grace is wasted in your face,
your boldness stands alone among the wreck
now learn from your mother or else spend your days biting your own neck

but it was not your fault but mine
and it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
didn't I, my dear?

didn't I, my dear?

8. shut your eyes - snow patrol
shut your eyes and think of somewhere
somewhere cold and caked in snow
by the fire we break the quiet
learn to wear each other well

and when the worrying starts to hurt
and the world feels like graves of dirt
just close your eyes until
you can imagine this place, yeah, our secret space at will

9. warning sign - coldplay
come on in,
I've gotta tell you what a state I'm in,
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones,
that I started looking for a warning sign.

when the truth is,
I miss you.
yeah the truth is,
that I miss you so.

and I'm tired,
I should not have let you go.

so I crawl back into your open arms.

10. skinny love - bon iver
I tell my love to wreck it all
cut out all the ropes and let me fall
my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
right in the moment this order's tall

who will love you?
who will fight?
who will fall far behind?

11. arrow - tegan and sara
would you take a straight and narrow, critical look at me?
would you tell me tough-love style? put judicial weight on me.
if you're thinking anything. if you're thinking endlessly.
if you're thinking anything. if you're thinkin'...

I feel the breeze. feel feathers of an arrow.
out in my yard, feathers of an arrow.
I take my aim, you feel me coming close.
I take my aim so you feel me coming close.

12. start a war - the national
do you really think you can just
put it in the safe behind the closet
lock it up and leave?

whichever went away
I'll get it over now
I'll get money
I'll get funny again

you were always weird
but I never had to hold you
by the edges like I do now.

[D O W N L O A D]

F-LIST ASSEMBLE!

hydrium — Wed, 12 Jan 2011 13:37:36 GMT

HEEEEELP

So my friends are dragging me to this party on Saturday (even though they are so not my forte though I guess it wouldn't hurt to be social once in a while) and it's SUPERHERO THEMED

And I thought since you guys knew a lot about comics you could help me think of a costume? Preferably something I can do pretty easily with stuff in my wardrobe? IDK

(It doesn't help that I'm Asian so... I mean god I could go as Nico Minoru and it would be badass but HOW WOULD I GET A STAFF also NO ONE WOULD KNOW WHO I WAS but I guess it doesn't have to be accurate like that)

(Also my initial idea was to go as John Constantine because he's my favourite but I have no trench coat and also no one would know who I was.)

fanmix: your harbor [finnick/annie] - the hunger games

hydrium — Sat, 01 Jan 2011 05:42:56 GMT

fandom: the hunger games
characters: annie cresta & finnick odair
notes:spoilers for mockingjay

This is my first fanmix (other than some very casual private playlists) ! I am in no way a photoshop expert (having just gotten it tonight) so please excuse the simple graphics. One song has partially bolded lyrics - that's because I imagine that song to be a duet. The bold part is Finnick.

harbor - vienna teng
sail your sea
meet your storm
all i want is to be your harbor
the light in me will guide you home
all i want is to be your harbor

(finnick knows that he isn't the easiest person to love, sometimes. he feels it especially during the long months away in the capitol. he worries about the things people whisper and if it'll get back to her and worse, if she'll think that he actually loves any of these artificial capitol women. it's a ridiculous thing to worry about, given all that hangs over their heads, but he does so anyways.

she's there as soon as his feet pad against the wooden slats of their backyard, overlooking the ocean. when he kisses her he can taste the saltwater on her lips and the roar of the waves behind them and knows that this is a far better wonder than anything mankind could have manufactured.)

falling slowly - the swell season
take this sinking boat and point it home
we've still got time
raise your hopeful voice, you have a choice
you'll make it now

falling slowly, eyes that know me
and i can't go back
moods that take me and erase me
and i'm painted black
you've suffered enough
and warred with yourself
it's time that you won

(there are moments when her nightmares overflow into the waking world, permeating through her current thoughts with ease. annie does the only thing she can in these situations; she grips the sides of her head, clutching at her hair until it hurts as she tries not to scream. and sees memories of a decapitated boy and a broken dam.

it's his hands that encircle her wrists, slackening her grip. his voice that tells her that it'll be alright. amongst the myriad numbers of people who have told her that since she was reaped for the games, he is the only person she always believes)

thief - our lady peace
someone help us understand who ordered
this disgusting arrangement, time and the end

as the world explodes we fall out of it
but we can't let go because this
will not go away

i can't see the thief that lives inside of your head
but i can be some courage at the side of your bed
i don't know what's happening but i can pretend
and i can be your, be your

(after 45 hours, they try to make him leave, but he won't budge. he sets his jaw and the look he gives them dares them to try again. no more suave capitol charm, not around her. he's there when she wakes up, bleary and disoriented. starving and thin from the arena. "i...swam?" she asks him, her voice fragile and almost hollow in a way that almost makes finnick want to cry as he grips her hand. "like a fish," he answers, putting on a brave smile instead.)

when you find me - joshua radin (+ maria taylor)
something is said, it sits my head
it's been there too long, it's killing me slow
it's rolling around, it's pushing me down
it's keeping a good part of me closed

can't you see that when i find you i find me?

my only weakness is knowing your secrets
holding them close, i'm holding them tight
i know the way to silently make you
smile with my eyes, when you're trying to fight

(as a living legend throughout all of panem, finnick odair has many faces. the most obvious, the physical, is coveted for being extraordinarily beautiful. yet there are others - his sensuous way of talking, the rumors of how many lovers he has. yhe carefree victor, attending party after party and taking the capitol by storm. all of these are false, last-ditch mechanisms built by a broken man.

he's never acted like anyone but himself around annie, though. he knows that she won't stand for any of it. the cross look she gives him is cute though, and sometimes he'll slip her a line just to see how she reacts.)

don't wake me up - the hush sound
don't wake me up, i am still sleeping
the story's undone, unravel at the seams
don't wake me up - death is misleading
and when i fall asleep, sleep with a ghost

the light had slipped through your window
the morning ripped you away, oh

(annie sleeps for hours after the war. as treacherous as her dreams are, they have become the only place where she can see finnick, if only for a few hours. sometimes his face intermingles with her terrors, but his presence mitigates them and she sleeps soundly despite everything. yet every day she wakes up to a cold and empty bed and wishes she were asleep again.

it's only when she feels the baby stirring inside of her does she truly wake up. he becomes her hope for the future: this boy with eyes the color of the sea.)

drive my soul - lights
you make the streetlights reappear
i feel bright when you stand near
i know who i am when you are here
my way becomes so clear

when you're gone, will i lose control?
you're the only road i know
you show me where to go
who will drive my soul?

(even in the highly regimented culture of district 13, where public displays of affection are frowned upon by the administrative brass, their hands never separate. his show the marks of callouses caused by the ropes, but the shell of a man tying them in the corner of the barracks is completely gone.

finnick, for his part, feels as though he could sing.)

anchor - lifehouse
i know that i will never be alone
you will never let me go
you are my anchor

hold my hand while i'm sinking in the sand
no one else could understand
you are my anchor

(she holds his head in her hands for what seems like the longest time and unlike everyone else, she doesn't talk at him. instead, annie tries something truly novel - she listens. he doesn't tell her everything, and there are some things she can never know because those with crueler hearts would manipulate that.

yet she sits quietly with him for hours, and finnick thinks that annie has patience enough to span the entirety of the churning seas.)

annie - our lady peace
something in the way that she explains to me
❝please be careful, i exist in someone else's head❞
something in the way that she makes believe
please be careful; annie dreams that everyone is dead.

(rumors abound.

they say that she's crazy. or stark raving mad. there are some that feel sympathy; they say that something broke in her during the games. others are not so generous - after all, there's nothing people like more than a good scandal.

finnick doesn't protest these rumors. in fact, he and mags started them. the less desirable annie looks to the people of the capitol, the better. he signed another contract the other week - double the amount of clients, if it means that she's safe.

but she's safe. he does it for her, and only her.

did you always love annie, finnick?
no, she crept up on me.)

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[D O W N L O A D]

the weight of us [a katniss/peeta playlist]

hydrium — Mon, 29 Nov 2010 02:40:23 GMT

BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT I DO WHEN I WANT TO PROCRASTINATE. Cross-posted to a character journal, but IDK I'm strangely proud of this. These two make me want to laugh/cry/scream in frustration simultaneously, UGH.

the star-crossed lovers

not ready - sanders bohlke

there are thieves who rob us blind, and kings who kill us fine. but steady, the rights and the wrongs invade us as innocent song. i'm not ready, i'm not ready for the weight of us, for the weight of us, for the weight of all of us. there's a cold heart buried beneath, and warm blood running deep. secrets are mine to keep, protected by silent sleep. i'm not ready, i'm not ready. the time has come, let us be brave. shake off your sins, the time has come, let us be brave.

heavy in your arms - florence and the machine

i was a heavy heart to carry. my beloved was weighed down. my arms laced around his neck. my fingers to his crown. i was a heavy heart to carry. my feet dragged across ground. and he took me to the river where he slowly let me down. i'm so heavy. heavy in your arms. and is it worth the wait, all this killing time? and are you strong enough to stand, protecting your heart and mine? who is the betrayer? who is the killer in the crowd. the one who creeps in corridors and doesn't make a sound. this will be my last confession. i love you never felt like any blessing. whispering it's like a secret. uttered to condemn the one who hears it. with a heavy heart.

in my veins - andrew belle

nothing goes as planned. everything will break. people say goodbye in their own special way. oh all that your rely on and all that you could fake. will leave you in the morning. come find you in the day. oh, you're in my veins and i cannot get you out. oh, you're all i taste at night inside of my mouth. oh, you run away 'cause i am not what you found. oh, you're in my veins and i cannot get you out. everything will change. nothing stays the same. nobody is perfect but everyone's to blame. all that you rely on, and all that you can save. will leave you in the morning. will find you in the day. everything is dark, it's more than you could take. but you catch a glimpse of sunlight shining down on your face.

drive my soul - lights

seems somebody put out the moon. now the road is a minefield. i can't follow the way she moves. i can't see past the shadows. you make the darkness disappear, i feel found when you stand near. i know who i am when you are here. my way becomes so clear. when you're gone, will i lose control? you're the only road i know. you show me where to go. who will drive my soul. seems somebody burned up the signs, i can't expect the hard curves. there's no borders there are no lines. how can i know where to turn? you make the streetlights reappear. i feel bright when you stand near. i know what i am when you are here. my place becomes to clear.

seize the day - avenged sevenfold

seize the day or die regretting the time you lost, it's empty and cold without you here, too many people to wake over. i see my vision burn, i feel my memories fade with time, but i'm too young to worry. the streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past. i found you here, so please just stay for a while, i can move on with you around. i hand you my mortal life but will it be forever? newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in. no longer needed here so where do we go? will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death? trials in life, questions of us existing here - don't wanna die alone without you here, please tell me what we have is real.

your guardian angel - the red jumpsuit apparatus

when i see your smile, tears run down my face - i can't replace. and now that i'm strong i have figured out how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul and i know i'll find deep inside me i can be the one. i will never let you fall. i'll stand up with you forever. i'll be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to heaven. seasons are changing and waves are crashing and stars are falling all for us. days grow longer and nights grow shorter - i can show you i'll be the one.

we're marching on - onerepublic

there's so many wars we've fought. there's so many things we're not. but with what we have i promise you that we're marching on, we're marching on. for all of the plans we've made, there isn't a flag i'd wave. don't care if we bend, i'd sink us to swim. we're marching on, we're marching on. we'll have the days we break and we'll have the scars to prove it. we'll have the bonds we save, but we'll have the heart not to lose it.

hardest of hearts - florence and the machine

there is love in your body but you can't hold it in - it pours from your eyes and it spills from your skin. the tenderest touch leaves the darkest of marks and the kindest of kisses break the hardest of hearts. there is love in your body but you can't get it out, it gets stuck in your head won't come out of your mouth. sticks to your tongue and it shows on your face that the sweetest of words have the bitterest taste. darling heart, i loved you from the start, but you'll never know what a fool i've been. darling heart, i loved you from the start but that's no excuse for the state i'm in. there is love in our bodies and it holds us together. and pulls us apart when we're holding each other. we all need someone to hold in the night, don't care if it hurts when we're holding too tight.

from district 12