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they've got a little tree, how queer!!

2010-12-10T04:38:50Z

WELP, I DID IT. I bought a name change token. I chose this name like, an hour or two ago for my tumblr and liked it so much I changed it here as well. I thought of it when I was singing along to What's This? from the Nightmare Before Christmas, lol.

I'll miss being laurenzorz, but this marks a fresh start for 2011 and for this journal. I'm going to put more effort into keeping this journal alive and getting to know you guys better. ♥ Anyway I'm starting to crash from the high of two energy drinks, so I'll go fall into bed now.

just a quick picspam for lost_land

2010-12-07T03:00:07Z

The theme is isolation.

LOST_land multimedia bingo card!!

2010-11-29T23:42:20Z

.PROMPTS

.GREEN

.HOME
You show up like a hurricane, all hungry-eyed and weather-stained
The clock forgets to tick and I the same

I died the day you disappeared, so why would you be welcome here?
Ride the wind that brought you back away

No you can't come in
No you can't come in

Elements - A Fine Frenzy
(I get a 'Jack tries to convince Kate to return back to the Island' kind of vibe when I listen to this song.)

.JOY
The feeling was strange
But she recognised it when
She lay with him; joy

.PINK

.PATTERN

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.BLACK
The metallic impact shook through her body with such ferocity, she wondered if she could survive much longer. As she melted in and out of conciousness, she recognised his face. "Kiss me, James" she said. Then, as if a spark was suddenly ignited, she saw another world where she was whole and everything was bright. A smile formed onto her face, everything was slipping away. But she was not scared; she was safe in his arms. And then, black.

.EDGE

.SILLY

(This is Kate when she's angry. Kind of.)

.HAIRY

.BEAUTY
Paused for a moment
She looks over the blue sea
Lost within its depth

.FIVE
Kate remembered their first proper "date" as if it were yesterday. That is, she recalls particular details of the evening that may usually go un-noticed to some peple, whilst big details like the restaurant's name completely escapes her.

She remembers the smell of Jack's cologne, the fabric of his suit and how he held his knife and fork. She remembers the way his eyes looked different without the reflection of the ocean within them. She remembers the way Jack cut his meat, she remembers that there were five carrots on his plate and he let her taste one of them.

Most of all, she remembers the feeling of complete and utter freedom.

.RUN
it's safe to say i'm walking a lot
it's safe to say i'm thinner
it's safe to say if we don't find food soon
we won't make it through winter
i'm walking, i'm running, i'm picking up steam
i'm threatening to explode
i'm going to make it, we're going to make it

Running - Menomena
(I imagine these kind of thoughts were running through the Losties' heads when they first crashed on the Island.)

.BACK

.SOON
Tired of the question
To which he has no answer
He just replies "Soon"
(Jack is pestered about exactly when everyone will be rescued.)

.HOT

.COLD

.SORRY
the ocean is blue
as blue as your eyes
I'm gonna take it with me
when I go

Take It With Me - Megan Mullally
(I imagine this song as a sort of retrospective look at Sawyer and Juliet's happiness during their DHARMA days, and how sorry Juliet is to have left him.)

.PROTECT

(I made a quick sketch of a Sawyer/Juliet-in-limbo idea, in which Sawyer provides Juliet protection. I don't know, either.)

.EPIC

.HONEY
(free space)
"Honey," he calls her
Now the words ring through the house
Without a reply

.LOUD
fire your guns
it's time to run
blow me away
(I will stay, in the mess I made)
after the fall
we'll shake it off
show me the way
Blow Me Away - Breaking Benjamin
(This is a loud, rock song that I associated with Jack and his need to save everyone on the Island.)

.DIRECTION
And I, I've seen the waves
Inside your heart
Turning you upside down

And I, I heard the dreams
You have at night
Giving you trouble

But I don't know you
Will you show me
Who you are?

I Don't Know You - Kate Havnevik
(Kate asks Sawyer to direct her in getting to know him.)

.ANIMAL
"I shot a polar
bear," he gestured, waving his gun
like a damn hero

.LAZY
On one of the many hikes throughout the treacherous jungle that occurred upon the Island, one member of the group collapsed to his knees, complaining that he simply could not go any further. "Just give me a minute," Sawyer pleaded, as he fell back to lean against a tree. The rest of the group were obviously agitated, reluctantly taking a break to hydrate themselves. Hurley, obviously enjoying the irony, positioned his hands upon his hips. "Now that," he inclined his head to the panting man on the ground, "is just lazy."

.BIG

howqueer @ 2010-10-14T19:40:00

2010-10-14T18:40:22Z

I'm about to go out, but I just wanted to post this. I kind of need a little ~boost~ of confidence, so if you don't mind:

This Is Why You're Awesome Meme!

Come and tell me why I'm awesome?

howqueer @ 2010-08-11T02:48:00

2010-08-11T01:48:30Z

Inspired by Mariel, I'm going to do a never-ending list of things that make me happy. This entry's public since it's not especially ~private~ or exceedingly personal to me.

Please don't make a new comment in this post, instead reply to the first comment if you have something to say. ♥

This isn't much of an introduction, I might edit this later idk.

JOIN LOST_LAND, IT WILL PROBABLY CHANGE YOUR LIFE

2010-08-10T23:48:55Z

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Click the banner to fill out the application, and tell them I sent you. ;)

howqueer @ 2010-07-08T16:02:00

2010-07-08T15:02:31Z

SO LIKE, ELIZABETH FUCKING MITCHELL IS NOMINATED FOR AN EMMY.

I AM SO PROUD AND HAPPY AND EXCITED FOR HER!!!

COME CELEBRATE, LIZMITCH FANS.

howqueer @ 2010-06-18T21:57:00

2010-06-18T20:57:45Z

CAN I JUST SAY THAT I THOUGHT Y'ALL WERE FLIPPIN' YO SHIT OVER THE MOTORCYCLE PICTURES BUT IT WASN'T UNTIL NOW THAT I HAVE SEEN THE ~PICTURES~ THAT I KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU ALL MEAN. I AM FUCKING DYING LEGITIMATELY. TEARS ARE POURING DOWN MAH FACE AND I CANNOT FEEL MY NECK. WHAT. I CAN'T BREATHE SO I'M GONNA DIE, TMTH!!1, IS THIS REAL LIFE ETC ETC.

might like you better if we slept together

2010-06-14T23:04:19Z

SO LAST NIGHT'S TRUE BLOOD. HOW FUCKING AMAZINGGGG.

There was so much Pam!!! AND she was so fucking epic!! I honestly think her lines were the fucking BEST, "Now why'd you have to go and kill that maenad? She's a terrific decorator" and her lame attempt at stopping Sookie from going down to see Eric lmao lmao "sookie stop don't come baaack". That made me laugh so fucking much. I wasn't expecting as much Pam as we got and I'm sure we won't have THAT much all the time but I was flailing so hard I didn't care. Like I even had a dream with her in it last night (this morning. didn't get to sleep about 5am lolol (oh and Elizabeth Mitchell was in my dream too, I had died and left behind art for each of my idols and Liz found it in a store whilst she was redecorating and put it up in her house ♥ fucking a, dreams ily)) but I can't remember what she did in it, lol. I just know that she was ~there~. OH AND HOW CUTE WAS IT WHEN KRISTIN BAUER ~VAN STRATEN~'S NAME CAME UP IN THE CREDITS? ASALKAHSDFLAKFAKL I AM SO GLAD SHE'S A REGULAR.

Anyway I thought the episode as a whole wasn't as ~action packed~ as I imagined but that's completely to be expected, when I look in retrospect, since they're bringing so many new characters in this season they sort of need to build the groundwork and set up all the storylines whilst finishing up from the final episode of season 2. So yeah that surprised me a little but I think I was just used to the action filled last leg of the second season, but I'm pretty sure each season has started off like this: the calm before the storm.

I wish that Arlene would have a bigger part negl, I LOVED her "I give a fuck!!" to Tara and then finding out she's pregnant, lol. I love her and Terry, they're kind of dorky and awkward and I adore that sfm. OH MY GOD, Terry's speech to Andy at the beginning!! I fucking died, I kept saying "aww" out loud and just generally fell in love with Terry.

I'm so glad Jason and Andy have sort of paired up now, they both are hilarious with each other. "I wanna be new Jason :("SO FUCKING CUTE. "CONSCIOUS OFF, DICK ON!" Jesus FUCK I love them both together.

I thought the Bill/Sam stuff was real you guys!! I FREAKED OUT.

UH I CAN'T REMEMBER ANYTHING ELSE BUT I LOVE THAT TRUE BLOOD IS BACK IN MY LIFE AND I HAVE A NEW DEFAULT BECAUSE KRISTIN BAUER ~VAN STRATEN~ IS MY GIRLFRIEND BUT SHE DOESN'T KNOW IT YET OKAY. END FLAIL SESH.

howqueer @ 2010-06-04T04:07:00

2010-06-04T03:07:19Z

oh my god it is nearly 4am. i got back at about 2:45 and i'm fucking tired as fuck. BUT LOOK I BROUGHT YOU LIZ PRETTINESS.

this shot is sam's. he wanted to get a shot of her legs and i just about died when he showed me. ♥

i honestly don't remember a lot of what she said, but she mentioned that she loves inappropriate humour at one point and that stuck with me. oh and we made eye contact about mid way through the thing, it was such a brief moment but i can still see her eyes fixed on mine and the memory is just beautiful. nothing else in the world was going on. ♥ i noticed that she purses her lips a lot when she's looking at people. i think she stopped it after a while, she did it only for the first ten minutes or so, but it was fascinating. she really listens and she's said in interviews about how people tell her she's a good listener and i got to witness how great a listener she really is tonight. especially when people were asking questions, she looked at them with understanding and oh my god. i cannot say enough how much i love her. ♥

we saw a few clips and i didn't watch the clips, i kept my eyes focused on liz the whole time. they showed us the shower scene from 1x02? or 1x03? idk. and she was like "DID YOU SEE MY BRUISED KNUCKLES?" afterwards, and she said that the people wanted to not show them and liz was like "but WOULDN'T they be bruised?" since she punches shit all the time, so they kept it in. watching her watch herself was fascinating too, lol. like she was reacting to the clips as if they were any other tv show, she winced at parts and even laughed at others. i just can't get over her. she said a lot of shit that i loved but honestly i cannot for the life of me remember. i think because i'm so tired, my memory is lacking.

to get shallow on you, she was fucking GORGEOUS in real life. like she literally took my breath away. i was watching her walk into the room fucking SPEECHLESS. she is so damn tall as well. like yeah i was sitting down when she stood up but i mean really, she TOWERED over everyone else. oh and she's desperately thin, i really noticed it when she touched scott wolf on the arm, and her elbow was so bony. idk, she looked very thin, but i mean whatever i know that she hates that she's lost weight whilst filming v and she's not like obsessed with being stick thin, it was just really noticeable to me. but yeah, she was wearing this navy blue top and to get really pervy, i totes could see her bra. like the lights were shining on her and at certain times i saw through the fabric and her bra was lacy? either that or it looked like leopard print lmao. um what else. oh yeah lmao she turned to face my direction to face someone that asked a question and to get REALLY PERVY, i could kind of see up her skirt. i didn't look closely of course, i'm not that much of a perv, but it was a little moment where i died inside. at the very end she stood up too quickly and toppled backwards onto her chair, she was like "IT'S THE SHOES!!11!" and lifted her leg up to show us her louboutins. AND THEN, her mic fell off and was dangling behind her, boyd hilton had to pick it up and follow her out of the room. i was literally thinking "OH LIZ LOL YOU ARE SO CUTE AND DORKY AND AWKWARD, CAN'T YOU CATCH A BREAK" because both of those things happened RIGHT AFTER THE OTHER, she did look quite embarrassed bless her. ♥

i could legitimately break down into tears right now, half from happiness and joy and half from being so tired. i am so lucky to have been in the same room as one of my idols, and i'm going to cherish this day for the rest of my life. ♥

my new default? that picture is MINE. i can't believe i own a picture of elizabeth mitchell.

howqueer @ 2010-06-01T23:13:00

2010-06-01T22:13:50Z

IT'S OFFICIALLY HAPPENING. IT IS ON. I AM REALLY GOING TO MEET ELIZABETH MITCHELL. NBD.

AT LEAST I HOPE I GET TO MEET HER, THE EVENT DESCRIPTION ISN'T REALLY SPECIFIC. I HOPE I GET SOMETHING SIGNED OR A PICTURE AT LEAST. OH MY GOD OH MY GOD. WHAT SHALL I SAY TO HER. I DON'T EVEN KNOW. MORE IMPORTANTLY, WHAT THE FUCK DO I WEAR. WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO MEET THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE. LOL OKAY THAT'S A BIT DRAMATIC BUT COME ON. COME THE FUCK ON, UNIVERSE. WHY YOU SO GOOD TO ME.

SHUT UP YES THIS POST NEEDED TO BE IN ALL CAPS.

howqueer @ 2010-06-01T03:06:00

2010-06-01T02:06:14Z

I AM ALMOST 100% SURE THAT I WILL BE MEETING ELIZABETH FREAKING MITCHELL ON THURSDAY EVENING.

THIS DESERVES IT'S OWN POST BECAUSE I AM FREAKING OUT AND WANTED TO SHARE. ALSJDHFD SFJKGD SJFHSAKF. I NEED TO SLEEP.

howqueer @ 2010-05-24T09:56:00

2010-05-24T08:56:06Z

After about two hours of deep thought, I've decided that I like the finale. Sure, I was pissed at first because I thought we were going to get action, big reveals and LOTS OF ANSWERS. They totally did these things, of course, but I realised that it is not in the nature of the show to explain everything in black and white. I've definitely ~seen the light~ though, and I'm happy about the way it ended.

During the finale I was making notes on my phone, I didn't make many but what I wrote down I have already forgotten and I wanted to remember it forever. It's nothing interesting really, but it's how I felt and what I did/experienced at certain parts.

- When Juliet came to do the ultrasound, I burst into tears. Her hair was so pretty, she was so pretty, and the fucking parallels to DOC were tangible, I KNEW what was going to happen and that made me love the scene so much more. I cried so fuckin' hard.
- I then spent the adverts after that scene bawling like a baby at hearing her maiden name. I don't even know, it was just having her a free woman, not keeping Jack's surname and not being a Burke made me see her in a whole new light and I LOVED IT. Shaking and crying, literally.
- When Sawyer came to the hospital and passed Juliet in the elevator I FLAILED SO HARD I HIT MY DOG BY ACCIDENT. He's a big dog, so it didn't hurt him, but still I felt bad lol.
- I was pretty much a wreck by the time my mum had gotten up to get ready for work and she came in to check on me, she saw that I was crying and I was like "IT'S SO SAAAAD", to which she sympathised and comforted me. ♥
- My dad then got up to go to work and came in, he was surprised at finding me up and asked what I was doing. I told him I was watching the LOST finale and he asked "what happened then, was it all a space ship?" because it was the scene with Frank getting the aeroplane to work, idfk. I laughed and said "no", I really couldn't explain what the fuck was happening, he gave up during season 3.

That is literally all I had written out. I am such a loser but having Juliet back and watching her reunion with Sawyer was so emotionally taxing that I couldn't bear to write much more. I'm going to re-watch the episode soon and view it's epicness through ~new eyes~, as Michael Emerson said.

I just want to take the time to apologise to people on my f-list who do not watch LOST and do not care, I just need to get these thoughts out and there will be plenty more to come. I'm sorry.

howqueer @ 2010-05-24T08:04:00

2010-05-24T07:04:04Z

My first reaction? I'm not pleased.

Don't get me wrong I cried like a bitch and flailed unbelievably hard at certain times but this is not what I expected at all.

I'll let it sink in before I expand my thoughts, though. brb eating lots of food and crying onto my keyboard.

howqueer @ 2010-05-21T21:11:00

2010-05-21T20:11:39Z

It's kind of an insult to her that I haven't had the time or the energy to make something substantial to celebrate her birthday, but I'll just do something extra spectacular next year.

To Lisa Edelstein; a beautiful, charming, inspirational and hilarious human being who makes my world (and many other people's world) better simply by existing. I hope all of her wishes come true on her day. ♥

howqueer @ 2010-05-18T06:16:00

2010-05-18T05:16:25Z

I'M FUCKING DEAD.
IT'S 6AM RIGHT NOW AND I HAVE TO GO GET READY FOR COLLEGE AND IT'S MY LONGEST DAY BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I DON'T GIVE A FUCK BECAUSE HOUSE AND CUDDY LOVE EACH OTHER AND LKFJDASLFKDHDFJDSFHLSD HFLKHDSFL KHLSDHFJLFHDS. I AM SHAKING AND CRYING FOR REAL IN REAL LIFE LIKE IT'S NOT EVEN A MEME ANY MORE. NOTHING IS REAL ANY MORE!!!!!!!!!! WHAT IS MY LIFE. WHAT IS.

LSDFKLHDSGKJHFJG MORE THOUGHTS LATER.

ETA: MAY IS WHEN THINGS START TO GET HOT.

LOST 30 day challenge

2010-05-11T22:48:41Z

I missed yesterday's post due to ~family issues~, so I'm double posting.

Day 01 — Your favourite quote
Day 02 — Your favourite episode
Day 03 — Your favourite female character
Day 04 — Your favourite male character
Day 05 — Your favourite Season soundtrack
Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 — A LOST-related photo that makes you happy
Day 08 — A LOST-related photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A LOST-related photo you took (can be anything even mildly related, like a rabbit)
Day 10 — A photo of your favourite character
Day 11 — A photo of your least favourite character
Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 — Your favourite season
Day 14 — Favourite LOST-related Tumblr
Day 15 — Favourite LOST-related fanfic
Day 16 — Character death that made you cry the most
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.) that’s LOST-related
Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 — Character on LOST that is most like you
Day 20 — Favourite LOST theory
Day 21 — Team Smokey or Team Jacob?
Day 22 — A website that’s LOST-related
Day 23 — A LOST-related YouTube video
Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 — Favourite LOST actor
Day 26 — Favourite LOST actress
Day 27 — What you’ll miss the most about LOST
Day 28 — Your favourite thing about LOST
Day 29 — What do you plan on doing now that LOST is over?
Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 03 - Your favourite female character

Juliet ~~motherfucking~~ Burke

Day 04 - Your favourite male character

Benjamin ~~delicious ham~~ Linus

LOST 30 day challenge

2010-05-09T16:37:50Z

Day 01 — Your favourite quote
Day 02 — Your favourite episode
Day 03 — Your favourite female character
Day 04 — Your favourite male character
Day 05 — Your favourite Season soundtrack
Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 — A LOST-related photo that makes you happy
Day 08 — A LOST-related photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A LOST-related photo you took (can be anything even mildly related, like a rabbit)
Day 10 — A photo of your favourite character
Day 11 — A photo of your least favourite character
Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 — Your favourite season
Day 14 — Favourite LOST-related Tumblr
Day 15 — Favourite LOST-related fanfic
Day 16 — Character death that made you cry the most
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.) that’s LOST-related
Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 — Character on LOST that is most like you
Day 20 — Favourite LOST theory
Day 21 — Team Smokey or Team Jacob?
Day 22 — A website that’s LOST-related
Day 23 — A LOST-related YouTube video
Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 — Favourite LOST actor
Day 26 — Favourite LOST actress
Day 27 — What you’ll miss the most about LOST
Day 28 — Your favourite thing about LOST
Day 29 — What do you plan on doing now that LOST is over?
Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 02 - Your favourite episode

3x16 - One of Us

"I'm never going to fit in with these people."
I think this episode has been my favourite from the first time I saw it. I mean, of course there are other AMAZING episodes but I'm very biased, in that Juliet is ultimately my favourite character of all time. Not to mention this episode is a classic LOST episode, with the twists and character development/analysis. I mean, not only do we get Juliet's backstory of her time with the Others, but we also have some interesting Losties stuff. The speech Juliet made to Sawyer and Sayid is forever one of my favourite things she's done, it made the two characters reflect and thus made the audience reflect on how they're rooting for essentially immoral characters. But, as Juliet said famously in 3x01; "It doesn't matter who we were. It only matters who we are." The question of morality is one I love to analyse in everything I watch/read/hear, and LOST deals with this issue in this episode perfectly. Even more so in terms of Juliet. Some people think she's evil because of the ending. I, personally, think it's clever. We go on to discover Juliet's loyalty to the camp, how she is always putting others before her own needs, and that makes the ending of this episode very misleading. That doesn't make me mad, it makes me happy beyond belief.

LOST 30 day challenge

2010-05-08T20:34:15Z

I started this off over at my tumblr, but I lost track and am now like 4 days behind. So I decided to do it here, since I visit this place more than tumblr and it'll be a good reminder.

~~Day 01 — Your favourite quote~~
Day 02 — Your favourite episode
Day 03 — Your favourite female character
Day 04 — Your favourite male character
Day 05 — Your favourite Season soundtrack
Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 — A LOST-related photo that makes you happy
Day 08 — A LOST-related photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A LOST-related photo you took (can be anything even mildly related, like a rabbit)
Day 10 — A photo of your favourite character
Day 11 — A photo of your least favourite character
Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 — Your favourite season
Day 14 — Favourite LOST-related Tumblr
Day 15 — Favourite LOST-related fanfic
Day 16 — Character death that made you cry the most
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.) that’s LOST-related
Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 — Character on LOST that is most like you
Day 20 — Favourite LOST theory
Day 21 — Team Smokey or Team Jacob?
Day 22 — A website that’s LOST-related
Day 23 — A LOST-related YouTube video
Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 — Favourite LOST actor
Day 26 — Favourite LOST actress
Day 27 — What you’ll miss the most about LOST
Day 28 — Your favourite thing about LOST
Day 29 — What do you plan on doing now that LOST is over?
Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 01 → Your favourite quote

“Do not mistake coincidence for fate.” — Mr. Eko

if only i could reboot my mechanical heart

2010-02-20T20:41:51Z

for the current challenge at picspammy , i decided to spam my top 5 favourite juliet moments, mainly because i think my moments might be a bit different to the average juliet fan, idek. but i enjoyed it and i think juliet could be one of my favourite ever characters. and here's why.

SAWYER: Nice day for a swim.
JULIET: What are you doing here?
SAWYER: Decided to take a dip. Whatcha celebratin'?
JULIET: I'm not celebrating.
SAWYER: Is that our boat?
JULIET: It was.

Here I feel so sorry for Juliet, like. IMMENSELYsorry for her. She had been waiting to get off of that damn island for so long, and she even gave other people her place on the boat to get to the freighter despite wanting to go home so badly. Not only did that make me love her selflessness, I just really empathise with her here, and I kind of love that she's getting piss drunk on the beach. It's completely out of character, but it is so in a way that it works.

SAWYER: I bought us two weeks. Horace said we can wait for the next sub. Any luck, Locke'll be back by then.
JULIET: And then what?
SAWYER: What do you mean, "Then what"?
JULIET: Locke said he was leaving to save us. The flashes have stopped. They're over. No more bloody noses. We're already saved. That sub behind you brought me here. I've been trying to get off of this island for more than three years, and now I've got my chance. I'm going to leave.
SAWYER: You do realize it's 1974, that whatever it is you think you're going back to... it don't exist yet.
JULIET: It's not a reason not to go.
SAWYER: Well, what about me? You really gonna leave me here with the mad scientist and Mr. "I Speak to Dead People"? And Jin, who's a hell of a nice guy but not exactly the greatest conversationalist.
JULIET: You'll be fine.
SAWYER: Maybe... but who's gonna get my back? Come on. Just give me two weeks, that's all I'm asking. Two weeks.
JULIET: All right. Two weeks.

GOD. Again, her want to please another person so much comes before her want to get home. I don't know whether she felt as if she couldn't go back? Because she actually left her sister in the first place? OR maybe she didn't WANT to go back. There could be several reasons as to WHY she stayed back on the Island, but I like to think it was to keep Sawyer company. This is an act of longing. Longing for someone to need her, someone to be there for her and I think she found that in Sawyer, which makes this moment even more complex and beautiful. ♥

ETHAN: Good morning. [Juliet tries to speak] No, no, its OK. You'll be hoarse for a few hours but it gets better as the day goes on. Sorry I had to strap you in but the last leg is always a little bumpy. Watch your head. Give me your hand. We're here.
JULIET: Here where?
[Ethan points up and Juliet climbs a ladder outside. She is on a tropical Island by a pier. Ben approaches.]
BEN: Hello Doctor Burke. My name is Benjamin Linus. I'm really looking forward to working with you. Watch your step here.

This moment is so beautifully directed and shot cinematically, but I think everything about Juliet arriving to the Island is gorgeous and unique. The look on her face when she first sees the Island just conveys the feeling of "oh shit what have I gotten myself into" brilliantly. I also think Ben's "Watch your step here" is very symbolic of her journey on the Island. Juliet did need to have her wits about her, and she had to watch what she did and said most of the time. I think she partly learned that while she was on the Island, but I also think she was very wary and intelligent about people when she lived in Miami. I don't know, it's just a feeling I have. It's just another layer atop another one in Juliet's character.

JULIET: I was just bringing you something to eat. Enjoy your sandwich.

This moment I love so much because it displays Juliet's badass side and Kate gets hurt. No but seriously, her want to please is shown again here, in a form of a sandwich. I don't know if Juliet was ordered to give Kate food, but I highly doubt it. I think she went out of her way to make Kate that sandwich (Juliet probably put in the toothpicks herself) and Kate threw it back in her face. Instead of fighting back, Juliet merely dropped Kate's ass, said an awesome one-liner and left. It's classy, she does everything with an air of class and calmness. It's astounding to me.

JACK: You don't trust me anymore?
JULIET: I trust you just fine. Just thought I'd put a movie in.
JACK: You know what, I'm going to pass on the movie.
JULIET: You'll like this one Jack. It's "To Kill A Mockingbird". It's a classic.
JACK: Juliet, I don't want to watch a movie right now!
JULIET: I'll turn the sound down then. I felt like I should apologize. Say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for bringing you here. And for everything that's been done to you. And your friends. You have to know we were desperate. It was only so that we could save his life.
[The video begins playing but shows Juliet in her house. She's holding a large cue-card. Handwritten on the card is - 'Ignore Everything I'm Saying'. Jack is confused but says nothing.]
JULIET: Ben. He's a great man.
[The video shows Juliet change the card to another one. This card says 'Ben is a liar.']
JULIET: I know you find that hard to believe but... he is.
[The video shows Juliet change the card to another one. This card says 'And he is very dangerous'.]
JULIET: You probably feel like you don't have a choice. But you do, Jack. Free will is all we've really got, right?
[The video shows Juliet change the card to another one. This card says 'Some of us want a change'. Then the video shows another card which says 'But it has to look like an accident'.]
JULIET: Anyway, just wanted to put in my two cents.
[The video shows Juliet change the card to another one. This card says 'It has to look like we tried to save him.' Then the video shows another card which says 'And that's up to you, Jack'.]
JULIET: I told you before, you can trust me. I want you to trust me, now, when I tell you that doing the surgery is absolutely the right thing for you to do.
[The video shows Juliet changing to a card that says 'It's a complicated surgery. No one would ever know'.]
JULIET: It's the right thing because he deserves to live.
[The video shows Juliet changing to a card that says 'And I would protect you'. Then the video shows another card which says 'Now tell me to turn off the movie'.]
JACK: Turn the movie off.
JULIET: Jack--
JACK: Turn it off! Now.
JULIET: Alright. It's off. Think about what I said. Please.

Okay so this is my favourite because not only did I totally dig Jack/Juliet before Sawyer/Juliet happened, but I think this was just so CLEVER. It is a plan, a well thought out plan that she executed perfectly. I also love that Jack trusted her and actually listened to her, instead of ratting her out. I love that we didn't know her motivation for this at all, like was she tricking Jack? Was she crossing Ben? It's all a part of why I loved Juliet so fucking much, her smarts and never knowing what side she was really on.

goodbye 2009! :(

2009-12-23T23:33:24Z

This spam is for the current challenge at picspammy , and it consists of a few of my favourite things from 2009. I wanted to do a bigger, better and longer spam but I had to stop myself before I got carried away. I hope you enjoy!! ♥

FAVOURITE PEOPLE
#1: Lady GaGa

I truly love this woman with all of my heart. And my love only really ~developed~ in 2009. I have been endlessly inspired by her and her music. Everything she does/wears/sings/performs is well thought out and executed in a way that is truly original. I am so excited for her career beyond 2009. She has been woven into my life now, I can't seem to escape her. And I wouldn't have it any other way. ♥

#2: Lisa Edelstein

Lisa constantly amazes me with her talent in House, but she is also one of the sweetest, funniest and cheerful actresses I've ever obsessed over. In 2009, I really discovered her. I was a fan of House in late 2008, but it was this year that introduced me to her beautiful fans, her other appearances in television and film and her personality with priceless interviews/photoshoots. Thank you, 2009, for giving me this wonderful gift.

#3: Elizabeth Mitchell

I have to admit that this woman is a late bloomer in terms of my obsession. I have only really started to fangirl over her for a month or so. It was one of my f-list that introduced me to her amazingness, and from there everything just snowballed into me watching her new show, catching up on LOST and trying to watch every movie she's ever been in. Liz is an astounding actress. Not only that, but her attitude is so contagious, in every interview I have seen of hers she is so cheerful and humble that it makes me want to explode. I adore everything about her. ♥

#4: Kathy Griffin

This might be an unusual pick for most people, lol. But for me, Kathy Griffin is one of my all time biggest idols. I love her fearlessness and her venomous sense of humour. I can't get enough of her. I think she's a breath of fresh air in Hollywood, and that a lot of celebrities are afraid of being around her, which I find hilarious. She's taken celebrity culture and removed the mask it hides behind. 2009 was an especially glorious year for Kathy, as her fame continues to grow, the more she can tell us about how the industry really works. ♥

[honorable mentions; kristin bauer, portia de rossi, tina fey, meryl streep, gillian anderson, julia murney]

FAVOURITE MOVIES
#1: Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

This is here purely because of my love of Harry Potter. I understand that there were "better" movies I could have picked, but this movie will always hold a special place in my heart. I thought it was especially fantastic, and they did a brilliant job of bringing to life my favourite book of the series.

#2: Watchmen

I honestly have no other reason for putting this here other than it amazed me. Aesthetically, emotionally, artistically, in every way. I think it's a gorgeous movie, and watch it at least once every few months. I still can't get my head around it. ♥

#3: Coraline

This movie is just brilliant. Not only does it contain Dawn French and Jennifer Saunders as two old women, it has a lot of heart combined with a butt load of creepiness. I was frightened when I first watched it, negl. Teri Hatcher was fantastic in this (and I probably only say this because we couldn't actually see her face, zing) and I recommend it to anyone who loved The Nightmare Before Christmas. An all round beautiful movie, I think. ♥

[honorable mentions; paranormal activity, phoebe in wonderland, monsters vs. aliens, the hangover, the invention of lying]

FAVOURITE TV SHOWS
#1: Misfits

I have so much to say about this show, and yet I can't form sentences. Basically, this could be one of my favourite shows to ever exist. It's intelligent, witty, hilarious, vulgar and gritty. It's everything brilliant about British TV wound into one spectacular 6-episode season. I recommend if you liked Skins. I think Kelly an Nathan are my favourites, and I totally ship them. ♥

#2: Modern Family

AHHHH WHAT CAN I SAY. This is such a fresh show, it popped out of nowhere with it's sharp humour and strong characters. I was immediately in love after watching the pilot, and had to tell everyone who would listen about this show. It's simply hilarious, and it also has it's touching side. The heart of the show isn't overwhelming, but the simple scenes like Claire and Mitchell doing the figure skating in the car park just made me melt. I love every single character in this show, and I can't wait to see where it goes from here.

#3: Better Off Ted

I have to say that I was unsure about this show after watching the first episode, but I continued to watch and fell in love. The second season just returned this month and it is even better than the first (if that's even possible) only two or three episodes in. It's not at all taxing, the characters are simply hilarious and outrageous and each episode brings something new to the dynamic of the work place. I just cannot express my love for this show enough. Oh, and Portia De Rossi is fantastic. ♥

#4: United States of Tara

Toni Collette is wonderful in this show. I cannot stress that enough. TONI COLLETTE IS WONDERFUL IN THIS. WONDERFUL. Okay, I think you get the idea. But Toni isn't the only one who is fantastic, every other actor/actress on this show blew me away. The writing, too. I can't even. I watched this without even knowing that Diablo Cody had created it, but after I found out, it made so much sense. I recognised the humour, especially with Kate. I vowed to watch the rest of this show religiously because I trust that Diablo will make it greater with each episode. Basically, this show made me both cry and laugh so hard with the simplest of moments. It's effortlessly perfect. ♥

#5: V

You should watch this just for the pure attractiveness of this cast, GOD DAMN. Okay maybe not ~just~ for the beautifulness, the show is actually pretty good too. I immediately fell in love with the pilot. Erica is a strong female character who kicks ass. Who doesn't want to watch Elizabeth Mitchell's fine butt kick some butt? Exactly. I just love the whole plot, and the twists and turns catch me completely off guard, which I adore. I can't get over some of the shots used in this show, either, they're so interesting and creative. This show is both aesthetically and emotionally appealing. AND I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I HAVE TO WAIT LIKE 948598 MONTHS FOR IT TO RETURN. :( :(

[honorable mentions; nurse jackie, glee, parks and recreation]

FAVOURITE BOOK
Official Book Club Selection: A Memoir According to Kathy Griffin

This book is the single most hilarious autobiography I have ever read. Kathy's humour just oozes out of the pages. This is contrasted with the emotional times that she writes about, like her husband stealing thousands of dollars from her right under her nose. It's an extremely touching book, with lots of laughs- the perfect combination. ♥ Plus, there are plenty of stories about celebrities that will make your mouth drop open.

FAVOURITE ALBUM
Lady GaGa - The Fame Monster

This CD has been on repeat for a good month or so for me, and it hasn't gotten old yet. I find something new every time I listen to each of these songs. On the outside, they may seem like harmless dance/pop music, but if you listen hard you can tear apart the layers and meanings buried within the lyrics. An all round exciting listening experience I've never quite felt before.

FAVOURITE WEBSITE
Textsfromlastnight.com

I discovered this website a couple of months ago, and have checked it every day since I first clicked onto the home page. It makes me laugh so much I have actually shed tears. I am so thankful that I am not some of these people, and then I am so envious of how much fun a lot of these people have. I want a massive party every time I read a tfln. ♥

FAVOURITE YOUTUBE VIDEO
What's Your Favourite Curse Word?

Even though this video is really old, I never tire of it. I remember these ads showing on Channel 4 here in the UK and I loved them because they gave an insight into these celebrity's lives. This video, however, is especially great because it has famous people swearing. I love this video because it makes me proud of my country and it's lack of censorship. :)

here's a lullaby to close your eyes~

2009-10-25T21:19:08Z

This is for the current challenge at picspammy .

Something that has always been a big part of my life is Silent Hill. My dad bought the first game when I was quite young, and we played it together at times. The graphics were ~omg amazing~ on our battered PS1, but the thing that really caught my attention was the story and the monsters. Everything was so disturbing, rather than scary, to me. And I loved that somebody, somewhere, had thought all of this up. I fell in love with the game, and immediately bought the sequel. Silent Hill 2 really made me fall for this series. Hard. I remember spending Sunday afternoons watching my dad play through the game, helping him with the riddles. I wasn't really active in fandom at all back then, but if I was, I sure as hell would have been a huge part of the Silent Hill fandom. When the movie came out, I HAD to see it. I wasn't sure at first if I liked it, as it was terribly different from the first game (which it was based upon). I watched it a second time, and fell in love. I have never picspammed anything even remotely related to Silent Hill, so I thought that I would rectify that with an impromptu picspam of the Silent Hill movie trailer. I was saddened that I couldn't find any caps of the movie itself, as this is still a relatively small fandom. Long intro is long, so I will stfu now and start a spammin'. Enjoy!

A Warm Feeling of Authority - a picspam

2009-09-18T16:19:41Z

This is a challenge for picspammy .
A sort of Cuddy or House/Cuddy focused picspam focusing on the warm colours in Cuddy's office.

It's something I threw together, messing around with the caps and colouring. But I also found a sort of symbolism behind Cuddy's authority and how that's portrayed through her office with the colours used. I thought this could also signify a sort of kick start of the new season and celebrate how beautiful this show can be. I love the scenes that happen in Cuddy's office, and even though I missed out a few awesome ones, I hope this suffices. I'm shutting up now.

Cuddy: What are you doing?
House: Well, you're trying to be me, so I thought I'd try to be you.
Cuddy: You don't have the cleavage for it.
House: But I have a much tighter ass.

Cuddy: You think I like the cameras? You think I want the whole world watching you check out my ass and question my wardrobe?

House: Would it be better if I checked out your wardrobe and questioned your ass?

Cuddy: A little part of me-

House: There is no little part of you.

House: What you want you run away from, what you need you don't have a clue, what you've accomplished makes you proud, but you're still miserable.

Cuddy: How did you know that I liked roses?
Lucas : I was in your house last night.

Amber: Looks like you're not losing it after all...

Cuddy: This is beyond asshood! You have the luxury of not caring about your image, I do not! I can permit a lot of crap, but an employee shouting about his sexual exploits with me, no! That is zero tolerance! So congratulations House, I am angry.

Amber: So, this is the story you made up about who you are. It's a nice one.
Kutner: Too bad it isn't true.

She is extremely annoying

2009-07-19T17:39:38Z

FIVE REASONS TO LOVE THE MOTHEREFFING EFF OUT OF PAM
AKA: A PAMSPAM.

WARNING: SPOILERS (SORT OF) FOR UP TO 2x04

NOTE: I apologise in advance for the craptastic quality of some of these caps. It's embarassing, really. But, I hope you enjoy regardless. ♥
Also, this may turn into a recurring theme, I might do it for the other characters.

REASON #1 TO LOVE THE MOTHEREFFING EFF OUT OF PAM:
HAIR.
God DAMN it is the most beautiful thing you've ever seen. Just try and convince me otherwise. She even ties things up in it and wears sunglasses on her head. Pam doesn't even need those motherfuckers.

"If i was a human i would get chills right about now."

REASON #2 TO LOVE THE MOTHEREFFING EFF OUT OF PAM:
CLOTHING.
Bitch looks fine wearing both black, dominatrix-looking outfits, her elegant silk blouses and knitted jumpers and tracksuits god DAMN.

Bill: Tell me, do you enjoy living halfway up his backside the way you do?
Pam: Yes, it's nice. You should try it sometime.

REASON #3 TO LOVE THE MOTHEREFFING EFF OUT OF PAM:
THOSE LIPS.
Nobody should ever have a perfect pair of lips as this woman has. Pam has the ability to kill a person with the poutiness of her lips.

Eric: She is extremely lazy. But loyal.

REASON #4 TO LOVE THE MOTHEREFFING EFF OUT OF PAM:
GENERAL BADASSERY.
Pam likes to kick dead bodies into graves, glance at dead people's underwear and remove pieces of vampire out of women's cleavages.

"There's vampire in your cleavage."

REASON #5 TO LOVE THE MOTHEREFFING EFF OUT OF PAM:
DO YOU NEED A FIFTH REASON? IT'S PAM, JFC.

"Can I kick him?"

Thanks for giving this a read. I know it's short and sort of faily, but I think it's a good attempt for a Sunday evening. Which reminds me, it's sort of perfect that I have done this on a Sunday evening, as the new episode airs tonight. ACCIDENTAL TIMING FTW.
SPAM ME WITH PAM AWESOMENESS, IF YOU SO WISH.
♥

New graphics community!

2009-05-30T03:18:16Z

A quick pimpage, because idk if this will even work.
I made a graphics community.

yourmedicine

Please join the community, as I'll be posting there from now on. ♥