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Little archive of unsent texts. Yes this is about you specifically. its about EVERY lezdyke/queergay/it/he/she/they/girl/boy/enby/tranny ive loved loathed or felt generally apathetic towards. I love publishing first drafts.
0. Im sorry.
1. Fuck youd be so pretty if I didnt know your tag was stupid as shit.
2. I think maybe getting on ssris helped you justify being a worse person.
3. "career in music" girl your 30, ive seen ground score cigarettes in the rain with more potential.
4. Fuck you for calling. I was happier when I thought you were dead.
5. I love you so fucking much but if I stay were both going to kill ourselves And i have so much to fucking live for, please dont ask me to stay
6. Fuck you for keeping me alive.
7. Your really cute but honestly your kind of too stupid for me to find yew hot. is that shitty?
8. You used me and I fucking hate you for it, but sometimes, late at night, I touch myself and I replay the night like bad movie footage, over and over, until I finally cum.
9. Next time you say "foid" im gonna fucking slap you dude. stop texting like a twitter nazi
10. XDDDDDDDDD u didnt "kinda taste bad" grl. take a fucking shower, jfcccc.
11. is there a way 2 make yew stop talking please?
12. Im not actually monogamous with her, I was kinda just hoping youd fuck off to be so honest.
13. iiiii love you so fucking much.
Angel: im on my last bridge to burn holding lighters in both hands. Angel: talking about a future with the devil. Devil: how poetic. Angel: shut up, Angel: injecting me full of despair and malice, fuck you. Devil: . . . Angel: i had healed. my wounds scabbed over. Devil: . . . Angel: i hope you die for what you did to me. Devil: i wont. im going to outlive you by a long while. Angel: i know.. Angel: i hate you.. Devil: i wouldnt be very good at what i do if you didnt. - - - THEY BOTH SAT IN SILENCE FOR A LONG WHILE. NOTHING WILL COME OF THIS. THERES NO CLOSURE IN DEATH. ONLY THE ACHE WHERE A HEARTBEAT ONCE WAS. ~ e n d
This story is dedicated to Belladonna (Living), Marie (Living), Phee (Dead2me), & Luciferia Lowell (DeadAndTried2TakeMeWithHer).
The acid tabs she fed me taste, yucky. like guilt and terror mixed with sink slime. USUALLY everytime i rave/fuck/date someone new i precurse it with, "hey dont give me acid, it sends me into psychosis." Usually im so responsible. it will be fine i think The brain maggots are wriggling. burrowing. violent and seductive. "Would you still love me if i never got better. Would you still love me if i became worse." i feel my skull squish a little, i have to remind myself im not dead yet silly, theres no way the decay has set in yet. "love me love me say that you love me" shitty noisepop croons on the new-world speakers. why would yew mix this? injected synthetic emotions. it only takes 2 words, 1 word to make me spiral. not even. i need to do cocaine again i decided. something skull spattering. anyways. i was whining about being lonely or mentally ill right? im always fucking doing that, its so self flagellating, but at the same time N a r c i s s i s t i c. its a cute contrast if you like that sort of thing. contrast, not flagellation i mean. *chhhhhhh* *pop* i smoke my cute little bubble pop electric disp0 vape i paid too much for. whatever, if this doesnt kill me something worse off for it will. and anyways i like it, its ritualistic, stimulating, vampiric. magenta smoke shop vamp pop. fuck im hella off topic again. ------- ---------- --------- *sniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiifffffffffffffffffff* times 3. whoa, owwwwie. fuck what was i saying, hold on i need to sit for a sex, i mean sec hehe. silly. the drugs are kicking in really hard"Its a lifestyle really.you either die young or age painfully" *186 bpm. *gabber i think? what the fuck is this set..
yeah this mixing kinda sucks but, OH MY GOD I REMEBERED :) !!! (im yelling over the music at this point, obnoxiouslly so) WOULD YEW STILL LOVE ME IF I WAS A WORM??? NUH UH THATS NOT THE REAL QUESTION HEHE. I JUSSSST, DONT WANNA ASK NOW. TOO COKED UP FOR GOOD WORBS WELL YA KNO? HEY WE SHOULF GO THE BATHROOM I THINK I NEED TO PUKE. holyfuckingshit i can barely walk ughh. i wonder if everyone knows im high. wait yeah ofc they do i look so fucked probably. i am so fucked probably, probably yeah. IM SORRY. NO IMF FINE. REALLYLS. YEHAHH. NO. UHM. YEA JM GO- GOOD. IM GOOD, UGHHH. I THIBK THAT WSASNT COKE. ALL SPINNY, HEH MY HED HURTSSSS. HELP ME? SHITF THE ACIDS ITTING TOOOO.OO.OO. UGHHGHWHATS HAPPENING. WHO ARE YOU. CUTE DIVINE. I KNOW THAT GIRL?? SHE LOOKS SO WORRIED. I HOPE NOTHING BAD HAPPENED. THE HEAVENS OPEN UP IN ATTEMPTS TO GRAB EVEN THE WORST OF ANGELS FROM TIME TO TIME. FUCK ITS SO BRIGHT. SOMEONE TURN THAT DULL THROBBING TEXURE OFF PLEASE. THE GORE IS MAKING ME SICK AND THE SICK IS MAKING ME GORE Fae flutter bashfully below and aside. scattershot eye floaters. Help me. im okay. help me please. i cant stand. whats going on? i cant stand. whats happening love please help me. i refuse to go, god cant have me back. i wont go. please. take me home. TELL ME IM GOOD AND LOVED AND CAREFULL AND FRAGILE, JUST FUCK TAKE ME HOME PLEASE. DONT LET GOD HAVE ME. I WONT GO BACK, SHE CANT HAVE ME, IM SO SCARED PLEASE DONT LET ME GO. PLEASE. G O D C A N T H A V E M E B A C K Y E T ____ ___ ____ ____ _ _ _ _____ _ _ ___ _______ __ __ _____ ____ _ ____ _ __ / ___|/ _ \| _ \ / ___| / \ | \ | |_ _| | | | | / \ \ / / ____| | \/ | ____| | __ ) / \ / ___| |/ / | | _| | | | | | | | | / _ \ | \| | | | | |_| | / _ \ \ / /| _| | |\/| | _| | _ \ / _ \| | | ' / | |_| | |_| | |_| | | |___ / ___ \| |\ | | | | _ |/ ___ \ V / | |___ | | | | |___ | |_) / ___ \ |___| . \ \____|\___/|____/ \____/_/ _ \_\_| \_|_|_|_ |_| |_/_/ __\_\_/ _|_____| |_| |_|_____| |____/_/ _ \_\____|_|\_\ / ___|| | | | ____| / ___| / \ | \ | |_ _| | | | | / \ \ / / ____| | \/ | ____| | __ ) / \ / ___| |/ / \___ \| |_| | _| | | / _ \ | \| | | | | |_| | / _ \ \ / /| _| | |\/| | _| | _ \ / _ \| | | ' / ___) | _ | |___ | |___ / ___ \| |\ | | | | _ |/ ___ \ V / | |___ | | | | |___ | |_) / ___ \ |___| . \ |____/|_| |_|_____| \____/_/ \_\_| \_| |_| |_| |_/_/ \_\_/ |_____| |_| |_|_____| |____/_/ \_\____|_|\_\ G O D C A N T H A V E M E B A C K Y E T G O D C A N T H A V E M E B A C K Y E T G O D C A N T H A V E M E B A C K Y E T G O D C A N T H A V E M E B A C K Y E T
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont belong to her anymore. your not mai patron saint anymore. i dont want you. "YOUR GONNA BE OKAY FAE, YOUR GONNA BE OKAY STAY WITH ME" i dont want you i dont want you i dont want you YOU CANT FUCKING HAVE ME IM SUPPOSED HAVE SO MUCH MORE TIME. IM SUPPOSED TO HAVE SO SO SO MUCH MORE TIME.
FUCK ME. SAVE ME. HEAL ME. LOVE ME. USE ME. GRAB ME. HOLD ME. HURT ME. HIT ME. RAPE ME. LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME. never stagnant. permanently feral. infinitely useful. crashing waves of violet sticker paper wrapping my senses. Create a future to dissolve into the present. emotionally distressed effervescent tablets. i think i overdosed. am i fine? am i fine? i hope so. i fare to fear to hope so. let me alone. your child is gone. the girl that replaced him is cruel and vile. you wont want her anymore i promise. "fuck please work please, please, please" naloxone as blasphemy. sin entering my lungs. blood bile chemical filter bypass. "ill pull you from quicksand ill snatch you from hell. dont cry it was my mistake, mine to assume that you fell." "oh thank god. shes coming back" "hi baby" a voice coos. lilting and faelike. sort of a better kind of divinity. the noise makes my skull vibrate thru shades of lilac, softer and warmer than my previous hellscraps. Hi love. whats happening? what happened? "FUCK I WAS SO WORRIED ANGEL. YOU STUPID CUNT I LOVE YEW SO MUCH!!" "I THOUGHT"
nono i wont go back. "wh-what?" she tried to take me away.. "what do yew mean love?" HER, GOD. SHE CAME FOR ME. "Oh" "Okay.. well, im glad your still here, my little angel." i lean into her, slumped on what i think is part floor, vomit, piss, blood, and puke. she still holds me anyway. i whisper into her ear. i almost didnt make it. i fought so hard, im here. im so happy to be here. fuck
i love you so much. thank you for saving me. i-i-i love you s-so much. t-thank you. thank you f-for saving me. I love you so much. thank you for saving me.
I love you so much. Thank you for saving me.
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