The New Sensation

Long comming update

hellkitty — Tue, 05 Aug 2008 18:52:56 GMT

wow... busy busy busy. The last two weeks have been a blur. With preparing for Ginger's yardsale (which went very well in my opinion) to moving Ginger, to unpacking, to preparing for my birthday festivities. I'm quite ready to get back to normal now! :) The move went very well. We were able to get almost all of her stuff out in the one day we had the Uhaul (I'd say about 98% of her stuff). It took pretty much all day and it was really frackin hot out, but we did it and afterwards took a dip in her pool and went to Johnny Carrino's for dinner which Ginger paid for as a thank you for helping her move. Josh even came out to help which was a pleasant surprise :D She likes her new apartment very much and the fact that she's so close to me now makes things a whole lot easier!

I start softball today. I'm excited to begin practices and even moreso to get my shirt :D which will have Hellkitty as my name and my number is 137 (they're making an exception for me since most of the time the numbers are only two digits :) I can't wait for the games to start ... I believe they start next week, I'll know more when I get my schedule tonight.

I have kind of slacked on my diet these last two weeks due to the fact that everything was so hectic. I'll be returning to that this week and have my weekly update on Saturday. I'll also be posting on Sparkpeople again which I also neglected over the last two weeks and I'm sure my teammates are pissed at me for not participating in the challenge I signed up for... :( I feel bad about that but I'll make it up on the next challenge!!

Work is going very well. I have had several conversations with both Cindy (the key accounts manager) and Sarah (my Walgreens account manager) about me taking over Walgreens full time and becomming a Key Accounts Rep. They want me over there now and are in the works to make that happen :D yay salaried position! I'm hoping it will happen in the next month.

Ginger is absolutely fabulous :) She's been a real trooper through all of the recent changes she's had. I'm sure she's also eager to return to normality. I'm so glad we found each other, we're so good for each other. I feel very supported and loved and I'm sure she feels the same :D

Another fabulous weekend :)

hellkitty — Mon, 21 Jul 2008 17:36:10 GMT

Another fabulous weekend has come and gone. On Friday night TJ, Amber, Jered, Ginger and I went to Vertical Edge and did some rock climbing. I climbed two walls (including my favorite one :) and then Ginger showed me how to Belay. I ended up taking the test and I can now belay officially! I was excited and in line with learning how to drive her truck, Ginger proved again to be a competant and patient teacher :) I'm so lucky :) Now onto Calculus!

On Saturday we met up with TJ, Amber and Jered to eat at Wild Wings and then to see Wall-E. I'm in love with all Pixar flicks and this one was just as good as any of them. I would suggest seeing it. It kept my attention even though there was very little dialogue in the movie. I didn't look at my watch once. Go see it! :)

After that Ginger and I drove to the airport to pick up Patrick and brough him back to Fayetteville. It was good to see Kim and Patrick even though it was a little weird. The whole trip reminded me that I don't want that sort of situation in my life. It's complicated and just seems a little like the person who wants it more just wants to have their cake and eat it too, and I'm not about all of that. It really made me realize that I have what I want now, exactly what I want. :)

Everyone decided not to do anything on Saturday night so G and I just hung out at the apartment. I couldn't sleep so I watched a bit of the birdcage and played guitar hero until 3am, and passed out :)

On Sunday I took G around to different apartment complexes in the area so she could get information on a new apartment. She ended up deciding to get this really frackin awesome apartment about two blocks from my complex. It's a two bedroom two bath, garden tub in the master bath, hot tub next to the main pool (they have two pools!), English Spa (erm whatever that is lol), Lake Lynn access (which I realized was about a 10 minute walk from my complex :D, and some nifty other things. The apartment is on the third floor and it is on the back of the building so there's a lot of privacy. I'm excited that she was able to find this place! I can't wait to help her move in :) It's going to help a lot with gas and distance issues.

We ended up going to Frankie's that night and played miniature golf with TJ, Amber, and Jered. It was really fun lol even though I kept score (I need to keep score... it's just how it's supposed to be!) I got three hole in ones which surprised the crap out of me because I never play that well! After we were done with that we went inside and G and I played 12 games of air hockey.... she threw one of her patented 'Smith fits' because I ended up winning all of the games ... sorry baby! :) I warned her ... and then explained that that's why no one likes to play air hockey with me lol

Such a good weekend... but every weekend is seeming to be good :) I wonder why that is? I guess it's because I feel right... everything seems to fall into place, and I'm in love with a wonderful, caring, intelligent, beautiful woman.

Weight Loss

hellkitty — Mon, 21 Jul 2008 13:57:18 GMT

Busy weekend! Here's the update:

Starting Weight: 222
Current Weight: 222
Loss this week: 0
Total Loss: -22
Lbs til initial Goal: 12
Lbs til final Goal: 62
Goal for next week: -2 lbs

Seems as though I'm in the middle of a plateau. I exercised every day last week and although I was a bit free with the food this past weekend it shouldn't have been enough to keep me from losing. I look forward to an active week and more healthy living! :D

Super fantabulicious weekend :D

hellkitty — Mon, 14 Jul 2008 20:52:52 GMT

I must say it is very surprising when a weekend like this past one happens. I didn't feel rushed, not too much going on, just right. Even with the minor hiccups that occured I never once felt like I was stressed. Ginger, TJ, Amber, Jared and I all lounged at the pool on Saturday then went to El Rodeo for dinner (mmm tasty grilled chicken salad :D ). After that we took a trip to the porn store... which was hilarious :) and then shuffled off to get ready for the club.

The club was busy and because of situations that were going on I decided to have my alcohol fast and right when we got there lol :) Ginger told me shortly after we got there that T's friends were there spying on her. How super lame is that? Anyway, we ended up having a really good time and I primarly danced with Ginger all night because of other things that were happening with TJ and Amber... which I wasn't going to complain about :) I just wish we hadn't had the spy brigade watching our every move...

Honey's afterward and then home where the passing out occurred. lol

The next day (Sunday) we all went to the pool again. Sunday was just a relaxing day... so relaxing that after the cookout at TJs Ginger and I fell asleep for a bit on Tj's fouton. Relaxing... except when Ginger decided it would be a good idea for me to learn how to drive her manual truck o.O I think I actually did pretty well seeing that I haven't driven a stick shift since I was around 17 and it was only for a short period. I was happy that I learned that Ginger is a good teacher and very patient :) TJ was pissed ... apparently she'd been trying to get Ginger to let her drive the truck for a year now. lol

I also cemented my decision to go back to school for one class, Calculus. It's a subject that's very touchy with me and made me believe so much that I couldn't do it that the overwhelming feeling of failure clouded me in college and eventually led to me quitting. Ever since then I felt less than smart because of my failure in a subject (math) that I had previously thought myself to be good at. (yes I just ended that sentance with a preposition, so sue me.) I have failed it two times perhaps the third time is a charm. But I'll probably need help...

I didn't want the weekend to end. It was really nice to reconnect with Ginger and I think this weekend was some of the best time we have spent together thus far. I had missed her very much and it was nice to have time around her that wasn't awkward or super stressful. She really deserved some calm time and I think she got a good bit of it this weekend :)

Weight Loss

hellkitty — Mon, 14 Jul 2008 02:20:38 GMT

I know I was supposed to have this up on Saturday, but I know you'll all forgive me :)

Starting Weight: 230
Current Weight: 222
Loss this week: -8 !!
Total Loss: -22
Lbs til initial Goal: 12
Lbs til final Goal: 62
Goal for next week: -2 lbs.

Well ... yeah um ... my body doesn't like fat apparently when I treat it well and give it what it deserves. Somebody I spoke to recently said that I'm losing weight too fast. Honestly I'm not sure how this is too fast since I'm doing everything I'm supposed to. Most days I get at least 3 fruits and veggies and trying my best to consume at least 1200 calories (some days I'm just not 1200 calorie hungry) I also have been working out at least once and more like twice a day through walks around the lake, treadmilling it, circuit training, dancing at the club every Saturday night :), and going to the pool.

I don't think I've told everyone about it but I'm also using a free site, sparkpeople.com, to track all of my nutrition and exercise stuff. I joined a team called the Lesbian Cafe and we're in the middle of a challenge. Basically every day we get a challenge and we get points for our teams for completeing the goals. It's a really good informative site very similar to Weight Watchers but without the points. Everyone on the team is very supportive and we all strive to motivate each other when we feel we need it. To anyone that's needing something like this I highly recommend this site.

Bittersweet emotions...

hellkitty — Thu, 10 Jul 2008 14:57:26 GMT

I just found out one of my favorite coworkers, Cel, is gone :( I'm not sure if she got fired or if she quit but she's not here anymore. I liked her a lot, she told it like it was. On that note she was in key accounts, she handled the Wal-Mart account. So therefore, now that she's gone, there's an opening in key accounts... I wonder who they're going to hire... *raises hand* pick me! pick me! :D Hopefully I will have a key accounts position making 6k more a year than what I do now within the next month!

I had a confrontation with a thunderstorm (a short story about determination)

hellkitty — Wed, 09 Jul 2008 23:33:55 GMT

I started walking and it was semi sunny out. I noticed, as I turned the corner at one of the main entrances of the lake, that the sky was black the way I was headed, I was 20 minutes into the walk so I figured I'd just keep going. I had a conversation with the storm that went something like this:

Storm: I'm gonna get you.
Me: Like hell you are!   GRRRR!

At this point I picked up speed.

As I turned the corner where the first big pier walkway started almost exactly opposite where I live, I saw huge bolts of lightning and the thunder was getting louder. It was only about 6:40 but it looked much later than that because of the darkness the thick storm clouds had produced. They slowly moved towards me as if to say, "You'd better run..." I was pretty sure that if I got to the farthest edge closest to the storm and it wasn't raining yet I'd be alright.

I walked faster tonight than I have since I started walking again. I wasn't afraid of the rain, although it would've been very unpleasant to finish my walk in drenched clothes and sopping wet shoes. I could handle that. I could even handle the fact that my iPod, which was snug in it's little lycra clear plastic faced arm band, was probably going to end it's life tonight in a watery death. There was no where I could've put it to keep it safe enough from the drenching rain I fully expected to strike at any second. What bothered me was the increasingly closer strikes of lightning that cut the sky in half with their sheer power.

I thought, "Perhaps I should find a small but full tree and hope that it isn't supposed to meet the tree reaper tonight." Instead though I kept walking at the same pace. My calves were burning I was walking so fast. If it weren't for my horrible self consciousness when I jog I would have done just that. The only people left on the trail were the runners and bikers. All the walkers had scurried quickly back to their cars already. "They're smart. Why didn't I turn around again?" I thought.  Knowing when I got first glimpse of the storm it was a shorter distance the way I had come then where I was headed. "Ah because it taunted me. I can't let the storm win."

I got to the point closest to the storm and there was no rain yet. I sighed in relief and thought, "Perhaps my theory is right. No rain, closest point, I should be able to make it home dry." There was a clap of loud thunder shortly after I turned the corner and all I could think was, "I'm not that lucky." I strove to push my calves to their limits as they burned in protest to my increasing speed. Two more small hills, a pier walkway and the incline back up to the apartment complex is all that stood in my way of winning this battle.

At last in the darkness I saw the sign in front of the walkway that lead to the apartment complex. I could only faintly make out the painted words reading Governor's Point on the dark green sign. I turned the corner and slowed only slightly to go up the inclined walkway back to the parking lot and then up the hill to my apartment. I could see my car. Huge crashes of thunder were sounding off like cannon shots only a split second after the lightning would flash.

I hopped onto the walkway leading to my stairwell and just as I reached the first small set of stairs into the alcove I felt a drop. One single drop of rain. I had beaten the storm. Like a child I thought, "HA HA! I beat you storm! You lose!"  I could tell it was angry. As it started pelting the ground with more and more rain. Standing there in the alcove watching the rain fall I was proud and satisfied.

Slacking :)

hellkitty — Wed, 09 Jul 2008 13:35:09 GMT

Sorry about not posting the pics on here yesterday but I had limited time before I went to play catch and to the batting cages at Frankie's with Krista. I posted the pics and a couple of headshots on myspace but here are the three pics I'm most proud of:

This is me in April of 2008

This is me yesterday! :)

And the outfit wasn't as cute as I made out... I was more proud that I could fit into those shorts :D

yay! :D

“I SOUND MY BARBARIC YAWP OVER THE ROOFTOPS OF THE WORLD!” Walt Whitman

hellkitty — Tue, 08 Jul 2008 20:10:18 GMT

I fit into my size 40's again :D yay!! I'm down 17 lbs now after weighing myself this morning after 2 and a half weeks. I noticed that my body does things like a man ... it sweats that way... it loses weight that way... and it bulks up when I work out. I may just do strength training only twice a week because of that. I don't want too much bulk! I think I have enough already... we'll see when I get under 200 :D which at this rate should be in about two months.

Also I think my outift is super cute today ... I'm going to take pictures when I get home :)

This weekend

hellkitty — Mon, 07 Jul 2008 19:40:25 GMT

Was an absolute blast! :) I must say weekends are getting better and better as the summer progresses... I can't wait for my birthday weekend w00t! :D

First off let me thank music_likemercy for a wonderful time on Friday the 4th. I went to her house for a cookout and games and we had a blast! C and A were there... along with G and K. We had hot dogs and hamburgers with potato salad, cole slaw, bean salad, and these really awesome mushroom/yellow pepper stuffers.. yum! I opted for a boca burger on my continuing effort to keep my stomache happy :) We all played Bocce Ball, had a few laughs and then I had to leave early so I could make it back in time for the smoke free retro night at SB.

Which was a blast... I mean honestly "West grabbing TJ by the shirt and belt to pull her off the pool table" fun :D I was pretty trashed that night having had a kamakaze, whiskey sour and 7 beers o.O We pretty much played pool the entire night. Got to talk with Patti which was cool, I didn't get to talk to her much the first night I met her so it was good to learn a little more about someone :) At one point I remember everyone trying on Wests Heeleys (yes the sneakers with the wheels in the heels) and then West fell on his ass at some point which I had been waiting to see since he got those damn things lol TJ brought the extra batteries but forgot her camera so therefore there's no picture fun from that night :( The next night had pictures though :) That I will post at a later time as I need to get back to work o.O :)

Weight loss

hellkitty — Sat, 05 Jul 2008 18:29:14 GMT

Starting Weight: 232
Current Weight: 230
Loss this week: -2
Total Loss: -14
Lbs til initial Goal: 20
Lbs til final Goal: 70
Goal for next week: -2 lbs.

Good week this week! Did my walking thing in the morning with strength training on Monday and Wednesday. I've been eating really really well still and keeping things in portion sizes. I don't remember once in the last two weeks where I was uncomfortably full. I feel like I have taken great strides in my eating and exercising habits.

Going out...

hellkitty — Thu, 03 Jul 2008 12:55:07 GMT

To Legends tonight. Anyone want to come?

Yay!

hellkitty — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 20:15:15 GMT

Just found out we're all being let off tomorrow at 1pm! :D yay 3.5 day weekend! w00t!

Found Tim Minchin doing Hallelujah.... passes out

hellkitty — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 22:23:59 GMT

"Well maybe there's a god above but all I've ever learned from love was how to shoot somebody who outdrew ya..." ~~Hallelujah by Leonard Cohen~~

Video from comedian/song writer Tim Minchin

hellkitty — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 22:13:54 GMT

No so bad

hellkitty — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 22:12:59 GMT

Today could've been better but honestly any day I wake up, walk, make my bed, go to work, stick to my diet, and see a movie with friends can't be all bad in the long run. I've had to take half of my usual breakfast to work the last couple of days because I can't seem to finish it. I guess my body still needs to get used to eating that early. I've also stopped eating after 8pm to insure proper hungryness in the morning. Also my manager decided today to use one of the suggestions in the brainstorming session we had last week. To improve productivity in times of extreme busy-ness we will be rotating an hour and a half off the phones for straight processing. I found it most enjoyable not having to take the few customers calls I get now in the afternoon. Hope it works and she keeps it around.

There has to be someone.....

hellkitty — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 19:45:18 GMT

out there, with a baseball glove, who wants to play catch! I've been trying for months now to find someone and I'm starting to think I should just purchase a second glove. Then the people without gloves will have to think of a new excuse!!

Sunday fun in the sun

hellkitty — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 13:22:26 GMT

I had a great day Sunday which is why I'm posting on Monday lol Got up at 11 (sans hangover thank god) and did my normal breakfast but decided that I should take a break from the working out since I hiked for 2.5 hours on Saturday and then went out that same night and danced my ass off for a couple of hours. I think my knees needed the time to rest since they were in pain on Sunday morning. I met Laine, TJ, and Jered at the pool and we had a great time splashin around. I got some cool pics of Jered jumping into the pool and they're posted on my myspace page if anyone's interested. After about two or three hours at the pool we shuffled off to the store to get food for a cookout at TJ's. Oh my god did we get food ... we had Kielbasa and shrimp skewers, with grilled squash, zuchinni, and peppers, cucumber salad, and garlic butter pasta... holy crap it was a huge meal! I made sure to watch my portions of everything except the veggies :D I did have a Mtn. Dew (it was my treat for the week :D) which was really really sweet after not having soda for over a week!

All in all it was a great weekend... it was good to spend so much time with friends.

Good night :D

hellkitty — Sun, 29 Jun 2008 07:54:53 GMT

I had shit tons of fun tonight. First off West got hit on hardcore by a guy (which I thought was just hilarious lol). They must have talked for like 30 mins before the guy realized he was married...

I also made new friends tonight which was awesome (pardon if I misspell ... I did end up getting a little trashed thanks to West lol) I met this chick from Nashville who's in NC for about 5 weeks to work on the new section of the airport. She was incredibly fun and should be out again next weekend. Tj and I had a faboo time dancin the night away ... and I danced... in fact I didn't want to stop lol.

I also met TJ's ex husband Tim who is incredibly awesome.  He exchanged numbers with West and I hope to see him again at some point. :D If I had a wish it would be to have this same night happen my birthday weekend. It was just too much fun!

As far as tomorrow is concerned ... I'm not sure I'll be able to move due to the ammount of activity I had today. I may just take tomorrow off and chill at the pool :) ... in fact I may just bring some chicken with me and grill out there too :D

Hiking...

hellkitty — Sat, 28 Jun 2008 19:51:13 GMT

was totally frackin awesome! I had a great time and I made it thorough with the pack! Guess I'm not as out of shape as I thought lol. It was probably the most satisfying thing I've done all year... The whole 7.2 miles took about 2 and a half hours. I got to see Laine and a few others I recognized from the camping trip at Wrightsville Beach. Afterward we had a picnic/cookout. I, unfortunately, was not able to bring anything due to extreme lack of funding right now. However I was able to snag a tofu dog and a water (which I had brought two bottles with me and a gatorade and drank them all hiking o.O) from people. Everyone was extremely nice and I met everyone and spoke with a good four or five of them. One of them was a massage therepist and was giving out massages so I couldn't say no :D It's always good to make new connections and I hope to see them all again at the next event :D

Tonight I'm going to see my coworker Sarah get a tattoo and then I'm off to Steel Blue for some dancy fun. Hopefully I can drag West along and Theresa if she'll come.

On a side note I got my new license plate today :) Here it is:

Weight Loss

hellkitty — Sat, 28 Jun 2008 13:19:00 GMT

Although most of it was probably water weight, I'm still very proud of the massive start I've had on my new routine.

Starting Weight: 239
Current Weight: 232
Total Change: -7
Total Loss: -12
Lbs til initial Goal: 22
Lbs til final Goal: 72
Goal for next week: -3 lbs.

This is the progress that I see when I stick to what I'm doing. I'm 12 lbs closer to my initial goal of 210. I made that weight the goal because that's the weight that I'll be when I can start fitting into my size 38 pants again. My total goal will be to get back down to 160... that would be a total weight loss of 84 lbs.

I haven't had a sip of soda since Sunday (nice alliteration there :) and I also haven't eaten any fast or junk food since that chicken biscuit from Chick-fil-a on Friday. I made really good choices at work when they laid out all the free food in the break room. I said no to cake twice this week and no to cookies three times (which isn't really hard for me since I'm not into the baked goods but it was there and I refused nonetheless). If I feel the need to eat something like that I won't tell myself that I can't have it, I'll either instead substitute something healthy for it or have a very small portion... I can't deprave myself of anything that I really want or this won't work. The key to fixing your eating habits for the longterm is really focusing on portion control. Don't eat the whole bag of chips... just have the serving size.

I am alloting myself 7 more weeks to obtain my initial goal. Also if I make a mistake I will assure myself that it is not the end of the world, identify what happened and why the mistake was made, and try again the next day.

Four yay's in one day...

hellkitty — Fri, 27 Jun 2008 19:50:11 GMT

First off last night I was able to hang out with Sev whom I haven't seen since he left for TX. I missed him and it was nice to catch up on everything... yay!

Nobody in the workout room meant I had the treadmill to myself this morning. Walked for half an hour and then trekked back to the apartment for my usual breakfast (hehehe dancing around with iPod and cooking eggs is fun :D)... yay!

Got to work and had a really long Friday morning meeting with a brainstorming session where they explained that the senior reps, meaning Addie and I, were going to be moved down in priority to receive calls from customers... which means I won't be taking as many calls from customers after next week ... yay! :D

I also found out from my coworker that I can sign up for her fall softball league that starts the end of August. This will most definately fill the void that is my lack of a team sport and my need to throw a ball again. :D ... yay!

Four yay's in one day... guess it's making up for yesterday... stay tuned for the outcome of the hike tomorrow night and also my weekly "diet" update :)

BTW I can't afford to go out to Temptation tonight so I was wondering if anyone out there had anything in mind... free or really cheap!

.......

hellkitty — Thu, 26 Jun 2008 18:56:17 GMT

and now the system we use to enter orders in with is down. o.O *grabs for nonexistant hair*

for your entertainment... I give you this:

http://www.homestarrunner.com/sbemail45.html

Work today not so fun .....

hellkitty — Thu, 26 Jun 2008 16:20:44 GMT

So at 12 we switched over to the new order form for first quarter. This form has a multitude of item number and case pack changes. I now have to contact every customer that has not used the new form to verify if it's okay to substitute for these changes. o.O ... ...... day started off bad... and it's going to continue that way too apparently.

This morning...

hellkitty — Thu, 26 Jun 2008 13:19:28 GMT

I woke up at 6:15 and walked down to the workout center again and that guy was on the treadmill ... again. I tried to use the stationary bike and it's broken o.O I didn't have enough time again this morning to walk the full length around the lake so I just said screw it and I'll go to the workout center after I get off work. Think I'm going to suggest that they have two treadmills in there. I actually was really irritated this morning ... I think it's because I really didn't have an outlet to get rid of some anger I have been experiencing and now I have to wait till after work to do it. Hopefully it will go away on it's own today.

Things to do today:
Workout after work
Go to the store
Have drinks with Sev

Also I need to look into getting one of those squeezy things that work out your hand/wrist muscles... I tried to do push ups last night and thought my wrists were going to break o.O lol

I wish my stages would just hurry up and get to acceptance... I was through with Denial and Bargaining on Tuesday and I'm now into a little Depression with a lot of Anger... and I don't like being angry...

The New Sensation

Long comming update

Another fabulous weekend :)

Weight Loss

Super fantabulicious weekend :D

Weight Loss

Bittersweet emotions...

I had a confrontation with a thunderstorm (a short story about determination)

Slacking :)

“I SOUND MY BARBARIC YAWP OVER THE ROOFTOPS OF THE WORLD!” ~~Walt Whitman~~

This weekend

Weight loss

Going out...

Yay!

Found Tim Minchin doing Hallelujah.... *passes out*

Video from comedian/song writer Tim Minchin

No so bad

There has to be someone.....

Sunday fun in the sun

Good night :D

Hiking...

Weight Loss

Four yay's in one day...

.......

Work today not so fun .....

This morning...

“I SOUND MY BARBARIC YAWP OVER THE ROOFTOPS OF THE WORLD!” Walt Whitman

Found Tim Minchin doing Hallelujah.... passes out