Helibump

i just want to be held i promised my cousellor thant i would call the local psychiatric hospital to find out what the procedure is if i needed emergency help it feels as though i have stepped backwards i feel so sad and very lonelt "lost" i want someone to hold my burden. just for a short while om hurting and struggling no one seems to be able to understand me or how i really feel not even my husband.

i could scream with the pain of it all

The darkness covers me with warmth and care
It calls to me in a sierens song
Take me with you to that place called peace

hold my hand while i fall into the beautiful sleep
Where the tortured soul is set free
My eyes will be uncovered,my body freed from chains i carry

My daddy comes to greet me holds me in his arms and upon my face appears
His arms enclose me my daddy forgives me i am free

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me...
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me...
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me...

this how i feel about BOUT MY LIFE SO SO TIRED OF LIFE

Steve and i separated on tuesday he wasnt there for me when i neede him i begged hin for help and he said no and the work he had to do could have been done at home and almost as a thow away coment he said ok but the fact that he chose not to hurt so very nuch he is a trained pschiatric nurse and knows my history i find it so hard to ask for help anyway and it wasnt lke i wanted him to pull a sick day to to the beach.
too complicated to write anymore now

just at home recovering from having my wisdom tooth out in hospital so i look like a chipmunk have been ill on and off for the last three months chest infectiond viruses nightmare time lots to say but no energy here is a pic of my lovey cat tattie.

Back on the annt depressants ut neede them life is a little better