So far, so crappy
So far this day seems to be the complete opposite of yesterday. Aside from the obvious things such as the weather (it being rainy and warm yesterday versus dry and cold today) there are other things.
I guess it started with a simply beautiful dream. It was rather short, but... good. I woke up, had slept fairly well this time. Had myself a nice breakfast, which I haven't had in a long time. As I left the house certain doubts began to creep up into my mind. And during the bus ride to the campus disturbing thoughts haunted me. They just downright scared me to death and I tried to get rid of them by listening to some music. It helped... somewhat... Guess, looking back at them I can come to but only one conclusion. Sure they are irrational thoughts, but given my situation they actually make quite a lot of sense. Despite the outcome being good I dare not write it down, in fear that it might make the day even more crappier.
College was good, met another project partner and the lecture was quite interesting. After that I hurried to the bus stop, wanting to be home on time. But of course one can never count on the public transportation system...
I can by now stand a bus being a bit late. I can not stand a bus not coming at all, and I certainly can not tolerate two buses not showing up! >_< Two trams not showing up is okay, because they come by at intervals of up to ten minutes. But two busses not coming along means waiting up to an hour and a half for the next one. Add to that the dropping temperature and you can see why my spirit became quite moody.
And all the time whilst I was standing there I contemplated, whether to just ditch those busses and... go the other way. Not home. But of course I just couldn't.
Little under an hour and a half later the bus showed up. I got on, it was packed. Had to listen to stupid rave and R&B music from the headphones all around me. *sigh* I just didn't feel good...
And now I'm home. And all I wish for... well, what I wish for is quite irrational at the moment. n_n So I guess I'll have to settle for dinner, doing stuff and a good night sleep.
Edit: Doing better now. Had dinner, curry, and a pretty nice desert. Nice music playing in the background and working on art. Only thing that's nagging me now is the mood of my friends. ;-; *hugs* Take care, guys.
Edit 2: Curry... >_< *kicks himself*
I guess it started with a simply beautiful dream. It was rather short, but... good. I woke up, had slept fairly well this time. Had myself a nice breakfast, which I haven't had in a long time. As I left the house certain doubts began to creep up into my mind. And during the bus ride to the campus disturbing thoughts haunted me. They just downright scared me to death and I tried to get rid of them by listening to some music. It helped... somewhat... Guess, looking back at them I can come to but only one conclusion. Sure they are irrational thoughts, but given my situation they actually make quite a lot of sense. Despite the outcome being good I dare not write it down, in fear that it might make the day even more crappier.
College was good, met another project partner and the lecture was quite interesting. After that I hurried to the bus stop, wanting to be home on time. But of course one can never count on the public transportation system...
I can by now stand a bus being a bit late. I can not stand a bus not coming at all, and I certainly can not tolerate two buses not showing up! >_< Two trams not showing up is okay, because they come by at intervals of up to ten minutes. But two busses not coming along means waiting up to an hour and a half for the next one. Add to that the dropping temperature and you can see why my spirit became quite moody.
And all the time whilst I was standing there I contemplated, whether to just ditch those busses and... go the other way. Not home. But of course I just couldn't.
Little under an hour and a half later the bus showed up. I got on, it was packed. Had to listen to stupid rave and R&B music from the headphones all around me. *sigh* I just didn't feel good...
And now I'm home. And all I wish for... well, what I wish for is quite irrational at the moment. n_n So I guess I'll have to settle for dinner, doing stuff and a good night sleep.
Edit: Doing better now. Had dinner, curry, and a pretty nice desert. Nice music playing in the background and working on art. Only thing that's nagging me now is the mood of my friends. ;-; *hugs* Take care, guys.
Edit 2: Curry... >_< *kicks himself*