☆ 021 IS FOR UNDERSTANDING THESE FEELINGS ☆

[On a separate piece of non-magical journal paper is a really long list. Lookit, he actually remembered what happens when you write things down on journal paper! Hooray!! that and he... kinda-sorta misplaced his journal for a really long while and couldn't find it until just now.]

☓ she's super smart

↳ offers to help the great me study even when I don't ask her!!
↳ gives the best advice!!!

☓ she remembers lots of things

↳ things I usually forget like my birthday last year...
↳ my favorite snacks
↳ which things I don't like

☓ patient/kind/trustworthy

↳ helps the great me get through boring study sessions even when I don't wanna study
↳ can tell her just about anything
↳ she doesn't judge me for who I am, what I say, what I think... where I come from

☓ she's super generous

↳ always there for me
↳ will always listen to what I have to say and not think it's stupid...
↳ willing to listen -- to just about anything
↳ I don't even have to ask and she's there

☓ her feelings affect me somehow

↳ I hate seeing her cry
↳ seeing her upset makes me feel all-- wonky and off inside
↳ try to be there for her as much as she's there for me
↳ try to give her meaningful advice bloody hell I hope some of it has helped...
↳ trying to avoid ruining our friendship

☓ stupid castle hijinks

↳ thought I wouldn't make a good dad
↳ didn't want to fail her so I ran away
↳ realized running away solved nothing and is also something a God would not do!!!
↳ came around thank you Makalaka... and decided to be the kind of dad mine never was
↳ she gave up a lot of her dreams -- for me and the baby

☓ advice

↳ both of them were pretty confused at the sudden change in topic
↳ Soul says to go with what my heart's telling me
↳ Kid gave some boring advice about making sure that everything is symmetrical
↳ not exactly quite sure what to make of his advice, but he seemed to wish me well with it nonetheless...

[private to Tsubaki]

I need to talk to you. Are you free tomorrow?