Gnavitas

Extreme sheep what?!

2009-03-29T15:00:58Z

OMG, check out this video. I actually found it while schmoozing around William Gibson's blog... *blushes furiously* Yeah, I'm just that big of a nerd. ^^; This pretty much rocked, though.

Click Me!!!

... I don't know how to embed the video here, so just click on ze link and be AMAZED. X3
Cheers,
-Gnav.

SOOMED.

2009-02-27T20:18:51Z

Doll related stuff here.
Oh. My. God. I thought I was done getting new resins. I really, really did. But look! LOOK AT IT! It has little horns and wings and hooves!!
Dammit, but I'm totally brining this one home.

I know that there are a lot of people I know who really don't get this hobby of mine, but that's okay. I love them. And I think (or rather, maybe I heard it somewhere. Can't remember...) that every great person has to have some odd, obscure and eccentric hobby. This one is mine.
<3
-Gnav

Answers to Foxor's Questions

2009-02-23T06:04:50Z

This is so awesome. X3

Q: If you were GGK, and sitting down to write your next novel, which culture/time period do you pick and why?

A: My first gut reaction would have to be feudal Japan. For very obvious reasons.Or maybe any area of Asia, because it has such a rich history. If pressed, however, I think that something along the lines of ancient Aztec or something would also be completely kick-ass.

Q: You can choose any ONE kata, and for a year you can only do that kata and no other (but because I'm not cruel you will not, in the mean time, forget any of your other katas or become rusty at all)...which kata do you pick and why?

A: Matsumura Rohai. Because I still feel like I SUCK at it. XP And because the ending is very fun to do.

Q: You go to bed tonight and when you wake up in the morning you find yourself in a fictional world (one of yours or mine or Torri's or any other already in existence)...what world is it, and what is your role in the story that ensues?

A: If I get to choose... then I would want to wake up in the future of The Osiris Gate story that I've created. I think I would probably exist as a very "Nina"-esque presence on The Cypress Hawk. I could do public relations, a bit of espionage, muscle etc. for the captain and I'd LOVE to be on a pirate starship and meet and talk to the whole crew. Especially Jay. <3 I'd absolutely relish the oppourtunity to sit and talk with him for hours, and be the female friend who helped him with all of his Eveline-related angst and coaxed him to step into the immense role that destiny has in store for him. Epic, ja? Totally. ^_~ Also, the future is so much more exciting the way I see it. Still tough, but cooler for all it's intergalactic-ness.

Q: Time to drink! What are you going to drink? Alcoholic beverage of choice? Non-alcoholic beverage of choice?

A: Alcoholic beverage of choice at the mo' would be a nice tall glass of Sangria. If I had to drive, I'd have a strawberry smoothy. <3
Q: Your life is being made into a movie! Who do you cast in each of the roles in your movie biopic? Budget is not a concern.

A: Holy crap, tough question. Hmmmm... hokay. Mom would be Susan Sarandon and after watching his performance in "In Bruges", I have to say that oddly enough I could see Colin Farrel playing my father.... or dare I suggest Tom Cruise? Meryl Streep would play Amber Morphy. I think I'd cast Ann Hathaway to play myself... Or maybe Emma Watson of Harry Potter fame once she grows up a tiny bit more. My proff at Seridan would be played by John Malkovich, absolutely no questions. *smirks* My proff at Conestoga could be some one like Dustin Hoffman. Best Friend... (yeah, you Foxor) I would cast Charlize Theron to play.
And... That's all I can come up with right now...

Whew! That was fun. And now I am going to go to sleep. Cheers!
-Gnav.

Variations Of a Classic...

2009-02-02T06:28:07Z

Excuse silly title. I've been working with my nose about two inches from my light table for the past hour and a half...
Actually... I think it's safe to say that Jay is the only character that may be accurately referred to as a 'classic' as far as my repertoire goes, as he's been around the longest.
I've still got to tweak this picture - I'm not pleased with the cropping and a couple extra sundries needed to be finished (namely finer shading on gloves etc...) But I got fancy last night and decided to try a couple variations. ^^; Still trying to decide which I like best.

Cheers!
-Gnav

Not a Magnum Opus...

2008-11-03T00:11:14Z

... just a WIP, actually. ^^;
I made the inconvenient discovery today that it is possible for a whole thumb-tack to get *into* the inner workings of my printer (somehow...), but that it is utterly and indubitably *impossible* to get it back out. >.>
I need to get my printer repaired. I never noticed how much I use it until I was suddenly faced with not being able to use it.
How human is that? Uhg.
Anyhoo, enjoy the unfinished artwork - I have plans to do something... poster-y and typography ridden with it. X3
Cheers,
-Gnav.

OMG Markers?!

2008-10-22T04:38:47Z

So... I can't render with markers to save my soul... (I'd insert a "yet" here, but that would just make me sound like a retarded Keanu Reeves from SNL Jeopardy. X3)
Luckily, I have friends in high places where the marker-Gods are concerned.
I collaborated with my friend pinkcupcakes on this one - I did the drawing and layout, she did the colours.
Well... I was impressed. Lol.
Enjoy.
-Gnav.

Minnasan Konbanwa!

2008-10-07T03:50:18Z

So. I went away, had some fun, visited Pluto (consoled the poor dear), swung by Vega and a variety of other small systems and have now returned.
Okay... so the real story isn't nearly as exciting, so I'll be sticking to that one.
I've been thinking, and have come to conclusion that I am probably going to start using this journal to post some of my artwork that I have decided isn't "professional" website material. ^^; Namely my story doodlage and character art.
I am now an official alumni of Sheridan College, which is something that strikes me as both squee-worthy and a little bit strange. The flip side to that is that I've now embarked on the exciting path through Conestoga college on my way to earning a second diploma - this time in the arena of Graphic Design.
... I must be crazy, but if that's so, I've been this way for a long time, and I don't see any point in changing now. XP
... I've also managed to make very good friends with a girl in my class who speaks Japanese, and she is slowly managing to sway me towards the finer nuances of that beautiful language. (witness post title. XD)
See you guys on the flipside, yo!
<3 <3
-Gnav

And without further ado - some of my latest silly little doodles. The two unhappy looking pale guys belong to my friend - cloudiestrife here on LJ. The shamelessly topless smiling dude is my own Jay. ^^; Hope y'all like.

Mrow?

2008-03-28T02:29:01Z

I have a small, furry black creature living in close quarters with me for a week, due to a last minute crisis with our boarding kennel and the fact that the maternal unit is gone to Mexico for a week.
... Should be interesting. ^^; We'll see if I'm loved or hated even more by the end of all of this.
X3
-Gnav.

Longest Lapse EVAR XDD

2008-03-26T02:58:51Z

And I'm not even going to apologize. - I have three and a half weeks left of my Illustration degree to go, which is INSANE. Totally bat-shit INSANE I tell you.
Uhg... I really dislike the waiting game, too, which is unfortunate because I've signed myself up for multiple rounds of it in the recent past...

The current count:
-Still waiting to hear from Conestoga. (they told me March!! As soon as April 1st hits, I will become both annoyed and worried!)
-Still waiting to hear from Cambridge Arts Centre (came upon the realization that my old boss is still probably going to be on maternity leave ATM... so that means someone else is doing the application process. A little more forgiveness there.)
-Waiting to hear from paternal unit about the child-support situation for next year... But won't be able to resolve it unit I hear from Conestoga. >_<
-Waiting for YoSD, alias Elliot, to arrive from Volks (Will be a seriously LONG haul waiting until May, but it's okay. ^_^ He's worth it, in all of his disgustingly cute resin glory.)
-Waiting for CHAOS. proof to arrive from Comixpress so my peers and I can squeal and ogle over it

... Wow. When you put it down in writing, it really puts things into perspective...
The upshot of all of this is that when the news does start arriving, I will rapidly become a much happier person! Not that I'm particularly depressed right now. Just... you know... getting impatient.
Current coping maneuver is to immerse myself into HP audiobooks and studiously work on my school projects, intermingled with random Google chat and DoA browsing. It's sort of sad that I can sum my entire life up so succinctly...
Note to self: 22 pages of a graphic novel is WAY to short to have taken so long to produce!!! Having said that, I'm nearly finished, which makes me extremely happy. X3 Now the only bugger of the situation is that I have no idea of how I'm going to get the thing into a comic-book-ish form that doesn't involve staples (>_< Ew) for the grad show...
I'm also looking at a four day weekend again, which is becoming a pattern, odly enough. The only reason for this, though, is that I'm ahead in my Monday morning class, and my teacher actually told me that I don't really need to go next week. And since it's my only class that day, and I don't have classes on Tuesdays, that means that I am looking at a very long and potentially bone-dry boring weekend, because I'm staying in Oakville due to the fact that the maternal unit is going to Mexico on Thursday and won't be back for a week.
This also means that I'll be missing Karate twice in a row, which is a royal pain, but I can't exactly do much about it short of bitching at my mother about her going on her mediation intensive. Which I won't do. Because she's been working hard on her Thesis for SO long and definitely deserves this trip.
... I do hope she brings me back something colourful and fun. ^_^ I'm starting to get sick of the snow.
Well... somewhere back there this turned into a whining post. Lol! Not my intention, so apologies for that.
Back to the grindstone!
-Gnav.

WTF?

2008-01-09T05:47:17Z

Poetry? *POETRY*?
I guess wonders will never cease. I blame Jay... It is his spirit that writes this stuff after all. *sigh*

I miss those old familiar places
With their old familiar smells
And a feeling of belonging
That was never really real
To a fourteen some-odd callow kid
In faded blue-jean cut-offs
Standing at the edge of nothing
Thinking “Man, I shouldn’t be here”

I woke up the other day and realized
The picture perfect version of my
Childhood was a lie

-Gnav

Here we go again.

2008-01-08T00:58:39Z

You know, the four scariest words to a college student are "Office of the Registrar". Or at least they should be.
I shall tell you a sad, sordid tale, to prove my point.
I keep telling myself that this is the last time that Sheridan it going to be able to pull a stunt on me like they did last night - it's the only thing that's keeping me from writing them nasty emails at this point. Here I was, complacently sitting on a schedule that said that I have Mondays and Tuesdays off. Given the fact that I go home to Cambridge most weekends that I can, the logical following of this is "Oooh! Four day weekend!" And there was much rejoicing.
SUNDAY - that's right, folks. less than 24 hours notice - I get an email from the Office of the Registrar, telling me that I actually have a class on Monday at 9:00am!
Impromptu packing occurred at light speed, with a healthy sprinkling of grumbles and less-than flowery vocabulary, let me tell you.
*sigh*
Oh well. I'm hear, and I'm sort of pleased with myself because I managed to talk my way into having the head co-ordinator of my program waive a rule that said that you can't choose the same art elective as you did last semester (a pointless and irrelevant rule, IMO, because the course, no matter which so-called "elective" you choose is filed under the same code...) With the gracious acceptance of my teacher (whom I love because she rocks so damn hard!), I am now able to take Graphic Design this semester, which I consider a vital course in my studies, seeing as I am planning on making a educational and career move in that direction. *rolls her eyes* It would be really, really, *really* stupid for me not to take it.
And speaking of Graphic Design, I got an invitation from Conestoga to present my portfolio over the holidays! Eeeek! This is wonderful and stressful at the same time. I did manage to get the majority of my portfolio printed over the break, which is good. I like to avoid the printing house at Sheridan like the plague if I can help it. ^_<
Graphic Design needs to have an abbreviated from - it takes way too long to type out. XP
I'm trying to think of other interesting or exciting news... the only thing that keeps popping into my head is my recent triumphant victory in the last Volks USA dolpa lottery - I won the outfit that I had been drooling over for weeks. I actually won it! I was so stoked. I'll be even more stoked when it actually arrives - some time in FEBRUARY! O.o I understand that there is a process to the Dolpa and the after event and everything... but c'mon people! I honestly can't imagine what it's like for people who have won/bought dolls from the event. It must be agonizing. Here I'm having a hard enough time waiting to find out if the sandals that come with the h.Naoto Sixh outfit I bought will actually fit any of my boys... >_<
Ah, dorries. How I luff you.</div>
I foresee a very crazy and chaotic time up ahead for this semester in general. I'm really excited, but scared as well. It's like approaching an inevitable end and trying to make everything match up properly and be the most brilliant shade of awesome in the world when all you really want to do is make time suddenly start flowing backwards...
Somehow, I'm not actually that peeved about not haveing Mondays off anymore. It makes my schedule a lot more balanced, actually. I just really wish that I had known a little in advance. Oh well. *shrugs*
Cheers, y'all.
-Gnav

I Have Something To Say:

2007-11-22T01:40:31Z

Jamaican and South African accents are highly underrated and sexy as hell.
And Marilyn Manson does *the* best covers. Ever.

...That is all.
-Gnav.

Kittens In a Basket!

2007-11-16T07:32:41Z

Title in reference to a hilarious lecture I received in my first week of class this year - I love my visual narrative teacher to death. I could place a badly done replica of a Jackson Pollock in front of him and pull a total bullshit story out of my ass about the so-called 'story' being told by the squiggles and he would probably think it was a daring social commentary on the mindset of today's pop-culture. *sighs* I love him to pieces, I honestly do. I was talking to him today, because I just handed in a four page comic story detailing my favorite fallen Angel's side of the whole Garden of Eden fiasco. I think he was trying to push the idea of doing something along a similar vein for the semester-long project we'll be doing in the new year.
*This is the face of a very happy Gnavitas*
I, personally, would be tickled pink until cows gave birth to pigs to totally focus on that story line and turn it into a graphic novel of sorts. It's just such a nice feeling of validation when somewhat who isn't a) your mother or b) your best mates (not that I'm discrediting any sort of approval or love from either one of those two factions!!!!) tells you that your ideas are actually worthwhile and interesting. Not just "Kittens in a basket" - ie: fluffy "pretty" pictures that don't really serve any purpose.
That's my teacher's angle - we as artists have a social obligation to tell the stories that other people are too intimidated or unable to tell. Because we are, I suppose, gifted in the area of mass-communication and visual symbolism or whatever fancy crap you want to say about it. Fine. Whatever. The *idea* is that the world wants our stories.
Which is great news for someone like me. ^_^
Enter: my Interpretive Illustration teacher. Who veers rather dangerously on the side of what I would be inclined to label as MANIC. And, seriously, I'm being nice when I put it that way. He's a terribly amusing guy. I would love to go out and see him in a relaxed social situation as I'm sure he would be a hoot to hang out with. But this guy is just not satisfied with *anything* He's taking my Visual Narrative Teachers philosophies and doing to them what they did with the movie 28 Weeks later. Bigger, Americanized, objectified and much definitely WORSE!
*claws at hair*
Which is why, when a good friend of mine in class commented that Interp. this semester makes her want to retire and devote herself to "kittens in a basket" I nearly peed myself.
Seriously, though. I know that I'm supposed to take my chosen career seriously and everything. But is there honestly anything wrong with kittens in a basket? I mean... *someone* has to do it, right? I guess at this juncture, I'm just getting kind of exhausted of every single project that I do having to be steeped in this shroud of symbolic meaning and significance. Is there anything wrong with wanting to paint a pretty picture?
Apparently, in the world of illustration, there is. O.o
Oh well. Call me sheltered, shallow and uncultured. (which, if I may say so, is rather untrue in my humble opinion) I'm fairly certain that when Arthur Rackham did his illustrations, the only thing of significance that he was worried about was his freakin' brushstroke! *shakes her fist at her Interp. teacher*
I am feeling disillusioned and impassioned by my field at the same time. Is that even possible?! Gah.
I really wish this wasn't my last year of school. Sheridan kicks so much ass.
-Gnav

Drabble-Whut?!

2007-11-05T20:23:43Z

So... here's the thing. I almost *never* write drabble. But a challenge was posted on a forum I frequent, and it sort of intrigued me. So I gave it a shot. Of course... this is the very essence of procrastination, because I wrote it while I was *supposed* to be writing an essay on devotional practices in Ch'an Buddhism... (A truly interesting topic, yes, but pales in comparison to Lucifer. Everything does... what can I say?)
At any rate... this is what I came up with. 600 some-odd words of monologue, to the tune of this challenge:
Confession.

So, here's my piece. It's called "It's always about a woman":

I have a confession to make: I’m responsible for the downfall of mankind. You know… the loss of paradise? The apple and the snake? Yeah, that was me.
You probably aren’t really that surprised. After all, I have a long and weepy history of having my name associated with a lot of evil deeds in the world that I could probably get very angst ridden and self-pitying about if anybody actually cared to listen… I know they don’t, though, and really, that’s fine. Because I don’t care either. I’m not proud of most of the things I’ve done. Hard to believe, I know, but there you have it.
But my real confession in this rare and outstanding case… is that I actually enjoyed it. It was the one sin that I, quite personally, feel was justified.
The problem with people is that you rarely ever have all sides to the story – there’s always someone who isn’t getting their say, and let me tell you, there is a large fucking chunk missing from this one.
Now, I’m going to come right out and apologize to all you feminists out there for saying this… but Eve was an idiot. She was a trumped up rib with a sad excuse of molecular clusters making up what little brains she possessed, and she rarely used them. What most people don’t realize is that Eve was in fact, the second woman ever created. The first was Lilith, and she was nothing like the latter. She was a force of nature, that one. She was disarmingly intelligent, feisty, beautiful and free-thinking and she got completely screwed over by the system. For fuck’s sake, they even nixed her from the Bible!
I guess I might as well just add another painfully obvious confession into the pot while I’m at it: I loved her. Like an addict hopped up on a double dose of unrefined crack cocaine. I was fucking crazy about her. So… there’s a tiny chance that I’m slightly biased. I’d apologize, but I’m really not that sorry.
Of course… this was all very unorthodox at the time… me still being an Angel and everything. So my position wasn’t exactly the easiest thing in the world to manage. All I know is that, bias or no, what G.O.D. did to Lilith was not right. They replaced her, and all because Adam was being a jerk and wanted someone with less brains and more breasts who would think of him as her lord and master. Lilith would never put up with that shit. I know, personally. We talked a lot through the rockier times in Eden.
When I got wind of what happened with the whole Eve fiasco… I sort of lost it. I said a whole bunch of shit that they really didn’t appreciate up in Heaven and generally started getting into a lot of trouble. That was the beginning of my trials… and we all know what happened in the end, so I’m not going to get into it. Long story short, it started with a duel between me and Michael and ended with a big fucking crash into solid rock on my part. Not pleasant.
Needless to say, I was a little sore over the whole ordeal and, if I’m being honest here, which is the whole point of confession, I was feeling a little vengeful. So… when the opposition gave me the opportunity to mess around with Adam and Eve, I jumped at it like a rabid wolverine. I couldn’t help myself. I did it out of spite and malice. I enjoyed messing with their heads. I haven’t relished in my sins against the world ever again like I did that day.
I did it for her…
Which gives proof to the old adage that, always, always… it’s about a woman.

*the end*

Tada! I don't feel so tichy about posting this here, because it's technically not part of the story. It's pretty much a rant, but I sort of like it.
*bows*
-Gnav.

Randomness

2007-09-28T19:52:35Z

just posting some random pieces of artwork...
^_^

Cheers, y'all.
-Gnav

Punked...

2007-09-06T02:42:20Z

... From someone who I respect in a field that I *pretend* to know about, but we'll have to reserve judgment on that one, shall we?
A meme of sorts. *gasp* I thought it was very cool. ^_^

Chief told me to write this one down if I ever got a chance, so I guess that’s what I’m doing.

It was a rather spur-of-the-moment decision on Illio’s part, but he had to draw the line somewhere.

She was being pursued. Adea didn’t have to turn around to know that. When she had set out that night, she knew that she would undoubtedly be followed.

Unlike its celestial siblings, the planet was not what the research team from Citadel’s Outreach Program had expected it to be. Rather, it was the exact opposite.

It was hot out. Smoke hung in the air, a great mass of pungent atmosphere.

An old story is told in Eryllia of long ago. It tells of an artisan who was charged by four gods to build them the most magnificent palace in which they could reside and be envied by all the other gods.

High on a precipice overlooking a busy highway sat Death.

There was something about the certainty of the dawn that Kazuki loved. He just didn’t always relish in the idea that it was his responsibility.

Contrary to popular beleif, Dex Wylder had never been under the delusion that he was normal.

This is a story about two people. Two people, moreover, who at first glance could not be more different from each other in nearly every possible respect.
</div>
And since this is a meme, I'm going to tag people. Because I never get the austere pleasure of tagging people! So, I tag torrileah67 and foxor! Now, the million dollar question is, will anybody actually read this to respond? Unlikely, but, in the words of Liam Lynch: Whatevah! ^_^
Ciao!
-Gnav.

Summery

2007-09-05T23:42:20Z

Another school year
Another doll (yay School A!)
Great summer job experience
Shitty allergies
Problematic paternal conflicts
New books
Summer love along with it's lessons come and gone...
Good friends in my classes
Great friends in my life

... all in all, when you balance everything out, life's been pretty damn good to me lately. ^_^
Peace, y'all.
-Gnav.

Help us out, eh?

2007-07-13T04:44:07Z

I have a question and I would luuuuurve you forever if you posted an answer! It's random, but not without reason.

The question:
If you had a pet android, designed and programmed for the sake of entertaining/looking after kids, what would you name him?

Thank you!
-Gnav.

Vision of the Future Perhaps?

2007-06-04T23:08:34Z

This pretty much rocked my entire Universe! Please note, however, I did NOT write this!! It’s from an audio track on a CD by an artist called PigFace. I only wish I could take credit, but alas.

"This is a tale spun straight out of my binary core. This is a vision of my world seen through membranous eyes. This is the oceans filled with Technicolor nuclear fish, their mutated metal scales riveted together, glowing iridescent in the pitch-dark depths deep below the steel-belted skies.
This is a 122,000 line, dense pixel-field, million-gig of escalators ascending and descending endlessly, shuttling through soaring mega-monuments of tinted glass, mingling subterranean with the worm hole subway tunnels, underground walkways and maintenance channels, forming a sprawling interconnected warren of damp floro-tube bright veins and hustling faceless humanity, clogged arteries slowly choking and dying, packed and swarming at all hours with sweating hoards, sightless and colourless, moving by program alone.
This is grey skies dense with a patchwork of contrails, the inter-lacing lines that score the sky, that's how you know this is a major nexus.
Mid-air collisions flash across the firmament in angry oranges and hot-white black smoke plumes coiling up from strangled wreckage. This is the unfamiliar sky gone faceless once again. The heavens a gritty sagging underbelly, static coloured the same way every day, all day long until it gives over to a burning, jaundiced yellow night, limp and heavy with moisture, keening with sirens and shouting alarms. This is the night air, a foul, backed-up drain, its water slick with oil and plastic and flotsam.
This is my poisonous world, endlessly dripping from up above, outlined in chalk from below. Guard in Heaven patrols the electrified fences.
The world is over heated by the mass of televisions and microwave ovens and radio waves and com-sats strung like fuse-burned Christmas lights overhead. Millions of broadcast waves breaking over the globe. We've burned the wings off of angels with our molten heat mobile phones and laptops cross-jamming each-other's frequencies, shuddering, juddering, shivering activity. Everything is moving so fast that if you stand still on the metal-plate platforms you can feel the vibration of tectonic motion.
Safety locks, bolting and unbolting in the flow, the hissing of their decompression keeps me awake at night. It's the sound of blood passing through the fibrous veins of the world. It's the vibration of information in quantum growth. It's the sound of thought reaching light speed. It's the loneliest sound I've ever heard."

To be perfectly honest, I have no idea who wrote it, but it’s amazing and very cyber-punk... which is precisely why I love it. ^_^
-Gnav

I need your grace to remind me...

2007-05-31T00:30:24Z

Have you ever found a song that sums up what you feel inside at a time when you don't know exactly what you feel? You just know what it sounds like...
I wish I knew what was up - with me, with the world, with my life, the future, and everything that lies in between. All I know is that whenever I get feeling like this - and I can never put it into words - I feel like I could get in a car and start driving and keep driving to wherever and never look back.

On the surface my life is perfect right now. Perfect, I tell you. Why do I feel like I want to leave it all behind?

-Gnav

Give Me Cyberpunk Or Give Me Death

2007-05-22T04:11:00Z

Neuromancer by William Gibson. *dies*
You want to read a good science fiction novel? In the words of Good Will Hunting, that book'll knock you on your fucking ass.
I finished it this morning - sitting outside, coz it was so gorgeous out. I read 150 pages straight, because it's the sort of climax that starts slow and builds and builds until you can hardly read the words properly, you just wish that you could scan the pages and *know* the story.
Amazing. ^^; It makes me want to check out Gibson's other books to see if they're as good as that one.
Yay for May 24. Yay for red dresses and cads and sweet potato French fries. Yay for doing absolutely nothing productive today! I’m still trying to decide if that’s something to be proud of or not… *manic grin*
I was in a wedding on Saturday. Like... "with-this-ring-I-thee-wed", big church, walk-down-the-aisle wedding. And it was beautiful and the bride was gorgeous and happy beyond articulation. I had baby's breath in my hair and wore a red dress and got to be a bridesmaid. *smiles at the memory* It was pretty much perfect.
Except now I've pretty much sworn against stiletto heals for the rest of my life.
*pause while she shakes her head to dislodge fanatically girlish fantasies from her head*
All of this... wedding-ness, though. It's got me thinking about romance and everything... and I came to the rather frank realization today that I'm not entirely sure it's something that I really... believe in.
That might sound weird. It does to me.
I believe in love. Love is something that develops between people who relate to each other on a common basis - everybody needs love. I love my friends and my family. Two people who have known each other long enough and love each other come to a point where they decide that that feeling between them is enough to make them want to spend the rest of their lives together. They get married. That's wonderful. They have a family.
I *want* that. I *really* want that.
But this whole business of *finding* that person... The courtship and drama and messy in-between stage that's supposedly this enjoyable 'romantic' affair just doesn't appeal to me. I mean... I look around at all the people who have good, happy relationships in their lives and I will confess that I am just a tiny bit jealous and rather perplexed. How does it happen? It just seems so... *established*.
Does that make *any* sense?
I think I'm a skeptic. Really. I've never been in love in the romantic sense of the word. I think that literary fiction is the only place where true romance really works. It's the only place where the parties involved are under the sole volition of one person: the author. Love is a far more complicated and quirky beast, in my humble opinion.
My my my, aren’t I just a bouquet of fucking daisies?
*rolls her eyes* Don’t mind me.
-Gnav

Breezing On By...

2007-05-07T22:16:03Z

Keeping in with past patterns, it would seem, I haven't written here for a while. Probably because I've been writing a whole lot more of MO, which is really a stupendously GOOD thing. It makes Luce glare at me less, that's for damn sure...
My summer co-op job is a dream. That's all I am going to say on the subject... well, okay. Big lie. I have the urge, suddenly, to pontificate:
It's in my field. My boss is extremely accommodating and personable and has a client base that is frankly astounding, as far as I'm concerned. (note: I might be easily fooled, but since I am very new to this whole business I would say that having an 'in' at several large PR companies and getting jobs ranging from... Campbell's soup to Budweiser to Juicy Fruit gum is pretty darn impressive! Maybe I'm a total newbie. I'm damn proud of that, then.) I work every day from 11:00 to 4:00 (sometimes earlier depending on the work that's currently on the docket) and I feel like I'm *doing* something that's gonna have results that I can catalogue in my proverbial 'work experience' folder that I can be proud of. Very proud.
Twix this co-op and my stint back at the Cambridge Arts Centre, where I'm going to be working as a Program Coordinator, I would say that work has hit a huge gold star.
I smile at this, and say thank you to whoever it was up there that put the good word in for me.
That is all.
In other news, Bridal shower for the soon-to-be-married friend of mine this weekend went off without a hitch. Turns out that Foxor and I ended up being the entire food crew, but I'm really not complaining. I think I was more excited about Foxor's Caesar Salad than anybody else at that damn shower was. It *almost* disappeared upstairs with me and a giant spoon... Almost.
I was dubious about the bachelorette party, I'm be perfectly honest with you, but after actually *going* to the club, I guess my misgivings sort of... dissolved. There were about 10 minutes where I stared around the place, sitting across from Foxor, sipping at my 'Sex on the Beach', thinking that the whole affair had the slightly unpleasant flavor of an over-glorified high-school dance, what with everybody just standing around in little social clusters, drinking their cocktails and beer. (okay, granted: open drinking does not occur at high school dances - it usually happens in the lot out back or the boy's bathroom...)
Things got much, *much* better after people started to dance, though. And I discovered that sleep depravation and general weariness are absolutely no match when it comes to a good, solid house beat. Really.
Fuck going out to pick up guys. I would rather dance. Dance, all alone, just me and the pounding rhythm until the wee hours. That's what makes me tick.
... Sometimes I feel very much the loner.
I wonder, is that a bad thing?
-Gnav.

Never say never...

2007-04-26T02:48:02Z

I was one of those people who always vowed that I wouldn't be the sort that clutters up their LJ with videos and the like. I guess I ought to start eating my words...
yummy yummy words...
But, really, this was way too cool:

glumbert.com

See? Wasn't that cool?
(Do I still have to eat my words? *sad puppy dog eyes*
-Gnav.

Swiped from Sudyn X3

2007-04-21T01:11:04Z

If you've seen over 85 movies, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 movies on this list. Copy this list, paste it as an entry in your LJ. Then, put x's next to the movies you've seen, add them up. Have fun!

( ) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x ) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
(x ) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
Total: 5

(x) The Princess Bride
( ) AnchorMan
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth
( ) Saw
( ) Saw II
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
( ) Anger Management
( ) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 10

( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
( ) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
( ) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 12

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
( ) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 18

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
( ) Signs
(x) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
( ) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
( ) 13 Going on 30
( ) I, Robot
( ) Robots
Total so far: 21

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
(x) KING KONG
Total so far: 27

( ) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
( ) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
( ) Halloween
( ) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total so far: 28

( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
( ) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
(x) The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 30

( ) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
( ) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
( ) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 33

( ) Bad Boys
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Lucky Number Sleven
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
(x) Bourne Identity
( ) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) The Fog
( ) Ice Age
( ) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George
Total so far: 36

(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My Bosses Daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
( ) War of the Worlds
( ) Rush Hour
( ) Rush Hour 2
Total so far: 38

( ) Best Bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
( ) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
( ) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 43

(x) X-Men
(x) X2
(x) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
( ) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
( ) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
Total so far: 53

( ) Swimfan
(x) Miracle on 34th street
( ) Old School
(x) The Notebook
(x) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf's Tribe
( ) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
( ) Boogeyman
( ) The 40-year-old-virgin
Total so far: 56

(x) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(x) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(x) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total so far: 62

( ) Baseketball
( ) Hostel
( ) Waiting for Guffman
( ) House of 1000 Corpses
( ) Devils Rejects
(x) Elf
( ) Highlander
( ) Mothman Prophecies
( ) American History X
( ) Three
Total so Far: 63

( ) The Jacket
( ) Kung Fu Hustle
( ) Shaolin Soccer
( ) Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
(x) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
( ) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard
Total so far: 66

( ) High Tension
( ) Club Dread
( ) Hulk
( ) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
(x) Chronicle Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) 28 days later
( ) Orgazmo
( ) Phantasm
( ) Waterworld
Total so far: 69

(x) Kill Bill vol 1
(x) Kill Bill vol 2
( ) Mortal Kombat
( ) Wolf Creek
(x) Kingdom of Heaven
( ) the Hills Have Eyes
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
( ) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
(x) Army of Darkness
Total so far: 73

(x) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
( ) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
( ) Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total so far: 79

(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix Reloaded
(x) The Matrix Revolutions
(x) Animatrix
( ) Evil Dead
( ) Evil Dead 2
( ) Team America: World Police
(x) Red Dragon
(x) Silence of the Lambs
( ) Hannibal
Total: 85

Haha!! I still have a life, because the meme *distinctly* says that you must have seen *over* 85 movies!
*pointedly chooses to ignore the fact that there are many many many movies not listed that she has seen...*
Oh, yeah. And on a purely estatic note: I'M FINISHED SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOHOOO!
-Gnav

This So Totally ROCKS My World

2007-04-18T23:58:39Z

Diarmuid is my all-time favorite character from the Fionavar Tapestry!!
*points enthusiastically*
Look, look!!!

I'm Diarmuid!
Take The Fionavar Tapestry Character Test today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Personality Test Generator.</p>

You are Diarmuid, prince of Brennin. Free and unpredictable, you possess a passion that often gets you into trouble but a charisma that usually manages to get you out of it again. Intelligent and witty, it sometimes takes people a while to see past your flippant exterior to the strength and will underneath.

I feel completely rediculous because this makes me so happy. Go me. X3
-Gnav.