Cynicism and foul language

ghosts @ 2013-01-23T04:04:00

2013-01-23T09:04:03Z

Eight days until I shut down here and make the move completely to DW. I'm not sure if I plan to have my DW entries cross-posted here or not - many seem to want to stay in the cesspool LJ has become and hey, if power-hungry Russian businessmen who only care about their own country's clientele appeals to you, by all means. However, I will be going onto greener pastures who take their users complaints and needs into consideration and make it happen.

For a positive year, I want a positive space and LJ breeds only negativity; from the support, to the people now migrating here to the past memories stored here. I do not like the idea of being FORCED into using certain stylings or such in order to post or read a friend's list.

My writing, my blogging, my photography, everything will be there. I have been so uninspired on LJ the last two years, silly things like user heads aren't worth it anymore. Once things are fine-tuned, I will be having a permanent account on DW.

I may or may not fully lock down this journal - I suppose it depends on whether or not I will be cross-posting but there's a good chance this is it.

MOVING TO DREAMWIDTH. IF YOU WANT TO STILL FOLLOW ME, READ BELOW.

2013-01-19T00:24:51Z

So, I'm posting a lot more personal things either here at Curtained@WP or here on Tumblr - but most of what my blogging will be is writing. Fanfic. Poetry. Prose. Original fiction. All of it will be posted over here on Dreamwidth. If you add me there and are using a different screen name then you have here, let me know so I can allow you into my access list. If you need help learning DW, let me know and I'll help.

Considering LJ is 110% catering to their heavily Russian population and everyone is moving there, I think I might eventually migrate there as well. If I do, anything personal or that would otherwise be posted here will be posted here at my DW of the same name (will be importing everything soon).

SO. LET ME KNOW YER DREAMWIDTH NAME BECAUSE I'M CLOSING THIS JOURNAL BY FEBRUARY FIRST.

MISSING SINCE SUNDAY MAY 20, 2012 - CYNTHIA BISCI

2012-05-21T12:33:22Z

Cynthia BISCI

Description

Female, white, 54 years old, 5'0", 91 lbs., slender build, gaunt/sunken-in the face. Bleach blond hair, curly/wavy and short, brown eyes and glasses with thin rims. Wears a MedicAlert bracelet on her left or right wrist (silver).

Circumstances

Was last seem at her residence in the Mohawk/Upper Gage area, Sunday May 20, 2012 at 6am. She has not contacted family about her whereabouts and friends haven't heard nor seen her since Friday, with a last phone call to family between 11am and noon on Sunday May 20th. Has limited mobility due to a stroke in 2008 and uses a black walker to get around. She left home with her black and grey wallet and ID, possibly a black purse, but is without medication which is needed to treat seizure disorder, hypotension and thyroid dysfuntion.

She sometimes frequents Limeridge Mall on Upper Wentworth, Jays Sports Bar on Upper Gage and Fennell or The Pourhouse or Cagneys at Fennell and Upper Ottawa. She failed to show up to see her mother on Sunday, at St Elizabeth Villa nursing home. She has friends in the Fennell and Upper Ottawa area that last spoke/saw her on Friday, May 18, 2012.

If spotted, call the Central Police Station at 905-546-4772.

I'm freaking out guise, and posting this WHEREVER I CAN. There are posts on Tumblr here and Facebook here and on Twitter here if you can pass the word on by reposting any of those in case you know ANYONE local to me.

She's found. Details are personal but needless to say she was careless and stupid. Cops are coming to prove shes okay and close the case. Ty to all who reblogged.

ghosts @ 2012-05-19T20:45:00

2012-05-20T00:45:05Z

I was at EPT last night (emerg psych) and they sent me to a crisis center that looks more like a B&B (Barrett Center) for the night. I woke at 2p after staying up until 3a writing, and came home after they discharged me around 230/3p. I didn't do more than change and leave and never thought to check on my gerbils. I fed them, gave them fresh water last night and they were sleeping. I knew Kilmer (the black one) was acting sluggish and sleeping a lot so I knew, in due time, he would pass on.

I never thought I'd come home from a few hours at the park with my Lisa and my Miu to find Kilmer dead, and lets just say... desert animals (which gerbils are) tend to try and 'get rid of' the corpse to prevent predators from finding them in the night. I was trying to keep my cool, and thankfully Lisa and my Miu helped with the situation and once that was done, I had Val (lilac-albino) moved into his carrier and I washed the fuck out of the tank and all the things in it, gave fresh bedding/food/water and a ton of TP tubes for Val to chew apart and make bedding of.

Kilmer, while you (and your brother) were never able to become hand-tamed (some just can't and these ones had high anxiety since I got them - it was from how they were treated at the store I got them from; should've gone with a breeder) - I loved you two like crazy. You weren't the hyper one your brother was, but you were the more lovey and shy one and the one who tended to do the sweetest little gerbil things (like laying on top of your brother and creating an adorable gerbil pile) and always managing to get your fluffy ass stuck in a TP tube that your brother was trying to tear apart. You gave me great laughs with adorable videos and were an amazing brother to Val - I'm sure you two had great gerbil-y times together.

I'm sorry I never got to say goodbye in your last hours, I'm sorry I wasn't there or I would've sat holding you the entire time. I love you, Kilmer, and maybe your soul be at peace now. ღ ღ ღ

And to follow.. a pic spam of my charcoal Mongolian gerbil Kilmer, along with his lilac-albino brother, Val. I love you both, and Val, please don't be lonely without your brother - I'm here, too. ღ ღ ღ

lj comment fix.

2011-12-30T13:42:12Z

Re-posted from ohfreckle w/permission:

LJ hasn't fixed things, but some talented users have. This uses the Stylish extension and offers a way to use subject lines in comments and fixes the colors and fonts to make it look similar to the old style.

title. Livejournal Release 88 Tweaks
browsers tested. Chrome & Firefox
description. Some tweaks to Livejournal's new default comment pages.

get it here

There's also a link how to get the preview button back. I've installed both fixes, and they really make things a lot better.

*read and comment if you'd like to be friended, thanks =)

2011-06-16T21:58:59Z

Hey, welcome to my LJ. Before we become ~lj friends, there's a few things you should know about me.

HEALTH;
I'm moody and erratic and frequently lapse into suicidal-depressive episodes. I don't do it intentionally, I'm actually diagnosed with rapid-cycling bipolar disorder II (it means that I suffer hypo manic episodes and depressive episodes as well as mixed states), borderline personality disorder. My moods cycle rapidly (hence, rapid-cycling) and can shift anywhere between a few minutes, to a few hours, to a few days. How long each episode lasts, I can never predict. Other diagnoses: PTSD, GAD (generalized anxiety disorder), agoraphobia and social anxiety. I'm considered treatment resistant and at the moment, am kept on konopin to combat anxiety and seroquel for sleep disturbance (insomnia) - nothing has yet to work for depression without making me manic as well.

As treatment, I am currently taking a high dose of seroquel (quetiapine) and klonopin and will be returning to psychiatric treatment (outpatient). I mention this now because I blog about it quite frequently. I sometimes can write the most upsetting things when I'm down, or the most crazed and fanatic things when I'm up. It can be unsettling to people who don't understand, but if you have any questions ever feel free to ask, I won't be offended at all. It's therapeutic to write about. I also suffer from crippling anxiety, and an undiagnosed GI condition (formerly peptic ulcers, but it seems to have changed). I get a bit TMI about the GI problems but I put those under a cut.

A semi-touchy subject, is my eating disorder. I've been diagnosed as anoretic (restrictive-type) with binge episodes, and have been attempting to get into in-patient. I tend to blog about it and my mental health more at Curtained@WP rather than here,t hough.

LOVES;
You'll read a lot about World of Warcraft, DSLR photography and fandom alongside the private posts. The 'long-term' fandoms/obsessions center around Russell Brand, Mötley Crüe, Nikki Sixx, SIXX:A.M, TVD (Damon/Elena | Damon/Stefan), Robert Downey Jr, Mighty Boosh (Noelian) and mixed-media journaling. I'm in love with Moleskines and cut-and-paste. I love graphic design and web design and run a multitude of half-finished websites and forums.

I'm addicted to my iPhone 4S (white), iPhoneography, Instagr.am, Twitter, Tumblr and ONTD. Iced capps/peach mango smoothies and frozen raspberry lemonades from Tim Hortons as well as Coke Zero and diet Coke/Pepsi are my bread and butter. My sense of humor is a mix of Russell Brand meets Denis Leary. I'm homoerotic asexual ~~and in a relationship with an amazing girl - almost 3 years, going strong.~~ and single. I'm anti homophobia, anti racism, anti hate. I stand up for my friends and give them the benefit of the doubt - even if they're wrong. I value trust and honesty above all else.

Hi, I'm Mis - Mjau, Nixy, wanker, whatever ͅ ღ

TV SHOW LIST—

◦ Skins UK
◦ Ringer
◦ Awkward
◦ Switched at Birth
◦ The Vampire Diaries
◦ Supernatural
◦ Entourage
◦ Gossip Girl
◦ 90210

FANDOMS/OTPS—

Ҩ Cook/Effy (Skins)
Ҩ Freddie/Effy (Skins)
Ҩ Delena (TVD)
Ҩ Dean/Cas (SPN)
Ҩ Dean/Sam (SPN)
Ҩ Brian Kinney/Justin Taylor (QAF)
Ҩ Noelian (RPS)
Ҩ Noel Fielding/Russell Brand (RPS)
Ҩ ...more I'm likely forgetting :D

CINEMA—

ღ The Outsiders
ღ Trainspotting
ღ I Love You Phillip Morris
ღ Less Than Zero
ღ Kiss Kiss Bang Bang
ღ Harry Potter
ღ Grease
ღ Rumble Fish
ღ Drugstore Cowboy

LOVEURS—

₪ Kaya Scodelario
₪ Ewan McGregor
₪ Robert Downey Jr
₪ Russell Brand
₪ Noel Fielding
₪ Julian Barratt
₪ Jensen Ackles
₪ Ian Somerhalder

HATRED—

▓ Bigotry
▓ Homophobia
▓ Racism
▓ Addiction
▓ "Ana/Mia"
▓ Wannarexics
▓ Dishonesty (liars, as well)
▓ Cheats
▓ Attention-whoring

NEEDS—
☄ Coke Zero/Diet Coke
☄ Iced Cappuccino/peach mango smoothie/raspberry lemonade (Tim Hortons)
☄ PC/Netbook
☄ iPhone 4S (white)
☄ Warcrack
☄ Adobe Photoshop CS4
☄ Nikon D40x
☄ My many hardback journals

*Contact Info*

*current friends, ignore this

If you want to be friended back, COMMENT. I don't check my profile!

ghosts @ 2011-03-16T13:25:00

2011-03-16T17:25:03Z

Rather than post the same tireless shite, have two photos I took of my berbils :3

By the by, my flu is free to a good home. Oh, and you should all have Ditto! app. If you don't know what it is, yer missing out ;)

Seroquel's kicking in. Looks like ~bedtime is 1p, fail.

ghosts @ 2009-07-22T07:27:00

2009-07-22T11:27:49Z

A few days ago my gerbils (Val & Kilmer) just turned a year old. It would be one month from now that I adopted them and dsklhfakla I still love them as much as I did then, if not more. I haven't posted photos of them for awhile and they've grown, so happy birthday, my babies!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

Hee, Kilmer so had his tail curled around the water bottle spout, and Val was digging at the glass one night while Kilmer was trying to sleep. They've also decided they're not too old to sleep in a gerbil pile still :D

ghosts @ 2008-09-04T16:13:00

2008-09-04T20:21:53Z

First off... welcome to my helljay, kros_21!!!!!

I seriously need to butt into comments more often. I think I've met half of my f-list via evenindeath, so thank you loveur!!!

Now, for the real post.. you guessed it... MORE GERBILS. But they're really freakin' adorable this time! I bought seedless grapes for myself, my mom and to share with the gerbils, and at first they had no idea what to do with themselves. They had become hyper because my hand was in their tank and they know, where my scent is, treats are sure to follow.

Then they noticed the bowl.. and the two grapes. Oh, first picture is of Val putting his gerbil!nuts on sleeping!Kilmer's face, and another picture is of Val moving in a way that it looked as if he had a grape pop outta his butt. It's blurry but LOL-worthy anyway.

I made a video of it, as well as a video of Val on the wheel last night, trying to flip himself upside down like he had been doing earlier in the evening. The wheel!vid is dark, because I took it at midnight with only my bedside lamp on, so I brightened it in Vegas Pro.. ignore the grain.

video 001 (grapes!): http://www.sendspace.com/file/k946k1
video 001 (val on the wheel; half flipping upside down): http://www.sendspace.com/file/tp7tkr