If loving you is wrong

funsized — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 19:58:15 GMT

Things may not be perfect, but I have to admit, they could be a lot worse. Things I don't like may be happening, but you know what I can deal with it, because it's better than the alternative.

funsized — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 15:16:20 GMT

I deleted my twitter last night. I've got so much to figure out, and figure out how I'm going to deal with things. Going on twitter was just making me angry so I deleted it, maybe when things are better I'll reactivate it, I just need some time to think things over. I honestly don't know what to do.

funsized — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 02:26:48 GMT

I miss my mom, and it's all my fault i'm 3000 miles away, and i can't really just pick up a phone and call her, and have her make everything okay. it kills me every day, because I know my mom would make everything better right now, and I screwed it up. It just sucks, and i see on facebook how close her and my sister are, and I could have that, but i screwed up.

funsized — Mon, 07 Nov 2011 13:40:28 GMT

So, last night at midnight, I registered for classes for the spring. I plan on taking Bio 102 and The history and appreciation of Art. But when I went to sign up for the payment plan, it said the e-cashier window was closed for the term.. So I don't know what to do, I emailed the financial aid office, so hopefully they can help me. If I can't get it signed up for, all my classes will be dropped and I won't be able to take classes. It's just stressful, because if my parents had let me know that I would have to pay for school by myself, I would've started saving for school at the beginning of this semester, and I would have the 900 dollars needed for classes.

funsized — Wed, 02 Nov 2011 00:40:28 GMT

So Hi, I forgot about this thing again. I've been good, dealing with my asthma, I need to go back to the doctor, but I'm taking a break from the doctor haha. I'm pretty much going to make this a photo update of what I've been up to since the last time I updated. :)

For my boyfriend's birthday we went up to the mountains and went apple picking.

Travis and I

apples :) it was so pretty

Travis fell haha

We went to see Joe Jonas in Silver Spring, MD. I must say it was an amazing show, Joe was totally in his element and was so happy!

I saw Chris Brown in Virginia Beach, I had a blast at this show, he has so much talent!

After 6 years of being a fan, I finally was able to see them live, and I was blown away!! They are so so so good live!!

I also met Patrick Stump!! He opened for Panic!

It had been such a long time since I had seen the Summer Set that this was an amazing show!

funsized — Fri, 23 Sep 2011 03:17:19 GMT

So, I got all my tests back today, and as far as they can tell, my heart is fine. So that's a big relief, he wants to run one more test, but he thinks it's chest wall pain caused by my asthma coming up so quickly, and the coughing. So I feel a whole hell a lot better about it. My inhaler seems to be helping, so we shall see.

I'm so excited for this weekend, it's my boyfriend's birthday and we are going for sushi saturday and apple picking sunday. I'm going to make some apple muffins I think.. or a pie.. I'm not sure yet

Gonna actually try and use this thing?

funsized — Wed, 21 Sep 2011 00:30:53 GMT

Ok, I'm going to like set an alarm or something because I want to actually keep people updated on my life.

I started school about a month ago. I love my Teaching class, I get placed into a school and get to teach, which I'm really excited about.

My biology teacher on the other hand, I can not deal with her at all. I can barely understand her and she goes on random tangents all the time. This is my second time taking this class, so I'm at somewhat of an advantage but still, it still really sucks.

Work is work.. annoying and too much, but oh well.

I went to Blink 182 Sunday, and that was amazing, I'm gonna try and do a review with pictures and stuff here soonish.

About a couple months ago I started having chest pains and a cough, so I went to the doctor a month ago and he diagnosed me with an upper respiratory infection and a pulled chest muscle. Well a week later my symptoms came back, and the chest pains got worse. I went back today and he actually seemed concerned. He gave me a prescription for an inhaler in case my coughing and shortness of breath was asthma related. He also ran an EKG and took blood to check for heart stuff, and I got a chest x-ray. I've got a history of heart disease in my family, so I'm a little worried. But hopefully everything comes back clean.

funsized — Mon, 15 Aug 2011 15:57:35 GMT

So I went to Musikfest last night, and even though it poured down rain, I had an absolute blast. I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. Nick was happy, I met some amazing new friends, and I danced my butt off.

Videos

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CLeLDNPkbls

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XRrNDy9PkUI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sT-LcJTyQOc

The rest of my pictures are here http://www.flickr.com/photos/66373739@N05/ and if you want any untagged, just let me know!

funsized — Thu, 21 Apr 2011 17:24:30 GMT

TODAY IS THE BEST DAY EVER.

That is all

funsized — Thu, 21 Apr 2011 02:48:44 GMT

My mom has registered a team for the San Diego Lung Cancer walk in May. Their team is taking donations, to help fund research and awareness for lung cancer. They are walking in memory of my Grandma Jane. If you'd like to make a donation go to go to www.sdbreathofhope.kintera.org and search for team jane and go to general donation. Any amount would help.

I'd appreciate it if anyone could help, this means a lot to me and I wish I could be there but I can't

funsized — Sat, 05 Feb 2011 13:53:12 GMT

Happy birthday jraec89 !!! I hope your day is amazing! I love you <3 The past four years, have been such an amazing ride, and I'm so glad I get to call you my best friend.

funsized — Wed, 02 Feb 2011 02:27:57 GMT

I wish I could fast forward my life. Don't get me wrong, I'm pretty content with things that are going on, but there are things that aren't going so well. I'm just sick of things.

The whole putting on a smile so people don't know what is really going on is getting really old really fast. But I've got to, don't want to let people in. I dislike the fact that I feel like I have no one, that Someone is going to judge me, or turn around and make fun of me when I say things. And I know it's probably not true, but I can't help it. I think I've been completely walked over, dismissed, screwed over, so many time, that sadly it's what I've come to expect. I know it's probably not what's going on, but it's the norm for me, so I can't help but think it. All I want is people to come to me.. I don't think that's too much to ask.. really I don't.

funsized — Sun, 23 Jan 2011 16:42:33 GMT

I haven't posted since July, and no one will probably read this, but I just felt the need to post, maybe to make me feel better? Idk

There's parts of my life that couldn't be better right now, I'm happy and secure in my relationship, my bond with my Mom, Dad, and sister is really good right now.

But then there's things that I wish I could change, but sometimes I feel like I have no control over them. Sometimes I feel as though too much is changing, relationships with people are changing. There's certain people that I always want in my life, and sometimes I feel like that's not going to happen. Sometimes I worry that I don't put enough effort into things, but then again it's hard when no one comes to you with issues. Sometimes I don't know what to do, and I just want someone to tell me what's wrong, and what I'm doing wrong so I can fix it. Sometimes I just feel like giving up and walking away, but I know that that's not the right thing to do, and things are really meant to be you'll fight for it no matter what.

And to know people are talking about you? Yeah that hurts, but it happens I guess. Again, I wish people would come to me.

This has been very therapeutic and feels good to get this all out.

funsized — Tue, 13 Jul 2010 16:36:15 GMT

Wow, I haven't posted here since February!!

Let's see the main things that have happened to me:

-I've started dating someone. His name is Travis and I'm really happy with him.

-Went to New York in June for 3 days and Saw a Yankees game. I can't express the feeling of being in Yankee stadium.

-I went home to San Diego for a week.

-We are going to 2 Jb shows this tour!

That's a brief overview, I'll try and update at least once a week now!

funsized — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 12:35:03 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy 21st!!! Seriously I love you so much and I don't think I could ask for a better person as a best friend. We bonded over an American Idol, and grew closer thanks to some brother band. You came into my life when I really felt like I had no one. When I'm with you I'm truly happy. I feel like I've found my better half in you, and that you have helped shape me to who I am today. You really are the Joe to my Nick, besides all the boyfriend stuff of course hahah. Here's to many many more years! Love you tons!

funsized — Mon, 25 Jan 2010 03:23:28 GMT

Man oh man, school, has been kicking my ass, and we've only been at it for 2 weeks. I think if I wasn't working 30-35 hours a week on top of school it wouldn't be so bad.

I actually had the weekend off, spent Saturday out and about. I went with Elizabeth to Short Pump, and Hollister was having a sale, so I got 2 flannels that were 50 dollars regularly for 15 dollars a piece.

When Jessica got off, we went to Old Navy. I bought some really cute stuff. On our way home me and Jess had a very deep conversation. Haha it was really nice, and she kept making me laugh. But it was good talking. And it was good hanging out with Jess.

Her 21st birthday is coming up and I have something planned for her, and I wanna tell her but she won't let me. But it's gonna be fun.

And everyone do this MEME

Reply to this post, and I'll tell you one reason why I like you. Then re-post this and spread the love.

funsized — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 21:39:09 GMT

The first FIVE people to comment in this post get to request that I write a drabble of any pairing/character of their choosing. In return, they have to post this in their journal, regardless of their ability level. (If you absolutely can't write, I don't see why you wouldn't be able to offer drawings or icons or something instead.)

I have to do journal entries, so I wanna write some fic...

funsized — Thu, 21 Jan 2010 04:51:52 GMT

I wrote this essay in about an hour. I had to write on an important moment in my life. It's my first paper in my English class, and I really want to prove that I'm ready for this class.

Becoming a Tutor
It’s not often that after one day on a new job that you realize that said job is what you want to be doing the rest of your life. That’s exactly what happened to me though. My senior year of high school, I signed up for a tutoring job at the local elementary school, not knowing exactly what I was getting in to. The job was just a couple hours every day after school, and I would either be in a class for an hour and tutor a student for half an hour after that, or I would have two or three students that I would tutor in reading and writing. I was lucky and got put into a kindergarten class and then I got a first grader to tutor. I can still remember being very nervous walking into the class, because I had no idea what to expect. Most people think of kindergarten students being inattentive; but as I walked into the class for the first time, I knew that this class was going to be different. I introduced myself to the teacher, Mrs. Leblanc, and I knew instantly that I was going to enjoy helping her out. She was young, and seemed like she really enjoyed what she was doing. Then came the part that I was most nervous about, being introduced to the class, the students were actually excited to see me and to have a new person in the classroom. I was thrown right in to helping, the class was doing math, and there were a couple of students that weren’t grasping the concept, so I took them out into the hallway to try and help explain the topic and help them try to understand it. That moment when their faces lit up because they had finally grasped the concept and were able to give a correct answer was just amazing to me. I can still remember that feeling, the first time one of the students got so excited that she had gotten the answer that she lit up; it was at that moment that I knew that I wanted to do something in the education field. I wanted to be the one that caused that excitement, I wanted that feeling everyday of knowing that I would be helping children shape themselves into who they would be in the future.
At the end of the school day, I said goodbye to the class, very eager to come back again the next day. Once again the anxious feeling came over me as I walked to the first grade hallway to pick up the student that I would be tutoring. We walked to the library in silence with the exception of the thirty seconds it took us to introduce ourselves. I knew that it would be a little hard to break her out of her shell. When we actually got down to the tutoring, she was very stubborn and did not want to do the reading. It was such a weird feeling after tutoring in the kindergarten class, to come to a first grader that didn’t want to learn. At the end of our session, I was determined that I would get her to read and enjoy it. It was one of those things I knew I had to do, because I knew that one day I would be doing it for a living.

funsized — Fri, 08 Jan 2010 16:57:00 GMT

So January 6, 2010 really will go down in history. Finally the day of our Nick Jonas concert had come. Jessica and Jessica met me at my house, and he hit the road. He hit Northern Virginia and Lillian calls Jessica and realizes she only printed out two tickets and not three. So we are freaking out, and I get the idea to call Michelle and she went into Jessica's email and printed out the ticket so the day was saved.

We got to DC, and the creepy guy at the parking deck wanted to park the car for us and Jessica R was like um no. So he walked us to the spot and all was well. We walk up to the street and were on a mission to find a bathroom. We found a McDonalds and turns out you have to have a token to use the bathroom and we couldn't figure it out so we had to get two tokens to actually be able to get in. Then we thought we were locked in. It wasn't fun.

So then we walk to the theater, and we were at the front of the theater, see his name on the marque, take pictures and then we see a bus drive past and turn, so like the creeps we are we follow the bus, and come to find about 20 or 30 girls waiting by the loading dock. We figured this is where we needed to be. So we set up shop and watched as Hoffman and the Band get out of their bus and walk into the loading dock. Then maybe 10ish minutes later, a black car with tinted back windows drives by, and there's a person in the back waving. I saw the ring but it didn't register that it was Nick. He gets out of the car, talks to security for a second, and then starts heading our way!!! His bodyguard was like "We will meet you all, but if you cross this line, or scream he's going to leave." So all the fans were actually pretty chill. I realized I didn't have my Rolling Stones out for him to sign so I turn to the girl behind me and was like can you get this out of my bag for me please? And she did, and then we'd agree that we'd take each other's pictures so that they would come out good. Nick finally gets to me, and I'm just so flustered at this point. I ask him if he could sign my magazine, and he says sure and signs on Joe's chest. and then I ask him if I could have a picture, and he holds his arm out and says sure. He smelled so good, and his coat was soft and he was caressing my back the entire time, I didn't realize he was so tall, and his freckles and his dimples, it was amazing, his cheeks were red because it was so cold. Once I got my picture I went to the back of the crowd so other people would get a chance to meet him. Me Jessica and Jessica, went off to the side and legit freaked out and called like almost everyone we know. After a little while Hoffman came out and we said Hi, and I asked if I could have a picture and he said sure. He was really nice, and I know he usually doesn't stop for fans, so I was happy.

We waited in that area for Lillian, and Michelle comes and when Lillian gets there she hates us, and we go eat and meet other people. About 6ish, we go to get in line. The theater is really pretty. I have very good seats, I was pretty much in the middle, and I could see really well. When Nick came on the girls next to me went crazy and screamed "I love You Nick" everytime there was a pause. It was very annoying. The show was amazing, and my love for the boy really grew that day.

Set list: (with my notes)
Last time around
State of emergency (Really this song lives up to the Hype everyone gave it)
Olive and an Arrow
Inseparable (I love this song as a JB song, and his version was awesome
While the world was spinning
The way you make me feel
Fireflies (He was so happy he finally got the words right, it was adorable.)
Use Somebody (He messed up the words to this one, but still an amazing cover)
Before the storm- solo version
Black Keys / ALBL (The speech is actually amazing, so much better than the one he's been doing with JB)
Vesper’s Goodbye
Conspiracy Theory
Signed Sealed Delievered (I’m yours) – Stevie Wonder cover
Stay (He had wrote this song the night before, and for a fresh song, he performed it really well. it was like Joe was there giving him lessons on being a front man, like he had so much passion, he really hides behind his instruments and this just proved that.)
Rose Garden
Stronger
Tonight (I loved it. It was really cool slowed down.)
Who I am

The rest of my pictures are here:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=186945&id=685116350

and

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=187101&id=685116350

Videos will come once youtube stops being a pile of fail.

funsized — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 03:01:43 GMT

Hi guys remember me? haha.

I feel as if my life is school and work.. and now baseball.

Soon, I will have to do an update on the past forever.. but not tonight.

What's been up with ya'll? plans for Halloween? Me? I'll be working.

funsized — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 15:55:41 GMT

10/06/09 Message from JB

Hey guys,

It has come to our attention that dates for a possible December concert tour somehow found their way onto the internet. Due to scheduling issues we're sorry to inform you that this won't be possible. We look forward to a wonderful touring season in 2010.

At this point we have no specific events planned and no plans for any... If that changes we will of course include the fan club. So we'll keep you posted there.

Thanks and love,
JB

Via TeamJonas.com

funsized — Sat, 19 Sep 2009 00:03:10 GMT

At work this morning, this guy comes in and asks me if I have money in my drawer for cash back, I say no, I probably only have like 20 bucks. He then says he has prescriptions in the back and was wondering if he could have a carton of cigarettes to take back.. I didn't think anything of it, because we do it all the time. Well, as I'm calling the pharmacy to let them know he's coming back, he runs out the door. I chase him out to get his license plate number, and the driver of the car gets out and puts his hands up and claims he doesn't know what's going on and that this guy just got in his car. Well the other guy throws the cigarettes on the ground and gets out of the car and runs away. We call the cops, and then the customer informs us that the guy had a gun on him.

So pretty much the cops dust for prints, and all of that.

I got really lucky today that I didn't get robbed. I was freaking out.

So yeah they are launching an investigation and if he gets caught I'll prob have to go to court.

I might update about other stuff tonight.. idk

funsized — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 00:13:38 GMT

Well, I got my car looked at, and it was in fact the back brakes. The mechanic said that they were metal to metal, and the routers were shot too, so I had to get all that replaced. it was about 300 dollars. But yay my car's not making noises anymore and I can drive with my windows down without being annoyed.

I have 2 chapters of pre-cal homework to do before my test on next Monday, but I'm of course not motivated enough to do it.. I need to though.

I had my first spanish quiz of the semester yesterday, and I think I did very well on it, it didn't take me very long and there was only a few things I didn't remember.

I've been catching up with CSI NY.. I forgot how much I loved it. I'm watching So You Think You Can Dance right now, and Then Glee comes on.. I'm so excited for it..

funsized — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 03:44:28 GMT

Ugh, work tonight was hell.. We are moving all the summer and school stuff so that we can put out Halloween stuff. 8 hours today and I got all the back to school stuff moved, all the summer condensed, early xmas toys set.. AND THAT IS ALL. Sherry got one run of Halloween set, so tomorrow I've got about 24 feet of Halloween stuff to set. Oh fun.

I have 2 quizes to study for and I'm debating just waking up really early in the am to study.

I'm in so much pain from today.. I was legit busy the entire time I was at work, and I smashed my finger and busted the hell out of my knee with a shelf.. so yeah fun.

funsized — Sat, 05 Sep 2009 03:15:11 GMT

Gah I finally have all weekend off. I have so much homework and sleeping to do.

But I think me and Jess, and Jess are going to the fair tomorrow night so that'll be fun!! Ride some rides, play some games, and eat!!! I'll deff take pics.

Um, idk what else to say haha