I LOVE THE WHOLE WORLD

fracture @ 2012-01-06T05:26:00

2012-01-06T10:26:15Z

MOVING TO DREAMWIDTH @ COCKS

fracture @ 2011-12-21T13:53:00

2011-12-21T13:53:26Z

I MET STEPHEN MERCHANT
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

fracture @ 2011-12-07T18:01:00

2011-12-07T23:01:09Z

【THE TIME CAPSULE MEME】

fracture @ 2011-10-19T19:27:00

2011-10-19T23:27:08Z

GOING TO WHOSE LIVE AGAIN IN MAY
CAN'T
STOP
ME
NOW

fracture @ 2011-10-14T18:47:00

2011-10-14T22:47:15Z

WHAT'S THAT?
SORRY I CAN'T HEAR YOU OVER MY PICTURE WITH JEFF DAVIS.

fracture @ 2011-08-17T10:06:00

2011-08-17T14:07:44Z

hi i'm alive

um

i'm all moved into college now and i start classes in less than an hour

uh

yeah

that's all i guess, i just wanted to check in and stuff

fracture @ 2011-05-16T16:57:00

2011-05-16T20:57:09Z

my cat has gone missing

last time i saw him was on saturday. i am so worried right now and bawling my eyes out and drjgsdfgh. he's not an outdoors cat, so he doesn't have a collar or anything. someone might've taken him or he might be dead i just don't know

i really want him back

fracture @ 2011-05-12T09:22:00

2011-05-12T13:22:30Z

oh i am not liking the new navigation strip

how am i to view by journals only now.

fracture @ 2011-05-10T09:45:00

2011-05-10T13:45:56Z

fracture @ 2011-05-06T10:11:00

2011-05-06T14:11:35Z

i bet if the internet didn't exist, this paper would've been done by now

fracture @ 2011-05-03T09:58:00

2011-05-03T13:58:39Z

I am so tired right now you guys don't even know. So this entry is probably going to be full of typos that I'll just miss completely.

I... don't know what's going on. I thought the being-so-distracted phase would stop when the musical was over since that's what was stressing my out. But it hasn't stopped. I don't have anything right now to be stressed about. The only AP exam I'm taking is Stats and I'm feeling really confident about it-- I've scored a 5 (highest possible) both times we've taken a practice exam. The only thing I have to be stressed about is my senior project and that's what I keep getting distracted from and procrastinating on. And I'm getting so mad at myself because I really need to do this so I don't fail but I can't motivate myself enough. I'm also, once again, behind in Latin. But, I was able to make up two weeks of work in just one class period, so I think I'm good in that right now. I don't know.

On completely unrelated notes, since I'm sure everyone's tired of my constant bantering about school--

I have to say that the Regular Show episode last night was the best I'd seen in a while. Especially since last week left me kinda "ehh," wondering if I had lost interest in the show already. But. Eileen was adorable and I could totally sympathize with her, because, right now, I am Eileen. I am that extremely awkward girl who has unrequited crushes. And for that, I felt like Rigby was a total dick, extremely more so in last night's episode than before, even though I know that guys can be like that. Heck, I've seen some of my close guy friends and even my brother act like that. And you know, it hurts a little. But I digress.

You know that the day is going to be looking better when one of your little freshman friends comes up and asks what Portal 2 is and says that she's interested in playing. That made my day so much better, perhaps more so than it should have. I am still, however, not looking forward to the rest of the day.

I just want to go home and get back on Tumblr and draw more inappropriate pictures of humanoid robots.

fracture @ 2011-05-02T09:52:00

2011-05-02T13:52:00Z

i have never dreaded going back to school this much

i am so excite for summer and graduating right now i don't even

I BEAT PORTAL 2

2011-04-21T13:35:36Z

That was incredible. Like, seriously. I would play this game over and over again and, honestly, never get tired of it. I can't even narrow down a part that I liked the most.

The final battle with Wheatley was... easier than the final battle with GLaDOS in the first one. Given, Wheatley was supposed to be dumb but still... The strategies to defeating him were about the same. It only took me two tries to beat him, first time failing because I couldn't figure out where to put the corrupted cores.

Best core is space core. space space wanna go to space what's your favourite thing about space mine's space gotta go to space here come the space police guilty of not being in space dad are you space yes now we are a family again spaaaaaaaaaace

I was surprised when GLaDOS saves you from flying off into space ~~space space~~. Speaking of which SERIOUSLY? PORTAL ON THE MOON? Given the ending to the first game, I was expecting to fly off. And, as the elevator was going up, I gave the ending a 9.5/10. Because it was awesome, but a little weird. Especially the singing turrets way to give me a heart attack i thought i was going to die. And then... sunlight and an open field. I jumped when the door slammed shut because I wasn't expecting it to be loud lol uh.

Then.

The ending went from 9.5 to 11/10 when they opened the door back up to give COMPANION CUBE.

Want You Gone... the song wasn't what I was expecting. I thought it was going to be a bit more like Still Alive. But, they threw some pop sounding song at me ahahah. It's grown on me though and now i'm singing along to it on the way to school.

I... still like Wheatley, to be honest. I don't know if it's personality or his accent but I just like him. ~~i was heartbroken when he tried to kill me sob~~ The little part at the very end where he's saying he's honestly sorry just made me wibble. Brought my opinion of the ending up to a 12/10. ~~also space space i'm in space~~

Well, those are my thoughts on it. Anyone else's opinion on it?
~~i like how i can write this much on a game i beat in two sessions, but i still can't get over four paragraphs for my senior project paper.~~

fracture @ 2011-04-20T09:51:00

2011-04-20T13:51:32Z

I am feeling significantly better now that the musical is done. So much free time~

My dad picked up 360 version of Portal 2 yesterday for me, in which my brother started to whine because he wanted it even though he hadn't mentioned it at all. Aside from that -- obviously, I spent all night playing (my dad actually had to come in at 2:30 am to tell me to stop playing and go to sleep).

Oh my god the game is beautiful. I think it was worth the wait! And I'm liking Wheatley; the one qualm I had with the first one was that, during the whole second half, there was barely any talking and it made me feel lonely and paranoid so Wheatley's constant talking makes me feel a lot better. I'm at chapter six (out of ten, i think) and the game has managed to keep me laughing while also puzzling me. And GLaDOS.

GLaDOS.

I don't want to say too much in fear of spoiling anyone. so i think i'll end it here.

i know how i'll be spending my now free afternoons.

fracture @ 2011-04-13T10:04:00

2011-04-13T14:04:19Z

i hate writing

fracture @ 2011-04-07T09:56:00

2011-04-07T13:56:40Z

I keep spacing out and I'm not exactly sure why. I just now stared at a blank computer screen for about five minutes until the person next to me started talking. If I wasn't so intent on not missing school, I would go home right now.

I just... feel like I'm going to cry, but I have nothing to cry about? I don't even know.

snrrrk

2011-04-05T15:13:30Z

Hey, Sierra. You might wanna check out DSC_0222.jpg on S:\FFHS Prom 2011.

Just sayin'.

fracture @ 2011-03-25T10:51:00

2011-03-25T14:51:07Z

tumblr's been blocked at school

and i left my phone in the car

how am i going to mindlessly spend time during class now?

senior project

2011-03-14T16:05:04Z

I suppose it's now time to actually start thinking about it seriously. I'm pretty sure I have a problem for it.

“Should Social Anxiety Disorder be considered a 'real' mental disorder, or is it just a case of shyness?”

I haven't talked to my teacher yet, since she's been helping the people who have no idea what they want to do. But I think I can pull this off. I plan on interviewing my doctor about it, possibly have her as my mentor since she's easy to talk to. I also hope to conduct a survey to see how many people are aware of it and what they think about it.

Not quite sure what I'll be doing for my product though. I was thinking about an informational video that includes interviews I'd be conducting along with interesting facts. You know, the kind of videos that you watch in health class.

This topic hits pretty close to home for me — I'm self-diagnosed with SAD since I'm afraid of what my parents would think, especially my mom, if I asked to have a diagnosis done. I've already asked her opinion on it and she thinks it's just used as an excuse for people to get out of social situations.

Sigh.

Writer's Block: The kindness of strangers

2011-02-23T15:52:59Z

cry

fracture @ 2011-02-21T11:01:00

2011-02-21T16:01:48Z

latin iii is really dumb

or it just might be my teacher

everything is disorganized and cluttered and kajslhgdfjf

just look at how obnoxious that is

i can't work this way i quit

fracture @ 2011-02-14T11:47:00

2011-02-14T16:47:40Z

Happy Valentine's Day, loves!

My parents are out in Vegas celebrating their anniversary today, which I think is sweet that it's on Valentine's Day. So I'm gonna be by myself in the house until Wednesday night ahahah.

~~google, why is "patter" a blocked search word when safesearch is on...~~

I have already accepted the fact that I am a hopeless romantic. _{which was, long ago, predicted by Sims when sim-me kept autonomously trying to get dates but was getting rejected every time.} I keep hoping every year that maybe, just maybe, someone will give me a rose and chocolates. It doesn't even have to be in a romantic way. Just sort of a "Hey it's Valentine's Day, I went out and got these for you :)" But I can only dream.

The past few years, I have gone out to K-mart and the like and bought cheap Valentine's cards to give out to people. _{Last year was Powerpuff Girls themed!} However, this year, I'm drawing them myself. I drew one with Gaga and a line from Speechless and gave it to a little freshman girl in my first period. The look on her face was priceless -- she seemed just so happy. I wish I had the time to do this for every lonely kid in this school. I'd probably do it anonymously since I wouldn't want to be confronted about it ahahahah.

Oh well.

fracture @ 2011-02-11T12:51:00

2011-02-11T17:51:38Z

would

would you guys hate me if i went to see the justin bieber movie tonight.

edit: tickets have been bought NO GOING BACK

fracture @ 2011-02-08T11:35:00

2011-02-08T16:35:08Z

AHHHHH MUST GO

prancing teal deers ahead

2011-02-07T17:04:18Z

I like how I'm only on LJ at school. Reminds me of the last two years I've spent in an online class. I've kinda missed it, even though this Latin III work is a pain in my booty.

As an update on my life, I guess... I've been doing pretty well! I've been keeping my grades up in school and turning in my work on time! I know, it's crazy but I've been doing it.

And I just realized that I never told you guys, but

I GOT ACCEPTED TO MEREDITH!!

I actually found out the Sunday I got back from Nekocon but since I've been abandoning my LJ for other things _{(see: plurk + tumblr)}, I never actually told any of my LJ friends. You guys just don't understand how excited I am. I really thought I never would've gotten in, especially since it's a private school and my grades were total suck in tenth and somewhat eleventh grade. I even got a $10,000 scholarship for every year from them. It's really awesome. And I love Raleigh; cities excite me in general as I am a small-town girl living in a lonely world.

And and! My bestest friend Mollie got accepted too and so did my childhood best friend that moved away in third grade! We met up with each other at the Meredith visitation day and it was "woahh we both want to go to the same college THIS IS AWESOME" I'm just really excited to be able to bond with her again. I've only been able to see her once a year for like... five or six years.

But anyway, enough ranting about my future ahahah.

I've gotten an upgrade for my piece of poo computer and it's now really awesome. I got 4 gigs of ram and a pretty sweet video card. I can play Sims 3 without it lagging to hell and back!! AND CIVILIZATION 5 WORKS ON MY COMPUTER NOW BECAUSE OF THE VIDEO CARD SO EXCITE. So naturally, I've been playing Sims 2, Sims 3, Civ 5, and Team Fortress 2 for the past week.

H-have I mentioned how obsessed with TF2 I've gotten? omg words cannot describe. I guess my best to play as is Soldier? Mostly because I've always been good at rockets -- I spent most of my middle school years playing Halo with my main weapon being the rocket launcher. I really would like to get better at Scout, though. Because he's fun and I like being able to run fast, but I can't aim worth shit. However, I am surprisingly good at Sniper, even though I usually suck with sniper rifles.

ahhh this entry is too long i'm wrapping it up

i love you, f-list.

also if anyone is interested, i've actually had a huge nice list of all of my role play muses right over here for some time now. so if anyone wants to play with me sometime... that would be pretty cool...