I'm Not Here... This Isn't Happening...

hey kyle, cause you're the only one that ever reads this.

fly_wingless — Fri, 24 Jul 2009 02:49:44 GMT

today was a day full of clothing and SALES. oh man, sales. it's nice to not be desperately poor for once.

i'm going home for a couple of days.

things have been kind of crappy lately, but i don't feel like discussing it now cause it has been a good day and such nonsense shouldn't be crappin' all over it. time for karaoke.

~Anna

fatty fatty fat fat....

fly_wingless — Thu, 12 Mar 2009 17:11:35 GMT

look at that gut! ponch! aww!

a year ago today, we went to the pet store and met lil' rufus and lil' odin. they've made life a lot more interesting since they weasled their ways into our home (and hearts, d'aww). wubs.

~Anna

why can't miley cyrus just die already?

fly_wingless — Fri, 06 Mar 2009 00:39:44 GMT

http://www.pitchforkmedia.com/article/news/149560-radiohead-suffer-the-wrath-of-miley-cyrus

http://stereogum.com/archives/wheres-the-beef/miley-cyrus-vows-to-ruin-rude-stinky-radiohead_056681.html

yeah, i'm a big radiohead fan. even if i wasn't, i'd still think this bitch needs to take a chill pill... perhaps a chill suppository. and she could break that suppository in half and give it to kanye west. these people need to understand... just cause your famous, it doesn't mean that everyone on the planet wants to meet you. and if you're a musician, you're not fucking obligated to meet every last one of your fans. and if she were really a radiohead fan, she'd understand that they aren't the type to eat shit and sit around listening to an overexcitable teenager blabber on about how great they are for half an hour. they just wanna make music and tour, man. just back off and let them do their thing. you don't go to the zoo and demand to go in the black bear exhibit so you can have some one-on-one time with your favorite animal, do you? if i knew radiohead was four doors down from my hotel room, i'd be like "holy shit, awesome"... but i wouldn't ask them to endure my company. i don't fucking know them as people, so how can i expect it not to be awkward for them? miley cyrus is pretty worthless... why do people like her so much, again? she can't even fucking sing without auto-correction. pathetic.

/rant

~Anna

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fly_wingless — Mon, 16 Feb 2009 18:51:22 GMT

mmmmmmkay....

so...

fly_wingless — Mon, 16 Feb 2009 16:39:00 GMT

i've been doodling on sticky notes... i kind of feel like this might be a waste of sticky notes, but then i realize that i rarely use them anyway.

i'm killing time before walking to my drama class.

i keep looking over at rufus and think about how little she used to be. she was an awkwardly-cute little bunny with huge back feet and propeller ears. now she's all fat and cuddly. one of these days, i can afford to get her spayed... it will supposedly calm her down, but seeing what happened to odin makes me think otherwise. it would be so awesome if rufus finally became a snuggle bunny again, though. it'd make me so happy.

i feel bad for not going to this class that i was sitting in on... it's audio fundamentals... i took it already and have credit for it... i'm just sitting in to refresh my memory before taking recording next semester. however, i keep moving too slow in the morning or staying up too late sunday nights/tuesday nights and end up running late... and i hate walking in late, so i end up just skipping it. i've done this more times than i've actually attended now, i think. i don't think that's gonna make me look too good to mr. wynne. oh well.

i talked to mom yesterday, and she told me to watch my spending. the sad thing is that i'm really not buying anything except for food. especially when i'm on campus all day and need food before i pass out from hunger. this unfortunately costs money, and it's starting to add up. and i haven't been to the grocery store in over a month, so my selection at home is starting to become a lot slimmer. i don't know what to do, really.

15 minutes.

i have my first exam for my online management class... i'm kind of worried about it. i still have to take [good] notes for chapters one and two. taking online classes is harder than i thought it'd be. i need constant reminders to be given to me... i'm bad at "checking up on things".... which is really what you have to do with this fucking asulearn shit. you have to go on there and check the calendar to see what's due, and if you forget and miss a deadline, you're fucked. i'm getting a little better about it, but damn it, i'm forgetful sometimes.

i need to go back to the gym. this past week, i feel like i've eaten far more unhealthy food than i really should, and it's making me gain weight back. i hate that... it's so damn hard to lose weight, but as soon as you indulge just a little, you gain five pounds. it's bullshit. anyway, i need to do more cardio. jeremy never wants to do cardio. i hate going to the gym by myself, though... maybe brendan will do some cardio with me. i really want to get down to at least 150 before spring/summer so i can get a bathing suit. i haven't had a bathing suit since the georgia trip back before i started college.

i'm worried that i'm already starting to get exhausted from this semester... i feel really tired all of the time and i've stopped trying to make myself look nice for class. at least i haven't been skipping classes (other than the one i'm sitting in on, and that doesn't count). that's usually a bad sign. when i get home, i'm gonna take a nap, then start writing notes and studying before i have to go to work.

okay, i'm gonna go nosh on something and go to class. good times.

~Anna

RRRRRAAAAAAGHHHH, HOLLYWOOOOOOOD!!!

fly_wingless — Sun, 08 Feb 2009 14:28:38 GMT

http://my.spill.com/profiles/blog/show?id=947994:BlogPost:1000866

ARGH! STOP IT! METROPOLIS AND ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW DO NOT NEED TO BE REMADE.

and one that isn't on that list that i read about on the nerdist was "bill and ted's excellent adventure." seriously, what the fuck, people? save your fucking money and make something NEW! GAH! *throws arms in the air*

~Anna

wow...

fly_wingless — Thu, 29 Jan 2009 15:50:27 GMT

i just realized that next month, it's going to be the first valentine's day that i will spend single in 6 years. sophomore year of high school, i was dating carson the first three months of that year; junior and senior year, i was dating james (we got back together before the second valentine's day); freshman year of college through junior, i was dating kyle. i didn't even think about it till now. so strange...

~Anna

sonovabitch...

fly_wingless — Thu, 29 Jan 2009 05:23:14 GMT

i was writing notes for my online management quiz, decided to take a short nap, woke up and did that thing where i fall in and out of consciousness... then i wake up to find out it was 11:36pm... the quiz closed at 11:30.

...

FFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU---

~Anna

crunchy hair.

fly_wingless — Sun, 25 Jan 2009 00:41:41 GMT

so, last night, we went to sarah jones' birthday party. i had to close, so i didn't get home till after 10, and it took us a while to get ready cause we THOUGHT that the costume party theme was still on. apparently, we were sorely mistaken. gen, laura and i didn't get the memo that the costume aspect of the party was canceled. not only that, but everyone had pretty much left the party by the time we got there. it was just lisa and sarah sitting around watching juno... so that's basically what we did. sat around in our awesome costumes watching a movie. wah wah wah...

i had to take pictures, at least. our costumes were too awesome, and it's unfortunate that no one got to witness them other than lisa and sarah. gen was the east wind, laura was a grimm fairy, and i was a banshee.

[pictures]

and my bedhead the next morning, oh my god...

at least we had fun dressing up. and tonight, i'm gonna dress up again... this time, i have to dress up like a nerd for game night. where's my masking tape...?

~Anna

bruises

fly_wingless — Wed, 21 Jan 2009 19:00:28 GMT

they didn't turn out to be as bad as i was hoping they'd be... i guess i just have really good blood vessels or something.

the way my hips/thighs initially felt, i thought i was gonna get something like this:

and THAT would have been something to be proud of, lemme tell ya. oh well... at least that first one looks kinda cool. it looks like i got trampled by a tiny horse or something.

other than the bruises, which are really the most minor part of my current condition, i've been hobbling around like an old lady for the past few days. i'm sore as fuck. and having to go to ballet class yesterday didn't help at all... well, the stretching part sorta felt good, but then we did some core strengthening exercises and i thought i was gonna die. i had to use the rest of my aches and pain bath salts last night... i wish i could just wear a body suit filled with that stuff and water. as soon as i got out of the tub, i went right back to hobbling around like an old lady. i feel kind of pathetic. but hopefully, this means i'll be even stronger with all my new muscle tissue forming. i'm hoping that i can exercise regularly enough with ballet and maybe some trips to the gym so that i can lose weight/gain muscle. i'd like to be able to bench press 120 again... maybe more. we'll see.

~Anna

football in the snow...

fly_wingless — Mon, 19 Jan 2009 23:42:17 GMT

so it's been snowing all day today, and what better way to celebrate than some good ol' contact sport.

that's right, i played football in the snow. little ol' me. here's how it went down:

i was gonna go to the gym with jeremy and brendan today, but then jeremy tells me that he's trying to get some people together for a game of football. i was sort of excited and sort of hesitant. i've never played real football before. and i'm really not the most athletic person around. but i figured, hey, it's something to do on a snow day.

so we get together and head over to duck pond field, and we pick up a guy that was walking out of jimmy john's... he had a football in his hand, so jeremy figured he'd be up to it. we meet stew at the field where there's a game already going on. we end up joining them, which made me feel a little self-conscious. for one, i'm a girl... so you know a huge group of guys is gonna look at me and go, "who is she kidding?" also, i looked kind of silly with all of my winter layers on, hah.

anyway, so the game gets started and i have no idea what's going on. it takes me a while to get used to the format. but then i get in there and take brendan down with an AWESOME tackle, and that sparked the spirit of the footballer within me. i was getting some great tackles in (mostly brendan, at first, cause i would feel bad taking down a guy i didn't know). then jeremy tells me he's gonna throw me the ball... luckily, i stayed close so i wouldn't have to worry about catching a deep pass. i actually caught it, and immediately felt really proud of myself. i was playing! not just standing around! i was INVOLVED in the game! it was nice.

then we play some more, and we get into a huddle. they all start talking about how i should make the touchdown. then jeremy tells everyone to just make a line, has me get behind him so he can pass off the ball, then everyone just keeps the other team back while i bust through and make the goal. the play starts, everyone is locked, i find a hole and i run right through it. it. was. awesome. i got to throw the ball on the ground and everything! that's the first and probably last touchdown i'll ever make, but it was invigorating. it was the game-winning touchdown, too, so that made it extra-special.

we eventually started a couple of smaller games cause a lot of people left after a while. i kept making tackles (i think that's my forte). then at one point, i went after this guy that got the ball, and i slipped onto the ground... then his heel knocked me right in the throat. ohhhh, it hurt so baaaad... but i kept playing for a while, till it started really hurting. i spat up some blood... probably bit my tongue or something. after i sat out for a while, i felt well enough to get back in the game. i got the ball near the end of the game, and then this big former football player tackled me. thank god he didn't put a lot of effort into it. he kind of picked me up and put me down on the ground, haha.

i'm gonna be so sore tomorrow... well, i'm already sore now. my throat's feeling better, at least. i like this kind of pain, though, cause it's from actually doing something. it's like, "man, i'm sore... but it's from taking down bitches, so it's okay." ahhh, i can't even cross my legs without having to assist it with my hands. i feel pretty badass, though. those guys that were playing with us definitely did not expect much from me. i'm glad that i was able to prove them wrong.

~Anna

i lol'd.

fly_wingless — Mon, 19 Jan 2009 17:47:54 GMT

WHOA! hey, man... chill.

fly_wingless — Thu, 15 Jan 2009 05:08:03 GMT

it's pretty bad when my journal entries make up the majority of my friend's page...

fly_wingless — Thu, 15 Jan 2009 00:43:46 GMT

seriously, guys... you need to post more. i need the entertainment.

~Anna

back to school

fly_wingless — Mon, 12 Jan 2009 15:18:10 GMT

man, not having to wake up for a 9/9:30 class is pretty awesome. i almost don't know what to do with myself in the morning. if this were 3 years ago, i'd still be sleeping... but now my biological clock makes me wake up around 8:30, on average. and i'm sitting in on a class for the first time ever. it's gonna be pretty cool to go to class and not worry about tests/homework/projects. i can just focus on learning. awesome.

i'm also excited about taking ballet this semester. i haven't done anything ballet-related since kindergarten (oh, kinderdance... you made my inflexibility soooo obvious...). my goals for that class are to finally be able to touch my toes and to maybe lose a few pounds. i've been doing pretty good with the whole losing weight thing. ever since i broke up with kyle, i've lost 15 pounds (though i've been fluctuating a bit... i did lose 17 pounds at one point, but then eggroll night happened, and meeeeehhhhh...). my goal weight is probably 150, and i'm floating around 165 right now. it feels good to be at the halfway mark. people have been telling me that i've been looking skinnier, so that's a good sign. i just wish i could buy some new pants instead of wearing the ones that fit me when i was closer to 180. having to constantly pull them up is kind of a pain in the ass, and seeing pictures of me from behind with a saggy-looking ass... is embarrassing.

okay, i've rambled enough... gotta get ready for class. *clicks heels*

~Anna

boredom = making avatars

fly_wingless — Sat, 10 Jan 2009 16:27:37 GMT

at least it killed a little time. give it a shot and post it on your lj.

http://www.faceyourmanga.it/faceyourmanga.php?lang=eng

and cause i was especially bored, i made kyle, too:

Making eggrolls tonight.

fly_wingless — Wed, 07 Jan 2009 17:25:30 GMT

if you want to eat some delicious eggrolls, then head over to my place tonight. i think pork's gonna be the filler tonight. it doesn't matter how late you show up, it just means that less eggrolls will be available to your belly. i'm making around 40, so hopefully, that'll be enough to satisfy anyone that comes. you don't want to miss out. my eggrolls are pretty famous. rsvp in the comment area, if you want... or don't... i like surprises. and if no one comes, that just means more eggrolls for me! mwahah!

~Anna

belated response to morgan's request for lyrics...

fly_wingless — Tue, 06 Jan 2009 13:29:17 GMT

this song doesn't necessarily give me "strength" so much as make me feel badass, which i pretty much equate with strength anyway.

"talk show host"

I want to, I want to be someone else or I'll explode
Floating upon the surface for
The birds, the birds, the birds

You want me, well fucking well come and find me
I'll be waiting with a gun and a pack of sandwiches [sammiches]
And nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing

You want me, well, come on and break the door down
You want me, fucking come on and break the door down
I'm ready,
I'm ready,
I'm ready,
I'm ready
I'm ready

this song makes me want to walk down a road with a long coat blowing in the wind... or eat a sammich.

~Anna

take that!

fly_wingless — Mon, 05 Jan 2009 21:52:24 GMT

despite not being tagged, i'm too bored to not do this.

fly_wingless — Fri, 02 Jan 2009 14:10:29 GMT

1. If you could have one thing right now, what would it be? peace of mind.

2. How do you style your hair? mousse, blow-dryer... depending on what i'm doing, i use a round brush to style it while i'm blow-drying. but with my new haircut, i'm trying to go for a more shaggy appearance (though i haven't quite perfected it yet... might need to razor it some more).

3. Is there a God? since i'm agnostic, i have to say "i dont know."

4. What color shirt are you wearing now? gray.

5. Are you an innie or an outie? innie.

6. Do you nap a lot? more than i used to... but i still don't think i do it a lot... it's more likely that i'll pass out on the couch around 9, then wake up super early the next day. or hell, i passed out on the couch last night after midnight, and i still woke up at fucking 7:20.

7. Who was the last person you hugged? i think it was katie, who was hopelessly intoxicated at the party.

8. What, in your opinion, is your contribution to the world at large? i stay out of the way.

9. What was the last thing you ate today? today?... uh, haven't eaten today... but last night, we went to macado's.... i had the macado. might eat the other half after i finish this survey.

10. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? if i have to shower... an hour or so (if i'm in a hurry to get to class), and an hour and a half to two hours if i'm taking my sweet time. god, it's nice when i can do that.

11. What Web sites do you visit daily? facebook; mt; lj; blogs from chris hardwick, olivia munn, and kevin pereira; cake wrecks; the soup blog; hotmail.

12. What's the last movie you watched? all the way through?.... uh..... the only thing i can recall is tropic thunder, but i feel like i actually saw something more recently than that.

13. What time is your usual bedtime? if i have nothing to do, i usually retreat to bed around 10-12. if i'm doing stuff, it can be closer to 2 or 3.

14. What else do you wish your cell phone could do? i'm not really sure... it does enough for me already, to be honest. though if it had a built-in swiss army knife, that'd be pretty badass.

15. What is your favorite weather? either snow or a mildly breezy day where the sun is mostly shrowded by fast-moving clouds.

16. What's your dream career? man, i've had a lot of these... rock star, movie maker, cartoonist, owner of a little independent music store...

17. What images were in your mind when you fell asleep last night? i think bum wine night was still dancing around in there... but i haven't been able to get that out of my head for the past couple of days.

19. What's your favorite genre of music? alternative/indie.

20. What's your favorite food? my egg rolls. i could eat them all day, but that would make me gain twenty pounds and break out with the most painful zits known to man.

oh. my. god. best. thing. ever.

fly_wingless — Sun, 28 Dec 2008 03:23:07 GMT

if this is any indication of how awesome the next four years are gonna be...

fly_wingless — Fri, 07 Nov 2008 15:44:30 GMT

then get me another appletini and let's party.

*~Anna~*

this is why i don't drink myself stupid...

fly_wingless — Sun, 02 Nov 2008 07:59:06 GMT

http://blog.jimmyr.com/Friends_are_More_Dangerous_than_Beer_15_2008.php

-Anna

wtf, adrienne?

fly_wingless — Sat, 18 Oct 2008 17:28:38 GMT

wtf?

*~Anna~*

lulz

fly_wingless — Fri, 17 Oct 2008 13:05:53 GMT