the deep book of shallows

Coming back

flameprincess — Sun, 27 Dec 2015 13:17:27 GMT

I'm going to make more of an effort in the coming year to be present here. I am restricted on what I can say elsewhere and I've moved away from writing as a result. This also means that station_gwop may very well be making a comeback.

flameprincess — Mon, 29 Apr 2013 16:09:34 GMT

So in the last couple of weeks, the pain has entered new territory. I have either been unable to sleep even though I have been exhausted or when I wake up I wish I could just sleep more. I woke up the other morning feeling like someone had worked over my ribs with an iron bar. That has happened two separate times now. My hands are constantly on the fritz and I get random pains in my forearm. My forearm! Seriously, of all the stupid places to get pain. My knee will sometimes flare so badly without warning that I have a hard time bending it.

Today I have a constant headache and I feel like the base of my head is spasming pain. This is in addition to the other assortment of random pains I get these days. It sucks when I do not even though what triggers it or when it will even trigger. I am missing out on a lot with the girls and it irritates me.

flameprincess — Thu, 18 Apr 2013 20:41:58 GMT

My dear media, you simply cannot have it both ways. Kevin Harris cannot be both a suicide bomber and someone who was a credible threat and was attempting to lure police and paramedics to their deaths.

1.) He refused their aid. Which he was well within his legal right to do. If he was truly trying to lure them to their deaths, wouldn't it have made more sense if he accepted their aid and then detonated the bombs?

Oh but who expects reason from a crazy person...right?

2.) Except there are different levels of crazy. Mr. Harris appeared to fall into the overly paranoid kind of crazy. His own neighbors weren't afraid of him but actually felt sorry for him. One of them would have him over for dinner periodically.

3.) He was pretty upfront about not allowing people into his home. So if the bombs were to protect him (see reasoning with a crazy person line) then he would keep everyone out.

4.) This was not a sudden onset of crazy. He probably would have attempted something ahead of time if he was trying to eliminate the perceived threat. He simply wanted to educate people to what he saw.

And to the idiot who claims that he alerted the proper officials to the menace that was Mr. Harris riding on his bike distributing his pamphlet... just shut up. He didn't look like you and didn't act like you and dropped off a pamphlet of government conspiracies; that makes him odd, not menacing. If his own neighbors weren't freaked by him (and they were exposed to far more of his crazy) then perhaps you need to go back to mommy because the world is too scary for you.

flameprincess — Thu, 27 May 2010 15:51:39 GMT

Dear Colleague;

I told you two days ago that one of our team members would probably be taking PTO to handle some personal things that had arisen. That I had already spoken to her and RECOMMENDED that she do so in order to handle the issues.
She called out yesterday and we adjusted the schedule accordingly.
She called out today for the rest of the week.
You adjust the schedule accordingly and then flip out via email to me about it and another Level 2 team member.
I told you to take it up with HR if you had issues with her PTO and wanted to know how much she had left. I didn't know the answers to your many questions and logic dictated I send you to the people who could help you.
The other team member (your boyfriend) took exception to my response because I didn't address the thin coverage in my response. Which you never mentioned.
I have now pointed out the following points to the both of you:
1.) I told her to take the time off if she needed it.
2.) I do not know the PTO policy and I shouldn't have to know what each team member's PTO actually is. That is their responsibility.
3.) The thin coverage is moot since it will be like this one the team member goes on maternity leave.
4.) Harping about thin coverage but being picky about who you want to hire will send contradictory messages. I'm looking for quality people and if you just want a warm body to fill a seat, I could switch and get you that.

What I wish I could say:
1.) I get that the two of you are fucking. I don't care. Get over yourselves.
2.) I will address the facts and not the emotion. If you want someone to wipe your tears and pat you on the shoulder call your mothers or a therapist. I don't have time for that shit.
3.) You both were willing to grant PTO during a team member's two week notice period even though that is very against policy. Why the hell do you care now about PTO?

flameprincess — Thu, 13 May 2010 21:03:37 GMT

To the writers on my list... do you have any communities in lj that you are members off for authors/writers?

flameprincess — Thu, 13 May 2010 14:14:07 GMT

So things are moving fast within the job. I've gotten clues from my former boss what is going on and today I was instructed to vet some resumes and arrange to conduct interviews without my counterparts.

Just a little nervous because now I feel like I'm being tested and I really don't want to screw it up. I've conducted interviews before but never as a solo operation. Thoughts and suggestions are appreciated.

flameprincess — Tue, 11 May 2010 03:53:11 GMT

So I have a new member to the la mandi train. She's good people and needs some good people to surround herself with on lj since she's new.

Please consider adding blankslate_2010. She comes highly recommended.

flameprincess — Thu, 06 May 2010 03:17:23 GMT

So to recap my day:

I bitched about people not actually reading installation guides. They tell me they do but la mandi knows they didn't.

I bitched because the men around here do not wear pants that fit. Baggy is not a style. Baggy makes me want to punch you when you attempt to take a dive down my front or walk into something staring at my ass. You want to continue to enjoy your window shopping? Give me some in return jackasses.

I was impressed at an older gentleman who gave me a nod and a smile as he passed me. Almost made me blush because it was so courtly. Take a note... that's cool.

I listen to Fox News just to see what new dumbass shit they'll say today to introduce the news.

I've been rage induced by hearing about the social Safeway that was rebuilt and reopened in Georgetown. Yes it's a social grocery store. I'm going to have to say google it because if I continue talking about it I'm going to take Metro to it and vandalize the damn place.

flameprincess — Tue, 27 Apr 2010 23:34:19 GMT

Y'know I thought boobquake was a joke.

I rather hoped it was. Surely, we can't seriously be thinking this will actually prove anything to anyone.

Apparently people either did or were looking for a political reason to flash cleavage on the job.

There is simply nothing I could say that won't be scathing at this point.

flameprincess — Thu, 22 Apr 2010 21:09:10 GMT

So I've been quiet lately. Spending alot of time on Facebook games so that I don't actually have to think about anything except dominating that particular game. The domination thing seems to be working so far. Things have been happening in RL and I just needed to unwind from it.

***Commencing brain dump***

There has been talk at work about me potentially moving into a position with more responsibility. I'm hesitant for quite a few reasons although if offered I would take it. I don't back down from challenges.

1.) I'm the new kid on the block with this team. Yes it's been almost a year now but 3 mos of that I was on leave. I'm sure there will be backlash and a view of favoritism.

2.) Machinations and more machinations. My former supervisor in the department wants me to take on this new role because he thinks I can do it and to further his views of how he thinks the dept should run. The current boss wants me to take on this role because he believes I can do it but also to further his views on how he thinks the dept should run. At this stage I do not know the viewpoints oppose or not and it's all very hush hush so no one knows that the other one is talking to me.

3.) It's a management position and damnit, I walked away from my last one for a reason. Yes this one probably won't be quite as HR filled... actually it may very well be. *sigh*

4.) I don't know if I can do it and do it well. This is my biggest hang up right now. I can handle the politics but apparently my self esteems kicks my ass every time. I spoke to one guy at work that I trust to tell it to me straight no matter what. He did and I feel a bit better about it. Not a whole lot but a little bit.

Ultimately I'll still take it, it just scares me a bit.

***Ends brain dump***

Maybe when it's all over I'll start posting a bit more.

flameprincess — Sun, 11 Apr 2010 22:22:57 GMT

I like the Duggars. I'm not saying that I want that many children but I admire the steps they've chosen to take in how they raise their children. The Gosselins could learn a thing or two from that. Octomom is just a selfish lost cause at this point.

The compressor for the AC will be installed on Tues. They of course want me to pay more then I was initially quoted which sucks.

Why do mothers feel the need to compete with other mothers? I don't understand it. No two children are the same so comparisons are always lacking a solid basis. It's just frustrating.

flameprincess — Thu, 08 Apr 2010 13:05:42 GMT

I have now reached the unavoidable conclusion that either the terrorists think we are incredibly dumb or we are just get a crop of stupid terrorists.

A shoe bomb? Again? From National Airport no less? What the fuck was TSA doing on the job? Sleeping? I've been thru that airport and security is a fuckall bitch to get through but apparently Mister I'm So Smart That I Has Got A Shoe Bomb made it on a plane.

Fuck them and fuck the agents working security. At this point fuck the government too. Homeland Security was their brainchild to keep us safe and it seems we have more terrorists now then we had before it's creation. Not necessarily saying that one equals the other but really people? Besides don't they realize burning shoes stink? People are going to figure it out.

ETA: So Orbitz likes to make shit up. Although why anyone would joke about lighting their shoe on fire on a plane is beyond me. Dumbass.

flameprincess — Tue, 06 Apr 2010 04:25:53 GMT

I started back to work last week. This week is my first week being able to work from home 2 days a week. Tomorrow being my first day of doing so. After getting daycare drama organized, reorganized and finally finalized I thought we were set. Rikku would be home with me two days a week and in daycare 3 days a week. So tomorrow I am now looking at staying home with baby with no water (until 1pm) and no AC (tripped the circuit at some point today).

The gods hate me and this time, I'll be damned if I know why.

Writer's Block: Take me to your leader

flameprincess — Sat, 03 Apr 2010 03:25:39 GMT

"We aren't really bad as a whole. We just tend to be misguided sometimes. We like to believe that our way/people/belief is better/superior/morally right compared to the other person's way/people/belief. It's a learning curve and a growing process. We have evolved over the years and I am hopeful that we will continue to do so."

Yes I would because, really, that's the type of travel that won't require a passport.

flameprincess — Thu, 01 Apr 2010 19:07:43 GMT

After coming back to work, I discover that they did something funky with the proxy settings. In short, shit don't work right. I spent most of today running off the wireless because I would kill someone if I didn't.

In other news, LJ takes itself too seriously.

In other other news, if you blinked and missed it I'm on Facebook now. Don't expect much, I did discover that Farmville is an excellent time killer when I'm up with the baby.

In other other other news... I have a word for you.

Fondanty - adj. to be of a warm fondant like consistency.

flameprincess — Tue, 23 Mar 2010 18:13:02 GMT

So during my phone conference (work meeting that I just had to show up for), I joined Facebook.
I'm still not sure what I'm going to do with it but yeah I'm there. If you want to connect, let me know. I extended friend requests to some but for others I opted to wait. I always feel like I'm imposing on people with these things.

flameprincess — Tue, 23 Mar 2010 13:56:49 GMT

If you know I need the steps to submit a bug report to our QA dept and you replicated the issue, why did you not provide me with the steps. I can't replicate it from home which is why you had to do it. I have a sneaking suspicion that you didn't replicate it, only told the client you did and want me to submit something to QA on the off chance that you are correct. If I get yelled at for not providing the proper steps or because it's not truly a bug, I'm sending them over to you. I can deal with the French, but I refuse to deal with their attitude because you decided to be stupid about this.

flameprincess — Mon, 22 Mar 2010 23:38:16 GMT

I believe Hell hath frozen over.

La mandi is considering getting a facebook account. No games though. That infernal social shit would piss me the hell off.

The reasons for getting one are steadily starting to outnumber the ones against.

flameprincess — Sun, 21 Mar 2010 01:26:55 GMT

I get that there is a lot of disagreement about the health care bill. I really do.

Rep. Andre Carson, D-Ind., told a reporter that as he left the Cannon House Office Building with Rep. John Lewis, D-Ga., a leader of the civil rights era, some among the crowd chanted "the N-word, the N-word, 15 times." Both Carson and Lewis are black, and Lewis spokeswoman Brenda Jones also said that it occurred.

"It was like going into the time machine with John Lewis," said Carson, a large former police officer who said he wasn't frightened but worried about the 70-year-old Lewis, who is twice his age. "He said it reminded him of another time."

Kristie Greco, spokeswoman for Democratic Whip Jim Clyburn, D-S.C., said a protester spit on Rep. Emanuel Cleaver, D-Mo., who is black.

Clyburn, who led fellow black students in integrating South Carolina's public facilities a half century ago, called the behavior "absolutely shocking."

"I heard people saying things today that I have not heard since March 15, 1960, when I was marching to try to get off the back of the bus," Clyburn told reporters.

Rep. Barney Frank, D-Mass., who is gay, said protesters shouted "abusive things" to him as he walked from the Longworth building to the Rayburn building. "It's a mob mentality that doesn't work politically," he said.

flameprincess — Tue, 16 Mar 2010 15:40:25 GMT

It's a kitty post time! Featuring my 3 furry bits of trouble.

flameprincess — Fri, 12 Mar 2010 20:31:36 GMT

It should not surprise me that she writes for this.

Haunt my LJ long enough and you'll know I intensely dislike this woman. She continues to spread misinformation about the causes of austism without actually accepting that these things happen. What she also doesn't address at any point is the different levels of autism. Austism is not an illness, it's a disorder. You can address it and teach behaviours to minimize aspects of it. You can not sit and say that any child is "recovered" from autism. Their symptoms are less severe and they seem more "normal" but that does not equal recovery. It is to the point that I boycott anything that she is a part of. Fear mongering is not an acceptable solution to the problem.

A counter point

flameprincess — Sun, 07 Mar 2010 01:15:50 GMT

As some of you are aware, I kind of flipped about the cost of daycare. My dad, by way of my mom, offered to have them watch Rikku when I went back to work. Joe and I discussed this and agreed that it would be doable and we could pay them. Obviously not as much as what a daycare center would charge but a decent amount all the same. This was discussed and agreed upon (or so I thought) right before Rikku was born. In fact, when my parents were here after she was born that was still the plan.

After not hearing anything from them and getting the feeling like my mother wanted to be anywhere but on the phone with me I asked her about it today. Now there are problems with the idea. She was trying to find some way to send us extra money to pay for it but that fell through. (This was never even mentioned previously and I wouldn't have allowed it.) I was told that she doesn't want to spend the summer here and that she's giving up a huge chunk of her life. That is fair and I fully acknowledge that. I never asked them to do this, they offered and if it's not something they were willing to do, then why bloody offer?

So once I got off the phone with her I started following up on a few places that look promising for daycare. They are home daycare centers which tend to be cheaper and more my preference then the bigger company centers. I then get an email from her tonight with her schedule until the of June. So they aren't backing out of it but I don't like the vibe I'm getting and that's what I'm going with. Obviously there will be resentment with this and I frankly don't want to deal. I didn't tell them to move to NH and I'm not trying to disrupt their lives (although it's not like they do all that much in the small town they live in).

In either case I'm done. I'm going to handle this the way I always do and I'm not going to depend on my family for assistance. That was obviously a mistake to take what they said at face value.

flameprincess — Sat, 06 Mar 2010 00:21:11 GMT

Aspergers to no longer be Aspergers?

There appears to be revisions in the works on the many different diagnosis possibilities that fall under the broader category of Autism Spectrum Disorder. They are looking to consolidate them a bit more which makes sense if you've ever sat down and tried to figure out the differences between them.

It's interesting the backlash that the Aspie community is generating though. They are using the guise of not getting the proper services or help if they lump it as mild autism. I wonder just how much they are realistically getting now? I can't be the only mother/adult figure that has to declare war on a school system to get adequate services. It sounds more like they don't want to be known as Autistic. In the end though, Aspie is a heck of a lot like mild autism, it always confused me as to why they had a different category for it.

flameprincess — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 20:36:45 GMT

Two more times of throwing up. We are now on Pedialyte, .5 oz every half hour.

flameprincess — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 14:44:46 GMT

So Rikku has RSV. Still on the nebulizer ever 4 hours as well as saline drops in the nose and follow up suction to try and eliminate congestion. Add to it that I now have a sore throat and feel like crap, you now can see how much fun things are currently.
She's thrown up once this morning, if it happens again then it's onward to the Pedialyte. Still no fever which is good but that's being checked periodically as well. Should pass in 7-10 days.