My Retro Future

What the fuck is going on?

ffiferoo — Mon, 11 Aug 2008 04:54:01 GMT

Dear 2008,

Please stop killing famous people, it's getting weird.

Love,
Me

I'm finally bored enough to update my livejournal

ffiferoo — Fri, 25 Jul 2008 22:26:52 GMT

This summer is pretty much shitty, I think. Despite the fact that some good things have happened, and despite my feeling fairly satisfied with things overall, when I look at it, I realize that I've done practically nothing in the past two months, and that I will be far more satisfied going back to school a month from now than I have ever been going back after a long break before.

On Sunday morning, my parents are leaving to go on vacation to Alaska for two and a half weeks. I will be home, working and taking care of the cats. I may or may not have some sort of gathering at my house in the next two weekends while they're gone, I still need to decide. I definitely need a break from my parents, so I'm glad they're going away, but I know that by the time they come back, I will be so done with making my own dinner and letting the cats out at four in the morning that I will be glad that they're back.

Nothing terribly eventful has been going on. I got a Netflix account, and I'm now obsessed with getting and watching as many movies as possible while still only spending the money for the one-at-a-time plan. I may have to get the two-at-a-time if I get too impatient. They have pretty much every movie I could possibly think of there, so my queue is already about 60 things long, and I haven't really put any TV shows on there (only Freaks and Geeks).

If I make this entry longer, no one will read it, so that's all I have to say. Perhaps I will update more often as a result of how little I really have to say for the next few weeks. Does this make me sound depressed? I'm actually not.

whoa...

ffiferoo — Sat, 15 Sep 2007 17:40:15 GMT

So I just got some spam for viagra and cialis, and at the bottom of the message was this:

themselves, they set off up the sloping lawns.
very good indeed! Theyll have trouble controlling you!
ferocious-looking female. He was making the same sort of screechy noises
It was Voldemort, Harry thought, staring up at the canopy of his bed in
Harry! Harry!
calmly. I think it possible that it is you who are prejudiced, Cornelius.
He threw Pigwidgeon out of the window. Pigwidgeon plummeted twelve feet
was eavesdropping. Shortly after that, the twins rolled up their

Apparently someone decided to include random lines from Harry Potter for shits. That's all.

I'm so glad I have my car on campus...

ffiferoo — Fri, 07 Sep 2007 15:38:56 GMT

Right, so we start out last night, when Deb and I got back from Eckerd and Convenient and the video store, and I drive around in Crispell for like, nearly ten minutes trying to get a spot, miss one by literally about three seconds when someone pulled out, I had to go all the way around the lot, and by the time I got there, someone just pulled into the lot and into the spot. I was going to murder someone. So we went all the way around (because you have to go on the one-way street to get back out to the main road) and parked in 32.

Now, when I was *leaving* Dubois around 12:30, I went to 32, got my car and drove back to the College lot where I always park, being that I live there. I drove through *there* like twice until I realized there must have been something going on at my building last night, because there were no spots there either. *Then* I went over to the Bouton lot, the only one anywhere near me that allows residents to park overnight. That one was full too. After driving through both lots another two times, I decided that since I wasn't about to go all the way back to 32, park there, and walk all the way back, I'd just park in one of the commuter lots. It's not allowed, but I was fucking fed up by that point.

So this morning I get up, get dressed, and go out to my car to get my ticket. I feel exceedingly unpleasant toward campus police right now, especially one M. Doyle, who apparently thinks my car is blue.

smoking in San Diego

ffiferoo — Fri, 24 Aug 2007 17:13:42 GMT

I had the weirdest dream last night. I don't remember most of it, and it might have been a crazy House of Leaves dream, but it was fucked up. I was somewhere in a house in San Diego that had a lot of rooms and doors and curtains, and I don't remember much of anything specific, except that I was smoking a lot in the dream, and I was smoking Marlboros. At one point, I was like, "wow, this cigarette seems really hot... oh, that's because it's smoldering from the filter end!" I also remember looking out some windows at a very odd but pretty sunset, and then the windows going black, like I wasn't supposed to look out of them. I think I was looking for someone, but I can't remember. I was totally chain smoking though.

oh, college.

ffiferoo — Thu, 23 Aug 2007 04:29:34 GMT

I figured I ought to update, since I haven't in a rather long time and I always start to feel guilty after awhile when everyone else is giving regular updates on their life and I'm being reclusive in the public journaling sense.

I'm at school again, got here yesterday. I've seen most of my friends since then, but mostly I just want to start classes and get all of the stuff done that I need to get done. I really don't even have much of anything to write about at this point, aside from the fact that I haven't done much yet and that hopefully I'll do more soon. My room in College is nice, the closet has a door and there's an overhead light fixture that connects to a switch and everything, so it's a step up from my room last year. I miss having the common room, and it sucks to be far away from pretty much all of my friends, but I know I'll be happy not to have to walk very far to get to class or to town, and it's not like I haven't seen people. I just see people a little bit less (which could easily change anyway, since we just haven't started classes yet).

I hope this semester doesn't suck, and I hope my growing anxiety about scheduling and graduation requirements will be lessened soon, and hopefully I'll get a good advisor. Tomorrow I'll find out what to do to declare. I guess it's a good thing to have a class with a professor I already know, even if I don't really like her at all.

I remembered before that I've forgotten to play my Best of Queen tape in my car, and I have to do that next time I drive somewhere.

Harry Potter and the Sappy Ending

ffiferoo — Wed, 25 Jul 2007 22:41:02 GMT

Alright. So, obviously this isn't as emotional for me as for just about anyone else, because I'm really just not as big a fan. This is one of the few things that I rarely even discuss when I talk fandom, so this was far from the level of, say, Serenity for me. I did like it, for the most part, but in a lukewarm, disappointed sort of way.

Just to get it out of the way, before I forget, what was the big deal about Lily Potter? There was supposed to be a big deal about her, and there wasn't. Something about Harry having her eyes or whatever. Unless it was subtle or I totally missed it, that was the most absent thing that I was waiting to find out.

My biggest gripe, I think, was the feeling of wasting so much time with Harry, Ron and Hermione sitting in a tent talking about how miserable they were. I get that they're conflicted and need to have some sort of further development, but really, they got practically nothing done in all that time, and it only delayed all of the interesting parts from happening sooner.

Other stuff I didn't like (hey, I'll be positive later...): What the hell, Tonks and Lupin getting married and then Tonks getting pregnant and then Lupin becoming all emo and then them dying without actually seeing it? I mean, as soon as it was mentioned that Lupin was dueling Dolohov or whatever and then they mentioned Dolohov later on and not Lupin, I knew he was dead (and let's face it, as soon as I decided I like him best, we all knew he was dead), but like, that was even more lame than falling through a curtain. Plus Tonks was so spectacularly sidelined in this book, I stopped caring about her anyway. It was like as soon as she and Lupin got together, her personality disappeared. Way to go, compelling death scene.

To speak further on deaths, yeah, it was obvious they'd have to kill a Weasley, but did Fred really have to go? I mean, there's two of them, why can't you kill a unique one? I was pulling for Ron to get it, to be completely honest, just to show that Rowling had the balls to kill off one of the main three, but I guess that would have been a little too devastating. Really though, Percy came back, he could have been all redeemed and then died. Hedwig dying was pretty dumb, and seemed like a scare tactic into that whole, "anyone could be next!" thing, which was really covered much better by Mad-Eye anyway.

I don't know how I felt about the whole Dumbledore subplot. It was nice as sort of a "Harry finally realizes that even your idols are always flawed" kind of thing, but I felt like a lot of it was piled on. Same with the whole idea of the Deathly Hallows, which ended up as this elaborate mystery that needed to be rushed through. It seems kind of silly, as well, that only the characters who it would be convenient to know the story knew it, and it stunted looking for the horcruxes, which seemed to become really not a big deal by the end, what with the locket taking such an effort, and the cup and the diadem being magically easy to destroy. That whole fiendfyre thing was a huge copout.

Aside from that, there were some really unclear moments, namely that whole explanation about Draco and the Elder Wand, which really just ended up coming off as "oh shit, I need some reason why Voldemort can't be stronger than Harry...", and (again unless I'm missing something) was also completely unintelligible. The other thing I really didn't get was how Neville got his hands on Gryffindor's sword at the end, when he killed Nagini. Maybe I'll go reread all these things, just incase I really did just not get it, but none of them really made sense to me. There were other things, but I think I'm bitching too much, and they weren't as bad, so I'll move on.

Stuff I liked: Luna, Neville, and pretty much anyone from Hogwarts. They were great, and by the time they finally all met up by the pre-battle scene, the book actually got really good. I loved the radio show with Lee Jordan, because I love Lee Jordan, and, because they were just so great that I have to say it again, I loved Luna and Neville. And Luna and Neville. I liked the bit about the paintings on Luna's ceiling too, it was really sweet.

I'm not sure I have a favorite part, but if I had to choose right now without remembering half the parts I might pick, I'd say it was when Percy came back and was all, "I'm a douchebag, please take me back!" to the general Weasley population (and by that I mean Fred and Ron). I had actually completely forgotten about him and I finally remembered him like, the day before I got to that part, so it was nice to see him come back.

Snape was awesome and wonderful, and so set up to have his redemption arc that I don't even mind that it was predictable. Oh, Snape, you're the only 3-dimensional character, and you're so good at it. It makes me want to listen to the Potter Puppet Pals musical. And speaking of Slytherins, oh my god the Malfoys are so lovable. I love them. It's like, "hey, Voldemort is kind of mean... where's my son!?" Narcissa is my favorite. Which reminds me of Kreacher, who was also wonderful. The domesticity was a little silly, but his story about Regulus made me like him.

And then there was the epilogue, which sucked harder than a $5 crack whore (yeah, I made that one up just for you). Aside from the incredible stupidity of the name Albus Severus Potter, what the fuck, Ron and Hermione? Hugo? Really? Also, where are Sirius Potter and little Fred Weasley? And what the fuck, JK Rowling, because who raised Lupin's kid? It's like, "oh hey, there's Ted Lupin who comes over our house for dinner all the time and then sleeps in the shrubbery." Who does he live with, and why is Harry only now thinking about how they maybe could probably just adopt him already? I'd like to have found out about Luna, or any of the other Weasleys, and the incredibly brief mention of Neville was pretty lame. I guess it's hard to wrap things up neatly, but it just completely missed the mark of what it could have been, and provided less closure than the end of the last chapter did.

I guess that's all I have to say on the matter. I'd have thought this all out and posted it yesterday, LJ did that whole disappearing act, and mostly I'm mentioning this so everyone knows it didn't actually take me until today to finish.

what if they lose my luggage at the airport?

ffiferoo — Wed, 30 May 2007 18:16:56 GMT

So the semester ended a couple of weeks ago, and I haven't really posted an entry since about a week before that, so here's some terribly interesting things that are going on in my life right now:

- Jamaica tomorrow, until next Tuesday
- Utah/Missouri from the Tuesday after that until the following Sunday
- oh my god I need a job like, right now
- I still haven't seen Pirates, and I'm not sure that I care
- I've spent the past week and a half cleaning my room and trying to unpack, which has been much more successful than I expected
- I don't know who my roommate will be next year, and I won't know until after their freshman orientation session is over
- I just remembered that I had a dream last night where I moved in, and my new roommate was cool and she asked me if I minded that she was bi (ha, that's funny)
- there's nothing else that's interesting, especially since half of that wasn't interesting either

I don't really miss school that much. I mean, I miss hanging out with people, and I miss having things to do, because I'm bored to tears here, but I'm doing just fine without being there. I think it was the relative lackluster quality of things that defined my year. It was fine, and it could have been much worse, but it wasn't exactly what I'd hoped it would be. I'm hoping that I'll be able to make the necessary adjustments next year to make things more... good. That sounds awful, 'more good'. Less bad? It wasn't really bad, though, just not great. It may be that the amount of other people's stuff that I had to throw away while cleaning the suite, and the amount of other people's stuff I brought home is helping me to articulate how I feel about things. That's a little depressing and angsty sounding though, so don't think about that. This is probably a good time to mention that Deb, I have you copy of Velvet Goldmine, and Liz, I have that towel that I never washed for you, and your Jimi Hendrix poster. Also, if anyone wasn't around for it, we gave that copy of Field of Dreams to Airrion, who was like, "uh... okay" when we offered it to him.

And now that I've done a sufficient amount of rambling, a meme:

Icon Meme
Look at your LJ userpics list. If you have fewer than 50 icons, pickevery fifth one. If you have between fifty and seventy-five icons, pick every seventh one. If you have over seventy-five icons, pick every tenth one. If you have fewer than ten, pick all of 'em. List them on your LJ, and tell everyone exactly why you have it, why it's interesting to you, and what significance it has.

This is my default, it's Stevie Nicks, holding a tambourine and a rose. I found the full picture on the Fleetwood Mac website one day when I was looking for lyrics, and I thought it was really pretty, and it matched the colors I had just changed my layout to (which are still the same), so I cropped it into a square I liked, and it's an icon.

I made this a few weeks after I made the Stevie one, it's Kim, from cycle god knows what of America's Next Top Model. She was my favorite that season, and they did these half-lame, half-awesome pinup pictures, and hers came out really great, and so I went looking for it after the episode aired. It didn't match my layout at all, and I believe this was back when Kevin Muller was rating LJs, so I wanted my icons to match, and so I recolored it to match (it was originally a red corset and a black flower, I think, and her hair was redder.)

This photo I found in a random google search of "fashion photography". I downloaded a few from the set, but I liked this one the best. It was in all black and white originally, I just made the flowers blue and cropped it.

A photo of David Thewlis, who plays Lupin in the Harry Potter movies (as if anyone reading this wouldn't know). He's my favorite character, and I love Pink Floyd, and it all fit rather nicely together, so I made a little icon. I think I recolored the picture too, to make it that orangey-reddish color. I really like this icon, but the text is only so-so with the readability, and it doesn't match my layout, so I don't use it much.

This is the turkey that was made for the banquet scene when we did Macbeth last year. It was made from a brown paper bag, and when I saw it, I thought of the Fiona Apple song, and I thought it would be terribly clever of me to make an icon out of it. I made the icon, but I don't really use it. In fact, I think it's only use was on the entry about Macbeth. I'd get rid of it, but I still think it's funny and I don't post enough or switch icons enough to bother.

A crop of a screenshot from Project Runway. The screenshot is of a photo that Daniel Vosovic took, and then used to "inspire" his outfit that week. It's of orchids in the lobby of Michael Kors'... studio? office building? hiding place? I dunno. I liked Daniel a lot, and the colors in the picture vaguely matched my layout. I use it occasionally.

wow, so...

ffiferoo — Thu, 10 May 2007 19:53:29 GMT

Yesterday, I got hit in the face with a refrigerator. We (my roommate and I) were taking it down the stairs in the main lobby of our building on a little handtruck, and I was at the bottom of the stairs, and she was toward the top of the stairs, and then all of a sudden the fridge was in my face. You can hardly see the bruise actually, the only problematic effect is the possible blood clots I'm getting in my left hand from the bruises I got there, but aside from that, I'm miraculously fine. It's funny, because I didn't get hurt. I went over to the health center anyway, just to make sure I didn't need an x-ray or anything, and I had to fill out like, two forms just to get told to put ice on it. Fun time.

That's all. I just figured an exciting story would brighten everyone's day.

that whole "And Go!" slogan makes it seem like it's so simple

ffiferoo — Wed, 25 Apr 2007 04:31:35 GMT

I haven't updated in awhile (which I suppose is the norm now), so I figured I would, because I'm extremely bored and I don't feel like looking for dragons to kill in my newest almost-finished game of FFVI.

So anyway. It's all spring/summery now, which is nice, except that it makes me remember why I hate sweating so much. At least I've been able to go outside without dying from some sort of cold, wind or rain-related factor. Now I just have a nice, seasonal sinus infection.

I've basically spent the last five or six days on different travel websites planning out or helping to plan out my summer trips, which will be just lovely, assuming I don't die on any plane trips, and I make enough money upon returning to pay for them. That's the other thing. I'm not working at Harvey this summer like I was going to, because the dates for counselor orientation basically overlapped with both trips, and there's no point in taking a job that you won't like very much so you can fund travel if the job stops you from traveling. So hopefully when I get home, I'll be able to find some miraculously high-paying job that will start conveniently on June 18th (which should by all means be a good luck kind of day for me, being my half-birthday and all), and everything will work out. And if not, I'll probably be in B. Dalton in the mall until I die.

For now, I'm focusing at least half of my energies on finishing the school year, which is a lot more than usual, and makes me feel like I'm being all academic and whatnot. I think I'm beginning to piss off my classmates in lit though, because I can absolutely no longer stand those post-question silences that we got so used to last year, and now must actually answer the stupid questions that my professor poses. Of course, the sad fact is that half of them don't refrain from answering because the questions are too stupid to answer, but because they don't know the answer. This makes me feel elitist and inflates my ego, and I'm starting to actually not feel bad for that.

That's about it, or about as far into it as I feel like getting right now (or possibly far more than anyone will want to read into it ever). Yeah.

am I a bad person for doing all of these yet?

ffiferoo — Fri, 30 Mar 2007 16:04:39 GMT

A - Age: Nineteen
B - Best Quality: other people say it's perceptive...ness (perception?)
C - Choice Of Meat: a really good burger
D - Dream Date: pfft, me? have a date?
E - Ex (most recent): I have no exes. I'm that special.
F - Favorite Food: I'll usually go through them and pick either penne a la vodka or udon noodles
G - Greatest Accomplishment: well, I hemmed a coat the other day...
H - Happiest Day of Your Life: I don't think I can pick one out. Probably some time in the past 10 months or so
I - Internal conflicts: the usual, should I declare psych? should I apply for honors or wait until next semester? should I get a muffin or a croissant?
J - Jam or Jelly: jam
K - Kool-Aid: I really hate drinks like Kool-Aid.
L - Love: is all you need?
M - Most Valued Thing I Own: my computers, and my sewing machine
N - Name: Rachel
O - Outfit You Love: I haven't actually had the chance to wear it yet, but I got a really pretty off-white skirt recently with brown and orange flowers on it, and I want to wear it with this brown sleeveless v-neck I also got recently, and pink over-the-knee socks and brown boots.
P - Pizza Toppings: being the good Jew I am, I have to say I really like sausage on my pizza. Or white pizza, that's become a more recent thing with me.
Q - Question you want to ask: What the fuck? (and isn't that really a question for the ages?)
R - Radical thing you've done: Well, I'm such a radical person, you know. I ordered a large chai a couple of weeks ago instead of a medium. That was pretty radical for me.
S - Sport To Watch: I like watching basketball, actually. Not really sure why.
T - Television Show: Of what's on TV right now, the only things I still watch on network are Prison Break and America's Next Top Model, and the latter really is more one of those trashy guilty pleasures than anything else. Aside from that, I'll catch South Park or the Daily Show if I remember. *Not* on TV? Buffy, Angel, Firefly, Queer as Folk, etc, etc, pick one, I probably like it.
U - Unique habit: I'm not sure I have any unique habits. Quirks, yes, but habits? Not so much.
V - Very favorite Verb: I feel like this has such weight to it, that if I don't pick a good one, it'll have terrible repercussions. So instead, I'll pick the first word that came to mind. Fuck.
W - Winter: Has snow, which I like.
Y - Yesterday's best meal: I actually only had one meal yesterday, and it wasn't very good at all, so, there wasn't one.
Z - Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius on the cusp of Capricorn with a rising Libra. Really I just like saying all of that.

I think I've been posting more memes than entries lately

ffiferoo — Wed, 28 Mar 2007 02:27:52 GMT

So break is over. I realized today while half-listening in stats that there are only about two months left of school. I feel like it went way too quickly, like I should have found it tedius at some point, and I haven't. Maybe that's a good thing I can say about it. I need to start looking at classes for next semester already too, so hopefully things will work out in that department. I guess that's about it for now. Yay. Oh, and just to assert that I noticed, I really wish that the little caption in this meme didn't have a completely incoherent sentence in it. It would make it better. That's all.

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Literature Nerd Does sitting by a nice cozy fire, with a cup of hot tea/chocolate, and a book you can read for hours even when your eyes grow red and dry and you look sort of scary sitting there with your insomniac appearance? Then you fit this category perfectly! You love the power of the written word and it's eloquence; and you may like to read/write poetry or novels. You contribute to the smart people of today's society, however you can probably be overly-critical of works. It's okay. I understand.
Gamer/Computer Nerd
Artistic Nerd
Social Nerd
Anime Nerd
Musician
Drama Nerd
Science/Math Nerd
What Be Your Nerd Type? Quizzes for MySpace

I guess it's been awhile since I've done one of these

ffiferoo — Sun, 18 Mar 2007 17:34:04 GMT

1. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
sure, why not?

2. What song describes your relationship status?
And So It Goes - Billy Joel

3. How much does your dog weigh?
I don't have a dog

4. Are you a heart breaker, or the heart breakee?
I think it's actually at 1-1 now, so both

5. Ever waxed your legs?
Numerous times, yes, I wish it wasn't such a hassle, I'd do it more often

6. Earrings or necklaces?
I buy more earrings, but I wear more necklaces

7. Who have you talked to most today?
I guess my dad. I've only seen him and my mom really so far.

10. Color of your shirt?
grey

11. How many years have you taken a language?
nearly six

12. Who's the 5th person in your contact book?
on my cell phone, since I don't have an actual phonebook - Beth

13. What color is your background on your computer mainly?
white, at the moment. it's a photo of a heavily snow-laden tree in a heavily snow-laden field.

14. Do you wish on 11:11?
Not really.

15. Good advice if you ever go camping?
Don't die. And don't leave out food overnight.

16. Are you a bad influence?
I guess that depends on who I'm influencing. So, either.

17. What color are your eyes?
Blue

18. Would you rather have your name or your siblings name?
Mine, my sibling's name is Aaron.

19. Would you do anything for someone?
Is it a specific someone? Maybe

21. Favorite color?
I never really have a straight answer for this, but I've been on a chartreuse run for a good six months.

22. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
Not the actual smiley faces, just emoticons, like ^^. or XD

23. What song is on?
Hurt - Johnny Cash

24. Are your grades good?
Good enough would be my answer, though I would note that they're better than my grades in high school, so that's something, at least.

25. Do you miss anyone?
Oh yes very.

26. How often do you drink?
On average, once every couple of weeks, though it goes back and forth sometimes.

27. Does your best friend have a myspace?
I don't think so...

28. Whose page did you last visit?
Maybe Angela's? I don't really ever go to Myspace, that was probably a good three or four months ago.

29. Last time you went out to lunch?
A few weeks ago when I went into town with Liz and Deb.

30. Do you watch the Gilmore Girls?
Nah.

33. Do you have one or more Britney Spears C.D.'s?
No, I don't.

34. Which radio stations are your favorites?
I've been listening to WPDH at school, that's a pretty good station.

35. Are you a Lost fanatic?
I was, and then it started sucking. So no.

36. Still have pictures of your Ex?
I don't have any exes, unless you count... stuff that really doesn't count. If you do count that though, then yes, I actually do.

39. Do you watch Family Guy Regularly?
If I remember.

40. King of the Hill?
I actually don't know what time it's on. I probably would, if I knew. I really like King of the Hill, for some reason.

41. Do you read trashy romance novels often?
Often? No.

42. Have you ever forgotten to give a Christmas/birthday present?
Maybe not forgotten so much as temporarily postponed for memory-lapse reasons...

43. Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
Yeah, I do.

44. Do you sing obnoxiously in the shower when no one's home?
I don't think I've ever sung in the shower, it's not my thing.

45. Have you ever watched a little kid's show when you were over 12?
Can you call yourself a good person if you haven't?

46. Have you ever pretended your crush was with you when they weren't?
I don't really know how to interpret this question, but either way, yeah.

47. Did you draw pictures for your first crush back in elementary school?
Is that something people do? My first crush never knew I liked him, and I only liked him for like, a month.

49. Have you ever written a poem or story about your life?
Yeah.

50. Have you ever spent over an hour thinking about nothing?
Oh, definitely.

51. Have you ever liked someone only for their appearance?
I don't think so.

52. Do you eat all the servings in the food groups on a daily basis?
I don't think I ever have.

53. Are you ever a freak about cleanliness or organization?
Only if things are a big mess and I start feeling cluttered. Then I have to clean before I can get anything done. This is especially problematic when I have something important to do.

54. Have you ever been to South America or Africa?
No.

55. Do you know how to knit?
Poorly.

56. Do you have a cell phone or iPod with a patterned cover?
No.

57. Have you ever written love song lyrics yourself?
If there's anything I'm worse at than writing poetry, it's writing songs. No.

58. Do you keep a diary or journal online?
Well, there's the LiveJournal, and I used to have a FreeOpenDiary, but that got deleted a few years ago for inactivity.

59. When you open your closet, what is the dominant color?
I guess blue, but that's because I keep all of my jeans in my closet...

60. Baskin Robins or Coldstone?
Coldstone makes me sick. Baskin Robbins. (It *is* spelled with two b's, isn't it?)

61. Physics or chemistry?
I've never taken either one, because I'm a loser. So, physics, because it just seems more interesting.

62. Earphones or headphones?
Headphones. I can never get earphones to stay in my ears.

63. Pink or teal?
Pink.

64. Earrings or Rings?
Rings.

65. Commitment or casual dating?
I've never done much of either, technically, but commitment seems like a nice idea about now.

66. Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings or Star Wars?
Star Wars

67. Fly or road trip?
See, I'd rather do the road trip, but flying just becomes the more practical option as you get closer to doing things, and it actually seems like it'd be cheaper too, so road trip for the experience, flying for the practicality.

68. Starbucks or Caribou?
I'm gonna go with everyone else and give a big "huh?" to Caribou, so Starbucks by default.

69. What is your favorite Disney movie?
Mulan, though Aladdin is a close second.

70. How much jewelry do you own?
A lot.

Well that was fun.

So I'm at home for break and bored to tears already. My brother and his fiancee came over yesterday and brought their new Wii though, so we were playing WarioWare for a few hours. Aside from that, people who are home this week as well, we need to do stuff, because... we do. I'll pretty much be around all week, except for a few appointments with doctors and things. So call me.

braaaaaaiiins

ffiferoo — Wed, 14 Mar 2007 06:04:09 GMT

That is what I'll be saying soon if I don't get more sleep tonight than I've been getting. Because, you know, zombie. I have no idea what's causing it, but I've been having some odd bout of insomnia for the past few nights, and I haven't gotten more than four hours of sleep on average. It pretty much sucks, but I'm hoping by now I'm tired enough that I'll be able to fall asleep anyway.

I have no idea why I felt the need to make an LJ post about this topic, but you got one, so be thankful.

So I'm pretty much just posting to post this meme...

ffiferoo — Wed, 07 Mar 2007 06:32:47 GMT

I almost feel bad about it, but I haven't done this in awhile, plus this whole sentence is actual text, so it's not a terrible stain on my character.

The Everything Test

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Personality

You are more logical than emotional, more concerned about self than concerned about others, more atheist than religious, more loner than dependent, more lazy than workaholic, more traditional than rebel, more engineering mind than artistic mind, more cynical than idealist, more leader than follower, and more extroverted than introverted.

As for specific personality traits, you are adventurious (100%), intellectual (67%).

Stereotypes
College Student	75%
Punk Rock	60%
Geek	60%

Life Experience
Sex	35%
Substances	22%
Travel	15%

Politics
Your political views would best be described as Libertarian, whom you agree with around 47% of the time.

Socioeconomic
Your attitude toward life best associates you with Working Class. You make more than 0% of those who have taken this test, and 95% less than the U.S. average.

If your life was a movie, it would be rated PG-13.
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Yeah, so

ffiferoo — Sun, 04 Mar 2007 23:31:56 GMT

I have no idea why I didn't get my food wrapped up last night at the Thai place. I should have, but at the time, all I could think about was how spicy it was, even though it was completely delicious, and how I had asked for 'hot', rather than 'medium' because I assumed medium was what they gave me last time when they didn't ask and it was really, really not spicy at all and I was disappointed. Like, I want my curry to be spicy, but I don't want my nose to be running before I get halfway through the plate, that's not fun for me, I can't appreciate my food.

Anyway. Things are good. I like being able to say that they're good, and actually mean it, and they really, really are. I am doing well, and I am about as happy as I can possibly be at this time of the year with the weather what it is. My classes are going well, I'm not slacking in German as much as I was two weeks ago, and I'll only have to pay three dollars in late fees if I bring back my movies to the video store tomorrow, because god knows it ain't happening today.

And I just reminded myself, through some strange chain of thought, that I have to get that application ready for the honors program, and I have to find professors who will give me references. Maybe I will find out at my paper conference this Wednesday that Marliese Paffenroth has taken a liking to me, and she can give me a recommendation. I'm not sure how good of an idea it would be to ask my German professor, who I know the best out of all of them for one, being that I only ever really do half of the homework she assigns and I only do well on her tests if I remember to cram twenty minutes beforehand.

But whatever. I'm having an alright kind of day, though I'd really like a cup of tea right now and I can't make one, because genius me left out my hot pot during inspection week and got it confiscated. So no more hot water. They didn't even take the top, it's still sitting on the bottom shelf of my bookcase, they just took the pot and left me a little note under my sea monkey tank that they'd taken it. Fuckers. Yeah. Now, I want you to think about what you've just read through (if you've in fact gotten this far) and wonder why it is you wasted that like, two minutes reading it, because I'm certainly wondering why I wasted the time to write it.

^^; have a great day, guys

So, I don't think I actually have a muse...

ffiferoo — Tue, 20 Feb 2007 06:50:48 GMT

I'm looking for inspiration in all the wrong places, it seems. I can't write anything in here, it's just too damn dusty.

I hate laundry days here. I don't know if it's that I always time it wrong or what, but there seems to quite often be a fifteen minute discrepancy in the time I go downstairs when I think my laundry is done in the dryer to when it's actually finished. I get the sneaking suspicion, sometimes, that people take my stuff out of the dryer, put theirs in for fifteen minutes, and then put mine back in and pretend like nothing happened. There are rarely free dryers, I wouldn't be surprised.

in which I recieved a call from someone informing me that Beth had died after a massive heroin overdose, which was apparently forced on her by some of her friends at college. I remember being very upset about it, but not being able to explain it to my friends at school, because they didn't know anything had happened, and then Danielle texted me to tell me something unrelated, and I thought to myself, 'oh, that's so awful that Dani doesn't know. She should know if Beth is dead, shouldn't she? Maybe since she doesn't know, it didn't really happen.' And then some more stuff happened, and I woke up, and I fell back to sleep and had another dream that we were all hanging out, and I told Beth how I'd had a dream where she died from a heroin overdose, and we all laughed, because that's really stupid and kind of funny, when it's not the dream you're in.

So yeah. School. I feel quite settled into the semester, and I'm not sure how I feel about that. Today though, I spent two hours in the costume shop fixing things and labeling things and reinforcing things, and I put a frog closure on something that will be visible from stage and I'm very proud of myself, because this feels legitimate to me. I really like having shop hours, and I really, really hope that I'll be able to keep doing it after I'm done with the class, because it makes me feel useful, and I don't have anything else here that does that. It's nice.

That's all.

<3<3<3

ffiferoo — Mon, 05 Feb 2007 06:59:17 GMT

I freak out about everything, but I'm very lucky.

Also, today I bought pink plaid fabric, which makes me so very, very happy, I can hardly describe it in words. Though, I've just realized that I can't possibly pull off wearing my peacoat with the bag I'm going to make, because that would be even more terrible than... well, than how plaid my coat is.

I've been playing Chrono Trigger for the past few days, and I really love it. I wish I'd had it back when I played FFVI on the SNES cart, I'd have known about it so much sooner. It's probably the best game I've never gotten around to playing before.

Fuck you, iJournal

ffiferoo — Mon, 29 Jan 2007 00:41:10 GMT

I really want my LJ client to stop telling me that I need to change my password so that it has numbers in it, because it's waaaay too easy to guess. Fuck you, client, you wouldn't even know what my password is if I didn't type it in every time I write an entry :P

So classes have begun again, and I think I got much luckier this semester than I did last semester. Of course, this time last semester, I liked a lot more of my professors than I ended up liking, but for now, I'm pretty much happy with everything, except psych, because the woman is just creepy with how happy she is. Jean says it's inspirational. I'll try to think of it that way.

I've been spending a lot of time doing not a whole lot, which is nice for a while, but then gets kind of old. Yesterday though, was nice, I went to dinner and to 60 Main with some friends, and we, you know, bonded or whatever. I think out of all of the 'going out' kind of activities, just going to a restaraunt is still my favorite. It's low-stress, I get to eat something good, my feet don't hurt because we're sitting, and it's never too loud to talk. Yay.

And.... that's about it, I don't really have anything else of note to say (and that's even assuming that the other things I've said have been of note). Have a lovely evening.

oh my god, what the fuck, barbecue

ffiferoo — Sat, 20 Jan 2007 06:15:55 GMT

Next time I go home for a long break, someone needs to hit me over the head with a blunt object and remind me of just how badly I overpacked for this one. Out of everything I brought home, I probably used less than half of it, and even a lot of the things that I thought I'd absolutely need never came out of the bags I brought them home in. It sucks royally, too, because not only do I have to bring all of that back, but now I have to also manage to take my sewing machine and my bass, which I decided I'd like to have at school with me (and will actually use, unlike the shit I brought home). If anything, I wish I'd brought home some stuff that I can leave here, because I don't need it there, but it turns out that everything I brought home is something I use at school, but don't seem to use here very often, i.e., half of my clothing (since laundry gets done so much more often), most of my shoes (because for some reason I have pretty much stopped wearing all but two pairs - and yet I keep buying more), movies, books, etc, etc, and so on and so forth.

Ugh. I needed to rant about that for a minute. So now I'll get back to packing, try to make my room look like I didn't manage to trash it in a month, and resist the temptation to bring back other stuff that I may or may not use. Like Donna the Disembodied Unicorn Pinata. I want to bring her, but is there room? Find out next time, on Oh My God, I Thought I Knew How to "Travel Light".

The New Years survey

ffiferoo — Sat, 30 Dec 2006 08:25:51 GMT

a different one from last year, but I like these questions better, so oh well.

1) Was 2006 a good year for you?
I have to say it was.

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
Out of all of them? I don't really know. There were a few choice ones that I could pick out, none that I'd readily share.

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Maybe wouldn't be the least favorite, but something that was different from the other unfavorable feelings was the one I got walking back up to the office to get the box of stuff I needed to return to people after I gave back my key, feeling like I'd lost something really important that I wouldn't be able to replace. I guess that's true, but I'm over it now. It felt at the time like I wouldn't ever be.

4) Where were you when 2006 began?
I don't remember actually. Maybe at home. I think I was at home, and if not at home, in the car going home.

5) Who were you with?
no one if I was at home. My parents were probably downstairs.

6) Where will you be when 2006 ends?
At Squab's on Staten Island

7) Who will you be with when 2006 ends?
Squab, Brie, Dani, Beth, AB... and whoever else is there

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2006?
I don't remember what they were, so probably not

10) Did you fall in love in 2006?
Not quite

11) If yes, with who?
-

12) If yes, do they know?
-

13) Are you still in love with them?
-

14) Do you regret it?
-

15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2006?
no

16) Did you make any new friends in 2006?
lots

17) Who are your favorite new friends?
The ones from school I suppose. I couldn't choose specific ones.

18) What was your favorite month of 2006?
I could mull over it, but I'd have to say June. Maybe (maybe) July, but probably June.

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2006?
I don't think so actually.

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2006?
Umm.... maybe four

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2006?
not lose in the sense that they died, but I lost touch with some people I thought I'd stay in touch with

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
absolutely

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2006?
I don't know... I don't even remember what movies came out this year XD

24) What was your favorite song from 2006?
I didn't hear a lot of new music, I liked Hey There Delilah a lot though

25) What was your favorite record from 2006?
Ugh, I don't know

26) How many concerts did you see in 2006?
just one

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2006?
um... yes, the one I saw. The Killers.

28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2006?
Not a lot. More than I have in the past, but I mean, nothing that could be considered excessive.

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2006?
No.

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2006?
None.

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Oh, sure. Nothing I want to share, obviously, since I'm, you know, ashamed of it.

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2006?
"I'm just not interested anymore."

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2006?
yeah

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2006?
yeah

36) How much money did you spend in 2006?
I don't know, a lot. I spend progressively more money every year, though I suppose that's to be expected.

37) What was your proudest moment of 2006?
I don't know.

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2006?
I really can't remember much of anything.

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2006 and change something, what would it be?
I'd pick out one of my little nervous breakdowns and implant a thought in my head of me saying, "it's not a big deal, you're overreacting, just chill." and hope that it worked over and over again, thus preventing lots and lots of angst.

40) What are your plans for 2007?
1) roadtrip
2) everything else

^^.

ffiferoo — Mon, 18 Dec 2006 04:51:47 GMT

Well, so much for updating more often^^; I try, I really do.

Well, not really.

Anyway, finals are almost over, and I was actually able to work on my final paper for comp today, despite the fact that it's not actually due for another couple of days, *and* it was light outside. I think I'm growing as a person. After that, I just have German on Wednesday and then I'll be home.

Tomorrow, rather in about 10 minutes, is my birthday, so it should be a good day, or at the very least it should at least feel like a good day. I don't have anything to do tomorrow, so I can sleep in and do nothing if I want, which is nice. When everyone is back home, maybe we'll have dinner or something, if people are around like, Friday or Saturday night.

I've had a really nice weekend, went to a birthday party for two friends of mine on Friday, then spent yesterday cleaning the common room, hanging the rest of the Christmas lights, and watching lots of Queer as Folk, which, yeah, it's like Yaoi: The Next Generation. My favorite character even looks like Quatre XD Then today was working on my paper, sitting and vegging, and another little party in the evening, followed by - get this - more vegging. It's really one of my favorite things to do, whoever wrote Office Space wasn't lying.

That's about it, so... yeah

I feel like making that 'grr, argh' sound again

ffiferoo — Thu, 16 Nov 2006 07:16:45 GMT

I just took a break from George Orwell (and is there any reason why someone in their right mind should do that?) and ended up reading back entries on my LJ about as far back as last summer. This makes me way, way nostalgic, and I realized that the entry I made right before the first day of senior year was exactly how I'm feeling now. That usually doesn't happen, mind you, as normally I will look back even six months and think how different things are. (Bee tee double-yew, it'll be six months in about three weeks and things *aren't* incredibly different.)

Today I spent a good cumulative half hour trying to remove the top from my thermos, which has somehow become lodged in place, effectively barring me from a) washing it out and b) refilling it with .79 coffee. This kind of sucks major, because it means either I have to wait until I go home and try to get other people to get the top off, which means not getting coffee for about a week, or buy a new one, which means another 8 something bucks, and that I'll end up with two thermoses if I can ever get the top off of the first one. I don't know how I manage these things.

They tell me Mercury is in retrograde, which, as an excuse for all of the clumsy things I've been doing lately works almost as well as pms (and yes, I do actually become clumsy when I'm pmsing). Today, not only did I have the thermos mishap, but I also managed to knock over a bowl of Cheerios onto the common room floor *with* the Cheerio box, *and* fuck up the zipper on my grey coat, which is the one I use when it's raining, which it's been doing lately. Come to think of it, my umbrella somehow got fucked up late last week as well, so go figure.

I'm now going to go back to poor George Orwell, who I've been sorely neglecting.

ffiferoo — Wed, 15 Nov 2006 03:32:28 GMT

Zappa**** (10:13:02 PM): blah

Sometimes I laugh at the things that people say to me.

Lately, I have done a whole lot of nothing and a whole lot of watching movies, eating takeout and playing Apples to Apples. We pretty much spent the weekend gathered in the common room, watching Brokeback Mountain (didn't like it any better the second time), Pulp Fiction, Cat on a Hot Tin Roof and Thumbsucker, since no one felt like going out.

Classes have been just that, and alternately boring and good, depending on what we're doing or how I feel. I do find, however, that my modern Europe class is the best of them, or, at the very least, the one I like best. I probably won't be a history major, but I really do like the subject a lot.

Anyway, that's about it. I just felt inspired by that little bit of funny, and it's been a while since I've updated. I'm not really sure why I haven't, it's more laziness than anything else I think. Rest assured that I've been reading everyone else's entries, and I do feel as if I've kept in touch, however ridiculous that is, since I haven't. I'm very, very bad at keeping in touch.

She woke me up with a-

ffiferoo — Sat, 21 Oct 2006 05:19:21 GMT

It was time for an update.

So I'm in college. I think we knew that part, but I feel like I ought to say it again, just incase anyone has forgotten, or assumed I've fallen off the Earth since my last update. It's been a long time. I think I want to start updating this again - not really sure why I stopped in the first place.

It's been an inner-monologuing sort of week, especially the past two days, which have been trying, but really the right thing. I'm ready for a haircut, you know? Well, hopefully.

Now that I'm finished being cryptic (this is a record, only two sentences!), I think I'm about adjusted to being here, though I'm still not quite sure whether I like it or not. I think I like the idea of it, definitely, but I'm still not sure I'm in the right place. And the career thing is just not getting any clearer. Hopefully it will soon. Or at least soon enough that I can finish in four years, because I'd like that.

A week from today I'm going to be at home, and a week from tomorrow evening I'm going to be back in the auditorium. I'm glad I haven't gone back yet - this may even be too early - but I do miss people, and I'm really glad I'll be seeing them.

I think I'm going to go read something, and then play FFT until I get bored and then go to sleep, if I can slow my brain down enough for that. Weird night.