"I felt alone for a very long time, even when I was around other people."

state of the journal }{ what's to come

feltalone — Fri, 30 Dec 2011 18:08:55 GMT

I'm not sure how many of you are still here, or how many still read, but I'm doing this for both of my main paid journals, just in case.

In response to the recent release, yes, I will be moving a lot of my play to both dreamwidth and insanejournal. It's not the changes themselves, because livejournal is listening to a lot of the feedback that's coming to them and I expect them to make enough changes that I will still be able to use this site without problems. It's more that the feedback wasn't considered pre-release, especially the feedback about subject lines and the more important uses, such as charity actions and trigger warnings. At least one person was triggered and had to seek help and I'm just not comfortable with using this site as much as I once did, let alone pay for it.

Those things aside, I will still be here for those of you who aren't moving. I will be until they make changes I absolutely cannot adjust to. I do believe they are working to give back the parent option, which is my main frustration with the functionality of this current system. I could barely use it without my browser crashing when it was first released, but it seems they've fixed that now. I have a temporary custom comment page turned on until I can use the other, so tags should be coming once I'm able to wind down from the holiday hoopla.

Granted I may be adding an account or two for Lana because I don't plan to pay this one anymore, but that will come later.

TL;DR: if you're not going anywhere, neither am I, though I will also be elsewhere. More details later.

I love all of you. Thank you for an amazing few years of RP.

- L

feltalone — Sat, 10 Dec 2011 01:02:07 GMT

The Winter/Holiday Meme

feltalone — Sat, 05 Nov 2011 20:12:24 GMT

The Fairy Tale Meme

147levels :: timeline / cr tracking

feltalone — Fri, 04 Nov 2011 19:20:21 GMT

Name: Lana ~~Lang~~ Luthor
Fandom: Smallville
Canon Point: Star-crossed Metropolis verse

Starting Level: 055 - Camp Mahnahmahnah
Current Level: 055 - Camp Mahnahmahnah

TIMELINE

Level 055 - Camp Mahnahmahnah

CR CHART

Family

☥ Lex Luthor [SCM] (not present) - Lana's husband, who she is not at all faithful to. Their marriage is more of a game than anything else. However, she does have some twisted sense of loyalty to him and stands behind him in most of his endeavors.
☥ Lucas Luthor [SCM] (not present) - Lex's half-brother. They aren't terribly close, but have the occasional night of debauchery while Lex is away on business.

Friends

☥ Tess Mercer [SCM] (not present) - Lex's half-sister, though Tess is still in the dark on that fact. They have a surprisingly genuine friendship despite the fact that Lana has trouble making those kinds of connections these days. And of course she chooses to relieve that uncomfortable feeling with sexual advances, but Tess doesn't seem to mind that much.

Acquaintances

☥

Enemies

☥ Lois Lane [SCM] (not present) - The bitch who dares to touch Clark Kent, though Lana will never admit she's jealous. They are very much on opposite sides of the Superman debate.

It's Complicated

☥ Clark Kent - Lana has come to abhor aliens in general, but Clark is more complicated. All of her one night stands have resembled him somewhat, and she has yet to share his secret with her husband. She could never completely hate him; she's just very angry.
☥ Chloe Sullivan [SCM] (not present) - The one person from her old life that Lana will admit to missing.

Last Updated: Nov 4, 2011

OOC :: CONFETTI IT'S A PARADE!

feltalone — Wed, 19 Oct 2011 00:26:38 GMT

For those of you who don't know, it's my birthday. It's been really wonderful so far, and hopefully Ringer won't stomp all over my heart and ruin it. In fact, I might just wait and see it later to make sure it doesn't.

Anyway...since it is and I'm in the strangest mood of my life, I have a kind of femme meme over here. If at all interested, please reply.

Have a good October, all. :)

The Day of Memes

feltalone — Tue, 27 Sep 2011 20:44:11 GMT

how's my driving & love meme

Movie Date for likely_evil

feltalone — Sat, 20 Aug 2011 02:20:44 GMT

[After taking care of everything―doing her hair, dropping off Joey at Clark's, sending a text to Ruby to let her know she was in the clear―Lana hops in her car and drives to the Talon to meet Sam.

She checks the mirror one last time before she gets out of her car and walks in. Very fast. She's been looking forward to this all week.]

OOC; CR Gathering

feltalone — Wed, 03 Aug 2011 16:47:45 GMT

In which the mun asks for seconds.

The Almighty Verse List

feltalone — Wed, 03 Aug 2011 11:41:00 GMT

Cleaning up my verse list, which I should've been keeping up. Hopefully I got them all. :(

Mostly for my benefit.

Canon
Premise: It's canon, duh. Not likely to be much here, as Lana is no longer a part of the show.
Located: In-journal, prompt only.

Canon AU
Premise: From all the AUs within canon itself.
Canon cutoff: N/A
Located: In-journal, prompt only.

Not Canon
Premise: Not canon, but not a verse. Fun stand alone stuff.
Located: In-journal, prompt only.

Crossover
Premise: Excatly what it says: prompts that are crossed with another source.
Located: In-journal, prompt only.

Open
Premise: Randomness. Free-for-all. All verses mixed in.
Located: In-journal, just_postit, various muse boxes, and on rare occasions sixwordstories.
Counterpart: Usually assumed to be likely_evil, but that can be ignored for ships from other verses who chose to comment.

Active RP Verses

All Jacked Up
Premise: After a drunken one night stand with Dean, who looks exactly like Jason Teague, Lana becomes pregnant with a son. However, Sam and Lana start to fall in love. Crack ensues.
Canon cutoff: 7.19 Quest
Located: In-journal.
Counterpart: likely_evil
Other characters: hasperkynipples, bloodinmyear

A Short Trip To Hell
Premise: Replace Jason Teague with Dean Winchester pretending to be Jason Teague. Age Lana up a year and make her a townie. Have a better Season 4. Of course just as college starts up, Dean takes off to live the Supernatural life, until Sam jumps into Hell and Dean makes a pit stop in Smallville. (There's a lot more in this verse, this just covers Lana's part.)
Canon cutoff: The end of Season 3.
Located: shorttriptohell
Counterpart: hasperkynipples
Other characters: Other members of shorttriptohell

Bill Murray and the Ghostbusters
Premise: TBA
Canon cutoff: 8.14 Requiem
Located: theghostbusters
Counterpart: fromminnesota
Other characters: Other members of theghostbusters

Helter Skelter
Premise: A Supernatural crossover. Lana breaks up with Clark of her own free will and stays in Smallville. After what happened with Brainiac, Clark's disappearance and Chloe's arrest, so takes back her job at the Talon until she can manage to piece herself back together. There she meets Sam Winchester, who is searching for Lilith, and the two start dating. Ruby has plans of her own, and makes Lana an offer she can't refuse.
Canon cutoff: 7.19 Quest
Located: comingdown_fast
Counterparts: ilove_atallman and imnot_likeyou
Other characters: notsamskeeper

Langchester
Premise: Crossover with Supernatural. This follows Supernatural canon, with the exception that Sam and Lana are together, having fallen in love after a double date with Chloe and Dean.
Canon cutoff: 8.11 Legion
Located: In-journal, sometimes sixwordstories and just_postit.
Counterpart: likely_evil
Other characters: hasperkynipples, on occasion. Formerly reporter_chloe and winchesterjerk.

Velocity of Saul
Premise: TBA.
Canon cutoff: Technically Season 3, but her canon history is pretty solidly intact.
Located: velocityofsaul
Counterpart: veryemerson
Other characters: Other members of velocityofsaul

Warm Witch's Blood
Premise: When the Potentials of the world are activated, Lana becomes a Slayer and leaves before Clark returns from Metropolis to start her training. Years later she meets up with a hunter with what she perceives to be a demon problem, among other things. Ruby becomes much more dangerous than she bargained for when she turns her eyes toward Clark.
Canon cutoff: 2.23 Exodus
Located: warmwitchsblood
Counterpart: imnot_likeyou
Other characters: Other members of warmwitchsblood

Prompt Only Verses
(Little to no RP.)

Star-Crossed Metropolis
Premise: Lex kidnapped Lana and locked her away until she finally gave into him, not to mention went a little nuts. They married again, and now she assists him in his anti-alien agenda.
Canon cutoff: The end of Season 7.
Located: In-journal, mostly prompts.
Love interest: Lex Luthor...though Lana sleeps around a lot.
Other characters: The rest of the cast. Maybe the occasional crossover.

Last updated: October 30, 2011
Active verses: 8

Song of the Month: August

feltalone — Wed, 03 Aug 2011 10:28:18 GMT

I drift away to a place
another kind of life
take away the pain
I create my paradise
everything I've held
has hit the wall
what used to be yours
isn't yours at all

falling apart and all that I'm asking
is it a crime, am I overreacting

oh, he's under my skin
just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
another little white lie

so what you had didn't fit
among the pretty things
never fear, never fear
I now know where you've been
braids have been untied
as ribbons fall away
leave the consequence
my tears you'll taste

falling apart and all that I question
is this a dream or is this my lesson

oh, he's under my skin
just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
another little white lie

I don't believe I'll be alright
I don't believe I'll be okay
I don't believe how you've thrown me away
I do believe you didn't try
I do blame you for every lie
when I look in your eyes, I don't see mine

oh, he's under my skin
just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
another little white lie

oh my permission to sin
you might have started my reckoning
I've got a reason now to bury him alive
another little white lie

I think it's better if I don't comment on this one.

OOC: help_superrobyn

feltalone — Sat, 09 Jul 2011 17:02:33 GMT

I am offering fic, icons and a fanmix for this charity auction. Please bid if you can! help_superrobyn

feltalone — Tue, 05 Jul 2011 02:37:35 GMT

You Are Blue Fireworks

You can be a bit impatient at times. You don't like waiting for things to happen.

You are always ready to take the world by storm. You are hard charging.

You are brilliant and pioneering. You never do things the normal way... you do them your way.

You are a big ball of energy, and you're quick to act on any inspiration that enters your life.

What Color Fireworks Are You?

Blogthings: Discover the Parts of Your Personality that Have Been Hiding

au100 :: Sight

feltalone — Thu, 23 Jun 2011 05:31:38 GMT

[Not connected to any Sam anywhere. Just me feeling really good about having written a prompt, even one so short. \o/ ]

He looks at her and sees someone who loves him unconditionally, something he can barely wrap his head around given the choices he's made. He sees the pain he's put her through, the pain he warned her would come. She deserves better, and he tries to push her away, but for some reason she pushes back. She's always there, waiting for him with open arms, forgiving each and every horrible mistake he makes. It's like she doesn't even see the darkness he knows is there.

He doesn't realize she sees him more clearly than anyone ever has. Her vision isn't as clouded as an older brother who only saw the boy he had taken care of his whole life, or a demon who only saw someone destined to lead them out of the pit. She saw someone like her, someone who was so many things to those around him, though none of those things were actually him. They were both just imperfect people who just wanted to be accepted for who they were.

If Lana can be that for him, she is more than willing.

7_crossovers

feltalone — Sun, 19 Jun 2011 22:26:00 GMT

This isn't the actual table for this claim, that one is here. It's just a post to let everyone know I'm trying to get back into writing prompts and these things are probably going to be showing up here. I'm going to try to use these for warmwitchsblood, which is (so far; don't underestimate the team of feltalone and ilove_atallman) a Buffy/Smallville/Supernatural private game. We're starting actual roleplay toward the beginning of Season 8, but Lana becomes a Slayer somewhere between Season 2 and 3, so there's a lot in the way of backstory to be explored before she meets up with a really tall moron who needs to stop listening to the pretty demon before he starts an apocalypse.

Hopefully I stay on task and don't venture off into other crossovers.

7_crossovers Prompt Set #1 - Articulate
Fandom: Smallville
Claim: Lana Lang

1. Kaleidoscope

2. Agoraphobia

3. Nostalgia

4. Serendipity

5. Perdition

6. Felicity

7. Utopia

CR Meme

feltalone — Sun, 19 Jun 2011 20:08:40 GMT

CR Meme.

All The Links

feltalone — Tue, 07 Jun 2011 13:03:32 GMT

Memes:
The Love Bag Meme
The Film Noir Meme
Wedding Bells Meme

Flowers for Algernon:
In which a small town girl meets an ensouled vampire.
In which Angel attempts the wooing.

Random things:
In which Lana comforts Bobby in whatever way she can.
In which the mun steals comic storylines for a random AU.
In which Lex and Lana have an adventure in the old west via TARDIS.

two memes, one day

feltalone — Thu, 21 Apr 2011 01:43:02 GMT

Death Meme

Confessions

feltalone — Wed, 20 Apr 2011 16:56:06 GMT

IC CONFESSION MEME
~ my thread ~

ooc} Rainy Day Fics

feltalone — Sun, 27 Mar 2011 04:46:56 GMT

Bored writer seeks inspiration. Apply here.

Logging

feltalone — Sat, 19 Mar 2011 04:26:19 GMT

Langchester: In which there is an emotional reunion. Spoilers for Smallville Season 10 (barely, we live in AU Land) and Supernatural Season 6.

Little Girl Blue: In which Lana may just have a Clark-like whitelighter of her very own. Fingers totally crossed.

Five Before Flying: In which there are awkward beginnings.

[ooc] Random CR

feltalone — Tue, 08 Mar 2011 18:38:44 GMT

In which the mun just wants to play.

Last Night on Earth :: a fanmix for likely_evil

feltalone — Wed, 23 Feb 2011 11:25:40 GMT

[Made this with you and our original verse in mind, baby. I hope you enjoy it.]

Falling For You ↠ Jem

said there'd be no going back
promised myself I'd never be that sad
maybe that's why you've come along
to show me it's not always bad

I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
but I'm scared to, let go
I’m scared 'cause my heart has been hurt so

Deeper ↠ Hanson

she moves like a tender kiss
and I can't stop feeling
she soothes with her tenderness
and I can't stop feeling

~~~

every simple notion is poetry in motion
can't you see it's pushing me over the edge
this wrecking ball you're holding
could crush the heart you've stolen
I give you my devotion all over again

Let Me Fall ↠ Alexz Johnson

let me rise
let me fall
let me breathe
I wanna lose control
I'm not afraid to lose it all
let me break
let me crawl
cause I will get back up again
if you let me fall

Come On Get Higher ↠ Matt Nathanson

I miss the sound of your voice
the loudest thing in my head
and I ache to remember
all the violent, sweet, perfect words that you said

~~~

come on get higher
loosen my lips
faith and desire
and the swing of your hips
just pull me down hard
and drown me in love

Bless the Broken Road ↠ Selah

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
hoping I would find true love along the broken road
but I got lost a time or two
wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

every long lost dream lead me to where you are
others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
pointing me on my way into your loving arms
this much I know is true
that God blessed the broken road
that led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
but you just smile and take my hand
you've been there you understand
it's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

every long lost dream lead me to where you are
others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
pointing me on my way into your loving arms
this much I know is true
that God blessed the broken road
that led me straight to you

In Her Eyes ↠ Josh Groban

she stares through my shadow
she sees something more
believes there's a light in me
she is sure
and her truth makes me stronger
does she realize
I awake every morning
with her strength by my side

Last Night on Earth ↠ Delta Goodrem

it's the last night on earth before the great divide
my hands are shaking time was never on our side
and there's no such thing as a beautiful goodbye
as an ordinary day I prayed for you a thousand times

it's never enough
no matter how many times I tried to tell to tell you this is love

if tomorrow never comes I want you to know right now that I
I'm gonna love you until the day I die
if tomorrow falls asleep can you hold me first
I'm gonna love you like it's the last night on earth
like it's the last night on earth

a penny for your thoughts
a picture so it lasts
let's knock down the walls of immortality
your fingers on my skin only you can hear my fear
only you can help me heal
I see forever with you here

it's never enough
no matter how many miles stand between us this is love

if tomorrow never comes I want you to know right now that I
I'm gonna love you until the day I die
if tomorrow falls asleep can you hold me first
I'm gonna love you like it's the last night on earth

the afterglow
the horizon line
the shadows fall
will you still be mine
will you still be mine
will you still be mine I ask

if tomorrow never comes I want you to know right now that I
I'm gonna love you until the day I die
if tomorrow falls asleep can you hold me first
I'm gonna love you like it's the last night on earth

Always ↠ Peter Bradley Adams

you can break them down
with your highs and lows
but she's familiar with the sound
the sound you make, every time you go

always
always she waits for you

this holiday she's alone
she leaves the lights on the tree
and though the New Year has come
every night, they'll stay on for you to see

always
always she waits for you

you've been away too long
but she will choose to believe
and her heart is so strong
it's strong enough, if only you could see

always
always she waits for you

every day she waits
and instead you walk away

It Was You ↠ 12 Stones

It was you that showed me who I am
and taught me how to stand for what I know is real
now I'm breathing for the first time
and I'm leaving all this behind
I've become what I am because of you

I'm Already There ↠ Westlife

wish I was in your arms
lying right there beside you
but I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
and I'll gently kiss your lips
touch you with my fingertips
so turn out the light and close your eyes

I'm already there
don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
and I'll be there until the end
can you feel the love that we share
oh I'm already there

we may be a thousand miles apart
but I'll be with you wherever you are

GET THE ZIP HERE!

[xoa] info post

feltalone — Thu, 17 Feb 2011 23:06:26 GMT

Coming soon.

[meme]

feltalone — Sun, 06 Feb 2011 01:00:29 GMT

Dating Since Forever thread

Note: Also for the red version if you so choose.

feltalone — Sat, 05 Feb 2011 09:35:02 GMT

Your Dominant Personality Trait is Sensitivity

You are a warm, friendly, and considerate person. You think it's important to treat others well.

You work well in groups. You love to cooperate, and you are a true team player.

No one would ever accuse you of being selfish. You are sensitive to others' points of view.

You notice other people's moods and take them into account. You try to make sure everyone is happy.

What's Your Dominant Personality Trait?

Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity