phew

xanga's back. huzzah. made a few minor phrasing tweaks in my new post but no-one's seen it yet. which is good because it now reads easier and is closer to what's in my head. anyway.

i got stoned the other day, first time ever, after much nagging from all my stoner friends. it was the biggest waste of other peoples' money ever. i didn't feel any different at all except for a bit of dizziness when we were at the bong and a slight lightness in my chest. physically yes... but feelings no stronger than being dizzy while mildly infatuated. mentally, i was exactly the same. it didn't affect my thought processes at all. but i made a damn fine metaphor to explain music and no-one listened to me because they just disregarded me as wasted. i wasn't!!! i remember it now and i still think it's deadly!! i wonder if that's how kate feels a lot of the time...? not being listened to i mean. only not on grounds of being off her face. on grounds of being far too smart or different for her own good. which is just silly.
i won't get stoned again. it wasn't a bad experience, but it just didn't do anything. sure, i was really mellow and relaxed.... but i'm always like that!! i might have been under the influence, but...if you don't even notice, then there's no point. especially when hash is expensive and when it fucks you up... what's the big deal guys? why do you smoke the stuff when it doesn't *do* anything except make you slightly dizzy for a minute?

out of yer bleedin' minds the lot o' ye...

ooh and i read the new harry potter book yesterday and today. thought it was pretty good. noticed a peculiar resemblance between myself and voldemort, the emotional independance mainly. see ye.