Kyle joins a new band.
I'm not confident it'll get off the ground, to be honest. But if it doesn't, it won't be fault. That much I'm sure of.
We're doing jazz, arranged for our ensemble (what it is, is not quite certain, though...), we're playing Yes, a bit of Vai and Dream Theater, Iron & Wine if I have anything to say about it - it'll share more with classical music than with rock music, a bit like Frank Zappa. I look forward to it. By God, it'll push me.
But it'll be fierce hard.
On an unrelated note, I was yesterday seriously humbled. I know I've got a long way to go before I can be what I consider what I should be - I need to be smarter, wiser, more musically competent, more introspective, etc. - but it didn't bother me, because I knew I was further along my path than most people, and that, given that I'm only eighteen, I was doing very well indeed. So yesterday I saw what I think is what I should be - in a person who was a peer - 16 or 17, I think. It is what seemed to me to be perfection - he's where I should be, years down the line, *now*. He has the immense respect of MAF, who is 24 and hugely intelligent. Left me feeling sort of empty inside, like I've failed myself. I should've been making myself a better person - making myself perfect - when I was in secondary school, playing bad guitar and thinking it was good. BAH.
However, I'm over it now. I was all emotional, y'see, because I was ridiculously tired. I'm back to my old self. I'll see if I can be who I want to be when I'm 25, and then, then I'll be so damn happy (that's where I want to be, I suppose) that the sun will shine out my ears.
And I want to be a lecturer when I'm still in my twenties. A PhD at 21, a teacher at 20, a professor before I'm 40, a great composer by the time I'm 70. Much more fun than clerical work.
We're doing jazz, arranged for our ensemble (what it is, is not quite certain, though...), we're playing Yes, a bit of Vai and Dream Theater, Iron & Wine if I have anything to say about it - it'll share more with classical music than with rock music, a bit like Frank Zappa. I look forward to it. By God, it'll push me.
But it'll be fierce hard.
On an unrelated note, I was yesterday seriously humbled. I know I've got a long way to go before I can be what I consider what I should be - I need to be smarter, wiser, more musically competent, more introspective, etc. - but it didn't bother me, because I knew I was further along my path than most people, and that, given that I'm only eighteen, I was doing very well indeed. So yesterday I saw what I think is what I should be - in a person who was a peer - 16 or 17, I think. It is what seemed to me to be perfection - he's where I should be, years down the line, *now*. He has the immense respect of MAF, who is 24 and hugely intelligent. Left me feeling sort of empty inside, like I've failed myself. I should've been making myself a better person - making myself perfect - when I was in secondary school, playing bad guitar and thinking it was good. BAH.
However, I'm over it now. I was all emotional, y'see, because I was ridiculously tired. I'm back to my old self. I'll see if I can be who I want to be when I'm 25, and then, then I'll be so damn happy (that's where I want to be, I suppose) that the sun will shine out my ears.
And I want to be a lecturer when I'm still in my twenties. A PhD at 21, a teacher at 20, a professor before I'm 40, a great composer by the time I'm 70. Much more fun than clerical work.