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Listens: something by Gaelic Storm

Dance like the devil, lads!

Mrah! Finally updating again. God I suck. I got to talk to Murray before she left, though, so that makes me happy! YAY!

Arrrrrrrrrr... taking a break from my productiveness. As usual, waited till the last bloody minute to work on my 15 page research paper. But, as I predicted, it is FLYING. I've really only been working about 2 hours total and I'm halfway down page 5, and my font is size 10, because I want to cram as much information into this thing as I possibly can. It really is frustrating me, because I don't feel like I'm doing this beautiful religion justice in my teeny little paper... I have to pick and choose at the bits of information and I want to leave plenty of room to talk about the lwa..... not to mention the fact that I hate citing things. I hates taking notes, precious, I just like to read and ASSIMILATE. Unfortunately that doesn't make for great researching purposes when it comes to typing things out. MREH!

What's more, the Mambo (her name is Racine) that I emailed finally responded. I'm so happy! I mentioned in my letter that I'm planning a trip to New Orleans this summer, and she informed me that she is going to be in New Orleans NEXT MONTH to perform a ritual "head-washing" ceremony (the proper name of which escapes me at the moment). She wants me to participate. I can't tell you how flattered and excited I am. By the way, by head-washing, I don't just mean she's going to pour water on my head or something; it has to do with cleansing the mind and concsciousness in order to be in better contact with the lwa. It's going to be terribly difficult for me to re-arrange my plans so that I can make it (she'll be there on June 24th) but, oh, oh, oh, I want to go SO BADLY. I swear, I'll do whatever it takes to be there.

The only time I feel passionately about religion is when I'm listening to religious music on my own, and I don't remember the last time I went to Church. This would mean SO MUCH TO ME. I'm going to have to talk to my parents, it's not like I can just up and leave for Nawlins without telling them (for one thing they'd kind of NOTICE). It's going to be hard because I have very little money as it is, and the trip itself would be kind of costly just getting there, and the ceremony is going to cost $350. ;_; I'll talk to my dad first. Please, please, I want to go to this. *crosses fingers* She's from Haiti, by the way, so it's not like I'm going to get another chance to do something like this for ages, if ever again! ARGH!

I'm doing it. I don't care how. Come hell or high water.

(Edited to add~)
By the way, upon re-reading this entry, I realize it sounds like I might be falling for a sham. Towards this purpose, here is the webpage that I heard about Mambo Racine on: http://members.aol.com/racine125/index1.html
What's more, EVERYTHING on that page coincides with the other information I have come across in my research. Obviously, there's still a chance that she is a sham, but it seems rather unlikely to me. Of course, the last thing I want to do is blow a wad of cash on a fake Mambo, but.... well, there you go. We'll see.

(Edited to add AGAIN~)
HERE is the webpage Mambo Racine gave me that describes the ceremony she is going to perform.
http://www.rootswithoutend.com/lavetet.html
Just so everyone doesn't think I'm the world's most gullible Neko-chan.