Oh, for pity's sake....
Arrgh. There is one serious downside to being the mothering, nurturing type.... okay several downsides, the first of which is that it tends to cause a lack of sleep. But the one that comes to mind is that sometimes, no matter how hard you try, or how much you want to, you just can't make it better.
Yesterday, after I came back from my last class, I putzed around online for a bit, then took a shower. I came back to discover my close friend Josh had just broken up with his girlfriend. He had to go to martial arts, so I studied for my shitty math midterm that I have to take today until he came to pick me up. Derf...
We watched Charlie's Angels, and that was mostly OK, and then we tried to watch the Nightmare Before Christmas, and that wasn't Ok. (smooth kathryn. let's pick the movie with the depressing scary motifs and the morbid songs on the night yer friend and his girl broke up. Grrreeeeat.) So, he was falling asleep on the couch and decided to check his email. Aw, damn.
Okay, so Josh and I have been really close lately. We get along really well, and neither of us has that many people in Columbus to hang out with, so we've spent a lot of time together recently. BUT. We are Just. Friends. Nothing more. But apparently poor Erin, in her totally understandable distress, is blaming me for this.
Now, see, I have really odd feelings about this. I would totally be comforting Erin AND Josh if Erin would let me, but I don't know her that well, and she almost certainly doesn't want to speak to me at the moment. So, that's OK. And, while it upset me at first that she would think such a thing about me, because it's completely unfounded, I realize that people do very irrational things when they are really upset, like she is now. And you know what? If it makes her feel better, she can blame me for getting a bad grade on her test, for anything she wants. It doesn't bother me at all. And this isn't a rant about Erin, this isn't me saying "Yeah yeah I don't care about you or what you say" it's me saying, let Erin do whatever she needs to work through this. Because I know, *she* knows, and anyone who knows me knows that any comments like that are totally unfounded.
I just hope they feel better. God, relationships suck sometimes.... I'm not even IN this one and it sucks...
But, I need to go study now, or at least nap or something before my colossal test in 4 hours. Shitty. Maybe I'll take a nap and then study till I have to leave. I don't know.... I'll figure something out.
I just hope Josh does.
Yesterday, after I came back from my last class, I putzed around online for a bit, then took a shower. I came back to discover my close friend Josh had just broken up with his girlfriend. He had to go to martial arts, so I studied for my shitty math midterm that I have to take today until he came to pick me up. Derf...
We watched Charlie's Angels, and that was mostly OK, and then we tried to watch the Nightmare Before Christmas, and that wasn't Ok. (smooth kathryn. let's pick the movie with the depressing scary motifs and the morbid songs on the night yer friend and his girl broke up. Grrreeeeat.) So, he was falling asleep on the couch and decided to check his email. Aw, damn.
Okay, so Josh and I have been really close lately. We get along really well, and neither of us has that many people in Columbus to hang out with, so we've spent a lot of time together recently. BUT. We are Just. Friends. Nothing more. But apparently poor Erin, in her totally understandable distress, is blaming me for this.
Now, see, I have really odd feelings about this. I would totally be comforting Erin AND Josh if Erin would let me, but I don't know her that well, and she almost certainly doesn't want to speak to me at the moment. So, that's OK. And, while it upset me at first that she would think such a thing about me, because it's completely unfounded, I realize that people do very irrational things when they are really upset, like she is now. And you know what? If it makes her feel better, she can blame me for getting a bad grade on her test, for anything she wants. It doesn't bother me at all. And this isn't a rant about Erin, this isn't me saying "Yeah yeah I don't care about you or what you say" it's me saying, let Erin do whatever she needs to work through this. Because I know, *she* knows, and anyone who knows me knows that any comments like that are totally unfounded.
I just hope they feel better. God, relationships suck sometimes.... I'm not even IN this one and it sucks...
But, I need to go study now, or at least nap or something before my colossal test in 4 hours. Shitty. Maybe I'll take a nap and then study till I have to leave. I don't know.... I'll figure something out.
I just hope Josh does.