I want to go home.
I miss my family and I miss my friends. I miss my mom making my favorite food JUST for me when I get home from a really fuckin' long day at work, and I miss the fucking microwave so I can make food when I WANT To instead of having to plan half a freaking hour ahead, and most of the food I don't much like here ANYWAY but I never get to the grocery store because I'm usually at work when they go, or they go REALLY early in the morning, and most of my food is hard to make without a microwave anyway. *Wails* I think I've lost like five pounds from just...going hungry when I would've normally had a snack because I HAVE NOTHING TO SNACK ON. (And celery sticks get old. I can only eat them so many nights in a row. I want cheese and chips, god damn it.)
I miss playing video games for my mother and I miss randomly taking my younger brother out for ice cream, because he'll ALWAYS indulge his big sister since she's usually the one paying. I miss my car, and I miss driving down backasswards country roads blasting my favorite songs in my car radio with my best friends. I miss all my favorite places to drive TO, like Leia's house and Jo's house and David's house and Amy's house and Traci's house. And I miss Nicole. I haven't seen Nicole for two freaking months because she left for DC before I even left for Washington state.
I miss my dogs, and I miss my room. I miss my stupid dogs waking me up at the buttcrack of dawn because they're freaking out over some squirrell out the front window. HI, PUPPIES, BECAUSE THERE AREN'T TELL MILLION OTHER SQUIRRELS IN THE WORLD SHUT UP SO I CAN SLEEP KTHNXBAI.
GOD Do I ever miss Jo and Leia. I'll get to see Jo and Traci and most other people when I come home in September (if I haven't caved and come home before then) but I feel SO FUCKING CHEATED at not getting to see Leia. If I think too hard about it, I think I'm gonna cry. Cuz by the time I get home, She'll be gone to San Francisco and the way things are shaping up right now I won't get to go see her down there and IT'S NOT FAIR. I MISS MY LEIA. AND I WANT TO SEE HER. And I don't GET to because I'm in freaking Washington and she might not even come home next summer.
I miss Columbus, I miss all the fun music I'm missing out here in Washington, I miss my dad, I miss EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE. I miss fucking Chipotle. I miss eating when I want to and a real bed and a big room and being able to use my cell phone without running up a huge bill and notebook RPing on the bed while Adam Cord plays on the CD player and okay, I'm gonna go now, because this was intended to be a rant, not to reduce me to tears.
Bye.
ETA: Okay, am done bawling like a baby now and feel better for it, so look under the cut to see the other side of the issue.
First of all, I really AM having a good time (despite how I miss stuff like, y'know, a TV SO I CAN WATCH A FREAKIN' MOVIE and a MICROWAVE *cough*), but if it weren't for two things, I'd say fuck it and come home tomorrow.
one, my job. It's a god damn GOOD job. Over here in washington, I get paid $7.13 an hour to waitress. In Ohio, it's $2.13. Yeah. Suckage. Also, it's pricey restaurant---I came home with $110 in tips yesterday, and that was AFTER I had bought food there and tipped 2 bussers and 2 bartenders. And I'm getting pretty much 40 hours a week, so I am making a SHITTON of money. And I do need it. And if I came home right now, my chances of finding a job at all, much less a job that pays as well as this one does, are slim to nigh impossible.
Plus, my job needs ME. It's not a chain, that has lots of employees to cover shifts. If I leave, they are seriously SCREWED, because it's our biggest time of the year and they only have, like, 12 waiters. There's a reason I'm scheduled so many hours, and it's because I'm a good waitress and my boss is really depending on me.
Second, sailing lessons. You guys....have no idea how much I love sailing. It's one of the most wonderful things I've ever experienced. I have two more sailing lessons this week, then five more spread out over the next two weeks, till August 27th. And I would feel bad FOREVER if I missed out on them, cuz I'm not sure I'm coming back to washington next summer. So. Yeah.
What I need to do is see Leia. No offense, anyone, but you will all still be there when I get home (unless there's something you'd like to tell me?!) but Leia and David won't be. And I will go out of my HEAD. So....looks like I'm going to San Francisco after all. Or something.
Now I go eat.
I miss my family and I miss my friends. I miss my mom making my favorite food JUST for me when I get home from a really fuckin' long day at work, and I miss the fucking microwave so I can make food when I WANT To instead of having to plan half a freaking hour ahead, and most of the food I don't much like here ANYWAY but I never get to the grocery store because I'm usually at work when they go, or they go REALLY early in the morning, and most of my food is hard to make without a microwave anyway. *Wails* I think I've lost like five pounds from just...going hungry when I would've normally had a snack because I HAVE NOTHING TO SNACK ON. (And celery sticks get old. I can only eat them so many nights in a row. I want cheese and chips, god damn it.)
I miss playing video games for my mother and I miss randomly taking my younger brother out for ice cream, because he'll ALWAYS indulge his big sister since she's usually the one paying. I miss my car, and I miss driving down backasswards country roads blasting my favorite songs in my car radio with my best friends. I miss all my favorite places to drive TO, like Leia's house and Jo's house and David's house and Amy's house and Traci's house. And I miss Nicole. I haven't seen Nicole for two freaking months because she left for DC before I even left for Washington state.
I miss my dogs, and I miss my room. I miss my stupid dogs waking me up at the buttcrack of dawn because they're freaking out over some squirrell out the front window. HI, PUPPIES, BECAUSE THERE AREN'T TELL MILLION OTHER SQUIRRELS IN THE WORLD SHUT UP SO I CAN SLEEP KTHNXBAI.
GOD Do I ever miss Jo and Leia. I'll get to see Jo and Traci and most other people when I come home in September (if I haven't caved and come home before then) but I feel SO FUCKING CHEATED at not getting to see Leia. If I think too hard about it, I think I'm gonna cry. Cuz by the time I get home, She'll be gone to San Francisco and the way things are shaping up right now I won't get to go see her down there and IT'S NOT FAIR. I MISS MY LEIA. AND I WANT TO SEE HER. And I don't GET to because I'm in freaking Washington and she might not even come home next summer.
I miss Columbus, I miss all the fun music I'm missing out here in Washington, I miss my dad, I miss EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE. I miss fucking Chipotle. I miss eating when I want to and a real bed and a big room and being able to use my cell phone without running up a huge bill and notebook RPing on the bed while Adam Cord plays on the CD player and okay, I'm gonna go now, because this was intended to be a rant, not to reduce me to tears.
Bye.
ETA: Okay, am done bawling like a baby now and feel better for it, so look under the cut to see the other side of the issue.
First of all, I really AM having a good time (despite how I miss stuff like, y'know, a TV SO I CAN WATCH A FREAKIN' MOVIE and a MICROWAVE *cough*), but if it weren't for two things, I'd say fuck it and come home tomorrow.
one, my job. It's a god damn GOOD job. Over here in washington, I get paid $7.13 an hour to waitress. In Ohio, it's $2.13. Yeah. Suckage. Also, it's pricey restaurant---I came home with $110 in tips yesterday, and that was AFTER I had bought food there and tipped 2 bussers and 2 bartenders. And I'm getting pretty much 40 hours a week, so I am making a SHITTON of money. And I do need it. And if I came home right now, my chances of finding a job at all, much less a job that pays as well as this one does, are slim to nigh impossible.
Plus, my job needs ME. It's not a chain, that has lots of employees to cover shifts. If I leave, they are seriously SCREWED, because it's our biggest time of the year and they only have, like, 12 waiters. There's a reason I'm scheduled so many hours, and it's because I'm a good waitress and my boss is really depending on me.
Second, sailing lessons. You guys....have no idea how much I love sailing. It's one of the most wonderful things I've ever experienced. I have two more sailing lessons this week, then five more spread out over the next two weeks, till August 27th. And I would feel bad FOREVER if I missed out on them, cuz I'm not sure I'm coming back to washington next summer. So. Yeah.
What I need to do is see Leia. No offense, anyone, but you will all still be there when I get home (unless there's something you'd like to tell me?!) but Leia and David won't be. And I will go out of my HEAD. So....looks like I'm going to San Francisco after all. Or something.
Now I go eat.