a quiz result and some bitching

You're a Vampire. Vampires were the creatures of
the night that were believed to live off of
human blood. Count Dracula, being the most
famous vampire, set the stereotype. They had
dark hair and pale skin from being away from
the sunlight. If they actually existed, it's
very possible they had the skin disease that
made you allergic to the sun so whenever the
sunlight would hit it, it would hurt like
crazy. They were usually snobbish and control
freaks and kept werewolves as pets. (If you
cannot see the picture, go to my userpage and
look near the bottom. There should be the
picture and description for all the results)


What Mystical Creature Are You? (Pictures)
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Heh, people have always seen me as a vampire for some reason. Guess this just proves it. :D

I don't know what's wrong w/ me lately. It's like no matter what happens, I just don't care anymore. I'm actually happy, life is starting to get a lot better, but I'm still meh, whatever. I mean hell, Paco and Nicole broke up, and while I should be jumping for joy, it's like, ok...I mean, duh I'm happy they're not together anymore, but them breaking up isn't gonna solve all my/our problems. I think Paco's getting frustrated cuz he expects me to be all happy and lovey dovey and the way I used to be back when we were going out and I can't do it. For some reason I was more lovey dovey-ish when they were going out. I guess one of the reasons I'm not all yay about them breaking up is cuz I know I wasn't the main reason. He says I was, but the main main reason is cuz her ex was giving Paco probs and that's why he broke up w/ her. I asked him if he told Nicole that I was a factor in the breakup and he was like, "No. Besides, a breakup's a breakup." Oh no it's not. IDK, maybe I'm going into self-preservation mode. All I know right now is that a relationship's the last thing I need. I want to be in one eventually, and I want it to be with Paco, but as of now I couldn't take it. I love him, but I'm not ready and I'd be way too much trouble for anyone to date right now. Right now I just want people I can talk to and chill with and be happy with. Today I was walking around like gloomy bitch from severe lack of sleep and caring. I wasn't depressed or thinking too much, hell, the exact opposite actually. That's another thing, Paco kept asking me what was wrong and I kept telling him nothing, cuz seriously, there really is nothing actually wrong w/ me. I just don't care at the moment. Maybe it's just one of those weird phases I get into sometimes. That happens to me now and then where I just don't care about anyone or anything. God, self-preservation mode's kicking in and I don't like being like this. This is the old me who put up all those walls and shut out everyone cuz I was afraid of getting hurt. And shit, the one time I let those walls down, I get hurt so fucking bad it's unbelievable. I honestly think the reason I'm being so blase right now is cuz I'm just fucking tired of getting hurt. I need a hell of a lot of time to try and work stuff out for myself. Paco sez he'll give me all the time I need and that he'll wait for as long as it takes, but will he? He seems to think that everything can go back to the way it once was and it can't. Everything's different now. All I know is that I'm just not gonna think about it anymore, I'm not gonna try and do anything, I'm just gonna sit back and let this shit ride. See where it goes and what happens.