This really shouldn't come as a surprise, but I've realized something.
Suspecting you've got some illness is totally different than knowing you have an illness.
Knowing you have an illness means you're suddenly dealing with emotions you didn't realize you were going to have.
I'm feeling pretty mixed up. yeah, feels good to get a diagnosis. And, really, its not changing anything - Im as sick today, as I was sick yesterday or last week - or last year. but now I got a name to it, its like a while new ball game.