Grumble

I'm not sure what's going on in my head right now. It's weird. I should know what goes on in my head, it is attached to me, but I don't. The only major thing in my head right now is one question. It's not even a huge life altering question either. What is jealousy good for? A very deep person told me a few minutes ago that jealousy is to make you realise how much you care for a person, even if you never show or tell them. I think she's right. 10 points for Dr. K.
I guess I'm having a hard time dealing with everyhing, u know? My g/f is chatting via msn to another girl whom I know...It seems like such a small world sometimes, doesn't it? That's not what I'm having problems with though, lol.
My problems mainly lie within myself. I guess my insecurities are eeating me alive. Who's she talking to? Who's that? I'm so over protective I guess. It's driving me mad. Then there's the appearance worries, which we're not going into today. I just obsess over little small things, like what a person said 4 days ago or something.
Any how. I stumbled over a person's journal today. completely innocent, by the way. It's not like I'm seeking revenge because she's done nothing wrong. Anyway, it's just this chica who my g/f knows...like I said before, remember the jealousy?? Just a hi to Ani; the girl I've never me. If you ever read this, Ani, I think your journal is cool.
God. sometimes I sound so neurotic.
It's amazing I can write so much considering I have writers' block. It's amazing I haven't gone insane...insaner. Oh well.
End thoughts.