*huggles teddy*

*shrugs*

I don't really have much to say today...Save for the fact that I feel sort of torn between my two selves....Sadly enough, neither of them are able to get out properly and join the real world.

There's appropriate, "normal" (and occasionally well-dressed, lol) me who's around sometimes....Cocky, smart, confident....Striding around...Lol, when I walked into TAFE today, that's how I felt...10 foot tall and bullet proof, lol. Man, it's amazing how new clothes can make a person feel....All that delicious black *purs* Totally should have been packing, lol.

And then there's little boi me...I wish that side could come out more....I dunno. I guess there just needs to be the right people (like-minded people, maybe?)....I wish I could find the right D/s relationship :-(....I'm a good little boi, for true!! Lol, I'm quiet (sometimes), neat (sometimes), good (always *smiles angelically*)....I like making pictures and playing with toys....Especially Lego :-D lol.

Meh. I feel a little out of place....Blah. Grown-ups are so boring....I wish I could have been little forever....

Or alternatively, cubbing out would be cool too. I haven't had that opportunity for a long time *pouts*. Let out the playful wolfie cub in me....Grah!!! Once I get that idea in my head, it starts eating away at me.....I wish there was some sort of place to go for people to "play"....I guess similar to a Munch, but for anthros or Daddy/boi....

Geez, lol...I've never really written it as "Daddy/boi" before....It sounds so sinister...Especially when you change the pronouns and what not...I like a nice butch Daddy, as opposed to one of the male species....I don't want it to be sleazy. It's not meant to be, anyhow....It's a non-sexual thing....I dunno.

Lol...I'm totally rambling to myself...Thus begins the descent into madness...OK, so not really, lol. I just wish that there were people I could talk to that aren't as judgemental as others....People who actually do understand, as opposed to those who don't understand, but pretend to...Then talk about you behind your back. I wish I was a simple character....Lol, for once in my life, I'd almost rather be that traditional butch dyke or something.....At least that way people would know where I stood sexually and all of that b/s.

Lol, Charlit, how funny was it when I got cut about that furry thing last night....I just realised how....Upset I was about it....Innit sad? *yiff*