*sughs* Life sux nuts...
I feel so stupid right now it's not even funny.
I'm tired of being dicked around by women. I just want someone who's sure that they want me. PFFT!!!!
In case you haven't gotten the gist already, Charlie fucked me off this morning...She rang me and basically told me she couldn't do it (get involved with me) and all that for whatever her shitty ass reasons were. She could have told me a little earlier. God...Am I that unattractive?
Any how, that's not why I feel like a moron. That just pisses me off. The reason I feel so stupid is because I think I may have hurt someone else in this whole thing...If she's reading this (and she'll know it's her 'cos I sent her an email, lol) I just want to let you know that if I did hurt you, Hun, I am so fucking sorry. I mean, I don't know how you feel about me (especially after me fobbing you off like that), but I do like you and I do want to remain in contact with you and get to know you better. I want to get your next letter too xox. You're a great girl and I really hope that if I did hurt you that you can forgive me. I feel like such an ass. And then again, I could be overreacting and making a mountain out of a molehill. But if you read previous entries, you'll see that I should have ignored her and gone with the one I do care about and know more. Also, if you're not interested in me, let me know and I'll leave off, 'cos I know that I did a shitty thing and it was really unfair of me to do what I did xox.
So yeah. Life sucks the big one right now, I swear.
Man, this is the third time in six months that this has happened to me...Red, Charlotte and Charlie....I hope it doesn't happen again. I'm sick of this. I just wanna be loved, lol, I mean, tragically enough, I'm in love with love. I'm the queer Carrie Bradshaw....Like her, I guess I look for love in all the wrong places....On trains, at school.....Bah.
On another note...That is a note that's not about me, lol....One of my mates got a phone call from a girl who goes to TAFE with us saying "I know that you really need money right now, do you want $150?", I mean, my mate is living in a fucking hostel and she's mad broke, so she said "yeah, you offering me money? I can't pay it back right now though", and this girl's gone to her and said "No, but I know someone who is, would you sleep with him for $150?".......I mean, what the fuck??!! Who the hell tries to sell their mate out to a fucking 30 year old guy?? That's fucking sick....It wouldn't be so bad if she was kidding, but she was dead straight about it.
What else? Urm...Didn't go to either of my two classes today. I just couldn't have been fucked. But on the flipside, lol, one of my mates, Shane, wore his flanno shirt (I got one yesterday) and I wore mine, so we became flanno mates, lol. We're so Seattle circa 1991, lol. Sad. Very grunge. Man, we're gonna wear them again tomorrow and recruit more people for our group, lol.....
Lol, the same guy went to a 7/11 this morning and bought me a slurpee to cheer me up and bought a little pack of No-Doz awakeners....He made about four trips back to the 7/11 today to get more No-Doz. I mean for fuck's sake, lol, caffeine pills!!! Lol, so fucking funny. I told him that if I see a pack of them at a chemist or whatever, I'd get them for him. Lol, tsk-tsk, promoting drug use. Shame on me.
OMG, lol, again with Shane (oi, lol, that rhymes!) we were in the elevator today and it was mad packed with people so I asked him "Oi, dude, did you go to the doctor's yet?" and he went on about how he did go, and he's got some cream for this spreading rashe he's got and how some girl gave him crabs, rofl....Funniest, most purile shit out, but geez....Lol, you should have seen the looks on people's faces. Pricelss.
I'm not in too bad a mood, surprisingly enough, lol. I just hope I didn't hurt my friend, she's gorgeous and funny and smart and all of that....
_interrupted_1 you gotta email me or comment or something, ok?
I think I'm gonna go home and watch season two and the first half of season three of the L word...I scored them off my aunty yesterday!!! Ciao kids xoxoxoxoxoxox
I'm tired of being dicked around by women. I just want someone who's sure that they want me. PFFT!!!!
In case you haven't gotten the gist already, Charlie fucked me off this morning...She rang me and basically told me she couldn't do it (get involved with me) and all that for whatever her shitty ass reasons were. She could have told me a little earlier. God...Am I that unattractive?
Any how, that's not why I feel like a moron. That just pisses me off. The reason I feel so stupid is because I think I may have hurt someone else in this whole thing...If she's reading this (and she'll know it's her 'cos I sent her an email, lol) I just want to let you know that if I did hurt you, Hun, I am so fucking sorry. I mean, I don't know how you feel about me (especially after me fobbing you off like that), but I do like you and I do want to remain in contact with you and get to know you better. I want to get your next letter too xox. You're a great girl and I really hope that if I did hurt you that you can forgive me. I feel like such an ass. And then again, I could be overreacting and making a mountain out of a molehill. But if you read previous entries, you'll see that I should have ignored her and gone with the one I do care about and know more. Also, if you're not interested in me, let me know and I'll leave off, 'cos I know that I did a shitty thing and it was really unfair of me to do what I did xox.
So yeah. Life sucks the big one right now, I swear.
Man, this is the third time in six months that this has happened to me...Red, Charlotte and Charlie....I hope it doesn't happen again. I'm sick of this. I just wanna be loved, lol, I mean, tragically enough, I'm in love with love. I'm the queer Carrie Bradshaw....Like her, I guess I look for love in all the wrong places....On trains, at school.....Bah.
On another note...That is a note that's not about me, lol....One of my mates got a phone call from a girl who goes to TAFE with us saying "I know that you really need money right now, do you want $150?", I mean, my mate is living in a fucking hostel and she's mad broke, so she said "yeah, you offering me money? I can't pay it back right now though", and this girl's gone to her and said "No, but I know someone who is, would you sleep with him for $150?".......I mean, what the fuck??!! Who the hell tries to sell their mate out to a fucking 30 year old guy?? That's fucking sick....It wouldn't be so bad if she was kidding, but she was dead straight about it.
What else? Urm...Didn't go to either of my two classes today. I just couldn't have been fucked. But on the flipside, lol, one of my mates, Shane, wore his flanno shirt (I got one yesterday) and I wore mine, so we became flanno mates, lol. We're so Seattle circa 1991, lol. Sad. Very grunge. Man, we're gonna wear them again tomorrow and recruit more people for our group, lol.....
Lol, the same guy went to a 7/11 this morning and bought me a slurpee to cheer me up and bought a little pack of No-Doz awakeners....He made about four trips back to the 7/11 today to get more No-Doz. I mean for fuck's sake, lol, caffeine pills!!! Lol, so fucking funny. I told him that if I see a pack of them at a chemist or whatever, I'd get them for him. Lol, tsk-tsk, promoting drug use. Shame on me.
OMG, lol, again with Shane (oi, lol, that rhymes!) we were in the elevator today and it was mad packed with people so I asked him "Oi, dude, did you go to the doctor's yet?" and he went on about how he did go, and he's got some cream for this spreading rashe he's got and how some girl gave him crabs, rofl....Funniest, most purile shit out, but geez....Lol, you should have seen the looks on people's faces. Pricelss.
I'm not in too bad a mood, surprisingly enough, lol. I just hope I didn't hurt my friend, she's gorgeous and funny and smart and all of that....
_interrupted_1 you gotta email me or comment or something, ok?I think I'm gonna go home and watch season two and the first half of season three of the L word...I scored them off my aunty yesterday!!! Ciao kids xoxoxoxoxoxox