fuck the world...I'm venting. don't mind me....
What do you want me to say? That I'm happy? That I love being treated this way? Well, buddy, here's news for you....I'm so fucking sick of it, it's no longer amuing, let alone funny.
I can't do what I want or act the way I want because they won't let me. It seems like everything I do impacts in some way on some other person that for some reason, I'm supposed to give a shit about...I don't fucking care if I make life hard for people....What about when they made life hard for me? I'm supposed to be making the most and the best of my life right now, but I can't because no matter where I turn, someone, somewhere is telling me "you can't do that", "what happens if..." or "that'll make them feel...".....
I don't give a shit that this'll make someone else feel bad....'cos where were they for me when I felt bad? I don't care what happens...I mean, it's not like I have a girlfriend to lose.....FOR FUCK'S SAKE, STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO!!!!!!
It's ok for some of us...Some of us are perfectly (and I use that term loosely) well-adjusted to whatever changes that may show up. Some of us are moving on and having fun. Some of us no longer seem to give a shit about people that they're supposed to care for.
Well, some of us, because of you I can't spend time with the people I want or be in the places I want because it might hurt people or piss you off....Well, some of us, I can't do this any more. I'm sick of you telling me what to do. You can't treat me this way....You're not allowed to anymore.
This is fucking shitting me off something horrible...There are some people I want to spend time with (and who give a shit about me) but I can't because I'm gonna fuck things up.....Whatever.
I'm supposed to value certain friendships...And there's no doubt that one day I will, but right now, if certain people didn't make my life so fucking hard (and not worth living) I'd be more inclined to give a shit.
Seriously, you're driving me mental. Tell me what you want from me....And I'll be quite happy to tell you what I expect from you....Hopefully it won't end in a fight, but if that's what I have to deal with to get my point across, then that's what I'll do...I'll fight with you.
FUCK YOU.