fuck you all

hello sick sad world, my mother has released me, somewhat temporarily i think, from my incarceration.
bah....so fukkin bored.
i hate myself relentlessly and yet i expect people to like me....i can't fucking stand the way i look, i mean, come on! who the fuck likes me? who wants to be with someone like me?? the person i am infuriates me, but the thing i am eats my soul away.
so fucking tired of being wrapped in cotton wool...i wanna slice the wool away and take my former self with it. i can't stand me, but i don't know who else to be. i wanna go home, wherever that is, and hang myself to sleep. i need to rest my tourtured soul and my aching mind.
the world's going too fast and it's making me sick...i wanna fucking get off! turning green and grey then vomiting up my demons, emptying myself of the fetid beasts... the beasts and monsters that tell me i'm not good enough or no one likes me. the demons that fuel my self loading and self mutilation.
this shit's fucked. i'm so tired of being in this wretched place that wont leave me alone....the stupid things they say, but don't think i hear...i have a fucking name!!!! fucking use it!!
so fuck off you vultures, chew on someone else's entrails and pick at someone else's bones coz i want you to fucking go away and leave me be. let me rest in peace.