*sighs* LOVELORN BOI AHEAD!!! HUGS NEEDED!!!
So yeah.
The last time I posted was when my girlfriend of 1.7 years dumped me. I fell. Hard. but I'm back now...with a vengeance, lol. Not really. Yeah, I was uber cut about it, but a little less now. Being the oddly objective (or hatefilled, j/k) party now, I can see some really unattractive things that are/were going on and now I kinda know how to deal. If she wants to get back together at some point (not now) we'll see....but there has to be many a change first. Not just on her part, mind you....One word for you all, control.
BAH!!! *throws hands into the air* All I want is to be loved. I thought it was a really simple request, but I guess I was wrong :-( I hate being wong....I feel really alone. being alone makes me nervous and really unsure....Poo...I can't win this year *cries*.
I really miss having someone around though, lol, even if I didn't see them all the time or if we didn't go to the same school/soccer team (maybe that'd be an upside) I wouldn't mind. I'm just feeling unloved :( if anyone wants to love me, s'all good. Actually, what I'd like is a friend...Like-minded is always nice (female-bodied person seeking female for friend or more) lol...like I said...A friend. if anything more comes of it, then I'm all for that. Someone needs to tell me how to put a photo up here....I'm not that good looking, but in a "friend wanted" ad, there's usually a picture.
After these last couple of weeks, I've been wanting to regress into childhood a little. No responsibility, if you're sad you can cry, if you want to you can run around in circles or play with toys and no one looks at you funny....That's why for my birthday I'm taking a leaf out of
leatherboy 's book and throwing a kid based birthday party. My friends and I are gonna be 5 for a day....It'll be fun.
Oi! Here's a question for any subs or Dom/mes out there. When a sub and Dom/me meet, how does a sub greet the superior? bowed head, or what? I know, it's a bit out of nowhere, but that's curiosity for you. I wish I could be a kid all the time (yeah, I'm a little subbie myself)....A kid or a puppy :) lol...It's fun, give it a go sometime. Anyhow, I like to be looked after....Odd to some, comforting to me.
Well, that's an entry to rival a true l/j whore, lol...Dr. K I'm looking at you :)
Meh. Someone be nice to me please....I've had a horrid could of weeks...I'm a good listener, I'm open-minded and I like to think I'm funny :)