Writer's Block: Back to the future
If you were 12 and could see yourself now, do you think you'd be happy or disappointed, and why?
That's quite a question...
It's hard to answer, I mean, I barely remember being 12. I was a kid, then, immature, rather than child-like, I think. I think there was a lot I didn't know about how the world worked and I didn't understand - didn't even have a vague comprehension - that people could hurt you so badly; that people, exactly like you, could want to just tear you apart.
I wish I had known that then, I think. I would have gotten through adolescence much more easily, I think, though I'd have probably been more lonely. If that was possible.
I sometimes wonder what my younger self would think of my now self...I'm not sure. I hope that I'm not a disappointment, or that I've forgotten what it's like to be young, to be youthful. I hope that I've managed to lighten up (I was, in a lot of ways, a really serious kid) and joke around a lot more. I hope that I've managed to give younger me something to look forward to (in some way).
I guess, to answer the question, I don't know. I don't know what younger me would think simply because I'm not always happy with who and how I am now.
I just hope that younger me won't say "I can't believe you let me turn into you."