*yawns*

god. so motherfucking tired. damn, i swear a lot. anyhow, i really should have been spending more time updating my history book...if only i knew what to put in there. i guess this is the time where i'm sposed to get my ass into gear and work. or something. maybe not....i have no idea.

today, i decided that when i finish school, i'm going to go to uni and do a philosophy degree. wouldn't that be kool? i think it's just a B.A. but still...it's interesting. i'd have a fez, too, 'coz philosophers wear fezs...

this arvo was weird....i just felt like drinking 'til my legs fell off...huffing 'til i couldn't breathe...popping pills 'til i went to sleep and cutting 'til i couldn't bleed any more. oddly enough, i didn't do any of those things (i normally would choose one of the above). this time, i wrote in my girl's valentine's card. :)

unfortunately, v'day this year falls on a monday (skool!!!!) and my girl will be on an art excursion :(. so we're having our own valentine's day the weekend after. for v'day this year, i wanna do something different. i'm not buying her anything (and if i do....it'll be simple) because sometimes, it feels like bought love...not in a bad way, just that sometimes self made is more thougtful...in anycase, i seriously got stuff out. how i feel about her, etc...(can't give away too much here).

not sure what else i'll do. sing? write? pantomime? make a pop-up book? roses? kittens? yer, she'll be real happy getting a litter of kittens....think, Shane, think!!

dammit. brain fart. oo roo.