Stolen from the good Dr. K (ta :))
Ten things I wish I could say to people:
assume these are all to RL people
1 - I don't see why you can't get this right - this isn't actually about you. There's no need to be defensive. Be there for them, because you and I both know you weren't there for us. Thanks, by the way.
2 - You need to get off my back. I know I can't always make the right decisions, but if you don't let me try, how will I ever get any better at this? Sometimes I DO know what is right for me.
3 - Do something. Anything. Don't get stuck in a job that won't take you anywhere. Find your passion and stay with it - learn to fight for something other than your pride.
4 - I'm glad you're happy...You'll know who you are, by the way, lol, I'm bad at this...He wasn't right for you and I'm glad you're giving yourself the opportunity to find someone who is.
5 - I wish the thought of you didn't make me sick. But it does. I wish it didn't give me such glee to see that you got fat, but it really does. I wish it didn't, though.
6 - You have to just do it. Like Nike.
7 - You're a prick. Plain and simple. I have no idea how your family can bear you, I really don't.
8 - I wish I hadn't missed the boat, in some ways. I wish you'd made a move that night...Damn, eh?
9 - You're insane making, you know that? And I'm sure you do it on purpose - we all know that you love the attention, but you won't love telling pissed off people why you're such a dope.
10 - I hate you. I do. I know that you don't care about what you're doing, or the impact your actions have, but one of these days...I know that you believe in Karma and I hope everyday you're watching your back.
Nine things about myself:
1 - I'm finding it daunting, but I'm not quite the hardline atheist I used to be. Something is happening and I'm, in some small but fundamental way, afraid. And eager. And wondering where this was and why didn't I just take a leap earlier?
2 - I'm an extremely private person. More private than a lot of people know. I mean, so much so that I keep my groups of friends and family separate.
3 - I'm deathly afraid of this university thing. And pants-wettingly excited.
4 - I'm beginning to realise that I may have an addiction. But, funnily enough, I don't believe that it's a problem - it keeps me functional.
5 - I think about killing my coworkers or getting into fights with customers.
6 - I have an extremely rich fantasy life because my real life is lacking. How sad is that?
7 - I honestly believe that one day my journals and computer will get me into trouble. C'est la vie.
8 - It has recently occurred to me that I have a very long list of fears that includes filling in forms and anything to do with my teeth (like them getting broken, falling out or otherwise damaged).
9 - I have a lot of interesting skills, but none that are useful; Juggling, not cooking, (badly) riding a unicycle, not driving a car.
Eight ways to win my heart:
1 - Read. Read a lot, read often, read everything. Don't be a book snob.
2 - Have a good sense of humour. If you can't make me laugh, it's not on.
3 - I need you to be trustworthy. I will be trustworthy if you will.
4 - Be a little weird. I like weird. Normal is what other people want you to be.
5 - Understand that I need my space sometimes and know that if I'm not OK, it's not (very likely) because of you.
6 - Please don't use text speak. Ever.
7 - Express yourself; if you're pissed, say so, for example.
8 - Be patient.
Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1 - "No, you can't buy more books...OK, one more...For real."
2 - "God, I'm lonely."
3 - "Shutupshutupshutupshutup."
4 - "You won't be here forever, just serve this customer."
5 - "I think I've forgotten to do something....If only I could remember what."
6 - "Hm...Shoes..."
7 - "Keys, wallet, watch, pen...Keys, wallet, watch, pen..."
Six things I do before I go to sleep:
1 - Move stuff off my bed and back to their rightful places.
2 - Change into PJs.
3 - Make bed (sort of).
4 - Get into bed.
5 - Watch some TV or DVD until drowsy.
6 - Try to have lights and TV off at 12 on week nights or I can't sleep properly....Not that I don't wake up a billion times during the night anyway.
Five places I want to visit:
1 - Israel.
2 - Czech Republic (a lot of Europe, actually)
3 - France
4 - UK
5 - USA
Four things I'm wearing right now:
1 - Soccer shorts
2 - Ramones T-shirt
3 - Usual jewellery
4 - Glasses
Three bands or artists I listen to often:
1 - Michael Jackson
2 - Nickelback (I'm sorry...)
3 - Dragon
Two things I want to do before I die:
1 - Care about something other than myself
2 - Matter to myself
One confession:
1 - I don't know what happiness really is. Sounds gloomy, I know. I'm grateful for a lot of things and there's nothing wrong with my life (it's going rather swimmingly, for the most part), but there seems to be a thing that stops the happy from happening...So, I've learned instead to be comfortable and content. It's less emotional than happiness, and a little more logical and sterile, but it works OK.