2 days.
This year, Christmas isn't here for me. I mean, it's nearly here, the calendar says so; but I'm not feeling the usual vibe. It's so weird. The air isn't crackling with that amazing excitement and wonder that it used to have. It never used to matter how tired I was when I was little. I always wanted to stay up...never sleep on Christmas eve. But then, as I got older, I guess it started wearing off. I don't mind falling asleep before midnight on Christmas eve anymore. I don't mind not waking up at 7 am Christmas morning to tear open all the presents Santa brought me. I just don't care anymore.
Oh my god. I've become the Grinch. I mean, it's not that I hate Christmas, it's just that I hate being around so many people. I hate having to be in a family where people pretend to like each other at Christmas - just to get it out of the way.
Maybe the meds are making my head all wonky or something, I guess all I can say is "Hurry up, Christmas cheer. I'm not Scrooge...I need to feel good this year."
Hey! I almost rhymed. Would you look at that.
I guess everything's kind of okish, I guess. Lol. Raven's annoyed at me right now, I think. Maybe because I'm online and she wants me to get off the computer and ring her. I hope she doesn't hate me. *whispers* I'm sorry, Babe
I went and spoke to my "doctor" (the kind that helps crazy people). Nothing really interesting going on there. I'm still "sick". They put me on Valium too. I'm a little scared of all this medication. What if it changes me? Like, more, I mean. What if something happens and I get addicted to it? I worry too much, I guess.
So tired right now. I'm probably gonna go offline in a minute. I'll just msg Raven to ring me. Everything's easier that way.
CUL8R
Love you, Raven babe, even when you're annoyed at me. :)
Oh my god. I've become the Grinch. I mean, it's not that I hate Christmas, it's just that I hate being around so many people. I hate having to be in a family where people pretend to like each other at Christmas - just to get it out of the way.
Maybe the meds are making my head all wonky or something, I guess all I can say is "Hurry up, Christmas cheer. I'm not Scrooge...I need to feel good this year."
Hey! I almost rhymed. Would you look at that.
I guess everything's kind of okish, I guess. Lol. Raven's annoyed at me right now, I think. Maybe because I'm online and she wants me to get off the computer and ring her. I hope she doesn't hate me. *whispers* I'm sorry, Babe
I went and spoke to my "doctor" (the kind that helps crazy people). Nothing really interesting going on there. I'm still "sick". They put me on Valium too. I'm a little scared of all this medication. What if it changes me? Like, more, I mean. What if something happens and I get addicted to it? I worry too much, I guess.
So tired right now. I'm probably gonna go offline in a minute. I'll just msg Raven to ring me. Everything's easier that way.
CUL8R
Love you, Raven babe, even when you're annoyed at me. :)