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Change....

I nearly cried when I heard that McCain had conceded...I'm not usually one for politics, but there you go. I was happy. Until I heard that there was a majority for Prop. 8. But that's the way it goes sometimes.

I'm happy that Barack Obama is the man who will be President. I'm unhappy that it took 40 years since Martin Luther King Jr. died for us to be able to get our shit together and go, "OK, why shouldn't this Obama dude have a chance". I'm still not sure why it matters so much that he's black...He's a man, just as Bush is a man...But there is this massive faith in Obama that there wasn't with Bush. I believe that the new President is the one who will change the world.

Anyways.

Went swimming today. OK, I can swim; got that down pat. Just not all that well, lol. Less like strong swimming, more like haphazardly dragging myself through the water - but it's getting there. I will do more and I will do better. I'm working my ass off for this thing! Also I walked to the pools....Through two suburbs (the long way, apparently), too. It was a fairly easy walk at a decent clip with no stopping (except for traffic), so that was quite encouraging too. Heh, and I bought goggles. I heart paraphernalia.

My mother's boyfriend is in the process of moving into our house. I can't tell you how pleased I am. A new person in my house, in my space with my family. To be truthful, I'm finding it really hard and I didn't think I would. I don't want him in my space and there's nothing I can do...Anytime I've tried to raise the issue with my mother she's taken it as me not wanting her to be happy....So I'm just trying to defend my little piece of turf and keep my shit to myself. Nothing else I can do.

I can see me moving out soon, though. Not something I necessarily had in mind yet, but this isn't my home any more. Hopefully I'll get into the Gay Year *prays* and that'll provide me with an out for a while...And some money to get my shit together.

Peace.