Regarding the stock with quiet contemplation, "maybe if I move those architrave switches to here, I can make the hell stop".

So, ladles and jellyspoons, not much is going on. Thought I'd pop my head in and say howdy-ho.

Wow, that was gross. Just so you know, I don't actually speak like that. Ever.

Been dealing with a lot of thoughts lately, just a lot of shit going on in my head - all harmless, relax - just about where I'm at and where I need to be going and all of that....And it occurred to me...I want to go to university and I want to become a shrink. And I'd be bloody good at it, too.

It's been eating at me, actually, and it's weird. I've been anxious and stuff about it all too. I'm not entirely sure why, I mean, that's what I want to do...I think it's just that I've made these other decisions that aren't leading me in the direction that I need to go.

I'd love to go to uni. But I need the money. And a lot of money to boot. And there's a way I can get a lot of money ($20,00+) in a year (and it's legal!!), but I need some more information, so when the sailor gets back from what she's doing this weekend, I'm going to have to have a chat with her to find out some of the details. It's the ADF (Australian Defence Force gap year) i.e. 12 months in a chosen force to get a taste of the life....Essentially it's a recruitment ploy, and who knows? I'd look great in uniform ;-) But it's a way in.

The sailor also brought up an interesting point, and to be honest, one I'd never entertained before....Military Psychology. I mean, how do you talk to someone who's just killed someone in the line of duty? What do you tell them? It's an unfortunate part of their job - yes, people do die - but how can they reconcile that within themselves when, although in military life it happens, in civilian society it might be considered to be "murder" and also a "crime" and a "sin". I wonder if ADFA takes transfers/mature aged students.....

Anyways, there's a lot going on. But I'm feeling a bit better about it.

I've decided that I need to step back and keep other people out of my ears for a minute while I figure out what it is I'm actually interested in doing....I mean, I've got options up the wazoo, just...What do I pick???

Bah, anyway. I've decided that I might be interested in going for my Ls again....It's brilliant what a bit of interested and a lot less force can do, lol.

Ciao xox

P.S. I think I need a hobby...