omfg...
lovan...fluoxetine hydrochloride...aka Prozac.
i haven't been able to sleep (at all) for ages...like 5 days or so. laid there staring at the freaking ceiling for aaaaages...so boring. then i finally drift off and my alarm goes off *shoots the alarm clock*. my body is so fucking tired, it's not funny...eyes and head are always heavy, can't think straight (not that i could before), can't focus...on ANYTHING!! i think if i sit still for too long, i'll either fall asleep or i'll burst into tears....goddammit. so taxing, seriously.
i bought one of those new tamagotchis yesterday. her name is joe...i'm aware that it's a "boy's" name...joe doesn't care.
i'm bored. why the hell am i so fucking bored all the time? god, i'm going mad. i shouldn't still be awake. is my heart still beating? *checks* apparently the heart's still switched on...but i'll bet it doesn't have long to go now!!! needs re-charging, that's for sure.
nearly school holidays...6 whole weeks off school. 6!! count them....1 2 3 4 5 6!!! i love the holidays. you get so in the groove of being a lazy ass and then when you finally have to get back to school you have to train yourself to read and write again...the same process, year after year. i dunno. i just love pouring yourself out of bed at around 1-2:oo pm (only 'coz you didn't get to bed 'til 2-3:oo am that morning), throwing on the clothes you've been wearing for that entire week (if you're a boxers man, like me, then boxers are GENERALLY included in that melee too), and then either bludging around near the beginning of the 6 weeks, or (if u get bored easily) then going for a run.
i dunno why, but i always end up getting really fit in the christmas holidays, then when i get back to school and it all turns to shit again. i'd really like to get back into shape though....it's be nice. i like to stay looking good (ish) for both my girl and myself. i hope raven still finds me attractive...*ponders* i wonder if she does...i dunno. i'm not so into my body anymore (pffft as if i ever was), so i wanna tone up more. get the back how it was...tummt trim, taut and terrific...go for runs/walks/near dead crawls to get the muscle tone in my legs back....oh, i will be perfect....
i can dream, can't i?
xox raven. c u tomorrow.
i haven't been able to sleep (at all) for ages...like 5 days or so. laid there staring at the freaking ceiling for aaaaages...so boring. then i finally drift off and my alarm goes off *shoots the alarm clock*. my body is so fucking tired, it's not funny...eyes and head are always heavy, can't think straight (not that i could before), can't focus...on ANYTHING!! i think if i sit still for too long, i'll either fall asleep or i'll burst into tears....goddammit. so taxing, seriously.
i bought one of those new tamagotchis yesterday. her name is joe...i'm aware that it's a "boy's" name...joe doesn't care.
i'm bored. why the hell am i so fucking bored all the time? god, i'm going mad. i shouldn't still be awake. is my heart still beating? *checks* apparently the heart's still switched on...but i'll bet it doesn't have long to go now!!! needs re-charging, that's for sure.
nearly school holidays...6 whole weeks off school. 6!! count them....1 2 3 4 5 6!!! i love the holidays. you get so in the groove of being a lazy ass and then when you finally have to get back to school you have to train yourself to read and write again...the same process, year after year. i dunno. i just love pouring yourself out of bed at around 1-2:oo pm (only 'coz you didn't get to bed 'til 2-3:oo am that morning), throwing on the clothes you've been wearing for that entire week (if you're a boxers man, like me, then boxers are GENERALLY included in that melee too), and then either bludging around near the beginning of the 6 weeks, or (if u get bored easily) then going for a run.
i dunno why, but i always end up getting really fit in the christmas holidays, then when i get back to school and it all turns to shit again. i'd really like to get back into shape though....it's be nice. i like to stay looking good (ish) for both my girl and myself. i hope raven still finds me attractive...*ponders* i wonder if she does...i dunno. i'm not so into my body anymore (pffft as if i ever was), so i wanna tone up more. get the back how it was...tummt trim, taut and terrific...go for runs/walks/near dead crawls to get the muscle tone in my legs back....oh, i will be perfect....
i can dream, can't i?
xox raven. c u tomorrow.