Yep.
So....I'm back at work. Back to the once a week pain. Hurrah. Back to being paid $120 per week.
I need to find a job....Correction, I need to seriously start looking for a job. I think I'm a little afraid of it - joining the "real world" - to tell you the truth. I don't know. I think it's times like these where my Peter Pan syndrome kicks right in witha vengeance. Don't want to grow up and you can't make me. *sobs*.
Went to Era's the other day. We had a blast, as per usual. We talked a lot, listened to music and, of course, chased the green dragon (heh). I'd rolled up five fat joints for us, but we only smoked three, so I took the liberty of smoking one when I got home (which was a mistake, because I was all smoked out) and I smoked the last one last night. I am now - finally - officially dry.
I've smoked almost every night for over a month. December was nought but a green haze for me. Not terribly healthy for me...Struggling with forming whole sentences and maintaining conversation. Sleeping is strange and will be stranger without the weed. I'm not 100% sure on what triggered my pot smoking spell, but whatever it was, I need to deal with it appropriately. Somehow, I think it might have had to do with my "need to be mellow for a while".
I know it's not like I've spent the last thousand years smoking every day, but for me, smoking daily for an extended period of time is a pretty foreign concept. It's started to spark something off inside of me....Aside from the already rampant boredness and laziness. So, time to give it a rest.....
Well, I'm officially giving it all a rest - pot and cigarettes - for Lent. Yep, Lent again. It'll give me time to get in better shape for the impending soccer season and being off pot for a month (at least) will let me get my head clear and sorted. I'll be looking forward to that first joint after Lent, lol.
Lately, aside from the pot, I've been feeling...........Despondent? Chronically bored. Having trouble finding pleasure in many things. I've had poor concentration and trouble sleeping/eating....Doesn't sound good, does it? No. But I'm the master of my own head (ha, nearly said "master of my domain") and I can't really let it get me down. I have to find things to focus on (urm, jobhunting?!) and occupy my time....However, the fact that a small but powerful and very sick part of me is enjoying this disthymic malaise is almost irritating me. Almost.
Blah. Bye.
I need to find a job....Correction, I need to seriously start looking for a job. I think I'm a little afraid of it - joining the "real world" - to tell you the truth. I don't know. I think it's times like these where my Peter Pan syndrome kicks right in witha vengeance. Don't want to grow up and you can't make me. *sobs*.
Went to Era's the other day. We had a blast, as per usual. We talked a lot, listened to music and, of course, chased the green dragon (heh). I'd rolled up five fat joints for us, but we only smoked three, so I took the liberty of smoking one when I got home (which was a mistake, because I was all smoked out) and I smoked the last one last night. I am now - finally - officially dry.
I've smoked almost every night for over a month. December was nought but a green haze for me. Not terribly healthy for me...Struggling with forming whole sentences and maintaining conversation. Sleeping is strange and will be stranger without the weed. I'm not 100% sure on what triggered my pot smoking spell, but whatever it was, I need to deal with it appropriately. Somehow, I think it might have had to do with my "need to be mellow for a while".
I know it's not like I've spent the last thousand years smoking every day, but for me, smoking daily for an extended period of time is a pretty foreign concept. It's started to spark something off inside of me....Aside from the already rampant boredness and laziness. So, time to give it a rest.....
Well, I'm officially giving it all a rest - pot and cigarettes - for Lent. Yep, Lent again. It'll give me time to get in better shape for the impending soccer season and being off pot for a month (at least) will let me get my head clear and sorted. I'll be looking forward to that first joint after Lent, lol.
Lately, aside from the pot, I've been feeling...........Despondent? Chronically bored. Having trouble finding pleasure in many things. I've had poor concentration and trouble sleeping/eating....Doesn't sound good, does it? No. But I'm the master of my own head (ha, nearly said "master of my domain") and I can't really let it get me down. I have to find things to focus on (urm, jobhunting?!) and occupy my time....However, the fact that a small but powerful and very sick part of me is enjoying this disthymic malaise is almost irritating me. Almost.
Blah. Bye.