I want...(Last one for today, I promise)

I want a cigarette (or a J) right now more than I ever have before. Come on, Tuesday!!
I want to change this space...My room.
I want to not feel this uncertainty right now.
I want to write.
I want to run until I can't anymore...Although right now, that'll be three steps away.
I want to be under the stars.
I want to be away, somewhere quiet, with some art/lit people and just create...Era???
I want to see her and let it be how it was. Hmm.
I want to not eat when I'm bored.
I want to not be bored right now!!
I want to be artistic...I can't paint/draw for shit.
I want to be <22.2....But that'll pass.

Hmm...I think I'll do something with my room soon. It's not me anymore...I mean, we've been here for the last five years or whatever, and very little has changed...Same posters. Same crap. My books from high school are still on my desk...I haven't been in high school for two years!!

Now, I'm going to bed and convince myself to sleep.