Meh. If at any point in my life I could be called an emo, this would be it. July 9th, 2007, I am an
Not doing so well today. Just having a moment. Tired of being alone. Tired of being cold!! Tired of this grey rainyness.
I hate that in order for the rich to stay rich, they devour the poor.
I hate how the leader of the free world is a pretzel choking, war mongering, cocaine snorting moron. I'm scared.
I can't stand how the grammar of today's youth is terrible. Even when they're writing on paper.
I want something more. But I don't know what.
I want "the one". I want to not be lonely anymore.
I wish for something better, a new life maybe?
I hate that I can't seem to get this damn life off of the ground...I'm like a stuck kite, seriously.
I hate how we're "living" this planet into the ground.
I hate the way people take and take and take and refuse flat out to give anything back...
I hate that I hate myself...Sometimes.
I hate that people say that they don't judge others, but they really are. And both you and them know it.
I wish that people didn't pretend that they know me.
I wish I was twenty years in the future...Will my life be different then??
I want one...good...day. Just one.
I hate when people claim to be wildly open-minded, but the mere thoughts of true humanity put them off.
I want these feelings to piss off, even though I know they're not permenant.
I want a pizza. Here. Right now.
I hate that I find myself censoring myself more and more often....Especially on LJ.
I hate that people can't stand to hear the truth. I hate that that's me.
I need someone to be patient with me. To nurture me. To teach me how to be a better person.
I need a fucking hug. Now is good, later is too late.
I can not stand how McDonald's and KFC always forget my sauce. If I didn't want it, I wouldn't have asked for it.
I despise the fact that everytime I have a bad, dark day, someone somewhere puts me on suicide watch.
I don't like the way that people aren't shocked by anything any more. It's weird.
I sometimes wish I was that weird kid that no one knew what to make of again. Life didn't suck then
But, I do love that I can say all of this and there's nothing anyone can do about it.
You know, life isn't all bad. Of course I'm aware of that. Life, mine in particular, has heaps and heaps of golden, happy making moments. I love that I laugh almost constantly with people I care about. I love that there is some mystery left in the world...But there could stand to be more. I love that each and every one of us has a chance to make it big, change the world or live in any way we choose. I guess it bugs me that I'm sitting here, unmotivated. But I loooooove the way that feeling passes.
Everyone needs to vent sometimes, right??
I hate that in order for the rich to stay rich, they devour the poor.
I hate how the leader of the free world is a pretzel choking, war mongering, cocaine snorting moron. I'm scared.
I can't stand how the grammar of today's youth is terrible. Even when they're writing on paper.
I want something more. But I don't know what.
I want "the one". I want to not be lonely anymore.
I wish for something better, a new life maybe?
I hate that I can't seem to get this damn life off of the ground...I'm like a stuck kite, seriously.
I hate how we're "living" this planet into the ground.
I hate the way people take and take and take and refuse flat out to give anything back...
I hate that I hate myself...Sometimes.
I hate that people say that they don't judge others, but they really are. And both you and them know it.
I wish that people didn't pretend that they know me.
I wish I was twenty years in the future...Will my life be different then??
I want one...good...day. Just one.
I hate when people claim to be wildly open-minded, but the mere thoughts of true humanity put them off.
I want these feelings to piss off, even though I know they're not permenant.
I want a pizza. Here. Right now.
I hate that I find myself censoring myself more and more often....Especially on LJ.
I hate that people can't stand to hear the truth. I hate that that's me.
I need someone to be patient with me. To nurture me. To teach me how to be a better person.
I need a fucking hug. Now is good, later is too late.
I can not stand how McDonald's and KFC always forget my sauce. If I didn't want it, I wouldn't have asked for it.
I despise the fact that everytime I have a bad, dark day, someone somewhere puts me on suicide watch.
I don't like the way that people aren't shocked by anything any more. It's weird.
I sometimes wish I was that weird kid that no one knew what to make of again. Life didn't suck then
But, I do love that I can say all of this and there's nothing anyone can do about it.
You know, life isn't all bad. Of course I'm aware of that. Life, mine in particular, has heaps and heaps of golden, happy making moments. I love that I laugh almost constantly with people I care about. I love that there is some mystery left in the world...But there could stand to be more. I love that each and every one of us has a chance to make it big, change the world or live in any way we choose. I guess it bugs me that I'm sitting here, unmotivated. But I loooooove the way that feeling passes.
Everyone needs to vent sometimes, right??