feanix 😡annoyed

Oh yes indeed.

On a jag of semi-spontenaiety (sp?), I'm getting another tattoo. On thursday (2pm). What a way to fill a void (is that what I'm doing?). Inflict some friendly pain on myself and come away new...Again.

So, it shall be done. A crown. Just beneath my shirt collar :-)

Only downside? Impending poverty. But spiritual wealth, lol.

Also, I hate my hair. Again. Something shall be done soon. Maybe. Although I have no idea what, lol. God, I'm good. What I'd really like to do is buzz it all off again...Not in a spate of self-loathing, I'm not at that place anymore, but to get rid of the black and really start again...Now all I have to do is con my mother into doing it for me, lol....

I feel a little pressured right now. PIP to do. Tired of being away from TAFE and my whole routine. Sick of being away from people who make me laugh. I realised that I hadn't laughed properly since Big Dave's. I hate that. Also, because I'm feeling a little under the weather, I'm not entirely into eating...And I am absolutely dying for not craving a cigarette right now. And it's giving me the shits!

I'm annoyed at myself for allowing myself to get into this state. Fucktard.

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