Fuck me...
I am insane. I must be. Completely.
Can't concentrate...I'm blaming the alcohol. It's still filling my stomach with vomity butterflies...Gross, yeah?
I really need to write....But again, concentration is low. Staying on the one topic is a tough one. Yep, I have those butterflies dancing through my stomach and digestive tract. Not pretty.
Gawd.
Hey, you know what? Onto a topic change...Or actually, a topic. Someone asked me if I've ever been in love....Which for many people isn't a hard question to answer. But I seriously had to think about it...."Love" as in person-to-person love? I don't know...Maybe. Actually, maybe yeah.
I fall in love all the time...A new person (or an old person), a new book or movie, a new idea. A feeling. A piece of music or art....Just something that I need in my life. Something I fear I'll die without for that moment. I have a problem with planning for the long term, so I go with what feels right now.
And you could ask whether or not the feeling I'd have for a brilliant piece of music (have you ever heard the Tarantella? Have you ever heard Flight of the Bumblebee perfectly played??) is the same feeling I'd have for an amazing woman....And yeah. They both make my heart skip a beat. The air goes out of my lungs and those butterflies (not their vomity cousins) dance and flutter through my stomach. My head doesn't think and my eyes refuse to focus. I can think of only that one thing...I become it. My skin comes up in goosebumps and a part of me wants to cry...
Yes, I am in love everyday. Every new moment I fall in love again.
I love my life sometimes. I really do.
Can't concentrate...I'm blaming the alcohol. It's still filling my stomach with vomity butterflies...Gross, yeah?
I really need to write....But again, concentration is low. Staying on the one topic is a tough one. Yep, I have those butterflies dancing through my stomach and digestive tract. Not pretty.
Gawd.
Hey, you know what? Onto a topic change...Or actually, a topic. Someone asked me if I've ever been in love....Which for many people isn't a hard question to answer. But I seriously had to think about it...."Love" as in person-to-person love? I don't know...Maybe. Actually, maybe yeah.
I fall in love all the time...A new person (or an old person), a new book or movie, a new idea. A feeling. A piece of music or art....Just something that I need in my life. Something I fear I'll die without for that moment. I have a problem with planning for the long term, so I go with what feels right now.
And you could ask whether or not the feeling I'd have for a brilliant piece of music (have you ever heard the Tarantella? Have you ever heard Flight of the Bumblebee perfectly played??) is the same feeling I'd have for an amazing woman....And yeah. They both make my heart skip a beat. The air goes out of my lungs and those butterflies (not their vomity cousins) dance and flutter through my stomach. My head doesn't think and my eyes refuse to focus. I can think of only that one thing...I become it. My skin comes up in goosebumps and a part of me wants to cry...
Yes, I am in love everyday. Every new moment I fall in love again.
I love my life sometimes. I really do.