So...
So, Saturday night. What a motherfucking fiasco that was....If one of the attendees didn't have an ulterior (sp?) motive, it would have been a good night. I was there only for a few drinks, dancing and fun.
So yeah. Back at TAFE.
It's not been anywhere near as awkward as I thought it would be...Yesterday was strange, but it all sorted itself out.
Geez *smiles*. I know what she says she wants....But if only her actions could follow the same pattern, lol. I've decided to play this thing by ear and gauge my actions by hers. I never realised that I could miss someone as much as I miss her.....And that hurts. And it brings forth some emotions that I know I shouldn't feel. But, I've a feeling that with time, with patience, things will be OK....Even if us being together isn't an option. I thought I'd be confused by this whole ordeal, and I was, but I'm not now. Again, the ball is in her court. I just have to keep a damn good grip on myself, lol. Saying goodbye to her hurts...But she leaves me with kisses - still - everytime. I wish I could just walk away, but I can't...And I know that she can't either.
So yeah. ANZAC day tomorrow. I hope it doesn't rain on our poor homebound soldiers in Canberra tomorrow. For those of us who aren't in the forces, it means a public holiday :-) Selfish, no? and a public holiday means that this boi gets to sleep in :-P...
Ooh, or maybe I'm going with my mum to the airport....My aunt and her partner are coming home from their millionth 'round the world trip. My great aunt got back from the U.S. last week...I got two tins of Altoids (the curiously strong mints). Damn everyone going everywhere *pouts*.
xox
P.S. Soccer yesterday went well. We played the whole 90 minutes in the rain and we beat our opposition 5-3. So far so good.
So yeah. Back at TAFE.
It's not been anywhere near as awkward as I thought it would be...Yesterday was strange, but it all sorted itself out.
Geez *smiles*. I know what she says she wants....But if only her actions could follow the same pattern, lol. I've decided to play this thing by ear and gauge my actions by hers. I never realised that I could miss someone as much as I miss her.....And that hurts. And it brings forth some emotions that I know I shouldn't feel. But, I've a feeling that with time, with patience, things will be OK....Even if us being together isn't an option. I thought I'd be confused by this whole ordeal, and I was, but I'm not now. Again, the ball is in her court. I just have to keep a damn good grip on myself, lol. Saying goodbye to her hurts...But she leaves me with kisses - still - everytime. I wish I could just walk away, but I can't...And I know that she can't either.
So yeah. ANZAC day tomorrow. I hope it doesn't rain on our poor homebound soldiers in Canberra tomorrow. For those of us who aren't in the forces, it means a public holiday :-) Selfish, no? and a public holiday means that this boi gets to sleep in :-P...
Ooh, or maybe I'm going with my mum to the airport....My aunt and her partner are coming home from their millionth 'round the world trip. My great aunt got back from the U.S. last week...I got two tins of Altoids (the curiously strong mints). Damn everyone going everywhere *pouts*.
xox
P.S. Soccer yesterday went well. We played the whole 90 minutes in the rain and we beat our opposition 5-3. So far so good.